I don’t have a lot left from back then…this is my longest running digital archive other than my facebook, and I don’t even go on that anymore.
it’s incredible to see how much we’ve all changed. All of the dumb shit I used to say. All of the dumb shit we used to do. The faith I had…it’s been a few years of deconstruction and even now I can’t fully express where I’m at. I feel so sad for the Geenie back then who thought her life relied on listening to a God who guides her every move.
I know you don’t read this anymore but I’ve wanted to tell you for so long how sorry I am. I’m so sorry I treated you like I did. I’m so sorry you were my emotional punching bag. I didn’t go to therapy and realize I was carrying familial patterns and borderline personally disorder until much later in life. I’ve had a raging eating disorder and shit self esteem for as long as I can remember.
I wish I could do it all over again. I wish I could tell you how sorry I am for the way I treated you.
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