remember how will couldn't describe that awful feeling after the mind flayer entered his body? he literally couldn't find the words. and then joyce said "what if not words?". and he drew. drew impulsively, feverishly, he was torn by the feeling inside and he reflected it on the paper.
and what do we have in season 4? will draw enthusiastically, long and painstakingly. he created this drawing, living day to day with only one feeling for mike which will could only express in the only way he could.
josie’s note .⁺ ˖ ⌒ holy fuckkkk, the new john wick movie ignited something in me. i was straight up biting my lip off in the movie theater. enjoy these little headcanons while i try to come up with an actual fic. your media consumption is your own responsibility, read the warnings and enjoy! — reblogs and likes are greatly appreciated !! ♡
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Number #1 Gentleman™. Outside of his profession, he’s quite literally the nicest guy you’ll ever meet, and he'll really try to woo you when you first start dating.
Like, holding the door open for you, carrying your bags, giving you his jacket when you’re cold, paying for dinners, and even buying you expensive gifts.
This man is 100% loaded. Expect him to be buying you all kinds of trinkets and gifts. Whenever he notices you staring at something, or briefly mentions something, he’ll remember it forever.
John is super observational, he notices all the little things. His quietness (and lowkey awkwardness) make him an amazing listener. Because he lives such a chaotic life, in contrast to the one with you— he loves to listen to you ramble about everyday shenanigans.
He has a dry ass sense of humor.
Pet names consist of: sweet girl, and honey. He's a little old-timey like that.
Super protective over you. Like, second shadow level protective— man will not let you out of his sight. He's lost so much in his life, and after Helen, he just can't stand the thought of ever losing you.
While he would try to stay out of fights when he's around you, he'd wouldn't take shit from anyone who tried something with you. He's John Wick after all, so trust that he'd kick their ass.
Not a fan of PDA, and gets a little awkward about it in the early days of your relationship. Growing up in the Ruska Roma, physical affection wasn't exactly number one priority. So he's a little surprised (and touch-starved) when he notices how clingy you are.
Always walking his his arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him. Random sidenote, but I headcanon that John is warm all the time. Mans is a walking furnace.
You spend all your nights tangled in each others arms. He's always the big spoon, letting you rest your head against his chest and listening to his heartbeat as he encapsulates you with his strong arms.
John loves having you sit in his lap. The two of you could spend hours together, even if it was in silence, just enjoying each others loving embrace.
You end up getting a dog together, and you constantly tease John for his terrible choice in names.
"John, c'mon, don't be boring!" You giggle as you kneel down, rubbing the cheeks of the cutest pit bull you've ever seen. "We can't name the dog, Dog."
"You have any better ideas?" John smirks, kneeling down next to you, pressing his lips to the side of your head.
It'll take a while before he talks about his past and profession with you. He doesn't want to inadvertently drag you into his life of crime, and put you in any danger.
But, soon enough, the walls will lower and he'll let his guard down. John will confess secrets about himself, bit by bit.
It'll be on a random night, when you start tracing his tattoos with your finger. In a quiet whisper, you'll ask him what the one on his back means.
"Fortune favors the bold," he whispers with a raspy voice, his thumb rubbing your forearm, as you lean your head into the crook of his neck. "I got it when I was younger."
You always ask him to teach you some moves, and he's happy to do so, under the guise that it's for self-defense (and not at all that his muscles and figure look amazing when he's doing martial arts).
He can only keep running from the assassin life for so long, until it eventually comes to bite him in the ass. So to protect you, he forces himself to break up with you.
John, unfortunately, carries a large sense of self-loathing. He thinks and knows he doesn't deserve you. For the heinous things, he's done, he knew it was too good to be true.
You cry, and beg him to explain why he's doing this. But, in true John nature, he holds himself together and presses a soft kiss to your forehead before walking out.
You don't see him crumbling, and breaking down as he shuts the door behind him.
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Size kink. Size kink. Size. Kink.
John is 6'1, so you'll be climbing this man like a tree.
He loves how big his hands look, when he presses your wrists down on the bed, or when he grabs a handful of your breast.
Missionary position is his favorite. He loves the intimacy, and being as close to you as physically possible.
You wrapping your legs around his waist, pulling him in closer as he leaves several hickeys along your collarbone— Lord, he can't get enough of it.
Corruption kink, I can't lie.
He's a big, scary, assassin— and his moral integrity is a little murky. John almost gets off on the idea of slowly corrupting you, and turning you into his dirty girl.
He is hung. That's all I have to say.
Again, super possessive. Do not ask him to share, he will shut that down.
For someone who never talks, he's suddenly dirty talking in your ear the whole time. His lips pressed against your ear, mumbling all kinds of things that make your cheeks burn.
"Hmm, what was that?" He hums, sending vibrations through your body. "Tell me what you want, sweet girl."
Breeding kink.
Not fully for the reason of wanting kids (although, he'd love to start a family with you and really settle down), but again for the intimacy.
He loves to mark you with his cum, another result of his total possessive protectiveness of you. You don't miss the way his eyes darken when he empties inside you, watching as it comes pouring out.
cw/tw: um..a little silly, a little goofy, a little fluff, age gap ( reader is 20+, John is in his 40’s), mentions of tattoos, gn!reader
an: I’m in my keanu reeves era; also this gif makes me dizzy🥴😵; anyways enjoy whores
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first of all heS GENTLE I DONT CARE WHAT ANYONE ELSE SAYS HES MY POOKIE BEAR CUDDLE MUFFIN
oh my god his hugs :(
i just need to lay down on his chest and for him to rub his hand up and down my back reassuringly after a long day >:(
he loves when you scratch his beard like a dog(is this weird lol) he finds it so domestic and intimate
ok so...he’s old, so let’s imagine he stayed out of the crime world… he has such old guy hobbies its so cute (he's beekeeping age yk)
he’s into gardening, he's in a band (bassist duh), he fixes up cars and motorcycles
the first time you noticed his back tattoo was when you two went swimming for the first time together
you didn't want to be a creep, but you had to stop yourself from drooling over it the rest of the day
you actually had to stop yourself from licking him head to toe like a popsicle but
speaking of tattoos, he LOOOOVES when you trace his back tattoo; if he can't sleep and you start to trace the pattern, he just melts
and if you have tattoos, he loves to do the same to you
he'll kind of lull you to sleep like that, taking his time with light kisses in between
on another note...i bet he does the 'dad on a vacation snoring so loud he has shaken then entire room awake' snore
and when you get woken up by said snore you're a little annoyed, but whenever this happens you just move to the guest room
after moving to the guest room and getting settled down, you get woken up ....again, only to see this BIG SCARY 6 FOOT ASSASSIN curled up next to you under the covers, hugging your waist as if you were a stuffed animal he couldn't sleep without :(
and you're like "...i actually came in here to remove myself from you-"
he's creeps around the house very quietly, almost like a ghost (unintentionally)
you could be doing laundry, folding the clothes and when you turn around to put them away, he's just there in the doorway like 🧍♂️ scaring the life out of you
once you two move in together, he'll gift you a dog :( like you're own little family :(
assuming that reader is in their 20's and john is in is 40's, how could you possibly pass up any opportunity to make old man jokes about him <3
" you know, in a couple of years i get to put you in the old folks home..."
"yeah right🙄, i'd like to see you try honey"
he takes care of you in every way; he makes sure you take your meds, and that you eat at least three meals a day; small everyday things like that :(
if you fail a big test or have a bad day at work he's waiting for you at home with a tub of icecream and ready to spoil you with affection
even tho he's a man of very little words, he'll know exactly what to say to make you feel better with words of praise and affection :(
The problem with the Wheelers is that they hear their hearts. They want to be themselves but they don't want to be vulnerable to society. Nancy feels soft and feminine around Steve, and that's normal for her. With Jonathan she feels like herself. Something that makes her stronger as a person. She strives for her dreams side by side with her partner and lover all in one. But who is Jonathan Byers in Hawkins? A regular weirdo, and penniless, and every cent is hard-won.
Mike feels like an eternal guardian beside El. A masculine figure who will keep her safe. And he desperately turns a blind eye to the fact that she has done just fine on her own all her life without his help.
Mike feels like himself beside Will. He doesn't have to run away from himself, run back in time or think ahead. He exists with Will in the here and now. They could be playing D&D one minute, and the next minute discussing a plan to save the world. And he doesn't have to blame himself for the inner weakness he is so afraid to show to El. But who is Will Byers? His best friend, the guy, and this is the 80's. What can we talk about?
The problem with the Wheelers is that they hear their hearts but it's also the fear that speaks in them.
That's why the Duffers draw this parallel between the two triangles.
what if will doesn't cast a defense in fight of s5? "he could have chosen defense and saved himself, but he chose fireballs sacrificing himself to save the others" - mike's words from the first season of the first series will be duplicated. it breaks my heart.
i was recently analyzing the scene of el and mike when she was crying and talking about how he didn't love her anymore. just read it.
and gosh, not that I would find how familiar it is for me to be with someone for so long without noticing how you both fade, and in an instant find yourself lost and already unloved. a self that is falling apart and needs at least something to keep afloat, not to mention a dying relationship.
but i so understand el. i find myself in her. but i also find an ex partner who ended up just being there out of pity. not out of bad motives. but simply because one does not know how to act and simply because it is first love, and feelings are so confused between themselves, and one does not understand where love ends and where attachment begins.
i feel sorry for el and i feel sorry for mike. she is a girl who is desperately begging him for words of love. but even if she had heard them she would have done nothing about it in that moment in the room. he is a guy who feels sorry for both himself and her but the first thing to remember is that he does it unknowingly. which i cannot say about el. because again, i have been in her shoes. 100%. and i can assure you that she no longer loves.
and that was her last straw.
for us have put their future conversation aside, and I'm sure that this relationship has run its course. and we'll see about that!
Do you know what the difference in the relationship between Mike and Hopper to El is?
Hopper doesn't care who she is. He doesn't care where she comes from. He cares about her past but he is someone who is willing to unselfishly love her despite who she is. And she is just a girl who was caged as a lab rat given love in exchange for superpowers. He has spoken of her with such warmth and love more than once even discussing her with Enzo as a daughter "in transition". She is a normal teenager to him with her own difficulties and quirks. But he loves her immensely.
And Mike? Did he ever think of her with a loving sadness in his eyes and a soft smile on his lips? At the mention of El he would only get upset or worried because he can't separate her from the image of the girl he "found in the woods". Simply because it's hard for a child's psyche to forget who's next to you and what El was like in the past (scared, still angry, caught up in the Wheeler house straight from the hands of a real tyrant). And I think Mike is just tired of saving and tired of getting used to commonness that never seemed to exist in their poor, miserable romance without a spark.
some more little soft byler moments - this time in polaroid form :p (also sorry abt the formatting , there was originally five but i took it out and this is how it ended up but by the time i realized it looked wonky asf, it was 2 late 2 change it w/o having 2 redo most things cuz the lines would get fuzzy)
again - close ups and some backstory to them under the cut :>
just 2 preface - the dates on these r in not like. special i just picked months that fit the scene (colder months if they r more clothes/school months in the school one/etc) and totally random days. also idk any characters birthday so if i accidentally put the date of one, just ignore it or change it in ur head 2 a different date in the same month lol
also ! i hc that el took these w/ a polaroid camera that she gets for christmas bcuz she liked watching jonathan take pictures so they got her one so she could do it herself :) which is also why they dont start until 1987 and i think she would b the biggest byler supporter of their friend group (which is why she takes these pictures)
oh and i hc that the byer's move back 2 hawkins in2 a different home which is where the every one except the first one is placed - and the first one is placed in the school (probably in either the hellfire clubroom or the av one? i think thats what it was right?? god i need 2 watch the show again i can't remember anything lol)
like i said b4, this ones in a clubroom/classroom after school where its just the party. the two people in the back r dustin + el w/ lucas taking the picture for her ig. this is what i was referring 2 in my headcanons post , where they lay over eachothers shoulders like this :) idk i just think its cute :p also yes they r wearing eachothers sweaters .
this one is one in the hopper-byers' new house and i think it would probably b like. a movie night or smth tho idk y the lights would b on but whatever. it could b w/ all the hopper-byers + mike or could just b a movie night 4 mike + will - whichever one u want 2 imagine. either way , el finds them like this and takes this photo :) also i tried 2 add a background in the window but its bad so dont look at it 2 hard lmao (its just trees) also will Definitely wakes up w his shoulders/back hurting cuz ive slept in a similar position a few times b4 and God it does not feel good when waking up lol
this ones supposed 2 b a morning at the hopper-byers' home. i tried to add little bits of mike's hair 2 show it got longer over time but its so minuscule idk if u can even tell. also yes thats The flannel lol. i had 2 have in here at least once. and will is wearing a hellfire shirt, whether its his own or mike's is up 2 u :p . i also put the black nail polish in this one and not the others bcuz i think that this is abt the time they would start wearing it? yknow? cuz like. doing stuff like that takes time cuz u have 2 work up the courage 2 do it, especially in the 80's. i only started wearing nail polish consistently a few years ago and sometimes i still get feelings of 'i would pass better if i didnt wear it' or 'ppl will see my nails and assume im a girl bcuz of it' and i dont even have 2 worry abt getting hatecrimed- not physically, anyways.
sorry that kinda got away from me . anyways - i think this would b them coming downstairs in the morning and hanging out in the living room for a bit talking to whoever's there. while they're distracted (so they dont protest/move) el takes this one . (shes also probably learned by now 2 always have her camera on her so she doesnt miss moments like this)
this ones another one that would b in rhe morning af the hopper-byers' house . i also set it further in the future (for them at least) so it would make sense as 2 why they - specifically mike - would b this comfortable in the house. i just think that it would b such a safe space for the both of them and that they would act in a more carefree way than they would at the wheeler's house or anywhere else really. mostly bcuz joyce is the Best Mom™️ and she definitely creates an environment where every1 feels comfortable 2 just . b themselves in? idk i just really like joyce lol . she kinda reminds me of my mom in that sense . also i Had 2 have a will carrying mike in some way in here, i wouldnt b me if i didnt lolol.
anyways this ones mostly just self-indulgent lol. i Live 4 hella domestic moments
thats all i have 4 backstories but if u wanna read a fic w moments like this from me , its currently in the works and i have been posting abt it under the tag 'summer of 1988 fic things' if u wanna check that out :p (its inspired by these fanarts if u wanna look at those as well)
