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Replies will come either tomorrow or the day after. Work is kicking my ass and I have been trying to have a social life? Yuck I know. 

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iMessage || jonathan

john: wait what?

john: are you okay???

john: just text me what hospital and i'll be there sure.

emir: yeah its just a sprained ankle, twisted it the wrong way

emir: director freaked out and had me taken here 🙄

emir: south central. you dont have to do this you know...

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iMessage || Open

[ text ]: so, i might be in hospital…

[ text ]: lets just say stage fighting went a bit wrong today..

[ text ]: since i cant drive, can you pick me up?

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Put a filter on it

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PERFECTION

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alcssandrcx:

she wasn’t expecting it, she was preparing herself to walk but when her feet left the ground her eyes squeezed shut quick as a surprised squeal passed through her lips. putting her face into his chest she sighed softly her eyes staying shut for a bit longer before she opened them looking up at emir. she gave a small nod, “i know..” she answered quietly after a few moments as she did everything to prepare herself for what was to come of the night. she knew it was time for her  to let someone other than john in. someone who wasn’t part of her families lifestyle know what was actually going on. why every action she made led up to her spiral downward. letting out a soft sigh once she was placed down she knotted her own fingers together looking down at her lap, her knees bouncing before emir had sat beside her. turning her head to look at him she let out a deep breath, “i know you have this idea that my family is one of the best and perfect things that could ever be in existence..” she started taking a deep breath. “and i know i didn’t tell you much about why i…” she paused closing her eyes for a second, “about why i broke up with tanner and why for the last couple weeks or so i just haven’t been me..” she shook her head looking back down at her lap. “and to tell you why that is i have to tell you why i left tan.. before i can tell you everything else.” she closed her eyes for a second taking a deep shaky breath now looking back over at him. letting him take that in before she went on anymore.

sitting beside her on the couch, he curled up some as he listened, making it still available for her to curl up with him if she needed it. normally on this couch there was laughter and play fighting happening between them. tonight however the mood was a more serious one and emir couldn’t help but wonder how this was going to change them for the future. “i think your family is perfect compared to mine...” he muttered. she knew of his relationship was his father and step-mother, which was why when he was with the ramos he felt like he had walked into a loving family. however he also knew that it was all a picture and like most family’s they had their secrets. “okay, bambi,” he nodded his head, “i’m listening.” reaching over he grabbed her hand and squeezed softly. 

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The Magicians - S03E13 “ Will You Play With Me? ”

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alcssandrcx:

she let there fingers intertwine her eyes staying focused on that rather than the painful memories her brain was trying to make her focus on, “tanner said the same thing and look where we are now..” she said softly before she shook her head letting out a sigh. looking over at emir now she wanted to laugh, she really did but she couldn’t bring herself to it. she couldn’t even crack a smile at his dramatics. instead she just gave a nod turning her head to look out the window just as they pulled into the parking lot. once they were parked she took a second before his words registered in her mind giving another small nod as she unbuckled her seat belt, “at this point if it wasn’t cleaned i’d probably still want it..” she shook her head opening the car door getting out, or stumbling out a bit. holding onto the car for a bit longer once she closed the door she let the cool air hit against her for a second.

at the mention of her ex, emir just sighed heavily to himself. it wasn’t that he didn’t like the guy he just hated how broken his bambi was over him. since their break up she hadn’t been the same and it hurt him to see her like that. getting out of the car he walked over to her and scooped her up bridal stye before carrying her to his apartment and locking his car behind him. he knew she could walk herself but he needed to be closer to her having gone almost two full days without her. “you know i love you right?” he asked hearing the gears in her mind whirr away knowing what that meant. “and i know you would but it was laundry day and it needed cleaned...” it didn’t take him long to get them into his apartment and shut the door behind them. setting her down on the couch he moved to get them each a glass of water before sitting beside her. he stayed silent knowing that she would speak when she was ready. 

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alcssandrcx:

she gave a nod, “we’re going to because you’re the only person i have left and i can’t push you away too..” she said looking at him for a second tears forming in her eyes before she looked down pushing her hair out of her face, “please believe me.. i’m exactly who you think i am… just with a secret i can’t hide from you anymore.” she whispered voice cracking just a bit. as she took a breath hand running over her face. giving another small nod she knew his words were true but in the moment there was nothing else that she could think of, running, being numb, forgetting everything and everyone for awhile. biting her lip she shook her head, “i don’t know.. i think really bad nachos could possibly be better than whatever the next couple months is going to be.” she muttered more to herself but still gave a nod adding a quick “i know..” to the end of her sentence.

with her words he reached over and grabbed her hand keeping his left on the wheel before squeezing it softly. he wanted to hug her but that was impossible with the fact he was driving. “hey, you can’t push me away. even if you tried you are going to be stuck with me forever. got it?” emir tried to keep his voice light and teasing though the seriousness was still there. “oh these were worse than just really bad...they used spray can cheese, bambi. spray can cheese.” with a shudder he pulled into the parking lot near his apartment and parked his car. “come on,” with one final squeeze to her hand he let go. “i washed your favorite shirt of mine, it’s all yours tonight.”

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How did you and Alessandra met?

“Gather around now children, it is story time with Uncle Emir. I take you back to two years ago when I first arrived on campus, I had just come out of a...dark place in my life and needed a change. Of course being the ever charming and social butterfly that I am, the first weekend I was already hopping from party to party. I believe it was one at the Chi house that I landed eyes on my soulmate. She was with her ex at the time, but that isn’t important details. I don’t remember exactly how we started talking, I think it had something to do with the outfit she was wearing that night or the music that was playing...side note kids, don’t take molly with coke. You won’t remember details about the most important day of your life. A n y w a y. We just kind of clicked. We were laughing about everything and making fun of people while being sassy and the next morning I woke up on the floor in her room and she cooked us three breakfast. Before you ask, no we did not have a threesome, that came after her breakup with Tanner...Bambi is my best friend, my soul mate and my family. She loves me no matter what dramatics I am up to and has shown me that maybe I am deserving of being happy and free in life. I owe her my happiness and I can only hope that I can return the favor.”

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Ever had a pet or a plant? I know if I did they would die

“Oh my dear, please don’t ever have children. I mean I wouldn’t be a great father but at least I can keep a cactus alive… I do have a daughter though, her name is Elphaba after one of my personal favorite musicals. She is a small black kitten, only a few months old and on a very strict no crab diet. Daddy can’t have his princess becoming fat and unable to jump up into her cat castle. Alessandra, the mother of my kitten, and I love her very much and when it comes time plan to put out a five page long application for suitors that will weed out any perfections so our princess will find her perfect prince.”

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You know what's fun? I'm supposed to know lots about you but I really don't so let's play a game of getting to know you better.... what are your 3 favorite meals?

“You mean I get to talk about myself? Oh this is going to be fun! My favorite meals okay...so first thing I’m a vegan, which means no animal products gets ingested into my perfect body. Moving on, to start with there are some vegan nachos in New York City near Columbia’s university that are to die for. Oh! Bambi made some buffalo cauliflower tacos once and now I force her to make them for me once a week...Perfect for a night of drinking. Now last but not least, another confession. I have only been a vegan for a few years now, so for meal number three was back when I was still eating animal products. I take you to Paris and the restaurant Le Meurice, where you can find a medium well duck breast with an orange glaze and peppercorns. God it was orgasm worthy...a true aphrodisiac, worked every time.” 

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alcssandrcx:

she kept her eyes on her hands as they knotted and unknotted themselves, “i mean like i can’t fake a smile, continue to think i have the perfect family, that i’m happy i’m lost one of the greatest things in my life, besides you.” she said shaking her head, “no.. i probably wouldn’t even be here right now if they found out..” she let her mind wander to the thoughts of what could really happen if they did find out and she had to shake her head at the many thoughts and outcomes she had come up with.. closing her eyes she shifted in her seat a bit, “i think we should wait until we’re at your place.. this conversation is definitely not one for when your driving.” she said now glancing over at him, “and please don’t let your mind go to the one place it shouldn’t, right now the only time i’ve been myself was every moment i was with you.” she said softly.

“but we are having this conversation,” he said letting out a heavy sigh trying to divide his attention on driving and her. though part of his mind wandered to a past, to memories that he tried to keep hidden. “well it wouldn’t be the first time someone faked who they were around me...” he turned down a street staying quiet before he cleared his throat. “now i have to say this so just humor me for a second, but you know you can’t keep running from whatever like this. booze and drugs help numb the pain but it will all catch up to you and then you find yourself eating really bad nachos in rehab...” at least his had been vegan nachos as bad as they were. “trust me when i say it’s not worth it.” 

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alcssandrcx:

she let him pull her out of the bar her free hand coming to wipe her eyes, a sad attempt of trying to stop her tears. getting into the car quickly she put on her seat belt, leaning her head against the window watching the sights pass them before she closed her eyes for a second letting the silence overcome them all that could be heard was her small sniffles. her eyes stayed closed until emir broke the silence questioning her words. sitting up in her seat again she looked down at her hands fiddling with her fingers, “i can’t be someone i’m not.” she spoke softly and if it was any quieter emir wouldn’t have been able to hear her, “i can’t continue acting like this person i’m not like i have been for the past couple months.”

emir was silent for a moment letting her words rattle around in his brain. “what do you mean?” his voice was as calm as he could possibly keep it, confusion and fear running through him. what was going on with his best friend that he wasn’t able to see this whole time? “did your parents find out about the fashion internship?” he asked his mind trying to work out what was wrong. part of him was worried that perhaps her words meant that this girl wasn’t really her. the past two years had been a lie and that his best friend wasn’t who he thought she was, their friendship all a sham. 

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the magicians incorrect quotes

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alcssandrcx:

keeping her face pressed against his chest she squeezed her eyes shut as focusing on nothing but emir’s voice. trying to just calm down just by the simple tone of his voice trying to fight the part of her that told her to just push away and run. they stayed like this before she felt him pull back a little her head tilting up as he cupped her cheeks, her eyes filled with tears as she looked up at the male, only being able to muster up a small nod, “please?” she questioned “i can’t do this anymore…” she said softly.

reaching down he grabbed her hand before leading her out of the bar and towards where he parked his car. he only let go of her when he opened the door before walking around and getting in himself. turning the car on he began to drive, not speeding this time, staying quiet for a moment before he finally spoke, asking, “you can’t do what anymore, bambi?” her words at the bar still staying with him. 

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alcssandrcx:

“love you.” she said just before she gave another nod knowing very well he couldn’t see her but still held the phone up to her ear until the line went dead. letting out a breath she slipped her phone back in her back jean pocket now wrapping her arms around herself as she walked back out to the bar quietly asking for a glass of water and sipping it slowly as she waited for emir to show up. each time the door opened her eyes glanced but each time it wasn’t him. she was in a state where she was just about to do what he told her not to do but as soon as she turned emir entered the bar and she froze, eyes locking with his. once he was in front of her, her arms were just as quick to wrap around his waist, her face pressing against his chest as tears welled up in her eyes again, “i..” she cried a bit, “.. thank you.” she said in between her tears.

“shhh,” he said soft enough that it was just for her ears only. “shhh.” it hurt to see her like this. it was never easy to see your best friend break down, but also emir knew what she was feeling. he had seen this on himself so many times before that it broke him knowing how she was destroying herself like this. it was one thing to drink for fun, and another to forget. keeping his arms around her he looked at the bartender and muttered to add her drinks to his tab before pulling away just enough to cup her cheeks.”you want to get out of here? i parked outside...there is a soft black fuzz ball that was playing with a sock when i left. she probably is ready for a nap by now.”