A Blog That Means Nothing

If you want the truth of a person that has no means of popularity in society, you've found the blog to read.

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Catch up time

It’s been quite some time folks, the times of COVID are almost dead and gone, and I have changed my life quite drastically. To say the least COVID-19 cam into my life like a wrecking ball and still continues to casually attack my life to this day. Before, when the pandemic had just begun I started this blog as something to do besides rot in my basement. I obviously never kept up with it. However, I told you a few things about my life; including how school was going, how my boyfriend loved me and lastly about possibly getting a pair of roller skates. I’m writing today to tell you how these things are flipped to a complete 180 degrees.

My grades at school dropped quite quickly once we continued classes online. For some this was no problem, but for most this was a pivotal time in their schooling career. I struggle with class online, I struggle with school in general. Although I stuck with it for awhile, I eventually quit trying. Not putting in effort caused me to withdraw from school for the second time. I just recently decided on this change, quite literally a week ago. You will be surprised to learn that I decided to attend cosmetology school in April. I’ve always had an interest in this; it just never seemed possible due to financial wants and needs. I just was not happy with what my life was turning in to so I decided to make a change and pursue something I’m actually interested in. Overall, I’m happy with my decision to drop out of school and commit to something different.

I spoke about buying a pair of roller skates to reset my life. I said this, because when I was younger I had a pair and they were one of my favorite things. This would have brought me back to a time where my life felt pure and innocent. This never happened, but now that I remember about that idea, I shall make it a priority again. I don’t want my life to be all work and school. I want there to be play too. I also don’t want the play to be just drinking or going out with friends. I mostly drink for my fun and free time. This means I go out once a week. I want to dwindle that down to once a month if I could. I would like to find new hobbies and spend my time doing those things. I would like to continue to write this blog as a hobby as well.

Not only did COVID destroy my educational future, it also changed my love life. My boyfriend at the time of my last blog was so kind to me. However, we quickly drifted apart due to the distance. It was overly hard to be apart for so long, and I don’t do long distance well. There isn’t much to tell other than I was the one that ended things. I think apart of the reason was that I don’t do relationships well. I’ll stick to my sex-tastrophes for now because clearly I am not ready for a relationship. I currently have my eye on someone, but I’m taking it slow and keeping my options open.

Well hopefully I entertained you some. I’m going to go to bed because I have a large day of cleaning tomorrow. Hopefully I can keep you all updated more frequently. If I remember. 

Love ya 

<3 Emilee 

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Me in zoom meetings for class

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What to blog about?

I want this summer to be more than me moping in my basement hoping to find some new adventure. I have spent hours and hours hoping for something to fall into my lap, depression does that to a person. During the COVID-19 crisis I have been so lazy and unkept that I have no idea how to reinvent myself. Does anyone else feel like this?

At this very moment I should be writing a paper on Aristotle and his ethical boundaries and its relation to friendship, but honestly, I couldn’t think of anything worse to spend my time doing. I spent the entire day yesterday completing a project on a book I failed to read. I have to admit, I am piss-poor at doing my homework and studying in a timely fashion. Although I don’t show haste in completing my assignments, I have been able to keep my grades up this semester in all but one class, which I absolutely loathe. I won’t reveal my secret class because I don’t want to get a bad grade on my final because of it.

The difference from me from any other blogger, I don’t want to gain anything from this except for my own maturity and motivation. Motivation has been a huge issue as of late. I have been doing well in school, but I have dwindled in every other part of my life. I mean COVID-19 has given me a lot of reason to stay home and do nothing; I think that I should eventually get up and attend my own life. I am thinking of getting a pair of roller skates; they were my favorite activity when I was a child and I recently saw a gal on social media rocking them so I thought I might give them a try. I don’t want to give them a try just to regain my childhood memories, because no offence, my childhood is so messy that it is not even fond to think about. I want to try to roller skate again to reset my life, to give it meaning besides trying to finish college and having a wonderful boyfriend.

What would you blog about if you had the chance? Because sides of me wanted to make it about my sad childhood and my love life, or lack-thereof. Oh, that’s right, I told y’all already that I have an amazing boyfriend, welp, he is great, buuuuuut he’s my first boyfriend if you don’t count the numerous sex-tastrophes before him. He is the first person to care about me genuinely in my life except for one singular person, who will not be named. How else will I keep you guys intrigued by the details of my boring, yawn filled, regular life? For Pete’s sake, I want to buy roller skates to make my life more interesting.

I should be going to bed. I know I’m a night owl but even 3 AM running on 6 hours of sleep is still a recipe for tired. Thanks for reading, I know I am a lowlife nobody writing a bunch of gibberish that no one wants to hear. Anyway, toodles.

Love you all, even if you don’t love me back,

Emily with three ‘e’s