Einstein's Laboratory

Do you hear that; the sound of something important disappearing forever? [This is a roleplay blog for Shuuya Watanabe from Kokuhaku (Confessions); a Japanese psychoogical thriller. My face claim is the talented Nishii Yukito. I do not own Yukito or Kokuhaku. Gifs are not mine unless stated.]

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Day 07 - 11th April 2013

Not much has happened since my last update. I have yet to receive news from my client, though the chances of such news seems slim. It appears that I may have to take action on my own. How troublesome.

Recently, the detention center has been making us go to school. What a wretched place. They call it an institute of knowledge but is that what it really is? On the surface, children seem to enjoy it, apart from the workload. Ask any 'average student' and they would say, "I love school because of my friends." But I know that's not true. I know better. Friends are just a pathetic excuse; a lie used by students to motivate themselves to continue going to such a place. Wasting time in such a disgusting hell-hole is useless, and so, I refuse to obey this center's pathetic rules. I will NOT go to this place. 

This society is filled with idiots, idiots who are blinded by their own self-made lies. Lies used to push them forward. But why waste time on such stupid fantasies? All of us know that we were put here to die. The society talks about positivity but what do they really pay attention to? For years, my efforts to be positive have gone to waste. Shadowed by murder and crime.. Why do people refuse to see the good and yet preach about having a positive outlook? What bullshit. It makes me sick.

This waiting is leaving me with disgusting thoughts. I must find a way to act before I am consumed in them. I cannot let my plans be ruined once more.

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I slapped him right in the face and that stopped him from being so arrogant. “Didn’t you want to meet me badly? SON? and right after you gave me that bomb, DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE THE RIGHTS TO TALK TO ME LIKE THAT? I AM YOUR MOTHER!” The boy has gone too far and he’s messing with the wrong person. I grabbed the boy by his collar and yanked him towards me. I lifted him up as he was still as light as a feather. The boy showed signs of struggling but I just stood there, staring at the defenseless boy. 

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"My mother..?" He began to laugh. His laugh was not one of humour, but a silent release of the grief that had been pent up inside for so long. "What right do you have to call yourself that?" The young boy was so weak with his own thoughts. At that very moment, he realized that everything he had been fighting and working for had come to an end and this was it. This was the end. "You abandoned me with a family whom never saw me as one of them. I spent day after day, trying to please everybody but failing. They didn't want me there. So I hid in the storage room like a monster." He grit his teeth. "Because of you.. Because of you I never had a real friend. I was too afraid to, in the fear that they would leave me just like you did. This is what you did to me!" He trembled ever so slightly, a single tear rolling down his pale cheek. "And.. after all that, you call yourself my mother?"

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Day 06 - 15th March 2013

When will my client let me out of this hell-hole? I have been waiting patiently for weeks on end ith no results whatsoever. I am on the edge; my limit. On the edge and yet these idiots choose to cross paths with me. 

Day after day, time after time, idiotic psychologists come and go, talking about help, trouble, change but all of that crap sounds like a blur to me. I didn't even bother to listen to their worthless words. After all, they are idiots.

Teachers, claiming that education should be available for juvenile deliquents, but I know better. Behind our backs, they call us names: monsters, worthless, hopeless. They call themselves teachers and yet they don't know how to teach. Class after wretched class, notes with messed up grammar, pointless assignments I am forced to go through and yet I am expected to appreciate their teachings? What bullshit.

Then, of course, there are my fellow 'friends' of which four have turned out dead in the past two days due to 'unknown circumstances'. Killing has become an addiction for me. What better way is there to get rid of these morons than to silence them permanently.

Even though I have done so much, these beyond idiotic morons are not aware of the little surprise I have for them. Little do they know of the farewell present I have prepared. My plan is almost at its completion. All there is left to do... is wait.

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“Long time no see” I synched those words with my lips and I saw that little boy’s ‘innocent’ eyes looking at me.

The little boy was stuttering. How cute. 

Suddenly I felt like something forced open and the bandage on my forehead was stained. Blood started trickling down from my forehead. I smiled gently but firm at him as the blood went into my mouth and teeth.

Horrified, he was shocked to see me alive. But the question is, does he want me to be alive? Did he want me dead from the start and that is why he’s pale as a piece of shit right now? 

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Shuuya began to laugh; his expression of shock rapidly turning into an expression of true madness. The glint in his eyes would send shivers down the spine of even the most calm of people. His laugh rang through the empty room, and the footsteps that could be heard frequently in the hallway quickened and faded away.

"So you did notice me all this while.." He turned around and gestured to the masterpiece he was working on. "You noticed all this. Everything I was doing." The young genius had truly lost his mind. It had reached a point where the boy himself forgot his true purpose. "If that.. if that's true.."

He closed his eyes. "I don't need to try anymore. Even if you die here... now, it wouldn't matter any more.." He pulled the mess of wires onto the floor, breaking everything. "Because.. all my efforts.. they haven't gone to waste! You.. You just refused to come and see me. But you knew.. You knew it all!" He pointed at her as he smashed the loose parts against the hard ground. 

"Aren't you proud of me, okaa-san? I grew up to be THE genius you wanted me to be." His pupils dilated. "And now you're looking at him. This is what I have become... All because of you!"

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I felt as if he was moving further away from me. Shuuya had my brains, part of my DNA and my talent. I just KNOW he will do great in his future. I don’t regret anything, how I scolded him or how I just break apart his toys and forced him to fix it. He was a genius. No. He was MY genius and that stupid ex-husband of mine thought I was torturing him. I did all of that just so Shuuya can be a genius just like me. Without me, Shuuya would just be and ORDINARY kid. Shuuya is special and so am I.

Shuuya, I’m sorry I left you, but this is for our own good. You’re better without me anyway.

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The young genius waited for the matron to speak the usual words, beckoning him to eat. He quirked an eyebrow when he didn't and he turned around. As he did, the pen that was in his hand fell to the floor. "Who are you?" He said, his voice quiet. He knew exactly who it was but he couldn't help but ask. She was supposed to be dead. 

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ooc: Alright lovely followers! My roleplay partner (ady-aga97) and I had a brief discussion and we're making our thread an AU thread where Shuuya's mum comes to visit him. It won't affect my main plot. It's just something for fun! Cheers!

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Unknown.

The lovely voice of hers while singing “Amazing Grace” was burning into my memory. And it will be in my memory forever as I will never be able to have more memories of her. 

It all started on a Sunday afternoon. I just arrived at the most beautiful beach on Earth. The scenery was marvelous and even a painter could not have painted as marvelous a piece as the original scenery.

I had my eyes fixed on the view for more than half an hour. It was too mesmerizing for one to take one’s eyes off it.

As I lay down onto the golden grains of sand, I looked up to the vibrant yet soothing streaks of color that had filled the canvas of the sky. There were strokes of pink and orange that resembled the soft, supple skin of a perfectly ripened peach. The sun’s radiant face was mirrored by the shimmering clear blue waves of the sea which was framed by the sloping land on either side, both of which were flourished with a palette of different bright shades of green, orange and purple.

That was when I saw her, dressed in a long white dress, standing at the edge of the beach. Her brown curly hair that falls perfectly below her shoulders changed colors as the sunlight shone above her. A small, little sea breeze blew at her and her side became visible. A skin as fair as snow and her lips as rosy red as an apple. It was a beauty.

I saw a tear drop left the corner of her eye. Right after that, the wind stopped and her face was once again covered. Suddenly, a small melodic voice was heard and it was gradually becoming louder. By the time I realized that it was her voice, I was already walking further and further away from her.

As I turned around, she was exactly like a beautiful opera singer on stage and she sang with full emotion. Nature was even touched by her. When she sang, waves splashed across the beach like cymbals. The strong wind blew into caves and coconut trees, producing sounds for her as an accompaniment. The whole thing just evolved around her and she was right in the middle, playing the role as a conductor.

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Shuuya opened his eyes as he imagined the scene in his mind. The woman had greatly resembled his own mother and it had brought the young boy to tears. He thought back to the memory. It was back when he was vulnerable, but he had changed since then. He had learnt to empty all his emotions so that his heart was nothing but an empty vessel that kept him alive. He heard the door behind him open and close as the matron slipped his lunch onto the table and left. To be honest, he preferred being alone in the room than outside. Outside, he would have to face those idiots that irked him with every move they made. He didn't regret what his actions, he never did. They deserved it and that was that. He wanted to leave an impression so that nobody would ever mess with Shuuya Watanabe. 

//ooc: Hey guys. Um. I don't actually know where I'm going with this para-rp. My friend wanted to do it and she's not a constant roleplayer so we have no idea about the plot. We'll see how it goes. O_O 

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Update.

It seems that I will be stuck in this detention room for much longer than previous times. It's a rather long story, but let's say they pushed me over the edge.. and so, I pushed them. Hoshino and his ever-growing gang of blithering idiots decided to play pranks on me. "All in the name of fun," they said. So I gave them my definition of fun. Whatever I do will never get me into jail though. That's the beauty of juvenile law. At least, things have become better. I don't have to listen to their babbling for a long time. That is, until I die.

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Day 05 - 22nd February 2013

How long do I have to remain in this place filled with idiots? Each day I have to deal with them, watch them screaming their heads off like little children; run around like toddlers. Their behaviour: it disgusts me. But what's the difference? Whether it's in this bloody center or out, the world on its own is a disgusting place. Society will never notice the good and will highlight the bad, exaggerating it; just for attention. To be honest, it's a fact that idiots coexist in here and out in the world; but there's an advantage if I'm out. I get to destroy them. The waiting is making my fury burn even more.

When I am out of here, I will finish what I started. I will destroy the ones who destroyed my dream. I will complete my master plan. And believe me, when I am done, the world will know the name Shuuya Watanabe. Just you wait.

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What Would You Want To Know? // Shuuya + Alerion

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Alerion shuddered involuntarily as she heard him laugh and she still felt uneasy, turning away for a second only to be told by a nurse that the visiting hours were over. With a sigh and feeling as though she accomplished nothing she gave a small wave to Shuuya, walking out of the institution. 

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Shuuya watched as the other left. He chuckled to himself. Today had been a rather eventful day.

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What Would You Want To Know? // Shuuya + Alerion

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“I didn’t mean it literally. I’ll come back over and over again until I get what I want.” She sighed a little, shaking her head before grinning. 

“So you get the joys of seeing my face over and over again.”

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"And you, in turn, will get to see mine." He smirked, laughing. His laughter sent shivers down the other's spine.

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ooc: ohmygod i just realized something. Shuuya is like a tangled wire. He's so messed up, and the more he does the more tangled in insanity and trouble he gets. 

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