1.) donât hold her hand.
make her feel boring, ignore what she says when she speaks.
when her lips fall, donât kiss her pout away.
hold her but not long enough,
be rough around the edges.
when she demands respect,
2.) compliment her scarcely or not at all,
make her cling to memories of kisses and sweet nothings,
make her feel like she is nothing.
watch her fade to dust and zip your lips,
donât ask her how her day is.
when she asks if youâre alright, lie
like you used to lay beside her on days when skies were brighter,
on days when you remembered her favorite song and why she loved it so much.
donât remember why you love her so much,
forget everything or donât.
3.) hide away from her discontent, pretend you donât hear her sigh beside you
as you stare ahead instead of at her eyes,
donât watch them fill with tears sheâll blink back,
relax into the distance for the millionth time.
when she asks if you feel the same,
nod your head but donât look in her direction,
make her question why youâre not present in her presence.
as she picks herself apart, turn your cheek.
remind yourself that she chooses
4.) leave her for the first time at her lowest.
speak to her like sheâs a child,
make her feel small as a pea.
tell her not to leave, but to be patient,
feed her lies by the handful,
give her excuses instead of your heart.
5.) tell her you want her back
but act no different, play her like a puppet on strings.
when she questions you, tell her sheâs dramatic, snap at her
tell her you like her better silent.
ask for space a second time to
memorize the lines on someone elseâs face,
block hers from your mind,
the same smile youâve kissed a million times, eyes youâve stared into
like they were life lines,
forget her name and how it tastes.
donât call her for a month, donât visit.
donât tell her you miss her.
7.) realize that things donât feel the same,
be crushed and call her for the first time in too long.
let out a different name from your tongue.
tell her everything, tell her that youâre hurting.
pretend her pain is worthless.
drink it down like honey.
8.) this is how you lost me
Itâs getting easier to breathe
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