‘ It’s not ｌｉｔｔｌｅ grey – It's ℓєχιє

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[weirdlypersonalrpmemes]

sentence starters:  maybe interactive quotes because i’m obsessed, part 16. 

❝ so this is where you were. i’ve been looking all over for you. ❞

❝ i’m here to… ask for forgiveness. ❞

❝ is there something wrong? do you have a fever? ❞

❝ wasn’t sure what you’d want so i ordered a bit of everything. ❞

❝ come eat your feelings with me. ❞

❝ don’t cry. everything will be okay. ❞

❝ shh… it’ll be all right. i’ll protect you. ❞

❝ i’m not going to hurt you. not now, not ever. ❞

❝ don’t be ridiculous!! i’m not going anywhere! i’m staying here… right by your side. ❞

❝ i never want to abandon you again. ❞

❝ block them out. completely. listen to my voice only. ❞

❝ just look at me, just listen to my voice, just stay by my side. ❞

❝ nothing will be solved by beating yourself up like this. ❞

❝ you’ll hurt yourself with that reckless attitude. trust me, i’ve been there. ❞

❝ i haven’t overcome the past in the slightest. ❞

❝ we may not be related by blood, but he’s/she’s/they’re still my child… the first child i ever loved, in fact. and you have no idea how much i grew as a person thanks to that love. ❞

❝ i’ll do my best, [name]… to save everyone that you love. that’s how i’ll repent for my sins. ❞

❝ but that’s why love is so great. because no matter how flawed a person is… they’re made perfect in the eyes of the beholder. ❞

❝ no matter how strong the wind or hot the sun… you’ll never break down or wither because you have the strength to weather the storm. ❞

❝ you’re not your past and you’re not a sideshow for their amusement. ❞

❝ when is the last time you ever did something just because it feels good? ❞

❝ i know how difficult this is for you, but… i’m sure there’s something we can do to help. ❞

❝ i would’ve ended up in a psychiatric ward if i put all the blame on myself. ❞

❝ we’ll stick it to both our horrible manipulative exes. ❞

❝ you can always lean on me if you’re having a hard time. ❞

❝ [name], i would never, ever do something like that to you. ❞

❝ to be honest… i’m scared. ❞

❝ i’m sorry for questioning you… i just needed to hear you say it. i needed to see that you meant it. ❞

❝ i’ve always liked things to be clear-cut, and i wish our relationship could be that way too. ❞

❝ too many emotions at once can’t be that good for you. ❞

[weirdlypersonalrpmemes]

sentence starters:  maybe interactive quotes because i’m obsessed, part 17. tw: violence.  

❝ …it’s a natural reaction… ❞

❝ how do i look? ❞ 

❝ i know all about girls/guys/people like you. ❞

❝ do what feels right and don’t question it. ❞

❝ have some tea and relax a bit! ❞

❝ i must admit, this sweetness is a surprise. ❞

❝ …did you just hit me? ❞ 

❝ i’m far from done. ❞

❝ oww. every part of my body hurts. ❞

❝ no, i can’t just give up! ❞

❝ i see you have strong feelings about this. ❞

❝ i didn’t expect to see you here! ❞

❝ a little whining never hurt anyone…! ❞

❝ don’t show me your weak side. ❞

❝ wait just a little bit longer. ❞ 

❝ so you’re the clingy type, huh? ❞

❝ …what do i do about cake and presents? ❞

❝ god, you’re so damn kind. ❞

❝ can i be honest just one more time? ❞

❝ i should become your husband/wife/spouse. ❞

❝ hey… are you out of your mind? ❞

❝ you’ve… changed so much, [name]. ❞

❝ that fucking asshole! ❞

❝ do you have a death wish? ❞

❝ shut. your. mouth. ❞

❝ …don’t keep me waiting for too long. ❞

❝ i’m stronger than you think! ❞

❝ confidence, [name]. ❞

❝ tell me what you know about love. ❞

❝ you taught me to be this way. ❞

[twistedshadesofgrey]

               You can’t wait for someone to fly underneath you and save your life.                                          I think you have to SAVE YOURSELF.

[bestofgreys]

[kingofpainkarev-deactivated2024]

’  He used to be one of the worst people I know ––                                                –– Now he’s one of the BEST  ’

’ She’s  the ONLY one ––                      –– I can count on ’

[twistedshadesofgrey]

        the groggy blonde grey doesn’t move a muscle.  she watches as lexie perfoms in full throttle,  like she’d been awake for hours.  HAD SHE?  or maybe something dire was going on,  something that would wake her up and snap her into shape quickly and meredith was missing whatever it was.  then lexie told her,  making meredith’s eyes get bigger.

        THATCHER.

        rather than say all of the things she was thinking,  meredith knew to keep them to herself.  no scolding,  no begging her not to,  no he doesn’t deserve it lecture even though he doesn’t,  no you’re not saving his liver you’re saving the one i gave him,  NOTHING. 

        one hand reached over and pulled a coat from lexie’s arms as she struggled to hang them back up.  she began putting it on over her pyjamas and while she pulled her hair out from underneath the coat, lexie’s face told her she did not register what was going on.  meredith spoke four words.  ‘  i’m coming with you.  ’        

[eideticlexie]

                    already nervous and fumbling her eyes widen when Meredith insists on coming with her. It also causes panic that she’s trying and most likely failing at hiding brewing through like a storm acroass her nervous system.

        it’s the last thing she expects Meredith to say and probaby the worst thing considering all the gaps in the story she hasn’t wanted to fill in for her older half sister. She already knows how fragile the relationship is between the two of them and having Meredith there seeing him in all of his RAGE & sluring glory isn’t something she wants for either of them. That interaction will no doubt do more harm than good, she knows this first hand.

        “Mer you should stay here. I can handle this I’ve been doing it for years. It isn’t pretty and you have the babies asleep here besides.”  Really any old excuse will be tossed out in desperation. There is no doubt in her mind her father is going to get some kind of handsy, physically violent somehow. she know just by the tone in his voice he’s at the bitter stage of the alcoholic slope and it only goes down from here.

[perfectfeelings]

[mcpositivity]

eideticlexie

SEND ME ♥ + URL AND I’LL SAY 5 NICE THINGS.

@eideticlexie  1)  such an awesome portrayal of lexie!  everything that she writes really,  really captures lexie’s voice well.  2)  her writing in general is really,  really good  ––  easy to read and straightforward,  but says everything that needs to be said.  3)  her ships!  the ship with owenxhunt is so different and unique and unexpected,  yet they make it work really well.  4)  mun is so sweet!  i haven’t gotten talk to her as much as i’d like to,  but i want to change that.  5)  mun is also so so welcoming!  she’s so nice and encouraging to everyone in the fandom.

[eideticlexie]

Awe <3 Thank you Jill! & whoever sent this in! Such a compliment :) I am so touched!  xoxo

[kingofpainkarev-deactivated2024]

❛❛        let’s say you were drafted to a team that wasn’t your first pick. you know, you don’t like the players. you hate the way they play the game. you even think the quarterback is full of crap. the quarterback’s a pain in the ass you don’t owe a damned thing to. BUT, it’s your team. you don’t quit. you don’t talk to the press. you don’t bitch to the coach. you just, you just go out there every sunday & you make the blocks & you take the hits & you, you play to win. you show up & you suit up & you play because it’s your freaking team.  

ind. sel. alex karev. grey’s anatomy. written by andi.

Thank you my sweet adorable luvbug@twistedshadesofgrey ❤️ ily! xo

[brokenhcarts-deactivated2016112]

                                                           x | x | x

[deep-intimacy]

[eideticlexie]

Sorry @twistedshadesofgrey & @legendgrey you picked the wrong Mc because Lexie GOT this text  :)  - not to brag or anything but....

[subtleelevation-deactivated2018]

Chyler Leigh

[resclvte]

            laughter fell from her lips as the feeling of the wet washcloth dabbed against her face. a toothless mouth attempted to bite onto the cloth. but when her body was lifted from the chair, the clean face nuzzled into the crook her aunt’s neck. some called it spoiling, others overbearing, and some would go as far as tell her mother – and other members of her family – not to always pick her up, to let her cry it out. but when it came down too it, she was lucky none of them listened. because being in their arms, being close to their chest and being held close was the best feeling the baby girl could ever experience.               looking down as to where her hands were place, blue eyes moved back into those of her aunt’s hues. did the infant fully understand her words? did she have the ability to tell anyone what her aunt had told her? no. but what she did know is she was cozy. wrapped warmly in the blanket and held close to lexie’s chest. just how she loved to be. 

[eideticlexie]

waking up from a most needed nap to the sweet smell of baby powder from her nieces shampoo. Golden baby fine ringlets of hair she strokes and it’s velvet soft on her finger. She breaths in and sighs in relief, there is so little time to be like this. days are always full of surgery and rushing from place to place. OR to Recovery to Consult to Home and Back Again. Wash and Repeat. 

there is a blanket she grabs and lays across the floor. grabs the tiny toy box and spreads out all Ellis’s favorites & the two sit there and assemble castles made out of square blocks of colorful pastel colored wood. “What do you want to do now Pumpkin? wanna try these new foods?” propping Ellis on her hip to pad into the kitchen she grabs two jars of the new foods of the month Peaches and mangos, 

Mere decided that incorporating them slowly was the best way to identify any food allergies. Lexie marvels at all the little details it takes to be a good Mother always taking note in her mind for her own because before she knew it the day would arrive, no one ever seems to be prepared enough. Meredith doesn’t give herself half as much credit for the amazing Mother Lexie thinks her to be. 

Ellis in her little seat back on the floor with her aunt as they pop off the lid.  ( tenically she should be in her highchair and Derek would give her a glare of disapproval BUT Aunt Lexie get’s to spoil her just a little especially when no one is looking. ) 

a spoon of the peach mush goes up to tiny pink lips, “You like that one?” big eyes and she's full of animation for this little girl who fills her  h e a r t  with pure J O Y. 

[legendgrey-deactivated20171113]

eideticlexie:

“Both. It’s Mark.” The judgement was ever present in her voice, but really, if she did the same to Derek she didn’t think they’d last long apart. Never did. Any time she tried to boycott sex it lasted all of a day before they were back to burying their feelings with sex. Good sex. Great sex. Oh, how she missed sex with him. Even if the nightly bonding with her drunk sister was fun. 

Especially when Lexie decides to make margaritas. Fancy. She’s all too willing to drink straight from the bottle. Why dirty a glass and a blender? But she makes no effort to stop her, only tries to control the giggles falling from her as she stands. Attempts to stand, really. She’s not very skilled when filled with too much alcohol.

Only is there really such a thing as too much? 

Following her sister she does her best to find the limes. Did they even have limes? They had to have limes. There were shots being down somewhere, wasn’t there? Most of the time her house was like a frat house. Her eyes go wide at the mention of George. Oh god. She remembered that all too well and the look of pure horror that finds her is enough for her to grab the first bottle she sees and takes a sip. It’s going to hurt like a bitch in the morning but then, she doesn’t care. “Limes!” Victory, as she rolls them over to Lexie, only for them to roll right onto the ground. “Oops.” She shrugs. “I never slept with Mark. I’m all McDreamy, no McSteamy. He’s my dirty mistress partner in crime.” It sounds hilarious and causes her too laugh a little too hard. “But I don’t think anyone would cry having sex with him.” She pauses, “Lexie, have you cried sleeping with Mark?” 

she has the maragrita mix and it’s securly on the counter one thing down Meredith is looking for limes so she reaches for the glasses using the short girl method of opening the bottom cabinet and standing on the inside ledge to give herself to boast she needs to grab the glasses from the top shelf. Mark would totally laugh at her method but it works and she nothing if not efficent. 

she gets down giggling at herself for no other reason then complete and utter ridiculous intoxication almost falling over when she steps on the lime that rolls right under her feet. Really she should be issued a revoke in her license to walk at this point forget try to operate machinery with a rotating blade. She crawls under the table to retrieve the other run away fruit. 

her sisters voice sounds like it’s kind of in a tunnel till she’s half in half out of the crawling postion.

@legendgrey

 “Lexie, have you cried sleeping with Mark?” slams her head on the table and falls into a fit of a laughter / cry of pain. 

“Oh my God Ouch Ouch Stop don’t make me laugh it hurts more when i laugh!” 

[eideticlexie]

“ I think i concussed myself. That’s a weird word right? CON-CUS-ED.” she slurs as she rubs the bump on her head which is definitely going to hurt tomorrow although right now is kind of numb much like the rest of her face now that she’s taking note.

 “Would you marry him? Derek, I mean.” as if it needed clarification. 

“if he asked would you... would you?” 

[eideticlexie]

 Lexie follows the direction of her finger to the silver trailer across the lot and she nods “Yeah that would be good but..” she wrings her hands “do you mind walking me over? I don’t want to impose on a stranger.” she is so lost in her own thoughts it’s hard for her to focus on much of what is going on around her. The attendant seems a little uncomfortable so she tries to be extra friendly insecurity is something she can’t quite shake at least that’s the feeling she is putting to the strange sense she has. It just this odd vibe she got when speaking with this seemingly friendly women she couldn’t quite put her finger on. “The motel should be fine I learned in med school to sleep standing up so as long as there is a vertical surface I consider it a bonus.” 

standing and retrieving her purse she folds up the receipt for the repair work careful to put it in a place that she’ll remember it later. She’d never been someone who forgot things but she’d never gone through an unexpected pregnancy on the run like a grifter before either. According to her OB the pregnancy wouldn’t survive to term. Her amnio showed chromosomal abnormalities and even though she knew the risks she couldn’t not see this through. Not telling Mark well that was something she did to protect him. He had this new life now with Callie and this would only cause him pain. “Hey do you have a vending machine around here before we head over?” nausea was like an unwelcomed companion these days and she hadn’t eaten since noon.   

[gatekeepcr]

      ❝  med school ?   ❞  she muses with a cocked brow , a doctor , let alone one that looked like that , certainly had no business in charming. they didn’t have a hotshot hospital , or a prestigious program. there was no reason for her to be here. although something about her seemingly innocent expression tells gemma that she’d make good friends with tara.  she shakes it off , at least content that the woman would be able to pay the bills.

     gemma mirrors the woman ,  getting to her feet and  tugging her pants up by the belt loop and smoothing them over her thighs  ❝  yeah , you know what , there’s a machine right around the corner. you get yourself something and i’ll take a walk over and talk to wayne.  ❞  she meanders toward the door , throwing a gentle elbow into the girl , joking tones.  ❝   the chemo makes him grumpy sometimes. be back in a few minutes ? ❞

[eideticlexie]

She asks if she’s a doctor and there is this reflective gaze in her eyes that looks almost painful maybe melancholy. Lexie wonders if she reminds her of someone she lost. The feeling is so familiar reminiscent of the  grief that grips her when she thinks of the Mother she lost to a case of the hiccups. 

Hiccups for Christ sake. The thought cast out when she’s directed around the corner to the vending machine. 

“chemo?” she raises an eyebrow but then quickly decides it’s not her place to pry. “Oh ok... I’ll be right back.” 

She makes her way to the machine taking in her surroundings. Guys in the garage banter back and forth and she feels self-conscious trying to shrink to invisible at the sound of their voices, the language and tones remind her she is so far out of her element & it’s strangely unnerving for a reason she can’t quite put her finger on. 

the candy bar will have to do for now and snickers at least that has peanuts she debates with herself. Making her way back to the office with a full mouth of chocolate. “I’m ready when you are.” puts a hand to her full mouth and sort of giggles at her own lack of manners. 

“Sorry, I forgot to eat today.”  

[eideticlexie]

@dirtymistressesclvb

Thatcher shows up with a one month sober chip from AA. Lexie believes him. Meredith looks like she wants to toss him off the front porch. One week later Thatcher falls off that weak-wheeled wagon and calls Lexie in the middle of the night, asking her to come and pick him up from whatever bar he was getting kicked out of. 

She’s grabbing her coat and knocks over the entire coat rack and the plant stand next to it, in her haste and if everyone was sleeping one minute ago they definitely aren’t anymore. Footsteps creak down the staircase and she knows she’s going to have some explaining to do now. This subject the hardest to comes to grip with, her father was a man who did everything for her until he became a fall down drunk.

“Mere I’m sorry I didn’t mean to wake you up. I-I’ll clean this up, you go back to bed.”  

[twistedshadesofgrey]

It seemed that Meredith was the only one who had heard the ruckus. There was a big bang and it was a hard line between wanting to kill someone for waking her up and making sure that everything was okay.

Lexie. — She was family. Family was allowed to receive Meredith’s wrath, but all she had to offer was morning grog.

Ignoring the brunettes mess, Meredith noticed her jacket. That seemed to take precedent.

“Where are you going?”

[eideticlexie]

B U S T E D

Stomach clenching panic at the sight of her sister.

She’s still frantically picking up the coats that are at her feet in a heap.  It makes for a perfect distraction while she tries to come up with a good lie that she’ll tell badly. Most likely bad enough that she’s going to get called out by her ‘all knowing’ big sister anyway.

“I have to go get Dad.” eyes falter to the floor she was never good at lies. Lies make her uncomfortable. nervous hands dig into her purse groping for keys she isn’t finding fast enough. Tissues, lipstick... Come on- come on! 

[greysstillslays]

[eideticlexie]

@owenxhunt cuteness