loser bitch

21 idk i shitpost here

[efrat88]

I'm neurodivergent, I'm obsessive--to be clear I meant you, Gveret, not just staring at a picture for hours lol

fucking hell😳😳😳

[efrat88]

Very beautiful, :3 very much something to look at for hours :) lol. Liking your frames. Liking your look.

thx ❤️

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

And if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

[efrat88]

tryna be cute idk…

[dieforart]

[efrat88]

i have a theory that sometimes the reason behind the gender dysphoria in cis women/people who were born as women is way deeper than just inner misogyny, gender envy or plain insecurity and inferiority complex.

in my early teens i used to address myself as a he/him and used a male name, and when i was a child i used to put oblong objects in my underwear to imitate ‘pencil’.

i recently started thinking about it a lot, and i realised why i might’ve had these thoughts. i grew up in a rather conservative society where people believe in gender roles and so on. and i, as a girl, have never been a “traditionally feminine person” both in terms of looks and behaviour. i’ve always been taller and bigger than the average girl my age, i was obsessed with stuff that’s traditionally a male thing, my voice is loud and so on, and recently i realised that I did the things described in the second paragraph not because I sincerely wanted to be a man, but because I felt unworthy of being called a woman, because i didn’t fit into the mold of “socially accepted female”.

[efrat88]

i feel very sad and pathetic when i’m out with my parents and see people my age hanging out with groups of friends or with partners or whatever

[xoxycodonex]

[efrat88]

today is this kind of vibe

[efrat88]

i wish i could be loved without needing to change or to pretend to be something i’m not and without other ppl wanting to ‘fix’ me or mold me.

i want to be accepted for who i am with all my quirks and flaws, but sometimes i feel like it’s just unavailable for me bcz i’m neurodivergent, not privileged and not remarkably pleasant to be around…

[knucklexvelvet]

I love being a loser girl like yesss!!! omg go stay in your bedroom all day and listen to music, watch movies, read fan fiction, ughh this is the life!!

[efrat88]

sometimes i wish i could reborn as a totally different person

[moonlit-pond]

[xoxycodonex]

some of y'all are so obsessed w hating everything that you have no personality outside of it. You're not serving "diva" and "confident queen". You're mean and nobody likes you

[efrat88]

mi ^^

[daydreamz333]

[justanotherdeadpoet43]