[eliskrezacova]

And your body keeps trying and trying....

trying to keeping you alive, giving you everything you like...

but your mind, oh your mind, that bitch wants you to die.

-eliskrezacova

(about depression)

[eliskrezacova]

I feel nothing and everything again. I hate everything about me.

[eliskrezacova]

I still hope you are reading my thoughts on this app.

So, I miss you. You are the queen of all the bees.🐝

[eliskrezacova]

Girl I think about you every night and day.

I’m addicted and I just can’t get enough

[eliskrezacova]

The last time when I was high I had hallucinations of you telling me you love me. And this is not a quote, this is for real

[eliskrezacova]

It’s midnight and the only thing I want is to cry. I don’t want to go back to the country where I was born. I fell in love here, I have friends here and I’m living my life here. I just want to stay here.

[eliskrezacova]

For the first time I experienced a scene like from a movie. It’s night, I’m sitting all by myself and one guy just came to me and asked me if I’m okay that I look sad. I answered that I’m absolutely fine but he didn’t believe me so his whole group of friends came to me and entertained me.

It was the most beautiful thing in my life.

[eliskrezacova]

It’s so weird to see a happy couple

[sapphibus]

instagram @smutty_secrets

[eliskrezacova]

Thinking bout her

[eliskrezacova]

So you’re telling me that I just found super beautiful girl who became my techno mate and in three weeks I need to leave back to my country?

I literally belong here….

[eliskrezacova]

2023: so y’all talking again

2022: no we’re not I’m still mad that he left me at my worst

2021 November: no we’re not I hate him so much

2021 august: Od course we do I believe that he changed

2021 march: no we’re not he broke my heart on million pieces and he is the reason I don’t trust people

2020 November: yes I know I did forgive him and I trust him again

2020 march: hell no, he only used me and he never loved me

2019: no we don’t, I don’t want to see him ever again

2018 November: probably we do cause he apologised

2018 march: really? He stopped making fun of me in front of people I liked and started to care about my feelings?

2017 august: he answered my calls and returned everything what he stole from me?

2017 July: of course we do, I would die for him I even spend time with him in the hospital when he had an injury.

2017 june: he isn’t answering my text messages and ho doesn’t care about my feelings there is no way we still talk.

2017 may: I know! He loves me and I love him so much.

2017 February: he literally saved my life, of course he would never hurt me.

2016 December: even that everyone from “our” group hate us to see us together we don’t give a fuck and we are forever thing.

2016 September: he is still my reason to live? I knew that!

2016 august: oh Hi, I’m Eliska and you are?…

[cinematapestry]

[eliskrezacova]

[jeniferprince]

I can’t…

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[eliskrezacova]

[eliskrezacova]

Currently I just want to die, cancel myself or disappear.

[eliskrezacova]

Should I call her and tell her that I’m really sorry? I wish she would call me cause I’m scared that she doesn’t miss me.