âž âź â˝ ]|      âBut you just saidâŚâ Felix let out a small groan, head aching slightly with confusion and his heart heavy; this day was awful. âYou said you were disappointed because I did not do what you wanted me to doâŚ.thus, I cannot be too good. Regardless I am not good in the first place.â Running his fingers through her hair, the virtue stared blankly at the wall of the building in front of them. âI wish youâd not dwell on those things, I already said I forgave you and itâs easier to justâŚ.forget than to dwell. Dwelling means youâll always carry it around and carrying that around isâŚyou just canât. Itâs like a poison. Those are not going to be the things I see when I look back on those moments, you understand? Iâll remember the first time you spoke to me, our museum date, Iâll remember you coming to me, and Iâll remember the first time we had relationsâŚnot the rest of the things.â Felix ran his hand over her back, trying to be as comforting as possible as he fought to try and find some joy or happiness in the moment; in truth he just wanted to go back to his room, put on The Smiths, and read a novel alone - heâd never felt more like Dr. Manhattan in his entire life. âOf course darling, of course weâll have a grand time and and we shall dance, whatever you wish.â
     "Yes, and expecting something like that from anyone is ridiculous...that isn't on you, that's on me," Ella said simply, a twitched to the side of her lips towards as she realised there wasn't really ever going to be much convincing of Felix that he was better than he thought and she had obviously done something to assist in the idea he wasn't 'good.' Ella nodded however, she wasn't sure she couldn't dwell on those things but if he said he wasn't going to then she could keep things like that to herself. "We could just dance out here," Ella said, there was a faint sound of the music inside and really Ella did not want to go back in, she just wanted to stay by his side. She had not looked up to see his expression, perhaps if she had she would have noticed he did not want to actually be there at all.













