a faded polariod

they/she. "i have not the will to live, your grace"

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[maryplethora]

me: we really need to start the thing

my brain: how about we… just don’t?

me: … solid argument you’ve got there

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me: *explains how my book works.*

random reader: mmh nah, you're making shit up.

yeah! you fucking think?!!!

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it took me a long time to realise that i don't have to be anything, not even myself.

i can be a moment, a happenstance, a scene in a blurry movie

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you know what hits different? having a mental breakdown while listening to 3racha's playlist.

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everyone calls me prettier nowadays but all i see is a stranger when i look in the mirror

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don't tease me about a boy you know i don't like and feel uncomfortable being shipped with, it brings out a destructive rage in me, it makes me want to raze cities to the ground and begin my villain arc

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nothing in my head today just the emotions and memories stored in old songs

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in the words of Helen of Troy

"its not easy being this pretty, why hasn't a war started over me yet?"

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i don't know how to cry so much that when i actually fall apart and do cry a little, my tears burn my face

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this is exactly why i don't leave my apartment, you step out for a couple minutes and there's already a pesky neighbour wanting to be your friend.

like no, we're already neighbours, why are you being so greedy?

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just had my routine midnight spar with the fucking flying cockroach that's trying to end me, it teleported again before i could murder it but rest assured i am ever prepared.

i shall sleep with a broom under my pillows this time

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you know i really think i'll thrive with a ghost or an order worldly creature as a roommate (for the record, i absolutely do not have a ghost of an order world creature as a roommate - just wanted to put it out there.

here, however are i list of things i've said- i mean i'll say to them if i had a ghost or an order worldly creature as a roommate.

"stop breathing icky warm breath in my ear..." places it against a pillow, it still doesn't stop

"are you sleeping in the ceiling..."

"i swear your breathing is ridiculously loud, might wanna get that checked..."

"you're gonna have to pay rent..."

dives into a long rant. "you know, you owe me big time, you're lucky i've provided such a sterile place for you to exist, no prayers, no chants, no candles..."

"stop trying to talk to me, i don't speak static..."

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i'm not a step ahead of you, i'm four steps behind you because i went in the wrong direction

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my only obsession is creativity

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the feminine urge to dress up as a bell

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this is my new aesthetic you guys