The Sorcerer's Office

High Magister Viridian Caldwell (Caldwell from strangers, please) | she/her | Tremere vampire | fictive (anti-endos blocked on sight) | not an RP blog

[emerald-technologist]

Good evening. I am High Magister Viridian Caldwell of Clan Tremere, not that my titles mean anything anymore, I suppose; I'd prefer Caldwell from strangers, but will accept either first name or surname. As stated in the bio, this is not an RP blog; I've recently found myself a fictive in a monoconscious plural system and am attempting to make the best of it. I'm making this blog on recommendation from my system host, Rani, findable at @/a-dragons-journal.

Mostly this is a journaling blog and a place to store posts that are meaningful to me in whatever way. It probably won't be very active at first, but we keep reblogging posts to muir main tagged for me and I think it will be better if I just have my own blog at this point. Essays may or may not end up here at some point, but I suppose we'll see.

Anti-endos blocked on sight. If you want to discuss, debate, or argue about syscourse, go bother Rani on dris blog, and if dre's feeling up to it dre'll debate it with you. If you send messages about it here, you'll just get blocked. If you're very nice about it you might get a redirection to drem, so please just ask drem to begin with.

[outrageauxbonnesmoeurs]

Vintage women being badass. You’re welcome.

[love-as-thou-wilt]

Don’t fool yourself into thinking ladies were demure and silent in the past. 

[just-grasping-at-straws-deactiv]

I would like more female characters being this open

[screenshotsofdespair]

[punksalmon]

worst part of anxiety/ocd is that sometimes your fears actually do happen and you have to wag your finger at i like this still doesn't prove you're right asshole. it's like having a venom symbiote except you don't even get to have gay alien sex

[interested-individual]

A World of Darkness is a normal world to someone like me

[nocturne-nettles]

Dating a Technocrat be like

[emerald-technologist]

Please don't take this the wrong way as I mean it with sincerest respect, but I honestly find it really funny that our first out-of-system source-mate is a Tremere. I propose that we put our clan rivalry aside, in the name of friendship.

Also DJ is unable to front right now for some reason, but he's the one most interested in getting to meet you, so I forward to you his greetings!

-🛡️, Sam of clan Tzimisce

Ahahaha! I wasn’t going to say it out of politeness, but I admit I laughed as well. Fate loves irony, I suppose. It’s a pleasure to meet you! I am more than happy to set old clan grudges aside in the name of friendship; it’s not as though they have much material impact in this world anyhow. I’m glad you feel the same; I know not everyone would (and in many cases I can respect why).

And I appreciate your passing the message - we’ve all had difficulties fronting periodically, it’s no trouble. I look forward to meeting him properly. :)

[thethems]

I was lurking over his shoulder when he wrote that telling him repeatedly "don't fuck it up".

Nice to meet you, I go by DJ, I have more than one source but my main one is a hunter turned ghoul, a plural one at that, fate has a sense of humor.

For some reason a lot of people don't like the idea of a ghoul fictive, so I've been looking for source-mates. Glad I finally found one, and I'm glad Sam bringing up the grudge didn't make problems.

I actually didn't know about the grudge when I first arrived in the system, when we got Bloodlines and Sam didn't want to play because his clan wasn't in there I made the mistake of telling him Tremere sounds pretty similar.

He did end up taking my advice after a while, his character is a Tremere who he's roleplaying as a Tzimisce lying about his clan to avoid the stigma.

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Pleasure to meet you! :) I can’t imagine why people would be rude about the idea of a fictive being a ghoul, I’m sorry that’s happened to you. People will be rude about the oddest things. I was a ghoul myself before I was Kindred, and my headmate Loretta used to be as well, though she has… less than fond memories of the whole thing considering the monstrousness of her former domitor. (Giovanni. You know how it is.) Hunter turned ghoul has to be quite the story - I’ll admit curiosity, but I won’t pry if you’d rather not get into it.

And LOL, I can see that being controversial, especially for a methuselah! That is a fun character setup, though. Sounds like an interesting run. Have you all looked into Bloodlines 2 yet? We’ve been hearing about a friend’s playthrough (if you spotted Goratrix in the replies on this post, him and his system) and it sounds like a much better game than I anticipated.

[thethems]

I actually don't know how it is, sadly, we have high memory separation and I don't know the clans too well. And yes, I was the first in our system to play Bloodlines 2, I ran a Toreador because that was my first domitor, and I got the anarch ending.

To put a long story very short, I was trying to find my childhood friend, Veronica (she's in this system). I thought the blanks must have gotten her, and I was half right, she was embraced by a Volgirre. Apparently she had this ultimatum that I'm either blood hunted or she ghouls me, she tried to get permission to embrace me, but, well, they didn't want a hunter turned kindred, especially with her generation and how young she was.

So, I went by a fast food place on the way to my hunt, and they put some of her blood in my drink. It turns out I'm really easy to blood bond, I was instantly in love.

I've had a lot of domitors, some kind, some horrible. It is what it is. My other half, 🔥, is a lot more angry about things. I only remember a few clans, Vera was a Toreador, bloodline Volgirre, I also worked under a Ventrue and a Nosferatu. I think one was a Tremere but I can't be sure, they always fogged up my memories between masters.

The funny thing is, in about 5 hours I have a game where I'll be playing as my own source. The ST knows me, he's a singlet but he's fictionkin so he knows how it is. Should I keep you informed on how it goes?

Oh, also I made a roleplay blog with our other VtM fictives, we're kind of just playing comedic versions of ourselves as a coterie (even though Sam and I never met in source). It's fun.

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Ah, my apologies! I’ll keep that in mind in the future. In short, the Giovanni are a clan and family of necromancers, and they have a nasty but not unearned reputation for debauchery and immorality. Suffice to say her domitor did not treat her well and when Linking to a dragon spirit broke her blood bond she ran as fast and far as she could.

I see; quite the story indeed. I can’t imagine switching domitors so many times can have been easy, particularly with Dominate memory alteration in play. I’ve had a number of bad experiences with memory alteration myself; it’s not easy to deal with piecing together after the fact, even if the memories are restored (perhaps more so, in some ways). Hopefully things are easier for you now.

I’d be interested in updates! :) The game I play my in-source self in is still running as well, so 🤝. (Coterie of Tremere neonates getting in well over our heads on a regular basis, etc etc.) I can DM you our Discord handle as well if you like; tends to be somewhat less clunky than Tumblr messages.

[thethems]

I'd like that! For now I just need to get my nerves under control for the game, and take our medicine (we're on a pretty strong medicine and we're being hit with withdrawals right now which isn't helping!)

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Very sensible, sorry it’s hitting you hard! Hope you have fun with your game and that your blood chemistry settles down and is a little kinder to you over the rest of the evening. :)

[emerald-technologist]

Please don't take this the wrong way as I mean it with sincerest respect, but I honestly find it really funny that our first out-of-system source-mate is a Tremere. I propose that we put our clan rivalry aside, in the name of friendship.

Also DJ is unable to front right now for some reason, but he's the one most interested in getting to meet you, so I forward to you his greetings!

-🛡️, Sam of clan Tzimisce

Ahahaha! I wasn’t going to say it out of politeness, but I admit I laughed as well. Fate loves irony, I suppose. It’s a pleasure to meet you! I am more than happy to set old clan grudges aside in the name of friendship; it’s not as though they have much material impact in this world anyhow. I’m glad you feel the same; I know not everyone would (and in many cases I can respect why).

And I appreciate your passing the message - we’ve all had difficulties fronting periodically, it’s no trouble. I look forward to meeting him properly. :)

[thethems]

I was lurking over his shoulder when he wrote that telling him repeatedly "don't fuck it up".

Nice to meet you, I go by DJ, I have more than one source but my main one is a hunter turned ghoul, a plural one at that, fate has a sense of humor.

For some reason a lot of people don't like the idea of a ghoul fictive, so I've been looking for source-mates. Glad I finally found one, and I'm glad Sam bringing up the grudge didn't make problems.

I actually didn't know about the grudge when I first arrived in the system, when we got Bloodlines and Sam didn't want to play because his clan wasn't in there I made the mistake of telling him Tremere sounds pretty similar.

He did end up taking my advice after a while, his character is a Tremere who he's roleplaying as a Tzimisce lying about his clan to avoid the stigma.

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Pleasure to meet you! :) I can’t imagine why people would be rude about the idea of a fictive being a ghoul, I’m sorry that’s happened to you. People will be rude about the oddest things. I was a ghoul myself before I was Kindred, and my headmate Loretta used to be as well, though she has… less than fond memories of the whole thing considering the monstrousness of her former domitor. (Giovanni. You know how it is.) Hunter turned ghoul has to be quite the story - I’ll admit curiosity, but I won’t pry if you’d rather not get into it.

And LOL, I can see that being controversial, especially for a methuselah! That is a fun character setup, though. Sounds like an interesting run. Have you all looked into Bloodlines 2 yet? We’ve been hearing about a friend’s playthrough (if you spotted Goratrix in the replies on this post, him and his system) and it sounds like a much better game than I anticipated.

[thethems]

I actually don't know how it is, sadly, we have high memory separation and I don't know the clans too well. And yes, I was the first in our system to play Bloodlines 2, I ran a Toreador because that was my first domitor, and I got the anarch ending.

To put a long story very short, I was trying to find my childhood friend, Veronica (she's in this system). I thought the blanks must have gotten her, and I was half right, she was embraced by a Volgirre. Apparently she had this ultimatum that I'm either blood hunted or she ghouls me, she tried to get permission to embrace me, but, well, they didn't want a hunter turned kindred, especially with her generation and how young she was.

So, I went by a fast food place on the way to my hunt, and they put some of her blood in my drink. It turns out I'm really easy to blood bond, I was instantly in love.

I've had a lot of domitors, some kind, some horrible. It is what it is. My other half, 🔥, is a lot more angry about things. I only remember a few clans, Vera was a Toreador, bloodline Volgirre, I also worked under a Ventrue and a Nosferatu. I think one was a Tremere but I can't be sure, they always fogged up my memories between masters.

The funny thing is, in about 5 hours I have a game where I'll be playing as my own source. The ST knows me, he's a singlet but he's fictionkin so he knows how it is. Should I keep you informed on how it goes?

Oh, also I made a roleplay blog with our other VtM fictives, we're kind of just playing comedic versions of ourselves as a coterie (even though Sam and I never met in source). It's fun.

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Ah, my apologies! I’ll keep that in mind in the future. In short, the Giovanni are a clan and family of necromancers, and they have a nasty but not unearned reputation for debauchery and immorality. Suffice to say her domitor did not treat her well and when Linking to a dragon spirit broke her blood bond she ran as fast and far as she could.

I see; quite the story indeed. I can’t imagine switching domitors so many times can have been easy, particularly with Dominate memory alteration in play. I’ve had a number of bad experiences with memory alteration myself; it’s not easy to deal with piecing together after the fact, even if the memories are restored (perhaps more so, in some ways). Hopefully things are easier for you now.

I’d be interested in updates! :) The game I play my in-source self in is still running as well, so 🤝. (Coterie of Tremere neonates getting in well over our heads on a regular basis, etc etc.) I can DM you our Discord handle as well if you like; tends to be somewhat less clunky than Tumblr messages.

[emerald-technologist]

Please don't take this the wrong way as I mean it with sincerest respect, but I honestly find it really funny that our first out-of-system source-mate is a Tremere. I propose that we put our clan rivalry aside, in the name of friendship.

Also DJ is unable to front right now for some reason, but he's the one most interested in getting to meet you, so I forward to you his greetings!

-🛡️, Sam of clan Tzimisce

Ahahaha! I wasn’t going to say it out of politeness, but I admit I laughed as well. Fate loves irony, I suppose. It’s a pleasure to meet you! I am more than happy to set old clan grudges aside in the name of friendship; it’s not as though they have much material impact in this world anyhow. I’m glad you feel the same; I know not everyone would (and in many cases I can respect why).

And I appreciate your passing the message - we’ve all had difficulties fronting periodically, it’s no trouble. I look forward to meeting him properly. :)

[thethems]

I was lurking over his shoulder when he wrote that telling him repeatedly "don't fuck it up".

Nice to meet you, I go by DJ, I have more than one source but my main one is a hunter turned ghoul, a plural one at that, fate has a sense of humor.

For some reason a lot of people don't like the idea of a ghoul fictive, so I've been looking for source-mates. Glad I finally found one, and I'm glad Sam bringing up the grudge didn't make problems.

I actually didn't know about the grudge when I first arrived in the system, when we got Bloodlines and Sam didn't want to play because his clan wasn't in there I made the mistake of telling him Tremere sounds pretty similar.

He did end up taking my advice after a while, his character is a Tremere who he's roleplaying as a Tzimisce lying about his clan to avoid the stigma.

- 💿

[emerald-technologist]

Pleasure to meet you! :) I can’t imagine why people would be rude about the idea of a fictive being a ghoul, I’m sorry that’s happened to you. People will be rude about the oddest things. I was a ghoul myself before I was Kindred, and my headmate Loretta used to be as well, though she has… less than fond memories of the whole thing considering the monstrousness of her former domitor. (Giovanni. You know how it is.) Hunter turned ghoul has to be quite the story - I’ll admit curiosity, but I won’t pry if you’d rather not get into it.

And LOL, I can see that being controversial, especially for a methuselah! That is a fun character setup, though. Sounds like an interesting run. Have you all looked into Bloodlines 2 yet? We’ve been hearing about a friend’s playthrough (if you spotted Goratrix in the replies on this post, him and his system) and it sounds like a much better game than I anticipated.

[emerald-technologist]

Please don't take this the wrong way as I mean it with sincerest respect, but I honestly find it really funny that our first out-of-system source-mate is a Tremere. I propose that we put our clan rivalry aside, in the name of friendship.

Also DJ is unable to front right now for some reason, but he's the one most interested in getting to meet you, so I forward to you his greetings!

-🛡️, Sam of clan Tzimisce

Ahahaha! I wasn’t going to say it out of politeness, but I admit I laughed as well. Fate loves irony, I suppose. It’s a pleasure to meet you! I am more than happy to set old clan grudges aside in the name of friendship; it’s not as though they have much material impact in this world anyhow. I’m glad you feel the same; I know not everyone would (and in many cases I can respect why).

And I appreciate your passing the message - we’ve all had difficulties fronting periodically, it’s no trouble. I look forward to meeting him properly. :)

[creativepromptsforwriting]

That nonsexual intimacy of just being in each other's spaces, of gravitating towards each other, always subconsciously reaching out to each other. Finding comfort and satisfaction in being close to each other, breathing each other in, existing together.

[drawnsnake]

Big fan of this expression/vibe in a character

+ Edit: THIS!!

[otherkin-confessional]

My Vampire kin feels weird man, i hated being a vampire, i was turned against my will, but now.. i miss my fangs??? But also im incredibly glad im not a vampire any more?? Bluh.

🌌

[emerald-technologist]

I always liked being a vampire, so I can't fully relate on that aspect, but I was stuck with permanent non-retractable fangs where most Kindred can retract theirs, and I always… I didn't hate them, per se, but I found them a little annoying and tiresome. But now that they're gone, it feels like a gaping hole sometimes. It's not unusual to feel strange about lacking even the things you didn't like at the time, I think - especially if you spent years, decades, or centuries with them, it's only natural for it to feel bizarre that they're not there anymore. It's not just you.

[my-dailydreams]

[frontmansdefender]

[gnar-slabdash]

Oh good, now I have a cheat sheet for Uncensored Nate

[teaboot]

I’ve narrowed it down to these three top reasons OP should be allowed to commit arson

[bisexual-engineer-girl]

Walking around with this sheet in hand and pointedly taking it out and methodically searching through it every time I want to say something

[recoiloperated]

This is killing me.

[blockiestone82]

Excuse me, sir, has to be my favorite of the list

[i-suggest-aro]

imagine if people actually took romantic consent seriously. wouldn't it be fucking awesome. i know they never will, but just. take a moment and imagine it with me

[i-suggest-aro]

no more "just give them a chance, maybe you'll end up liking them!", no more "if you're going to reject someone, at least apologize to them!", no more shaming people for breaking up/divorcing, no more demonizing people for rejecting other peoples' romantic advances, no more shoving romance in romance repulsed peoples' face on purpose to provoke us, no more "i know we agreed to just be friends with benefits, but i thought you were going to fall in love with me eventually!", no more "i can fix them" when the only thing "wrong" with them is that they want to fuck without dating.

wouldn't it be nice?

[identitty-dickruption]

my safe clothing items that I wear day in day out for years and years should never break or rip or wear down. the power of friendship should stop that kind of thing