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"di na traffic, usad na." he said. and i ask to myself, "how?"

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nat-traffic na naman ako.

i miss you.

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“Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your head already knows.”

— Unknown

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"di na traffic, usad na." he said. and i ask to myself, "how?"

makakaalis din tayo sa sitwasyong 'to few months from now. i'll claim it.🤞

For 4 years, he became a part of my world and even if we parted ways and found happiness to somebody else, ours will still be a part of my history. That will never change.

You know i'm happy that you found someone else. Be happy and take good care of her.

#Spotify

i miss you.

i miss you when i'm staring at the sky.

i miss you when i'm not doing something.

i miss you after a day of hardwork.

i miss you on roadtrips.

i miss you during sunset.

i miss you while i'm eating foods you like or foods i tried for the first time.

i miss you when i wander on places i haven't been to before wishing i am with you.

i miss you on days my heart is heavy.

i miss you on days i'm extremely happy.

i miss you when i saw things or places we have been to.

i miss you when i am doing and experiencing things alone yet we had done it together back then.

i miss you on days i am alone.

i miss you when i need a companion and a friend.

i miss you when i'm looking at the stars wishing you were still by my side on a quiet night.

i miss you on days i needed someone to talk to and slumber to.

i miss you on nights i needed a warm hug and a good night sleep.

but i guess, all of these things will just be on a tumblr post because you probably missed someone else too.

maybe the "you" in "i miss you" meant i did miss you in this lifetime because you were probably meant for somebody else.

#spilled thoughts #spilled writing #spilled words #love #skl #writing #Spotify

Maturity comes from letting go of everything that burdens you even if it'll take away most of your memory. Maybe letting go means accepting fully of what happened and may happen someday. It was a long and difficult journey of discovering what I truly deserve. That was a year of fighting for what's left of me. I had this phase na I overshared a lot kasi galit ako, kasi takot ako and it blinded me so I hid myself. Ironic, right? But cutting off toxic people helps a lot. Yung tipong wala naman silang ambag sa buhay mo pero kung makapag komento super invested nila? I stayed silent and learned to brush them off. These days I never had the courage to talk about this and I chose not to kasi we all deserve to find the happiness and self-contentment that was lost long before this traumatic event happened. For years, it brought me joy and the promising future I had dreamed of but not all things end well sabi nga nila. Ang mahalaga we all know our worth. The wake-up call? Kung mabigat na, let go na. Most of you would reason out and give me your "what ifs" but i'd just smile because been there, done that. 😊

#know your worth #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled writing #love

owww 5 years of being a sad ghorl amazinggg

#5 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone

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This is me now. Hurt. Scarred. I had become indifferent and I couldn't be my old self again. I lost myself as I tried to save us while we were on the sinking boat of mistrust, betrayal and giving up. We knew this would happen already, but we ran away from reality or maybe, I was the only one who did. While I was running away from this so called reality, you were running away from me. From this never-ending numbness in my heart, I couldn't even decipher what I really wanted for myself. I am lost and want to find the genuine happiness that was long buried in the deepest chambers of my heart. I just want to feel that I am still alive. I am breathing but barely surviving. Just floating in this vast ocean of regaining myself again...

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