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Makenzie. 28. Dumpster fire.

[herpsandbirds]

Pink-spotted Fruit Dove (Ptilinopus perlatus), family Columbidae, order Columbiformes, found in New Guinea

photos: Irawan Subingar, Ekhardt Lietzow, Dubi Shapiro

[elbowscar]

falling out of love?

when he hasn't changed at all

i'm the one who changed

and not for the better

begging God to make me love him again

why do have i have to be like this

just as life was getting good

[elbowscar]

I cried for an hour in the parking lot

But I didn’t call him

Was that a win?

Am I allowed to win?

[elbowscar]

still waiting to feel okay again

[elbowscar]

feeling like I don’t know who I am anymore

[elbowscar]

feeling everything and nothing at the same time

[elbowscar]

I don’t want to be here anymore

[elbowscar]

1 year of marriage! time is scary and often feels like something we are supposed to swim upstream against. but as soon as I met you, the passage of time felt like a pleasant float down the river. maybe because that’s basically how we spent our time. as we quietly enjoyed fishing, hiking, gardening, or stargazing together, I fell in love with your easy approach to the art of living... and with you. even during really chaotic times, you steadied me. this first year, I kept waiting for something to go wrong. and so many things did—but never you, never us. I’m not a physicist, but I do feel like time is relative to frame of reference. when I’m with you, time becomes pleasant, and however long that ends up being, I’m here for it, my hand in your hand. 

[elbowscar]

Makenzie. 24. Needs a break → Makenzie. 26. It is well

[patriciaellah]

“The hair series is an unfinished project that documents, the different types of Black hairstyles and hair types. Black hair is known for its different textures, it known because of the simple fact that it stands out from other hair types. I document the different textures of my friend’s hairstyles to emphasize the difference, the close-up shots give a different perspective. It lets the viewer see the different growth pattern or design structure of the hair type or style.” - By Patricia Ellah

Instagram: patriciaellah

[elbowscar]

I didn’t know that I’ve been trying to learn forgiveness my whole life. For a long time, I thought forgiveness was simply what I was taught to say, “It’s okay.” But when it really wasn’t okay—and that was often—I thought that it was my fault. Forgiveness is so much more complicated than that. Especially when the hurt runs deep and you have to do it over, and over and over again. I will likely always be learning and refining what it means and looks like to forgive, but I have learned a lot over the past weekend. Unfortunately this has also been finals week, so I am mentally and emotionally exhausted. But anyway, this Sunday’s sermon by Grace Bible Church in College Station, TX was so helpful. I really needed to hear it, and I think it’s a great resource.

[michalinamurawska]

[elbowscar]

you really like telling other people that they need to let go of the bitterness in their heart, to forgive you, to not bring up the past, even that they have an evil spirit inside of them. you really like commanding people to heal while inflicting new wounds and picking at old scabs. you are the worst. God help me heal, because this is impossible. 

[elbowscar]

you don’t deserve to “give me away,” because you either treated me like your ego boost or your ego threat. you tossed my trust away so many times. you’ve literally tossed me and my loved ones aside. i’ve endured your assaults on our privacy, our sense of safety, and our physical safety. you don’t fucking have me, how can you give me away. 

[elbowscar]

he is like the sun and you are like a creepy shadow just sort of resembling a man

[jaclynpaige]

[kvtes]

always.

[jaclynpaige]