Elan, in recovery

Hi, I'm Elan. This is just a place for me to throw words at the wall and see what sticks.

[vyva-melinkolya]

One of them born again Christian girls with the eyeliner: “so actually you can be alt and conservative :)”

Me: how did you get in my house

[elaninrecovery]

Me, 32 - at the ghost of my 15 year old self lolol.

[ravioliet]

god's weakest soldier is scrolling tumblr instead of being productive or participating in any of their hobbies

[vyva-melinkolya]

Don’t make your younger self into your own dead wife.

[vyva-melinkolya]

Don’t make your older self into a husband you resent. Idk

[the-haiku-bot]

Don’t make your older

self into a husband you

resent. Idk

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[ilovewhales]

a lot of things get on my nerves. im constantly annoyed. and i also have a deep love of humanity and the world but everything is really annoying

[000l]

[shrewreadings]

like to charge, reblog to cast.

[heavensghost]

Accidentally put my whole fucking heart into something that wasnt fucking meant for me again fucking hell

[identitty-dickruption]

it’s like this.

if you only have one person in your life that you trust, you probably are always going to turn to that person when something shit happens. as well as whenever something good happens. or anything else. this is not inherently a bad thing, and it’s really beautiful to have someone in your life that you trust so much

but if that person is suddenly busy or going through something difficult themselves or doesn’t have emotional capacity for a while, suddenly there’s a problem. not necessarily through any fault of your own, you don’t have anyone to turn to with as much regularity as you did before

this is true of any kind of relationship. this is true of any kind of coping mechanism, also. the problem is not that you trust that person. the problem is not that you use that coping mechanism. the problem is not even that there’s something wrong with you and that it’s all your fault. the problem is that nothing can be everything

the solution is not to cut off your one trusted person or to cut yourself off from your one trusted coping mechanism. the solution is to do the difficult work of diversifying your life as much as it’s possible for you to do. which is why it sucks so much when external factors prevent you from being able to live a truly diverse life. okay that’s all have a good one

[softwaring]

by tucker

[handweavers]

it's amazing how when i'm an active agent in my life good things happen and i feel capable and confident in myself and when i just passively let life happen to me terrible things happen and i am miserable. surely no one else has ever noticed this tendency

[anxietyproblem]

[chaotic-trav]

I feel so attacked right now. I did not ask to get called out like this.

[the-haiku-bot]

I feel so attacked

right now. I did not ask to

get called out like this.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[ndnbutch]

fyi. being intensely self critical is not the same as being self aware. if you’re really self aware you’ll be aware of the good stuff too. just in case anyone needs to hear it. don’t mistake constantly dissecting what you see as your flaws for some kind of personal enlightenment.

[dr-gaytorius]

The fact of the matter is that I do not want to do it

[dr-gaytorius]

"do what?" you might wonder. well. [gestures broadly]

[partlydigested]

The fact that you're forced to have a set physical form is so fucked up.

Like yeah this is Your Vessel. You can kinda change it, but not a ton. At least not without spending large amounts of money or having undesirable side effects. And no you can't choose how your Vessel looks, that's based on your parents sorry. Also as you age Your Vessel will change, sometimes in ways you don't want. Can't really do much about that either.

And all interactions have to be through Your Vessel. You can never escape Your Vessel. If you want to have irl friends they'll have to see Your Vessel. And if you don't show someone Your Vessel, they're going to have an image in their head about what Your Vessel looks like, and its almost certainly not what it actually looks like.

Escaping Your Vessel is impossible.

[the-haiku-bot]

The fact that you’re forced

to have a set physical

form is so fucked up.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[loveridden1999]

i miss my ex bestfriend & everyone else that i have ever loved but don't want any of them back either

[loveridden1999]

what the fuck man

[disease-deactivated20210414]

JENNY HOLZER

[qadarpriestress]

You never know how signing up for a new class, getting a haircut, attending a party you are too lazy to go to, or applying to a job you think you have no chance at can really shift timelines. You are probably one decision away from catapulting into a new timeline.

[sailermoon]

see my thing is i open my heart too easily even to people who’ve hurt me and then afterwards im like i will never ever ever ever be vulnerable again! that’ll show them! and then what do i do. what do i do. open my heart