This is a very long post, I decided to post them in a way that can be seen one by one.
Saying hello to my little friend, the red butterfly.
His fancy wear for festivals - the waistcoat is meant to have embroidery of snowdrops on it (which are Bedivere's symbolic flowers), I'm not sure if it looks like it though lol. His hair ribbons are slightly different in this one, too.
Feelings bloom and run rampant, beyond a heart's capacity. Sometimes they end up choking one's throat...
Some simple flower arranging (this was me testing out my new tablet).
Welcome to my flower shop (my painterly style attempt. The face is what I focused on, so everything else is just...there lol).
Dreams of a family, a little what-if. (this isn't completely canon to my AU yet haha, just thoughts of what Bedivere and Ritsuka's son might look like. His name is Faye!)
Prayers for those lost, soothing one's heart.
Love blooming on my lips, my hydrangea heart.
Now for the many, many chibis.
BediGuda-specific ones.
If I really put in all my commentary for each I think this post would be way too long and I'm already pushing it whoops.
And last: emotive ones I drew to vent! Also, the "mood" Bedis haha.
...he's mostly okay. It's me who'd channeling these moods haha.
("'Kapagod" is Filipino for the sentiment "It's tiring.")
progress has been REALLY slow on this self-inflicted comic hell but crawling forward with every panel
But it's really so slow that daily updates aren't worth posting, I decided to just keep going until I finally finish this dang thing
Drawing this one (1) panel took me a day's worth of effort, idk how mangakas can do it. I haven't even added tones or dialogue yet, and it's still just one panel for this page, though a big panel.
I'm glad to be able to have something to work on at least, stuff happening in my country right now is all flavors of upsetting and/or infuriating and it's good to have something to keep my mind off it, even if admittedly it's something only for myself.
ever so slowly chipping away at the comic hell I landed myself in -
The line art for this page is done! But I still have to do the tones and I'm realizing that's a bit of work actually welp death to me
But as a sneak peek at the line art, here's the refined sketch for group shot panel (which I'm pretty happy about how it turned out, considering I don't draw these characters really) I ended up changing a few things for the actual line art, but it's minor stuff.
This is the one I'm still not totally decided about...gahhhh I can never draw Gudao in a way that looks right to me and even more so for a comic setting where for the storytelling I have to get the expression right,,,for every sketch he had a different expression and the final lineart is still different but...does it work???? I spent so long on this already and it's just one page juskoooo baket ko ginawa sa sarili ko to,,,
i'm feeling a little loopy after spending so much time on just ONE page so here's my having fun again with the screenshots of my wip
drawing comic panel layouts for funsies and oh no...
...it's already looking wayyyy longer than I think is feasible for me...
I did the one with the blue line art first but thought "what if we stretched out skills and tried establishing a scene first" but ahahahahahaaaa I have no clue if I can actually pull this off -
Not that it matters anyway, my comics always kinda sink into the netherworld recesses anyway, but I do it for me regardless
I mentioned in a previous post that I and my loved ones are unaffected by the recent earthquake in the Philippines, it happened very far away from our area.
But I'll still be sharing some donation drives I've seen contributing to aid in the areas affected!
more stuff about Bedi being Chaldea staff in Arc 3, but BediGuda because it's me
I do think there is genuine cause for Bedivere to be concerned that Ritsuka still has things to do after everything that already went down, considering what Bedivere has witnessed happening to Artoria, so while this comic is mostly for the funnies because Bedi murder mode but also I just think he'd be pissed off actually.
The power of finding my friends' favorite pairs on my Twitter feed but none of my BediGuda compelled me to make this comic (that's what I get for liking niche ships, but half-serious, I am jealous that I keep finding Kabrumisu or Thanzag on my feed, and hands on hips, I'm going "okaaaay but where's MY light hairedxdark haired boys)
(but also I don't actually look for BediGuda so it's my fault)
(i get easily demotivated as it is and I always compare my work to others)
Anyways, as can be apparent from my tomfoolery tonight I'm doing well and safe! My area is very far from where the earthquake struck and none of my friends or relatives are affected.
Redraw of Bedivere's new dialogue portrait with him wearing the Chaldea uniform because he's just so cute...
This is the reference!
Feels embarrassing to post the official and my art so close tho, I really do have a lot more to learn in making my art feel more 3D overall? ahaha my drawing looks so flat in comparison
i admittedly bonked up by drawing way more than what the screenshot shows why did I do that omfg
I will admit I almost always draw Bedi with longer hair than he really does, I did it deliberately for my flower shop AU but I just do it even for actual FGO Bedi just because hair is fun to draw.
I usually say a one-line fluffy sentimental thing but really, what can I say except hehe my BediGudas...
The idea of this being Ritsuka is back in PHH and living a normal life, but a certain knight's feelings still reach her every now and then -
-but then we get an Arc 3 after all with Bedi in main story so we may get more in-game BediGuda actually!!!
it's a good year to be a Bedi fan, what with the incoming 9th anniversary CE art for the NA server and the JP server not only having new Bedi CE for White Day, but also showing Bedivere with a new dialogue portrait for Arc 3!!! Bedi in main story!!!!
so this is how I feel and how unhinged I am looking i am sorry to my non-FGO friends I am inflicting this upon ye
I almost forgive the lack of playable Summer Bedi, but just saying, it's never too late FGO -
I will definitely draw Chaldea member Bedi soon, I'm just finishing my current BediGuda comic and it should be done tomorrow!
I turned on news to see clips of stupid ass politicians crashing out on the news and was So Done with what I saw I stopped watching (fellow Filos will know, man, to hell with APC)
but then I saw a new trailer for FGO and pls save me -
Watching and seeing "huh, he's back???" but then -
OHHHH
OMFG
Bedi is back and for Chapter 3 no less!?!? I'm never complaining about anything again this is everything I wanted
Also, it mildly amuses me that in group shots ot's always so obvious just how tall Bedi is haha.
I turned on news to see clips of stupid ass politicians crashing out on the news and was So Done with what I saw I stopped watching (fellow Filos will know, man, to hell with APC)
but then I saw a new trailer for FGO and pls save me -
Watching and seeing "huh, he's back???" but then -
OHHHH
OMFG
Bedi is back and for Chapter 3 no less!?!? I'm never complaining about anything again this is everything I wanted
Also, it mildly amuses me that in group shots ot's always so obvious just how tall Bedi is haha.
I recently found a Bedi artwork by Tenkuu Sphere, the main illustrator for Bedi in FGO that actually shows the back of his armor in detail omfg I've been making it up for years so that definitely helped :'D
I don't use my tumblr much anymore so if this post breaches containment I don't have to worry about it.
Nobody is transmisogyny exempt. No one. Cis, trans, doesn't matter. It affects everyone. There is no type of bigotry that doesn't affect everyone to some degree, even cishet white men. Some people are notably affected less, but very, very few people will remain completely unaffected (and anyone who does probably has enough money to solve both their problems and everyone else's).
Trans bathroom laws are a prime example of this. They are pretty much explicitly meant to target trans women, but have also led to butch cis women (especially black butches) and any other cis woman deemed "not feminine enough" as well as trans men being harassed or assaulted. And that's transmisogyny! Someone thought these people were trans women and thus assumed they were well within their rights to harm them.
This shit happens all the time. Laws restricting things like housing and other income-based essentials meant to quietly target black people? Poor white people get caught in the net. Misogyny leads to society viewing emotions other than anger and discussion of feelings as "feminine"? Men end up isolated and lonely and depression skyrockets. (I'm old enough to remember the "male suicide rate" talking point from MRAs; misogyny was the root cause all along, aka the thing the evil feminists they argued with were trying to fix.)
I think it's disingenuous to try and argue that certain groups are "transmisogyny exempt". It's not a contest to see who transmisogyny hurts more, trans women are always going to be hurt most, but it's also harmful to others within the community and outside of it. It would legitimately make the world better and safer for everyone if we minimized or even eliminated it.
You push back against transmisogyny because you don’t want your sisters to be harmed by it first and foremost. But in the process you are helping other groups that would be harmed by the same bigotry that affects them. Net positive for everyone. No need to create what's basically another "woke" gender binary by denoting someone as "tma" or "tme".
I did sorta finish the first of the Summer Chelle fits I made.
I really wanna upgrade my coloring skills but I'm stuck...
So I tried to sketch a chibi Bedi but when I was switching to the polished version it just wouldn't. look right.
so I'll leave it as a sketch...
And then decided to draw a hairstyle based off how I'm tying my hair recently. It's gotten longer than it has in a while so it hurts to have it in a high ponytail or buns for too long, so I'm doing this sorta pigtail loops that I call "bunny ear loops" in my head (it's not really an actual bunny ear loop haha, it's just a ponytail not pulled all the way through. So, a kind of loop, and the shape kinda reminds me of bunny ears).
I drew it on my OC Mist, though looking at it now their neck is too long in this sketch.
finally feel like I'm getting somewhere with drawing my OC's summer outfits
Still feeling out how to draw proportions hrrm
trying to draw lately has been really hard for some reason...I have so many attempts on this including trying painting to see if a change in technique works out, but nope. I shouldn't try to avoid if it I really want to learn a prettier painterly style but this isn't the day for it. So my usual line art it is, tho I'm really struggling at the moment. Still, I had some fun adding the details.
The experience of me trying to finish Ordeal Call 2 but event after event keeps appearing so I have to keep putting it aside lol.
There was the Witch on a Holy Night crossover, then the Chaldea Summer Adventure re-run...and now the Arcade collab re-run....so many events pls let me get Gudao out of their mindscape hellhole first -
It's also kinda foul that. I had to pause playing OC2 to play the Witch on a Holy Night crossover and that event involves discovering dead bodies which probably isn't great for Gudao's mental health after OC 2's. happenings.
And then the Chaldea Summer Adventure one is all funny haha shenanigans...kind of a break, sure, but I played OC2 when it ended and I subjected Gudao to the mother of mood whiplashes there.
So he can be spared further mood whiplashing, I'm playing the Arcade event as Gudako instead, which works out because I think I did the original as Gudao.
I feel like I'm hugely rusty drawing art, so this was also practice drawing the Gudas in a way I'm satisfied with. Drawing comics is a way to kick myself in the butt to draw the same character several times and sometimes be silly with it.
bonus silliness/vent as a Filipino witnessing the absolute stupidity that was everything that went down with recent politics, I wish our corrupt politicians a very choke on your own lies
