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wolfertinger666

anyway. new hitchomi art soon

wolfertinger666

winter day (ft Hitomi's momma)

wolfertinger666

gwuhhh I need them to kiss

wolfertinger666

btw I'm trying to ease myself more into drawing backgrounds and scenery plus more character interactions! it's rly fun

(also Hitomi's mom really loves her daughter and makes sure she's extra cozy during the winter)

princington

coffee date

troubledodyssey

Rumira doodles

sulkybender-retired04042026

Your comments mean something even when the author never replies.

Sometimes your comments mean something especially when the author never replies.

sulkybender-retired04042026

exactly this

fluffyblue-multifandommess

[ID: tags say. If you leave a Big Comment and I never reply, please know it's because I was to overwhelmed by love, and forgot how to make words.]

#this this this af

secondtolastrow

I was talking with a friend about KPDH and shame the other day, and at some point he said something along the lines “well yeah, Gwi-Ma controls them with guilt” and I had to stop him and be like. No no no we’re talking about shame here.

And, to be fair, we generally use those words interchangeably!

But they aren’t quite the same. Guilt is the “I did a bad thing” emotion. Shame is the “I am bad” emotion. And KPop Demon Hunters is about shame.

Jinu and Rumi are not the same.

Jinu is a guy who made a selfish deal that only saved himself, spent four hundred years being a demon, proceeded to craft and enact a plan to ratchet the demonic mass murder up in scale to an insane degree (and without Gwi-Ma’s prompting!), gave his best shot at manipulating Rumi, and then added a whole other plan to reveal her most deeply held secret to the world on live television in the most traumatic way possible, including using insecurities she’d told him about in confidence and assaulting her—all so he could stop having to feel bad.

Rumi… lied to her friends some. Oh, and she said something mean when she was feeling cornered and immediately regretted it!

Jinu and Rumi are not the same.

And yet they are.

For Rumi, shame comes from something that doesn’t actually matter. Like, okay, babygirl, you’ve got a skin condition. It still has her spiraling out, building on itself until it’s consuming her—damaging her relationships, her voice, even the Honmoon (by way of those screams).

For Jinu, shame comes from what’s probably the least bad thing he did—but it’s still pretty messed up! I too would feel some type of way if I chose to only save myself from poverty. And because he knows he’s bad and selfish, then he doesn’t try to be anything else, and he doesn’t think about how he’s harming others: yeah, mass murder plan. It only benefits him? That’s just what’s expected from selfish Jinu.

When Mira bluntly says that she can’t wait until the demons are going to be tortured with Gwi-Ma for all eternity, it’s just Rumi with her, cringing. And the first time, I cringed too: Rumi doesn’t deserve that! Rumi is attached to Jinu, and doesn’t want that for him!

And I paused: who does deserve that? What would that… help?

Like, sure, the Honmoon is useful in that it protects people from, again, mass fucking murder but are we really saying we’re into being tortured forever and ever by the guy who preyed on you as a human in a bad situation and has been pushing you to be worse since?

Jinu organizes the Takedown performance. Mira and Zoey reject Rumi, and she runs to him, and he says no we’re both going to be miserable and horrible forever and ever and we might as well fucking die and she is actively suicidal afterward.

Because Rumi is a demon. Rumi is a creature of shame. There’s no saving her.

So she goes to the last thread of a support system she has left, and she says, “Kill me?”

And Celine says, “This is why we have to hide it.”

We.

Which is when Rumi figures it out: they’re the same. Her and Celine and Jinu, drawing from the same well long after it’s run dry, shame boiling them all from the inside out as they try to hide it, try to fight it, instead of just—

Well, as she says not long after: I don’t know why I didn’t trust you to be on my side

That’s the point.

Rumi did bad things. Jinu did bad things. They can still get up and turn around and be something else, because they are not inherently bad people.

Pretty much everyone in this movie fucks up at some point: Celine’s scattering emotional scars all over Rumi’s flashbacks, Mira and Zoey are raising their weapons on their partner, all those other Saja Boys are totally down for soul thieving.

And they are not inherently bad people.

So we were cowards, so we were liars/So we're not heroes, we're still survivors

Celine throws away the sword. Rumi gets back up, armed with the truth. Mira and Zoey start fighting beside her again. The other Saja Boys? They go down choosing to be awful.

But Jinu, my dear walking red flag king, figures out how to be more than selfish Jinu. There is, as long as he chooses it, still hope for even a guy like him.

This is a movie that doesn’t give a fuck about guilt. It is, in its entirety, about how shame is a lying liar who lies.

And I think that’s neat :)

#oh oh oh #saved for later #finish reading #but also I thought of something ant the trains and the disappearance of ppl as we see it is only for the pg rating #when gwi ma and the demons enact their plan they're leading ppl to suicide #the empty train? isn't really empty. it's just full of ppl beyond saving #bc what happens to Rumi when jinus plan unfolds? she asks Celine to kill her #that overwhelming sense of despair and helplessness for a regular human feels tenfold #that level of shame drives you to suicide #drives everyone #makes the whole film that much darker #bc think about it. when Mira and Zoey are also hopeless they willingly walk into the burning fire of gwimas shame #bc death seems to be the only thing they look forward to. only thing that has warmth #and then rumis voice breaks thru the silence of their imminent suicide #waow

cofirot-deactivated20230307

reblog to give somebody a fucking hug because we are all struggling to get through it. solidarity in this tough ass world.

#prev I want u to know when I first rbd this I thought of you 🥹#and wanted to give you a hug I meant to send to u but forgot lol #hugssss ☺️

kingddundo

Some Fionna and Fennel cute fanart, since I was anxious to the last episode and needed some yuri 😭

bobdylanyaoi

2025 stats:

0 dubai chocolate ingested

0 labubus bought

0 episodes of stranger things watched

#WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER #all three won

jonathansimeondoe

I need help finding a polytrix fic on Ao3

It wasn't uploaded that long ago but I can't find it in my history. Around late October - Early December area

It opens with the 3 cuddling on the couch and Zoey brings up the red string of faith, how it loops around 2 fingers. Mira says the red string will just have to figure out wrap around 3 fingers instead of 2.

I'm so sorry if this is vague but I can't for the lofe on me find it

#psa to all my avid polytix fanfic readers #help our sib find their fic #I for one have had too much bs in my life to read any fanfic bc I'm carrying the guilt of my own unwritten/ half finished fics #(but also not really is mostly just life kicking my ass around town)#anyway help them find this!! sounds interesting I'll save it to my mountain of must reads :)#kpdh polytrix #polytrix #polytrix fanfic #kpop demon hunters #kpdh #rumi x mira x zoey #mira #rumi #Zoey

animentality

ani-mana21

Thinking about the implications of this and the idea that Finn was the one who gave Fionna the idea to blame him for the Cosmic Owl's murder.

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wintersoldierfell

this-is-a-podcast-fanblog

the benoit blanc movies show really beautifully how to write a queer character whose story is not centered around their queerness. it's shown that benoit blanc is gay married (to hugh grant!) it's shown that he participates in queer mediums like musical theater and fashion, but none of those things are ever explicitly remarked on. he doesn't have a big coming out scene because he doesn't need one; and the subtle details about him not speaking to his mother, the way he associates a church with homophobia, allows us to draw conclusions about how his family felt about his queerness without making that the sole conflict in his story. the conflict in benoit blanc's story is not that he exists in the world as a gay person, it's that he's always trying to wrangle a bunch of 30 somethings into not confessing to crimes they didn't commit