Elowen

There is no rush to bloom ☀️

[ell1e-bloom]

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ᡣ𐭩 hi sunshine’s, i’m ellie or elowen ♡

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⊹ key information ⊹

pronouns: she/her • they/them

age: older than 14

status: taken by my beautiful girlfriend

here for: reading, lurking, making friends, and occasionally posting

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⊹ interests ⊹

shows + movies: arcane, school spirits, descendants, to the bone, all the bright places, home, annie (2014), monster high

music: billie eilish, esha tewari, phoebe bridgers, adrianne lenker, leith ross, lizzy mcalpine

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⊹ what i may post about ⊹

☼ things i enjoy

☼ occasional life updates

☼ thoughts + rambles

☼ reblogs

☼ vents

☼ whatever i’m currently obsessed with

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⊹ dni ⊹

☼ hateful people (homophobia, transphobia, racism, maga, etc.) you’ll be blocked right away!

☼ disrespectful people

☼ people who can’t manage basic kindness

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⊹ interaction ⊹

please don’t interact if you’re under 13 or 20+

↳ this is not only to keep others safe, but to keep myself safe as well ♡

i prefer interacting with people around my age (14–19) ☼

i’ll use the block button if i need to ♡

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⊹ extra ⊹

still blooming ☼

thank you for being here ♡

may your day be full of sunshine ⊹

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[ell1e-bloom]

My anxiety makes me feel like I’m gonna throw up.

[ell1e-bloom]

I’m just upset right now so I’m sure I’ll get over this, but I don’t understand why I’m not convenient enough for people to text first or put in effort. I put so much effort into all of my friends and relationships in general, and it just never feels reciprocated. I try to make plans, I text first, I do all of these things, and it’s never enough. I just feel like I’m a burden for people to interact with or talk to, and I don’t understand it. I feel so alone almost all the time, but I don’t want to seem desperate. I’ve also changed so much about myself and the things I do, just for it to not even matter. I just wanna fit in somewhere and it just never happens and I’ve literally struggled with friends my entire life I’m starting to think I’m just the issue. I just want people to care the way I care.

[ell1e-bloom]

I listen to this song on repeat and just wanted to share 

[ell1e-bloom]

I just always feel like I’m bothering people or being annoying, and sometimes it gets in my head more than I’d like to admit.

[leighlew3]

ALL. OF. THIS.

[ell1e-bloom]

Happy Pride! 🌈

You don’t have to fit someone else’s idea of who you should be. Your identity, your experiences, and your journey are valid.

Celebrate yourself today. 🤍🥹

[charthinksalotte]

Everything on repeat 🔁🤍

[ell1e-bloom]

Yk what? I’ll be the first to admit it. Yes, I’m in high school, and yes, I’ve started watching Gacha Life again in the last couple months. When I was younger, I used to watch Gacha all the time, and apparently my phase is back. And lowk? I have no shame in my game. The stories? Fire. The singing battles? Fire. The react videos? FIRE!!!! It’s all so entertaining and somehow manages to take up massive chunks of my time 🥹

[ell1e-bloom]

I have these two friends on here and I think they’re the sweetest people I’ve ever met online Like they’re both so understanding and always willing to listen. They’re so wise. And kind 🥹

[f4nd0m-h0pp3r]

my HEAD hurts

my KNEES hurt

my TUMMY hurts

my JOINTS hurt

my BACK hurts

my WRISTS hurt

my ANKLES hurt

I’m TIRED

[ell1e-bloom]

Tmrw I’m hanging out with two girls I recently became friends with and I’m actually gonna pee myself, I’m so scared 😭

[ell1e-bloom]

Is anyone else genuinely afraid to try new foods? Sometimes I’ll try something new and even if I actually like it, I’ll still spit it out because I get so anxious over trying it. Other times I’ll cry before I even try the food, or I just can’t bring myself to do it at all. I feel crazy sometimes because it seems like nobody else is like this. I have a group of foods I know I like, and I basically eat those same foods over and over just in different forms. When it comes to trying something new, sometimes I can barely take a bite before panicking and spitting it out. Sometimes I just cry over it and I genuinely don’t understand why.

[ell1e-bloom]

I’m actually so sick of her ignoring me or not responding to my texts. I wish I wasn’t so forgiving and would just tell her it’s not fine, because we’ve had the same conversation over and over about how she can’t keep ignoring me. Then she’s good for a couple weeks, and somehow we always end up right back at square one. I just really don’t get it. “I was with family.” Okay… so was I, and I still responded. “Sorry, I was at practice.” Okay, then just tell me that? Being active on social media but not responding to my texts. It just gets to a point. Idk maybe I’m the problem for just wanting her to communicate

[ell1e-bloom]

My brother: messing around with a fake water gun, “I’m gonna buy this and pretend to shoot people.”

Me: “You can’t do that.”

Him: “But why not?”

Me: “Because we’re black thats how you get yourself shot and killed. ”

Him: “ you can’t say that. “

Me: “ I’m literally just telling you what’s gonna happen “

[anglaised]

like i said black ppl r put in danger by nonblacks engaging in ‘crime’ around us and not caring about how we feel or the optics of what happens to us when they get caught and ur only response is “white people we need to steal more!!!” ………girl ive had lil cousins get guns pointed at them bc of their nonblack friends stealing from the store and they automatically got blamed, yall think everything is a joke 😭

[petr1ficada]

literally