Summary: Kimi Antonelli and YN Wolff have been friends forever and dating for just as long - nothing changes when he makes it to F1.
Requested: Yes / @n1kissingincarslover - maybe for kimi itโs x totoโs daughter and theyโve known eachother since they where 12 obvi since heโs known mercedes since then
Old Posts:
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Posted 424 weeks ago:
liked by:ย lewishamilton, mercedesamgf1, kimi.antonelli and 92,901 others
yn.wolff:ย Kimi won!!!
username: seeing this after kimi signed for Mercedes is insane btw
username: they were babies๐ญ
kimi.antonelli: I won!! *424 weeks ago
username:ย look at them omg
username: Nobody was rooting harder for Kimi than YN
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Posted 392 weeks ago:
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kimi.antonelli:ย YN and Kimi take on Italy
username: LOOK AT THEM
username: they were two apples tall ๐ญ
-> username: They're still two apples tall
yn.wolff: Had the best day ever with you!! *392 weeks ago
username: SCREAMING!!!
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Posted 215 weeks ago:
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yn.wolff:ย It's my birthday !!!
username: happy birthday!! *215 weeks ago
username: Their old posts keep coming up on my tl and I'm sobbing
username: omg the set up, your mum and dad love you *215 weeks ago
-> username: They do but this was all Kimi actually!! *215 weeks ago
-> username: sorry he did all that and they're NOT together?? *215 weeks ago
username: my favs ๐ญ
kimi.antonelli: Buon compleanno caro!! *215 weeks ago
-> yn.wolff: Love you!!! *215 weeks ago
-> username: BABY YN AND BABY KIMI WERE SO CUTE OMG!!
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Posted 205 weeks ago:
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totowolffofficial:ย A successful weekend
username: Did anyone see Toto telling yn and kimi off bc they snuck off๐ญ *205 weeks ago
username: This coming up on my fyp just before the 2025 season
username: YN jumping onto Kimi's back when he won ๐ญ They're gonna be iconic when he makes it to f1 *205 weeks ago
username: I love seeing this in 2025 and reading the lore on kimiyn growing up
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Posted 77 weeks ago:
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yn.wolff:ย Happy Birthday to my most favourite person in the world!! I love you!!
username: HAPPY BDAY KIMI *77 weeks ago
username: stop they were so cute
username: THE CAKE??? *77 weeks ago
username: Oh so they've just always been in love
kimi.antonelli: Grazie, amore mio, non vedo l'ora di festeggiare con te! *77 weeks ago
-> username: STOP ๐ญ he said he can't wait to celebrate with her!! they were adorable back then *77 weeks ago
-> username: pls never pr train my fav couple *77 weeks ago
username: THEY DO KIMI FUNKOS?? *77 weeks ago
-> yn.wolff: lol no I got it custom made *77 weeks ago
username: obsessed with the fact they go all out for each others bday
2025 Season:
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mercedesamgf1:ย Breaking: Andrea Kimi Antonelli to race for Mercedes from 2025
username: as if some kid is replacing the GOAT
-> yn.wolff: 'sOmE kId' stfu
-> mercedesamgf1: YN, please, we've spoken about this
-> username: OH F1 IS NOT READY FOR THIS
-> username: who is she??
-> username: she's toto's kid and Kimi's best friend and she will fight everyone that talks shit about Kimi
username: im not hating yet
-> yn.wolff: Better never start hating
username: Stupid ass decision
-> yn.wolff: Shut up
-> username: I LOVE HER
username: YN fighting every hate comment im acc obsessed
yn.wolff: YES THERE IS THE FUTURE WDC!!
-> kimi.antonelli: In the comments but won't text me back
-> yn.wolff: I'm busy hyping you up omg
-> kimi.antonelli: Grazie ๐ Now text me back.
-> username: Mercedes I'm begging you don't media train them !!
username: the next post is gonna be merc releasing an apology statement for yn
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yn.wolff:ย Race weekends just got even better because KIMI ANTONELLI IS AN F1 DRIVER!!!
username: When I show up to a 'who's kimi Antonelli's biggest fan' competition and YN's already there ๐ถ๐ผโโ๏ธ๐ถ๐ผโโ๏ธ๐ถ๐ผโโ๏ธ *liked by yn.wolff
username: people that only watch f1 and haven't watched kimi advance through the ranks aren't ready for the carnage that is kimiyn
kimi.antonelli: let's goooooo!!
username: as somebody who has been here since they were 15 I have been waiting SO LONG for this!!
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mercedesamgf1:ย Solid weekend from the team, bring on the next race where we will be doubling the size of our photography team.
username: sorry how many team photographers do they have and she used him๐
username: he was nearly late because he can't say no to her
-> mercedesamgf1: We really wish he would
-> username: kimiyn: a pr headache
username: Honestly I thought that f1gossip was just lying but ummmmm apparently not ๐ญ๐ญ
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liked by:ย kimi.antonelli, lando, georgerussell63 and 1,092,901 others
yn.wolff:ย Who needs a professional photographer when you've been training your own personal one since you were twelve ๐คท๐ปโโ๏ธ
username: Iโm actually in love with how she has no shameย
username: i mean they got told off but damn she looks good
username: Jesus she really has trained him I wish my bf took pictures this good of me
ย -> username: wait until you find out theyโre not datingย
ย -> username: WHATย
ย -> username: YOUTE LYING OMGย
ย -> username: wtf do you mean theyโre not dating??
ย -> username: I canโt tell you how much I love breaking this news to the new kimiyn fans ๐ญ so basically her and Kimi have been friends since they were like 12 cos obvs Kimi was in the junior program and Toto wanted him, blah blah blah since they met KIMIYN have been joined at the hip and have given Toto and the media team a headache ever since
ย ย -> username; Iโm sorry I actually canโt believe this like ??? They post each other in pretty much every post, I donโt even post my own bf this much and then every time he was shown on sky sports this weekend she was there๐ญ๐ญ
ย -> username: you think youโre suffering?? Some of us have been here since they were 15 ๐ญ๐ญ
kimi.antonelli: f1 driver โ yn's personal photographer โ๏ธ
ย -> yn.wolff: We both know which gig you preferย
ย -> mercedesamgf1: Yes we do YN, the one were he represents his team to the highest standardย
ย -> username: i know their pr team hates them
kimi.antonelli: Easy to be good at photography when the model is as beautiful as youย
ย -> yn.wolff: You werenโt saying that after my dad shouted at us
ย -> username: what did he say
ย -> yn.wolff: he started ranting in Italian about how my instagram account is not the most important thing, i disagreed but stayed quiet bc he gets VERY Italian when heโs stressed
ย -> username: WTF DO YOU MEAN THEYRE BOT DATING??
ย -> username: listen man I love my friends but wtf did I just read
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kimi.antonelli: P7 in the sprint, P6 in the race! Brilliant weekend in China, ready for more!
username: sorry??? He got points and two out of four of the posts have yn in it
-> username: actually obsessed with them omg
username: I hate these two wtf
username: KIMI GOT POINTS AGAIN!!!
-> yn.wolff: KIMI GOT POINTS AGAIN!!!
-> username: HELLO??
username: not dating my arse
mercedesamgf1: Thatโs our rookie ๐คฉ
-> yn.wolff: More importantly thatโs MY rookie ๐
-> username: admin just sighed so hard
-> mercedesamgf1: So hard.
username: matching outfits and theyโre not together????
yn.wolff: 6TH IN THE WDC, THATโS MY CHAMPION RIGHT THERE
-> username: obsessed with her
-> kimi.antonelli: Grazie tesoro mio
-> username: MY DARLING?????
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yn.wolff: They're trying to media train your favourite driver and your favourite wag
username: donโt media train them !!
username: SORRY DID SHE JUST SAY SHE IS A WAG
username: theyโre not dating surelyย
username: WAG???? AS IN KIMIโS WAG?? AS IN KIMIโS GIRLFIREND?!?!?
username: this is not how she tells us
username: guys calm down, itโs just cos we call her a wag all the timeย
username: this is the most yn way to go public I hate her so so much
kimi.antonelli: And whoโs fault is it that we need media training?
-> yn.wolff: Iโm going to be the bigger person and say itโs both of our faults
-> kimi.antonelli: ๐
-> username: she has a point, if I know anything about these two itโs that he is incapable of saying no to her
-> yn.wolff: @/username: the people get it ๐
-> kimi.antonelli: Please do not encourage her
username: kimi really said ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ๐ง๐ปโโ๏ธ
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yn.wolff: Welcome to Miami
username: her posting the most couple ass looking post despite them not being together is crazy work
kimi.antonelli: Best day with you
username: obsessed with them omg
username: WHAT DO YOU MEAN THYERE NOT DATING
mercedesamgf1: YN, please bring our driver back
-> yn.wolff: He was mine firstย
-> mercedesamgf1: Actually he joined the Mercedes junior program before he was yours, so bring him back
-> yn.wolff: Fine ๐ค
-> username: mercedes confirming kimi is hers wtfย
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yn.wolff: KIMI ANTONELLI IS ON THE PODIUM!! THAT'S MY GUY!!
username: nobody is happier for kimis p3 than yn
username: the least deserving driver
-> yn.wolff: Just cause your fav canโt get on the podium
-> username: I love her
-> username: yes she can fight when it comes to kimi
-> mercedesamgf1: YN, we are all exceptionally proud of kimi but letโs tone it down a bit please
-> yn.wolff: No.
-> mercedesamgf1: Thursday, 8am, media training
-> yn.wolff: Free me from this hell
-> georgerussell63: Ah, this explains the text I just got.
-> yn.wolff: What text๐คจ
-> georgerussell63: Youโre watching the race from my side of the garage next week.
-> yn.wolff: @/mercedesamgf1 seriously!!!???
-> mercedesamgf1: Itโs for the good of everyone
-> yn.wolff: Not to play THAT card but do you know who I am? I'm texting my dad rn
-> mercedesamgf1: Hate to break it to you but the orders came from Toto
-> yn.wolff: Betrayed by my own dad๐
-> username: wtf is this whole exchangeย
kimi.antonelli: Grazie, amore mio!
-> username: he calls her my love and weโre just supposed to believe theyโre childhood friends ๐
username: kimi podium and a date post, what a weekend
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yn.wolff: My guy DNF'ed
username: LMAOOOOย
username: im dead yn have some sympathyย please
kimi.antonelli: I would be lost without your support ๐
-> yn.wolff: I got you ice cream
-> kimi.antonelli: you spent an hour crying over how proud you were off Lando
-> yn.wolff: Yes?
-> lando: thats my girl *liked by yn.wolff
username: poor kimi:((
username: Silverstone was brutal this year but damn did she look good
-> kimi.antonelli: The only highlight
-> mercedesamgf1: Tuesday. 8 am.ย
username: awww kimi:((
username: I know the captions is jokes but you just know she looked after him so good
username: NOT THAT PICTURE YN
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kimi.antonelli: My favourite place is wherever she is ๐ค
username: OMG
username: WAIT ITโS FINALLY HAPPENED OMG
username: crazy that itโs 6am and he posts this like itโs normal
-> yn.wolff: @/username: Imagine my surprise waking up at 7am and seeing this like its normal ๐ง
-> kimi.antonelli: Me posting my girl? Check my instagram, seems pretty normal to me
-> username: the way heโs not even wrong, yn is in more of his post than sheโs not ๐
yn.wolff: โmY fAvoUriTe pLacE iS WhErEveR sHe Is?โ Yeah then why did I wake up alone this morning
-> username: ohhhhh I love thisย
-> username: we thought they were unhinged before, I can already hear Mercedes pr team crying
-> kimi.antonelli: I was getting you breakfast ๐
yn.ln: Oh ok
-> yn.wolff: weโre doing this then
-> yn.wolff: I want it noted this was entirely kimiโs doing for when weโre inevitably dragged into my dads office
-> username: obsessed with all of this btw
-> username: I well had all my bets on yn being the one to hard launch them wtf
username: I MEAN WE KNEW THEY WERE TOGETHER BUT HOLY SHIT WHAT IS HAPPENING
lewishamilton: Happy for you two kids!
-> yn.wolff: Love you, Lew!!
-> username: I always forget lewis has known yn since she was a kid
mercedesamgf1: Weโll see you in the media training meeting on Monday.
-> yn.wolff: donโt be a hater admin:((ย
-> username: never media train the best couple in f1
yn.wolff: I love you so much, youโre my most favourite person ever ๐ฅฐ
-> kimi.antonelli: ti amo, bella
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yn.wolff: Then & Now...my best friend, the man I've loved since we were fourteen, I love you more than anything
username: iM CRYINGย
mercedesamgf1: You know what? Weโre just gonna pretend we didnโt see this one.
-> username: kimiyn is a pr nightmare, you just know they run nothing past the teamย
username: wait stop thatโs so cute, theyโve been together since they were 14 ๐ญ
-> username: theyโre the reason I believe in love omg
kimi.antonelli: Mia bellissima ragazza, sei la luce della mia vita. Ti amerรฒ per sempre. (*see translation: โMy beautiful girl, you are the light of my life. I will love you forever.)
-> yn.wolff: ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
username: im screaming omg this is everything
maxverstappen1: Happy for you both
username: quick every one pretend to be shocked
georgerussell63: Itโs about time
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yn.wolff: Meet Oliver Bearman, my boyfriend's boyfriend.
username: iconic I love them
ย olliebearman: stay jealousย
ย -> yn.wolff: hope your car stops working xoxo
ย ย -> mercedesamgf1: YNโฆ.
ย -> yn.wolff: Yeah yeah I know the drill
ย -> kimi.antonelli: Donโt worry amore, youโre still my favouriteย
ย -> olliebearman: thank you Kimiโบ๏ธ
ย -> yn.wolff: @/olliebearman Crash
ย -> mercedesamgf1: YN!
ย -> yn.wolff: Worth itย
ย -> username: wtf just happened??
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georgerussell63: Do you really want to talk about third wheeling, @/yn.wolff?
username: didnโt expect George to get involvedย
username: obsessed with the fact that they just hang out with George
ย -> username: I always forget that YNโs just been with the grid since she was a kidย
username: HELLO??
username: George is sick of them
username: them flipping George off๐ญ
yn.wolff: Youโre not third wheeling, youโre just our chaperoneย
ย -> kimi.antonelli: Toto said we โcanโt be trusted to get to our obligations on our ownโย
ย -> georgerussell63: I did not sign up for unpaid childcare
ย -> yn.wolff: Perks of the job ๐๐ป
ย -> georgerussell63: Canโt wait for contract negotiations Iโm making you two stay far away from me
ย -> mercedesamgf1: Theyโre your problem now ๐
username: SCREAMING
username: George might do the swap with red bull just to get away from kimiyn๐ญ๐ญ
summary your friends dare you to sext a random account on instagram, who so happens to be dean di laurentis, your worst enemy. despite hating the idea of it, you couldn't deny him, not when he's offering more than you're willing to take.
content SMAU, mature content, sexting, praise, use of pet names, cringe, enemies (but it's one sided), desperate dean, reader has an attitude, and likes being called a brat, lots of teasing, dirty talk with a side of humorย
a/n this is kinda rusty but i had sm fun writing it so i hope you guys enjoy reading it!!ย
vibe rators ๐
al ๐ฆญ:ย alrightย we've come to a decisionย
you:ย ... hello to you too
hans ๐ข:ย hi my sweet angel
al ๐ฆญ:ย there's no time for greetingsย
al ๐ฆญ:ย this is urgent businessย
you:ย i'm scared
you:ย i don't like where this is going
you:ย what did you do al
al ๐ฆญ:ย actually me AND hans came to this decisionย
hans ๐ข:ย i'm only a tad bit involvedย
hans ๐ข:ย it was her plan
al ๐ฆญ:ย you suggested it??ย
hans ๐ข:ย I DIDNT????ย
hans ๐ข:ย i said it would be funย
you:ย i should leaveย
al ๐ฆญ:ย get back here.ย
al ๐ฆญ:ย alright soย
al ๐ฆญ:ย do you remember the bet you lost at tucker's party?
you:ย i don't actuallyย
hans ๐ข:ย look at her trying to escape...ย
you:ย don't gang up on me ๐
you:ย i thought you guys forgot about that
al ๐ฆญ:ย how could we
al ๐ฆญ:ย we finally get the chance to torture our precious pie
you:ย don't call me thatย
hans ๐ข:ย LMAOOย
al ๐ฆญ:ย as i was saying
al ๐ฆญ:ย me and hannah finally decided what we want you to doย
hans ๐ข:ย why am i more nervous than her
hans ๐ข:ย SPIT IT OUT ALREADY
al ๐ฆญ:ย alright man i was building up the suspenseย
you:ย how about girls night and i treat you guys to the most delicious toe curling meals of your lives instead of whatever you have planned โบ๏ธโบ๏ธ
al ๐ฆญ:ย as tempting as that sounds... what we have is More fun
you:ย Fuck me.ย
hans ๐ข:ย i'd love to
you:ย i'm telling your bf
hans ๐ข:ย hey :c
you:ย al baby can you please just tell me i'm dying to know
al ๐ฆญ:ย Fine...
al ๐ฆญ:ย okay so how does trolling some random guy online and making him think you're really into him and that he can get into your pants soundย
hans ๐ข:ย okay now that you phrase it like this it definitely sounds cringe
you:ย Okay
you:ย no
you:ย i'm not doing that
al ๐ฆญ:ย WHY NOT
hans ๐ข:ย it'll be fun hey...
you:ย are you guys crazy
you:ย why would i dm a random MAN that i'm into him.ย
al ๐ฆญ:ย because men suck and they deserve to be humiliatedย
hans ๐ข:ย oh wow โค๏ธย
hans ๐ข:ย love that!ย
you:ย no but seriously why would i do that
you:ย out of all the things i could've done why THAT
hans ๐ข:ย because you're very anti love so weve decided to spice up your love life
you:ย sexting a random man online is going to spice up my love life huh
al ๐ฆญ:ย exactlyย
you:ย do i ever have a choice here...ย
hans ๐ข:ย if you don't feel comfortable you don't have to do it bae
you:ย it's just really embarrassingย
you:ย but it's fine ig
al ๐ฆญ:ย FUCK YEAH
al ๐ฆญ:ย alright wait i'll grab his profile for youย
you:ย scary
hans ๐ข:ย drumroll drumroll
al ๐ฆญ:
you:ย DI LAURENTIS????ย
hans ๐ข:ย yeah...
you:ย oh FUCK no
you:ย we said a random man not fucking dean di laurentis
hans ๐ข:ย AL I TOLD YOU IT WOULD BE A BAD IDEA
hans ๐ข:ย y/n hates him
you:ย he's the bane of my existence.ย
you:ย i'm not doing that
you:ย nope not even gonna entertain the idea of itย
al ๐ฆญ:ย oh come on
al ๐ฆญ:ย THATS WHAT MAKES IT MORE FUN
al ๐ฆญ:ย laugh in his face
hans ๐ข:ย dean is actually very sweet why do you hate him so muchย
you:ย he's a manwhore
you:ย he's fucked every girl on campus
you:ย + he's a DICK
you:ย i don't like him
you:ย on top of the embarrassment i have to shove compliments in his face???!!??
you:ย as if his ego needs it
hans ๐ข:ย im giggling
hans ๐ข:ย c'mon it's not that bad
hans ๐ข:ย besides you'll be doing it from an anonymous account so he wont know it's you
al ๐ฆญ:ย PLS PLS PLS YN PLS ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
you:ย get that ugly emoji off my screen god
you:ย i'm never ever ever ever ever everrrrrrrr doing anything like this ever again
you:ย only once
hans ๐ข:ย ONLY ONCE
al ๐ฆญ:ย YES PLS
you:ย you guys are a little too excited about this
you:ย i need to avenge myselfย
al ๐ฆญ:ย do that later
al ๐ฆญ:ย now go on and text himย
hans ๐ข:ย keep us updated :3
you:ย i hate you bothย
al ๐ฆญ:ย aw โบ๏ธ
al ๐ฆญ:ย luv you tooย
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vibe rators ๐
you: i'm so fucking screwed
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a/n AND THATS IT. this took me so long to fucking do and for WHAT also something is messed up in those ig pics but its too late to figure it out rn... all support is appreciated wahhh i hope this doesn't flops or i'll cry and repost tmr ๐๐
โ๏ธ Warnings: NSFW, Oral (f! receiving)
โ๏ธ Pairing: F!Reader x John Logan
โ๏ธ Rating: Mature, 18+
โ๏ธ Words: 1525
โ๏ธ AN: written for this request. my brother in CHRIST antonio cipriano is so fucking fine like wtffffff. this intially started off differently in my head but when i saw this pic i reworked it cause i am a WHORE for handy men๐ง๐ฝโโ๏ธ xx
โ๏ธ Summary: You're studying at your boyfriend's house when he decides it's time to fix a leaking pipe.
When you woke up in the morning and headed to the hockey house, you had every intention of this being a serious study session with your boyfriend. You wanted to be overly prepared for your midterms; you didnโt need any nasty surprises coming out of it.
However, every time your mind tries to drive your attention back to the open textbook in front of you, your gaze keeps shifting lower, completely captivated by the view on the floor.
Logan is shoved halfway under the kitchen sink.
Heโs wearing a fitted maroon t-shirt that spreads tightly across his shoulders every time he strains against a stubborn pipe. Whenever he lifts his arms, the shirt lifts too, exposing the patch of skin just above where his faded jeans are hugging his waist. You see the patch of hair that leads down his stomach, like an arrow directing you to look at where one of your favourite body parts of him lies.
It's really not your fault. You really did have the best study intentions.
A stray smudge of grease is smudged against his forehead. And his brown curls look messy from rubbing against the bottom of the cabinet. He holds a massive pair of pliers in one hand, propping himself up on one elbow to look up at you with a cocky grin.
โTake a picture, babe. Itโll last longer,โ he teases.
You shake your head out of your daydream, pressing your thighs together and shifting in your seat.
โI might just have to,โ you reply, leaning your chin on your hand. โI forgot about how handy you were.โ
Logan tosses the pliers into the open, rusted red toolbox by his hip.
โYeah, the P-trap was leaking, and Tucker was complaining about the smell. Figured Iโd take care of it. Didnโt realise it would turn you on so much otherwise Iโd have done it earlier.โ Heโs got a stupid cocky grin on his face that he totally deserves to be wearing, youโre practically drooling.
โI never said it turned me on,โ you lie.
Thereโs just something intensely, undeniably, absolutely attractive about seeing him handle tools, the effortless confidence with which he fixes things. You start thinking about all the things in your dorm that you could break, just so you could ask him to come and fix it.
Logan slides out from under the sink, standing up to wash his hands. He turns back to you, leaning against the counter as he dries his hands on a towel.
โYou didnโt have to say it.โ He sets the towel down beside him. โCome here.โ
He curves his index finger, gesturing you over.
โLogan, weโre in the middle of the kitchen,โ you protest weakly, even as you slide off of the barstool and walk over to him. โAnyone could walk in.โ
โGarrettโs out with Hannah, Tuckerโs with Sabrina, and Dean is... well who knows where Dean is but itโs not here,โ Logan murmurs. He hooks his fingers into the belt loops of your shorts, tugging you flush against his chest. The faint scent of motor oil and copper mixed with his clean cologne wraps around you like a vice. โWeโre fine.โ
Before you can argue any further, his mouth crashes into yours. Itโs demanding and makes you completely forget what you were even protesting about. You whimper into his mouth, your hands instantly finding their way into his soft hair and tugging at it.
His hands slide down to rest firmly on your ass. He gives it a little squeeze before giving it a slap.
โYou have no idea how hard it was to focus on that pipe with you watching me like that,โ he murmurs against your lips.
You yelp as Loganโs hands cup under your ass, lifting you up to set you on the kitchen counter. He begins to trail light kisses along the inside of your knee, his hands tightening on your hips.
โLogan,โ you breathe out, your head tilting back, โWe really shouldnโt. Someone is going to-.โ
โI told you,โ he interrupts, his breath warm against your skin as he moves his path higher. โNobody is home.โ
Pulling you closer to the edge of the counter, he pulls your shorts and underwear off swifty.
You lay back, your head resting on top of the long-forgotten textbooks and other stationary.
Logan spreads your legs further, appreciating how youโre already clenching without him even really doing anything.
โLogan~,โ you breathe, your hand reaching down to try and find his head so you can push him into you.
โDonโt worry, baby, Iโll take care of you.โ
He lifts up your shirt, pressing a kiss to your bellybutton before kissing a slow trail down.
When you finally think heโs going to kiss you where youโre aching, he moves to your inner thigh, pressing kisses and sucking on the skin there.
โLogan~~,โ you whine, louder this time. Youโre becoming desperate for it.
โSay my name again,โ he says against your thigh. Heโs so close to where you need him, his warm breath fanning over you.
โLogan~, Logan~, Logan pleaseee,โ you chant.
You bite back a moan as blows on your throbbing clit. He does that a few more times, each time leaning back to admire how your muscles contract.
Before you can beg him again, he finally takes your clit into his mouth. Heโs gentle with it, giving you a soft suck before releasing it. He tongues his way down to your whole, lapping up your arousal.
โMhmm, you taste so good, baby.โ He swipes a finger up between your folds, coating his finger in your arousal. โHave a taste.โ
He leans over, putting his finger in your mouth. Keeping your eyes firmly on him, you suck it into your mouth.
โSee how good you taste?โ He asks, his voice heavy with need.
You hum around him finger and he looks back at you with a proud look on your face.
Pulling his finger out of your mouth, he settles back between your legs. Lewd, wet, sounds fill the large room as he laps at your pussy.
Your back arches and your finders find his hair as he sucks on your clit again.
โYou like that, baby?โ He asks.
โYes~ Iโm dripping wet,โ you respond.
Just as you start to feel the pleasure coiling, the heavy front door swings open, the sound echoing into the kitchen.
โYo! Anyone home? I brought food.โ
Itโs Dean.
Panic hits you like a bucket of ice water. You try to scramble back on the counter, your face flushing a deep, vivid red.
โLogan! Move, itโs Dean!โ You hiss frantically.
Instead of jumping up, Loganโs grip on your thighs only tightens. You canโt help but moan as he licks at you again.
Dean rounds the corner, a brown paper bag in one hand and half-eaten chip in the other. He stops dead, taking in the entire scene. You, breathless and dishevelled on top of the kitchen island, and Logan, face pinned between your knees.
Logan lifts his head to look at Dean, his chin and lips are glistening and thereโs a line of spit connecting his lips to your pussy. You freeze, hiding your face in your hands.
Dean lets out a loud whoop!
โWell, well, well,โ Dean sings, leaning casually against the wall. He casts his eyes over the tools on the floor. โI knew you were handy, Logan, but I didnโt know you offered full-service plumbing. I guess when duty calls...โ
โDean, oh my God, go away!โ You squeak, face still hidden behind your hands.
โHey, donโt mind me! You carry on.โ Dean laughs, completely unbothered. โIn the kitchen? Respect.โ
Before Deanโs even gone, Logan face is already buried back between your legs. ย
โSee ya later, lovebirds!โ Dean struts up the stairs, leaving the two of you alone.
You bite down on your forearm as Logan sucks on your clit again.
โDonโt go quiet on me now, let him hear how wet I get you.โ Thereโs a glint in Loganโs eye, he obviously thrives on this.
The tension leaves your shoulders as Logan works two fingers into you. His tongue presses flat against your clit as he shakes it side to side. It doesnโt take long for the pleasure to build up again, his fingers scissoring and curving inside of you.
Youโre babbling now, trying to find the words to articulate what you need from him, youโre on the edge, youโre so close. But he knows what you need and with one final flick of his tongue, electricity runs through your body.
You see stars under the force of your orgasm. Your entire body jerking as you scream Loganโs name.
He holds you close until your pulse begins to slow, telling you how beautiful you look when you cum.
He slowly pulls back just enough to look at you, a smug look of satisfaction on his still shiny face. He stands up, smoothing his shirt. The evidence of his excitement is clear.
He wiggles his eyebrows at you. Just before youโre about to speak, a loud shout echoes down the stairs.
โHell yeah, Logan. Letโs goooo!โ Dean yells through his closed bedroom door.
synopsis: steve realizes what itโs like to take it slow.
warnings: fluffy smut! first time!smut, steve might have corruption kink but like in a sweet way?, lover boy steve, eventual bf steve, tit sucking, pussy eating, pinv sex, no condom (reader is on birth control), not really proofread
a/n: i wrote this in a trance lowkey like i opened tumblr and wrote like half of it and then finished the other half today. anyways please enjoy! please like comment or reblog if you enjoyed this, it really motivates me to write more โค๏ธ
steve harrington knew what he was getting into the moment he decided to pursue you. he had been with many girls before you, and yeah he might have slowed down after nancy but that didnโt change the fact that steve harrington, had been with a lot of girls.
girls who pushed themselves onto him, kissed him hotly, sliding their tongues into his mouth before he could even say anything. and in no shape or form is he complaining, steve always liked it when he got to kiss a girl. even more when he got to fuck them.
but steve had realized with you, that he had to take things slow. and heโs only done that once, with nancy. the same girl he couldnโt get over of for years.
but when you entered his life, his feelings came crashing unexpectedly. he didnโt know until he made you laugh for the first time, the rarity of your laughter sparked something in his heart he had quite never felt before.
steve knew you didnโt like him much from the start, you mostly avoided him, didnโt acknowledge him around town when steve made eye contact, like you guys didnโt just almost die in the same room twelve hours ago. it actually really stressed him out.
โrobin! she hates my guts. how am i supposed to work with her on a crawl?โ he groaned into his hands, landing in his chair.
โsteve, she doesnโt hate you. iโve told you this hundreds of times, and every time you donโt believe me!โ robin had said, barely paying any attention to steveโs stare.
โhow do you know that? itโs like iโm her sworn enemy and i donโt even know her that well!โ
โand what are your reasons steve?โ
โwellโฆโ
robin quirks her eyebrow, unconvinced already.
โshe doesnโt say hi to me! she only says hi to you and nance and then she does her thing. am i chopped liver?โ
โwell she also doesnโt say hi to johnathan, or will or mike, or literally anyone else and i donโt see them complaining.โ
โbut-โ
โlook steve. sheโs just not comfortable around you yet. me and nance? weโve known her since middle school. you were too wrapped up in king steve stuff, and you were an asshole. she doesnโt like assholes steve.โ
โbut what about us? you didnโt like me either.โ steve pouts this time, looking up from his hands to look at robin.
โsteve we were tortured by russians together. that stuff like has to bring people together.โ
steve chucked, suddenly feeling much better.
so he took a chance and took the time to get to know you. he went out of his way to greet you, to help you, no matter how awkward it was.
steve wasnโt really sure why he went to all this effort either, there was definitely other people in the group that he did not know well, like murray, or el. and maybe that was the sign that his feelings for you were there all along.
but it worked. two months later you regularly greeted him, teased him when he did something stupid, laughed with robin at him. all these things made steve a giddy man, happy to have your attention. and he hated it when it wasnโt on him.
he would get jealous of derek. derek, a middle schooler for making you laugh, for just being a stupid kid around you.
robin had started giving him a look now. a look that steve didnโt realize meant โyou like her idiot!โ
so when steve finally made you laugh all by himself in his car during a crawl, he realized the weight of his feelings. he was in deep, and had been for months.
he asked you out on the spot.
โwhy are you looking at me like that? is my laugh weird or somethingโฆ?โ you looked away, self conscious.
steve immediately disproves that, his mind as clear as it ever been. โwould you go on a date with me?โ
โwhat?โ
steve still thinks of that memory, especially when he misses you.
you accepted his invitation, and steve took you on a picnic on top of the WSQK building, then he kissed you.
not anything sexual, just a long press of his lips to your cheek that he immediately apologized for when he did it. steve had watched how your cheeks flushed, how you smiled brightly after and the way you averted your gaze after.
it was cute. so cute that steve nearly exploded on the spot.
you were shy. shy over a kiss on the cheek.
and god, even though you were blushing a storm, you asked steve to kiss you like that again, and again.
as you and steveโs relationship grew, he had to come to realize that was his favorite place to kiss you. it had always made you the most shy, a stuttering mess instantly at the slightest press of his lips on your cheek. and he could always feel it instantly too, the smile on your face as you immediately screwed your eyes shut.
steve might be obsessed with you. especially obsessed with your shy nature, and how easily you get flustered with him. you hide your face in steveโs chest when he tells you how much he loves you, and you canโt quite make eye contact with him after he kisses you.
it makes steve go all soft in a way heโs never been before, but it also makes him aware of his growing desire for you.
late nights when you held him to sleep, your body pressed against him and your breath softly hitting his neck, he felt like he might go insane.
he thought filthy things always at times like that.
what your moans would sound like as he fucks into you, if you would cry, how your face would look like screwed with pleasure, things like that.
but the one thing that filled his head was the act of being your first, the first to have you like this. the thought that you would want him so intimately, for your first time.
he wanted to treat you good so much. kiss you to distract you from the pain, let you claw his back as he fucked you slow and deep. god heโd do anything for you, anything to make his girl feel good.
he had waited for you to initiate something for months, not waiting to make you uncomfortable. you had been painfully inexperienced (in your words), and steve taught you everything you knew so far. which was just making out and leaving hickeys.
and for steve, unbeknownst to him, was getting closer to you doing so.
the heat that flooded your stomach everytime the two of you would kiss was too much to ignore now. the way his hands would wrap you tight against him, accidentally pulling you against his crotch and making you feel the thick weight of him against your pussy. and god you could really couldnโt get over his kisses.
steve was a hungry man, hungry for kisses that is, and fuck. you loved that. he kissed you always, no matter where or when, or who was around. neck kisses, pecks to your cheek, long drawn kisses to your mouth, literally anything. steve loved physical touch and he somehow always found a way to put his mouth and hands on you.
thatโs what you were dreaming of when you woke up from your nap at steveโs. his mouth. all over. licking your pussy, teasing you. and just when you were getting to dream steve getting ready to fuck you, you woke up.
your eyes fluttered open, your head laid on steveโs chest. you looked up to see steve watching the tv, and felt his arms around you tight. how long had he been there like that?
steve felt you stirring and looked down at you like you hung the stars themself.
โhi pretty.โ
โhow long was i out for?โ you ask, rubbing your eyes. steve loosened his grip on you, letting you adjust yourself to sit up in his bed.
โuhโโ he looks over to the alarm clock next to his bed. โtwo hours.โ
โyou held me for two hours?โ
โyeahโyou were snoring and everything. i didnโt wanna wake you.โ steve bends over, stretching his legs after not moving an inch for the past two hours.
โthanks stevie.โ
steve coos, holding your face with his hands and putting a loose hair behind your ear.
โof course. anything for you.โ
anything? you thought to yourself
god steve would do anything for you. what would he do if you asked so nicely? would he do what he did to you in the dream? suck your clit, make you cum, make you whine and moan on his cock?
the heat from the dream caught up to you, and you quickly bury yourself back in his chest.
steve laughs at your endeavors. โwhatโs going on? you all right?โ
you let a mumbled uh huh, wrapping your hands tight around steveโs middle.
โokay somethingโs up.โ
you look up, meeting steveโs curious eyes then immediately bury yourself back in his chest. โno! nothing!โ
โyouโre blushing.โ
you scoff. โyou donโt know that.โ
โi do know that.โ steveโs hand gently reaches for your head, lifting it slightly so he can take a look at your flushed state. โsee? knew it.โ
you groan, defeated. โdo you really wanna know?โ
โyes? i have to know now if youโre being shy about it.โ
โno judgement?โ
โpromise.โ steveโs gaze turns genuine, and you know heโs no longer teasing you anymore.
โi had a dreamโwhere we had sex. and i want to uhโdo it with you.โ you busy yourself with a loose thread on steveโs shirt, unable to keep his eyes.
โdo it with me?โ steve laughs at your word choice.
โhey! no judgement!โ you pout at steve before he quickly apologizes, putting away his grin. โokayโi want to have sex with you steve harrington.โ
โyouโre so formalโโ
โsteve!โ
before you could say anything else steve promptly stops you, kissing you on the lips.
โi want to have sex with you too.โ
โoh god it really does sound ridiculous when you say it like that.โ you say, groaning in embarrassment.
steve mumbles something before leaning in to kiss you again. this time he moves his lips against yours, hands finding solace in your hair. he tugs you closer to him, hooking your leg over his and putting you on his lap.
you pull away, your lips kiss bitten. โwaitโโ you try to pull away to no avail because steve keeps tugging you closer. you put your hand on his chest to stop him. โwhat were you saying you say before you kissed me stevie?โ
steve looks away, this time heโs the one nervous. โhmm?โ you quirk an eyebrow.
โhahโโ he lets out a huff of laughter. โi said you could just ask me to fuck you.โ
you go silent. โoh.โ
โplease?โ steve asks, his eyes twinkling with mischief. you sigh at his tactics.
you sigh before giving in. โfuck me stevie?โ the words come out fast, ears burning at the vulgarness of your words.
steveโs lips immediately lock onto yours, pulling away to bite and suck at your neck. youโre falling apart on top of him, grounding yourself with a tight grip on his shoulders. heโs licked and left marks like this before, but not with this kind of fervor, like he was a man starved of a meal.
he easily unravels you with his lingering touches, biting your lip to make you open your mouth for him. his tongue enters and youโre already whining for him.
his fingers dance under the hem of your shirt pulling away from you to pull it off. but before he does he stops. โyou sure about this? i donโt want you to feel pressured orโโ
you cup steveโs face with your palm. โiโm sure stevie. i wanted this for a while.โ you peel off your shirt yourself, showing your willingness to steve.
his eyes are hungry, thereโs no lie to that. his eyes look your torso up and down, stopping at the bra that perks your tits up.
โyouโre beautiful baby.โ steve says, stripping off his shirt immediately. his hands travel up your chest, stopping at the peak of your breasts. he looks up at you, silently asking for permission. you give a nod in response.
greedy hands cup your tits, squeezing the material of your bra. steveโs mouth finds a path around your chest, biting occasionally to make you gasp. โsteveโฆโ
โjust hold on sweet girl. i wanna touch you like this.โ steveโs breathless, his eyes heavy. โever been touched like this before?โ
you hold back a moan. โmmโnoโฆonly my own hands.โ
steve groans at your words. โiโm gonna take such good care of you baby. can i?โ his hands brush your clothed nipples, making your back arch toward him.
โoh godโyes steve. please.โ
his hands skillfully unclip your bra. steve is so incredibly enamored with your body, worshipping you in a way that you didnโt know was capable.
the clear devotion steve was showing you had your hand reeling. and you could feel the way steve hardened underneath you, and you held every urge to roll your hips against it.
steveโs mouthing your tits. groping them, licking and sucking on your buds. โall mineโฆโ he groans before going back to kiss them. youโre moaning arching your back so they can fall perfectly in his mouth.
steve groans again before he flips you over on the bed. your head hits his pillows, making you giggle. steve settles in between your legs.
โgonna open your legs for me sweetie?โ you part your legs slowly, reaching for the hem of your sweats. lifting your hips you slide them off, steve helping you to take the rest of it off.
you close your legs when steve tugs your pants off. when he notices this he tuts at you disapprovingly and pulls your knees apart.
your panties are nothing special, just blue with a floral design decorating it. but steve swears heโs in heaven right now, blue is his favorite color on you.
he presses a kiss to your knee before laying down in between your legs. your breath hitches in response.
heโs agonizingly slow, kissing the seam where your panties and thigh meets. then finally kissing your clit softly, and licking your folds through the soaked fabric of your underwear. a pained whine leaves your mouth, catching his attention.
โyou want more?โ you nod your head urgently. steve laughs before continuing, faster this time. โsorry babyโdidnโt wanna go too fast on you.โ
he gives one more open mouth kissed to your swollen clit before hooking the blue fabric off of you. your hips immediately arch up, searching for his mouth, pressure, anything at this point. steve settles you with two hands on your hips.
โgonna help you baby. i promise.โ then he dives. first heโs slow, licking a strip up the length of your pussy before settling a kiss to your folds. he backs away slightly, spreading your pussy wide for him.
just watching steve be so absorbed in eating you out is enough to bring you to orgasm already. and you feel like you might die when steve decides to lock eyes with you, watching you as you fall apart for him.
your eyes roll to the back of your head when he fucks his tongue into you. he stays like that for a moment before capturing your clit with his mouth, sucking softly.
โholy shitโsteve!โ
the fucker is smiling against your pussy.
steve takes his tongue out of you, moving it to kitten lick your clit. heโs putting his fingers in his mouth before he slowly inserts one into you.
โhahโฆoh my god..โ you whine.
steve chuckles at you. โwhat is it? too much or?โ
โnononoโitโs just that your fingers are soโfuckโso big stevie.โ
heโs steadily fucking his fingers in you. smiling in glee at your moans. โever fingered yourself before?โ
โnghโi haveโฆ but itโs never enoughโnever feels good unless i touch my clit.โ
โdonโt worry baby, iโll make you feel good.โ steve presses a kiss to your thigh.
truthfully, steveโs on a high right now. the fact he gets to show you what real pleasure, what a good fucking orgasm feels like for the first time, is driving him insane. god he canโt wait to make you cum.
steve puts his mouth on your clit, adding another finger inside you. he builds up the pressure on your clit, starting with just kissing it before taking it in mouth and sucking it.
the two feelings at once are divine. steveโs mouth is so gentle and he sucks on your clit so well that you feel yourself unraveling. instinctively, your hands reach for steveโs hair, tugging his mouth closer to your clit.
steve groans in surprise, sucking and fucking into you faster. you roll your hips against his face, using him to chase your orgasm. with one last roll of your hips you cum, steveโs name leaving your mouth.
โso goodโฆ.soso good steveโฆโ itโs so quiet, steve can barely hear it but it drives him insane.
steve doesnโt let up, licking every last drop of your pussy until you stop riding his face and let go of his hair. when he comes off heโs smiling and immediately pecking a kiss on yours cheek.
you laugh breathlessly. โyouโre really good at that stevie.โ
he pecks your lips. โif you ask nice enough iโll do it to you every night.โ heโs giving that shit eating smile, and you know heโs really asking for his enjoyment and not yours.
you give him one more kiss, reveling in your taste on his lips before asking him what youโve been wanting all night. โmโ want you to fuck me now stevie.โ
he smiles sweetly. โof course sweet girl.โ
steve gets off the bed, tugging his pants off before you. when he goes to take his boxers off he almost teases you, his eyes sparkling at the way you watch him undress.
โtake it off stevieโฆwanna see you.โ you pout, rubbing your thighs together.
โgod stop saying stuff like that, i wonโt be able to go so gentle if you donโt.โ he says, tugging off his boxers while he approaches you on the bed.
steve tugs you to him, laughing at your yelps. when heโs flush with your core he kisses you softly again.
โi love you.โ
your heart feels all fuzzy at his proclamation, returning the gesture with red cheeks. โi love you too stevie. always.โ
steve reaches for the condoms in his nightstand, but you stop him.
โim on birth control. iโi wanna feel you.โ
โgod baby.โ steve huffs in disbelief. โyouโre gonna drive me insane. letting me fuck you raw like this for the first time. you sure?โ
โโmhmโฆplease steve. please.โ
steve lines himself up with you, pushing into your dripping cunt.
โoh godโฆ..โ you say, closing your eyes.
steve immediately worries. โhey hey hey, look at me.โ you open your eyes barely, squinting at steve.
โyou okay?โ steve strokes your head. โiโll be gentle on you baby. always.โ
โi know. it just hurts.โ steve frowns. โfocus on me kissing you instead okay?โ
he kisses you soft, hands running over your tits. heโs pushing in farther for what seems like hours. fuck how big is he? itโs like heโs splitting you open.
steve bottoms out with a groan, kissing up your neck.
you can feel steve in your tummy, the imprint of him makes sure you can see it too. steve rolls his hips, and the drag of his cock on your walls makes you whine.
the two of you are breathing heavily, lost in pleasure. you begin rolling your hips too, moaning at the feeling of steve deep inside you. he takes a hand to the imprint of his cock through your tummy, pressing down on it. heโs delighted when you whine loud, begging for him to move more.
he thrusts shallowly, trying to get you used to his size. he sets a steady pace, and youโre moaning uncontrollably.
โsteve..please donโt stop..please! feels so good!โ you say, burying your face into his neck.
โfuckโnever will baby.โ he thrusts in deeper this time, and fuck steve is gonna cum soon. youโre too pretty like this, your hair tousled and your mouth agape. youโre moaning so prettily, begging for more, begging to cum, begging him to make you feel good.
there is no need for words to be exchanged, steve can tell youโre close. your moans are getting higher and higher, and when steve flimsily rubs your clit youโre cumming around his cock.
you tighten around steve, and heโs letting his load into you, cumming with a groan of your name. you pull steve towards you, kissing him roughly as the two of you shake in the aftershocks of each others orgasm.
the two of you come to a calm, stopping to meet each others eyes. youโre giggling and press a chaste kiss to steveโs nose.
โthank you stevie.โ
โanytime pretty girl.โ
steve laughs when you cover your face, ears turning red.
โi was seriously balls deep into you seconds ago and youโre shy now?โ
โhey! donโt be mean!โ you playfully slap his chest before pulling him in for a longer kiss.
Pairing: bratty!Steve Harrington x bratty!fem!reader
Word Count: ~1.6k
Summary: Steve has a bad attitude and you're giving him snark about it. Steve is not having any of that.
Warnings: SMUT! Steve is a little mean but like not degrading, reader is snarky as hell, established relationship, unprotected piv(but as usual, I write these with the use of birth control in mind), fingering, semi-public sex ig?(in a car), dirty talking, LOTS of groping
Based on this post by @moonstoneandmoonlightt!!
You roll your eyes as another sarcastic comment leaves Steve's mouth. He's been like this all day, and you haven't been having it.
"Yeah, okay. Another comment from the drama queen of Hawkins." You lean back in the passenger seat of his beamer, crossing your arms over your chest.
"Oh, ha ha." He scoffs, fiddling with the radio station until he finds a song he likes. You look over at your boyfriend. Even when he's being a brat, he still makes your heart completely melt.
You can't help but roll your eyes once more, though, as he gives you a quick look from the corner of his eye, his brows furrowed.
"Keep rolling your eyes and they're gonna stay like that." He mumbles.
"Asshole." You grumble back, sinking deeper into the seat. "If you keep running your mouth I'll make you put it to better use." You say sarcastically, but you don't miss the way Steve tenses up for a moment.
"Aww, did that get you flustered, Stevie?" You coo, your hand coming to his thigh. You don't even remember who snarked the other first, or what it was about. All you know is that Steve has had an attitude lately, and the two of you are both so petty.
You hear his breathing quicken, and his head thumps back against the headrest.
"Go-- get-get in the back." He tries to sound demanding, but you know you caught him off guard. "And what makes you think you're the one in control here?" You tease, trailing your hand further up his thigh.
"You get in the back." You hum. Steve listens, and you don't even know he has something up his sleeve.
"Doesn't matter who gets back here first, it'll have the same outcome." He mumbles as you crawl back there with him.
You hum softly, a surprised gasp leaving your lips when he pulls you down. He places a hand on the back of your head so that you don't hit the door, his love for you still evident despite the bratty, well, everything about him right now.
Steve's lips crash against yours, his tongue immediately sliding into your mouth with fervor. You tug on his hair, trying to take control, but the way he has you pinned against the seat, and the way his hands slide up your body to squeeze your tits, you're done for.
"Steve--" You breathe against his lips, your hands pulling at and threading through his perfect hair with soft sighs every time he squeezes your tits.
"What happened to you being in control, baby?" He hums into your mouth, a sly smirk on his face. If you weren't so damn turned on right now, maybe you'd be able to think of a comeback.
"Sh-shut up, Steve." Your voice shakes, only fueling Steve's stupid ego.
"You're adorable." He mumbles against your lips, pulling away to pull your shirt over your head, kissing down your jaw and to your neck.
"Steve, we're-- oh, fuck, babe." You whine when Steve pulls your bra down under your tits, sucking on one nipple while he thumbs at the other one.
"Look at you, baby. I've barely touched you and you're already whining. Bet you've soaked through your panties already." Steve smiles, speaking around your nipple.
"N-no... Don't be so-- so cocky." You mumble, knowing full well Steve is absolutely right.
"Oh, yeah?" He hums, trailing a hand down your body and sliding it under your jeans. He cups your pussy over your panties, smiling to himself.
"Oh, shut--" You're cut off by Steve's fingers circling your clit through the damp fabric, your head falling back and smacking slightly against the window.
"Jesus, careful." Steve rolls his eyes, his fingers pausing for a moment to make sure you're alright.
"Don't stop." You whine, causing him to laugh softly. "Just making sure you weren't concussed." He scoffs, resuming his motion. He keeps it slow. Enough to make you feel good, to get you wetter, but not enough to get you off anytime soon.
"Steve, c'mon." You whine, arching up towards him, which only pushes your tits closer to him.
"Fuckin' look at you." He whispers, dipping his fingers under your panties to sink his two middlemost ones into you.
"Steve!" You whine. Sure, his fingers are like heaven, but he knows what you want, and he knows how damn bad you want it.
"Gotta get you ready, baby. Stretch you out a little bit, first." He coos, pressing sloppy kisses against your neck.
You tug at his shirt, pulling it over his head and letting out a soft little moan that, unfortunately, Steve hears.
"Aw, you're moaning just from seeing me with my shirt off?" He hums, his tongue falling flat against your neck, licking all the way up to your jaw.
You're panting now, clenching helplessly around Steve's fingers as your hands trail down his chest, reaching down to his belt.
You quickly unbuckle it, trying to push his blue jeans and boxers down in one motion. "Someone's eager." He laughs, but his voice breaks slightly when his cock slaps against his stomach and he feels the cool air on his hot skin.
"Steve..." You pant, desperately trying to push your hips up closer to his leaking cock. "Okay, okay." He laughs, pulling his fingers out of you.
He makes a show of licking them clean, his eyes locked on yours the entire time.
You bite your lip as Steve actually unclips your bra and throws it off, then moves down to your pants. He pulls all the remaining fabric off your body, smiling as he sees the way your already puffy folds glisten in the dim moonlight.
He wraps a hand around his cock, stroking it a few times before running the pink tip through your folds. You gasp every time it catches on your clit, bucking your hips up to try and just get him to put it in.
"Not yet. Tell me you're done being a brat." He grunts, wanting to hear you say it even though he's torturing himself, too.
"You can't be serious." You groan, gripping Steve's shoulder with one hand, the other one sitting limply at your side.
"I'm one hundred percent serious." He smiles, watching your face for the satisfaction of seeing your face of disbelief.
"I'm--" You scoff, rolling your eyes at Steve. "Get it all out now." He coos, causing you to roll your eyes once again.
"I hate you." You grumble. "Love you, too." Steve hums, the stupidest, most cocky smile on his handsome face.
"I'm-- I'm done.. ugh, you're such an ass." You groan, causing Steve to slap the tip of his cock against your clit. You let out a soft whine, letting out a shaky breath before speaking. "F-fine. I'm done-- I'm done being a... a brat." You grumble, any embarrassment from before disappearing as Steve pushes his tip into you.
You let out a moan, wrapping your arms around Steve's neck and pulling him closer to you. He sucks on your neck, his hair tickling your jaw and his hands grope all over your body.
He starts at your tits, then your hips, then your ass, to your thighs, and back up to your tits as he begins to rut into you like he can't help it.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" You moan out, grabbing at his hair with one hand and his bicep with the other.
"That's it. Fuck, yeah." Steve grunts in your ear, kissing up until his lips are all over yours.
"Steeeeeve!" You whine, that coil in your belly already tightening since Steve was fingering you so good just a moment ago.
"Yeah, baby? You like that? Can feel you squeezin' me so tight." Steve hums into your mouth, pressing his entire body against yours in the way he knows you love. The way that you're able to feel every inch of skin against yours, as if you two are so close to completely merging together.
You hold him as close to yourself as you possibly can while your nails dig into his back. Steve gets rougher, his hips meeting yours in desperation with every thrust.
"Steve! Steve, oh-- Sh-shit!" You moan out, burying your face into the crook of Steve's neck. "Please, please, please, please, please." You chant out, gasping for air when he trails his hand down your body to rub at your clit.
"Don't gotta beg for anything, sweet girl." Steve murmurs against your shoulder where he's dropped his head, his hands moving down to grab your ass and lift your hips so that he hits that spot inside you that takes your breath away.
"M'so close. So close." You pant, tears of pleasure brimming your eyes as you wrap your arms around Steve's neck, nails indenting on his shoulders.
"Me too. Fuck, you're so amazing." Steve moans, kissing up your neck and finally resting his face against the skin after a moment of hot kisses.
"Oh my god!" You moan out, eyes rolling back as your orgasm hits you like a freight train. Your legs are shaking, moans spilling from your lips, back arching, and your pussy clenching deliciously around Steve's throbbing cock.
That's the push that sends Steve over with you, his muscles tensing up and his hips halting as his release paints your insides. His cock twitches inside of you as he gives shallow thrusts through both of your orgasms until the pleasure meets the line of overstimulation.
He stops his thrusts, his body going limp on top of yours as he nibbles at the skin of your neck.
Once the two of you have caught your breath, you let out a breathy laugh. "So, was the attitude just because you were horny?" You hum, letting out a soft yelp as Steve gives a nip to the spot that he knows is most sensitive.
"Maybe." He mumbles, letting out a deep sigh.
so sorry for the lack of everything, my birthday was this week so I've been busy. Thanks for reading!
Hi! I hope I'm not too late to order, but I'd love to get a Gator Tillman Whiskey with Orange Juice, cherries, lemon zest, a paper straw and smidge of lipstick on the glass please! ๐
you can call me honey, if you want
pairing: gator tillman x reader
summary: youโre stuck on an undercover assignment with the person you dislike most in the world. should be simple, right? do the work, get your long rap sheet of petty crimes cleared, and get the hell out of Stark County? right?
wc: 6.4k
order up: enemies-to-lovers fic with fake dating, only one bed, opposites attract, and accidental intimacy
tw: explicit smut, fingering, creampie, grinding, dirty talk, praise kink, possessiveness, mildly rough sex, cuddling, strong language, use of the word 'bitch' and 'slut' (not liked by reader), use of the word 'gash' (once), it's gator tillman so don't expect flowery language besides the pet name people.
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a/n: yes i still have so many drink menu orders, but as a heads up i'm combing a lot of them. especially the eddie ones as you guys have some very similar requests!
i hope you enjoy this, i did writing it <3 and i was talking it up to @keer-y lol
"Trust me, I don't like this situation anymore than you do, darlin'."
He says the pet name with exaggerated sweetness, that you know is actually poison.
You drop your duffle by the singular bed in the room.
This wasn't what you signed up for. Some undercover civilian stuff to get you out of a bad rap sheet wasn't supposed to lead to sharing a bed with one of Stark County's finest. A single queen bed in the middle of bumfuck North Dakota. You turn back to look at him, taking a moment to really see him. The way the cheap floral bedspread wrinkles under his hand, the way his eyes track your every move, calculating.
"I'm not your 'darlin'," you say, your own voice tight. "And for the record, this is a fucking nightmare."
You gesture vaguely at the room. At the peeling paint, the water-stained ceiling, and most of all, at the single, lumpy-looking mattress that mocks you both.
He just shrugs, a lazy roll of muscle under his button down. "It's this or sleepin' in the car. So, you can take the floor if you want, but I'm claimin' the bed." He pats the spot beside him, the gesture a challenge. "Plenty of room for a friendly coworker."
The word 'friendly' hangs in sarcasm.
You know this is part of the act. You're supposed to be a couple, after all. A couple perfect for catching this swindler that's been preying on dumb, young newly married folks across the state. A couple that definitely would share a bed. But this is Gator Tillman. The man who arrested you not three months ago for a B&E you mostly didn't do. And for freeing dogs from a kill shelter a month before that. And more than a million other petty bullshit things in between. The man whose career you've made a personal mission to complicate whenever possible.
You cross your arms, leaning against the flimsy dresser. "Wow deputy, real chivalrous of you." Your eyes drift to the window, before walking over and closing the curtains to block out the streetlights.
It was late, you'd just gotten back from the bar where you knew the perp would be looking for his next victims. And when he made conversation, you had him. Gave him the money. He promised you double back. You waited for a confirmation text to meet the next night. It's why you two were here in this shit town, in this shit room. You sit on the edge of the bed, taking off your rings, the cheap engagement ring Gator had handed you at the beginning of all this glinting under the dim lamp light.
"Do I seem chivalrous to you?" He asks, amusement lacing his tone. He hasn't moved from his spot, watching you like a hawk.
"You seem like a pain in my ass," you retort without missing a beat. "But fine. I'm not sleeping on the floor."
You each take turns using the bathroom, you first, him second. You're in some black pajama pants and a band shirt so old the logo has faded. He comes out of the bathroom, showered with his hair out of that stupid slicked back undercut for once.
But the hair isn't the problem.
"You are not sleeping next to me like that." You say flatly.
He looks down at himself, then back at you, a lazy, infuriating smirk playing on his lips. He's in a pair of dark grey boxer briefs and nothing else. His chest is thick with dark hair that tapers down, a canvas of old scars and scattered moles. He's broad in the shoulders, solid in a way that's both irritating and distracting.
"What? This is what I sleep in."
"Okay well, this is not a normal sleeping arrangement. Put a shirt on."
He chuckles, toweling off his hair a little. "But you're my little wife, darlin'. Should be used to this by now." The nickname drips with saccharine venom again, a deliberate barb.
You grit your teeth. "If you want to keep your balls, you'll put on a shirt."
"God, you're mouthy." He turns off the big light, rounding to his side of the bed. The only illumination is the warm, dusty glow from the bedside lamp on your nightstand. He slides under the covers, the rustle of the cheap sheets loud in the sudden quiet. He settles on his back, one arm behind his head. "Better?" he asks, not bothering to hide his amusement.
"What did I just say, Tillman? Shirt."
He sighs, a long-suffering sound that is entirely fake. "Fine, fine. Can't have the little missus all hot and bothered." He says it like it's a chore. He sits up, the muscles in his back shifting as he reaches for the white tank he'd discarded on the floor.
"I wouldn't be your 'missus' if you were the last man in the midwest." You snort, turning off the bedside lamp and getting under the covers. "And 'hot and bothered' is the last thing I'd be. More like 'nauseated and irritated'."
"Coulda fooled me." He's laying back down now, the soft cotton of the shirt covering up the distracting view. The bed dips with his weight, a solid, undeniable presence next to you. "Smart mouth bitches like you always end up wanting a piece."
You narrow your eyes, glancing over at him as you sit up against the pillows. "Excuse me?"
"You heard me." He doesn't look at you. He's staring at the ceiling now, but you can feel the heat of him, the sheer space he takes up. "All that fire, all that fight. It's an act. Underneath, you're just like every other girl. Wants to be put in her place."
You're so stunned by the audacity that for a second, you can't even form words. You just sputter. "Put in my place? You arrogant, neanderthal fuck. You think you're the one to do it? The guy who couldn't catch a cold if it was handed to him in a bottle?"
He sits up now, too, the sudden movement jarring the mattress. The dim light from the parking lot bleeds through the cheap curtains, painting stripes across his face. His expression is hard to read, a mix of amusement and something else, something darker.
"Caught you, didn't I?" he shoots back, his voice low and rough. "Plenty of times. Or are you forgettin' that little joyride you took in my patrol car?"
"Temporary lapse in judgment," you snap, your own anger flaring hot and bright. "A testament to how incredibly boring this shithole county is."
"Is that what you call it?" He shifts, turning to face you fully. "Jesus, you'd be so much prettier if you just shut your damn mouth once in a while."
"And you'd be so much more tolerable if you weren't such a misogynistic pig with a false god complex, who simultaneously cowers like a puppy whenever Sheriff Daddy is disappointed." You're breathing hard, the space between you crackling with a tension that has nothing to do with the case.
His eyes aren't teasing anymore, and if you took a second longer to linger on the flash of hurt across them before a wall slammed down, you might've felt bad. Might've.
But you didn't linger, and you don't feel bad.
"You think you're so smart," he murmurs, the sound vibrating through the mattress. "Think you got everybody figured out. You don't know shit about me."
"I know you're a cop who likes to pretend he's a big shot. I know you arrested me for plenty of shit I didn't do. I know you're enjoying this way too much. What else is there to know?"
You can hear the distant drone of a semi on the interstate, the hum of the ancient AC unit. You're suddenly, acutely aware of the fact that you're in a bed with him.
"Maybe I am enjoyin' it," he admits, his voice a low rasp. He shifts closer, not touching you, but close enough that you can feel the heat radiating from his skin. "Maybe I like that you don't just lay down and take it. Maybe I like the fight."
Your breath hitches. This is not the Gator Tillman you know. This is not the arrogant, posturing deputy. This is something else. Something raw and real and infinitely more dangerous.
"Is that a line from one of those pornos you probably hide under your bed?" you retort, your voice tight.
"Who the fuck has porn under their bed anymore? I use the internet like a normal person," he scoffs, and for a second, the old Gator is back, and you can breathe again.ย
"Lemme guess, some roleplay bullshit? 'Bad Girl Gets Taken Down by the Long Arm of the Law'? Bet you're the type to leave comments too."
A real, genuine laugh escapes him. It's a deep, rumbling sound that you feel more than hear, and it does something stupid to your stomach. "God, you're a bitch," he says, but there's no heat in it. "If you were really my wife, I'd probably have to smother you with a pillow."
"If I were really your wife, I'd have already poisoned your coffee," you shoot back, but the corner of your mouth is twitching. You hate it. You hate that he made you almost-smile.
He shifts again, the mattress groaning in protest. He's on his side now, facing you, propped up on an elbow. The weak light from the window catches the stubble on his jaw. "You wouldn't poison me," he says, his voice softer now, almost thoughtful. "You got more rage in you than that. You'd do it with your bare hands. Wanna know how I know?"
Your throat is dry. "Enlighten me."
"Because you're a doer," he says, his gaze intense, pinning you in place. "You don't just talk shit. You back it up. Like that little stunt you pulled, keyin' my cruiser? You didn't just say you were gonna do it. You waited 'til my back was turned and you did it. That takes guts. And a special kind of spite."
You shrug, trying to look nonchalant, but your heart is hammering against your ribs. "I have no idea what you're talking about, that wasn't me."
A lie, of course.
The memory surfaces, vivid and unwelcome: the metallic scrape of your house key against the pristine paint of his driver's side door. The satisfying series of deep, wobbly lines spelling out a crude, four-word insult. The thrill of it, a small, sharp rebellion in a life that felt increasingly boxed in.
"I'd fuck that rage right out of you if you were my wife. That's what I'd do," he declares, the words a low, possessive growl in the dark. "Just hold you down and fuck you 'til you couldn't remember your own name, let alone whatever stupid grudge you're holdin' against the world. 'til all that fight turns into a real good, honest-to-god whimper."
The room goes dead silent. Every nerve ending in your body is on high alert. You feel the phantom weight of a hand on your hip, the imagined pressure of a body caging you in. It's not an entirely unpleasant feeling, which makes it a thousand times worse.
"Wow," you finally manage, your voice a strangled whisper. "You really are a piece of work, Tillman."
"What?" he challenges, not an ounce of apology in his tone. "You're the one who said I was a pig. Just leanin' into it." He shifts, and the bare skin of his forearm brushes against yours where it rests on the covers.
"Who says I wouldn't make you whimper?"ย
You don't know why the words fall out of your mouth, brazen and defiant. A dare. A challenge thrown into the tense space between you. You blame the close quarters, the stale air of the motel room, the sheer exhaustion of the day that has worn down all your usual defenses.
He freezes. You can feel it in the sudden stillness of the mattress next to you. When he speaks again, his voice is a low, dangerous hum.
"Is that right?"
You turn your head, and your faces are impossibly close in the gloom. You can see the glint in his eyes, the way the corner of his mouth ticks upward.
"Yeah," you breathe, the word barely a puff of air. "That's right."
"Ain't had a lady make me whimper a day in my life," he murmurs, the words a confession or a warning. "Don't think I'd know how to act."
"Maybe you need to learn," you whisper back, your heart a frantic drum against your ribs.
He doesn't answer with words. He moves. Slowly, deliberately, giving you every chance to pull away.
"You gonna teach me?" he asks, his lips now hovering over yours, so close you can taste the artificial strawberry of his stupid vape. "You gonna show me how it's done?"
"Fuck off," you manage, before he closes the last inch.
The kiss isn't gentle. It's not romantic. It's a collision. All teeth and desperation, a battle for dominance that you both immediately lose and win.
His hands are in your hair, tilting your head, angling your mouths together in a way that's both demanding and intoxicating. Your own hands aren't idle. They fist in the soft cotton of his tank top, pulling him closer, a silent order for more.
It's messy, angry, and the single most honest thing that's ever happened between you.
A rough calloused hand is up your shirt before you even realize it, moving up to grab at your bare breast. His thumb circles your nipple, and a gasp escapes your lips, a sound he immediately swallows. He uses the opening to deepen the kiss, his tongue exploring your mouth with a confidence that infuriates you as much as it turns you on.
You arch into his touch, a betrayal of your body that you can't stop.
"God, these tits. Been thinkin' about 'em," he mutters against your mouth, the words slurred and raw. "Since you wore that little dress to the courthouse."
The admission sends a jolt through you. He'd noticed. He'd been looking. You retaliate by biting his lower lip, not hard enough to draw blood, but enough to make him hiss.
"Yeah? See how you like it..." He lifts your shirt over your head, discarding it to the floor before ducking his head down, taking a peaked nipple into his hot, wet mouth. He teases it a little with his teeth. "Look at these perkin' right up for me like a good little slut."ย
The word, meant as an insult, lands like gasoline on a fire. Your hips buck, seeking friction you're not even sure you want.
"Shut the fuck up," you gasp, fisting your hands in his hair, pulling him closer. "Don't call me that."
"What? Slut?" He looks up at you, a smirk playing on his wet lips. "Way you're letting me touch you in a cheap motel bed? Seems like the shoe fits." He gives your other breast the same attention, his tongue swirling, sucking hard until you're whimpering, just like he said you would.ย
The words feel sobering and you squirm away after a moment. "Stop."
"Make me." He says low, challenging, but you aren't playing the game anymore. The haze of lust was clearing.
"I will actually break your nose if you don't get off me, Tillman." Your tone is dead serious.
He freezes, the shift in your mood cutting through the charged atmosphere like ice. He pushes himself up, the smirk gone from his face, replaced by a cautious curiosity. He inhales through his nose, running a hand through his now messy hair.ย
"Alright, alright. Christ." He rolls away, creating a chasm of cold sheets between you two. He lies on his back, staring at the ceiling again, the rapid rise and fall of his chest the only sign of your earlier activity.
You get up, and pad to the bathroom, shutting the door and looking at yourself in the mirror. Shirtless, marks from his mouth probably going to be on your skin the next day.ย
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" You whisper to yourself.ย
Your reflection looks as shell-shocked as you feel. The adrenaline is a bitter taste in your mouth. This wasn't the plan. The plan was to catch a con man, collect your paycheck from the sheriff's department for your "cooperation," and get the hell out of dodge. The plan did not include making out with your sworn enemy on a polyester comforter.
Three knocks on the bathroom door pull you out of your shame spiral.ย
"Look, I'm not gonna pretend to be a good guy here," Gator's voice is muffled by the thin wood. "But I'm not a total fuckin' moron. You said stop. I stopped. So... you can come out now. I'm not gonna jump you again."
The apology is so clumsy, so devoid of tact, it's almost endearing in its own pathetic way.
You open the door, arms crossed over your bare breasts as you look up at him. He's leaning against the doorframe, blocking your exit. He's put the dim bedside lamp back on, and the light casts his face in a warm glow, softening the hard lines. He's looking at your face, not your chest.
"Can I get my shirt?" you ask, your voice flat.
"Was it the slut thing? You know, sassy girls like you usually like being talked down too." He ignores your question.ย
"Well, women are not a monolith." You roll your eyes.ย
Gator quirks up an eyebrow at that, and you can tell he has no idea what you mean.ย
"It means that not every woman likes the same things. Your experience isn't universal. So, yes, the slut thing made me want to deck you." You explain, pushing past him to go get your shirt from the floor.
"Alright, I got it. No more slut talk. What, you like pet names or somethin'? Or like, hell, I don't know, some other mean name?"
You pause, halfway to your shirt. You glance back at him. He looks genuinely curious, like he's trying to figure out the combination to a lock he's been picking at for months.
"You're really something else, you know that?" you say, pulling your faded t-shirt back over your head. The worn cotton is a flimsy shield against the charged air, but it's a shield nonetheless.
"Yeah, I been told," he says, shrugging. He doesn't move from the doorway. "Just, thought before that whole mishap, we were havin' a good time..." He trails off, looking at you. "You kissed me back."
He doesn't say it like an accusation. He says it like he's just stating a fact, trying to understand it himself.
"Maybe I just wanted to see what all the hype was about," you retort, but your heart isn't in it.
He snorts, heading back to the bed. "Hype? That's rich. Roy's got me on a tight fuckin' leash lately. You think I'm out here gettin' tail every night?"
The mention of Roy Tillman's name hangs in the air like a bad smell. It's a reminder of everything that separates you, everything that makes this little tryst not just a bad idea, but a monumentally stupid one.
"I don't think about you at all, Tillman," you lie, climbing back into bed, staying as close to your own edge as possible without falling off.
"Well that's a fuckin' lie and a half." He gets in on his side, leaving a wide, empty valley of rumpled sheets between you. The silence stretches, taut and uncomfortable. He's not looking at you anymore. He's on his back again, hands crossed over his stomach.ย
You lie there, staring at the water stain on the ceiling that looks vaguely like a map of Minnesota. The lingering taste of him is still on your tongue.
"Roy didn't want me on this assignment. But Grant refused to do it cause you threatened to tell his wife he was sleeping with the dispatcher," he says, breaking the quiet. "Said you were 'a woman of loose morals and a disruptive element'. I told him you were just a pain in the ass."
You turn your head to look at him, surprised by the candor. "Defending my honor?"
"Nah. Defending my caseload. You're a loose cannon, but you're my loose cannon for the next seventy-two hours." He turns his head to meet your gaze.
"Why didn't your dad want you on this case?" You ask, softer, turning on your side to face away from him. The honesty of the conversation felt too real to make eye contact.ย
He's quiet for a long minute. So long you think he's not going to answer.ย
"Said it wasn't a good idea. Me and you. Alone. Said you were a 'distraction'." His voice is flat, devoid of emotion. "Told him you hate me more than you hate the law itself. That there wasn't a chance in hell of anythin' happenin'."
A bitter laugh escapes you.
"Yeah, laugh it up. He said I spend too much time n' resources on chasin' some girl around the county for petty crimes just cause I want my dick wet. Well. He used different words. Some better. Someโฆ worse."
The worse is probably about you, but you donโt even want to know.
The unspoken space between you feels even wider now. Roy's assessment, crude as it was, wasn't entirely wrong. There was a focus to Gatorโs attention on you that went beyond professional duty. You'd chalked it up to him being an asshole with a badge, a small-town cop with too much time on his hands.
"He doesn't trust you," you say, a statement of fact.
"He thinks I'm a moron. Always has. Since the day I was born." There's no self-pity in his tone, just a weary resignation. "He ain't exactly wrong."
It's the most honest thing he's ever said to you. It disarms you completely. You're used to fighting against arrogance, against the smug certainty of a man who thinks the world is his to command. This... this vulnerability is a weapon you have no defense against.
"You're not. A moron. Not really." You sigh. "You're an arrogant prick, but you're not as stupid as you act. You did great tonight. We really fooled that grifter. He thought we were head over heels. Your little story about how we met was actually pretty convincing."
You recall the way he'd spun a tale, weaving in details about your "first date" at the county fair, his arm wrapped around you, a perfect picture of domestic bliss. He'd even remembered the faded concert tee you were wearing earlier and claimed you'd met at that same show years ago. A quick, clever lie.
You feel the mattress shift as he turns onto his side to face you again. You're still facing away, but you can feel the warmth of him just behind you, a line of heat in the cool room.
"Did you like it?" he asks, his voice low and rough in the quiet. "The story."
You don't answer for a moment, considering your words. "It had a certain... charm. In a bullshit, small-town fairytale kind of way."
He chuckles, a soft rumble that you feel through the mattress.
"You're not a slut for that shit I said earlier. That's the case, then I'm a slut too. Sometimes I listen to that feminist shit you say, you know? Some of it makes sense." he confesses, the words feeling like he's pulling them out with pliers.
You let out a short surprised laugh. "Well that's a start I guess."
"So what do I call you then? I call you darlin', you hate it. I call you a bitch, you try to swing on me. I call you a slut, you tell me to get the fuck off you. I'm runnin' out of names here."ย
You turn to face him then, the space between you a silent negotiation.
He looks at you, really looks at you, and for the first time, you don't see the deputy or the arrogant prick or the son of the infamous Sheriff Tillman. You just see a guy in a cheap motel room, asking a question.
"Names for what?"ย
He shrugs, a gesture that seems too big for the small space. "Just... when I'm talkin' to you. In here." He glances around the room as if to clarify. "Not on the job. Not for the act. Just... now."
"What about my actual name?" you ask, a challenge in your tone, but without the usual bite.
"You know what I mean. Just a... a name. For you. When we're like this." He gestures vaguely between you. This is a different kind of vulnerability, one he's offering freely.
You think about it. The casual cruelty of the job, the masks you both wear.
"You want to try being nice to me?" you ask, testing the waters.
"Maybe." A small smile plays on his lips. "Might be a novel experience for both of us."
You roll onto your back, staring at the ceiling again. The water stain is definitely Minnesota. "Fine," you say after a long moment.
Callouses fingertips are suddenly tracing the lines of your shoulder, a slow, experimental touch. You don't flinch away.
"Okay... honey?" He asks, the word a question.
You shudder. "No. That's what mean girls call you when they're being passive aggressive."
"I'm not being passive anythin'. 'sides, you get me into some sticky situations..." He moves just a little closer before whispering in your ear. "But I bet you taste real sweet."ย
You push him away, a genuine, surprised laugh bubbling up your throat. "You're unbelievable. That was the most cringeworthy thing I have ever heard."
"Hey, I'm new to this!" He protests, pulling you back against him, your back now flush to his chest. He feels warm and solid and shockingly safe, an arm draped possessively over your waist. "C'mon, honey, give me somethin' here."ย
For the first time in your life the word doesn't sound like it's from a condescending girl in the bathroom of a club or an endearing old lady at the grocery store. The way his voice sounds right in your ear when he says it makes your thighs clench.ย
And oh, honey, does he notice.ย
His other arm snakes under you, holding you properly now. A wall of warm muscle at your back. His lips brush against the sensitive skin just below your ear, sending a shiver down your spine that has nothing to do with the cold.
"Mmm, think one part of you likes it." He breathes, the words a warm puff of air. He moves from your ear to your neck, pressing soft, open-mouthed kisses along the column of your throat. His stubble scrapes deliciously against your skin. "Just didn't like my shitty delivery before."
"Gator..." you warn, but it comes out weak, breathy. It's a protest that sounds more like a plea. You should stop this. You know you should stop this. But your body isn't listening to your brain. Your head falls back against his shoulder, giving him better access.
"I like it when you say my name like that," he murmurs, nipping gently at your earlobe as his hands move under your shirt, lazily touching your stomach. "Lemme feel those pretty tits again, honey."ย
This is it.
The point of no return. You could still push him away, still say stop. But the word gets caught in your throat. His hands, those rough, calloused hands, feel too good. They're confident and sure as they slide up to cup your breasts, his thumbs finding your nipples and rolling them in slow, torturous circles.
"Mmm, yeah, fuckin' love these. So goddamn responsive." The praise is a low rumble against your back. One of his hands drifts lower, tracing the waistband of your pajama pants. "You want more?"
You can't answer. You can only manage a choked-off little moan, arching your back, pushing your ass back against the hard length of him.
"Oh, you'll get it real good if you keep wigglin' that ass on me." The promise is dark and sinful. He rolls your nipple between his thumb and forefinger, a sharp, pleasurable pain that makes you gasp.
"You're bossy when you're turned on," you manage to say, your breath hitching as his lips continue their assault on your neck.
"I'm the law, honey. Always bossy. Now you gonna let me get this shirt off? It's gettin' in my way."
He doesn't wait for an answer. He pulls it over your head in one smooth motion, tossing it away. He has you pulled right against his chest, one hand toying with your nipple as the other trails down to your waistband again.ย
You squirm against him again and he tugs the pajamas down your thighs, panties and all.ย
You're totally naked against him as his hand cups your bare pussy. He groans, "Fuckin' Christ, that's a wet little thing."
You gasp as he slips two thick fingers between your folds, gathering your slickness before circling your clit with a deliberate, maddening slowness.
"More..." It escapes your lips before you can think better of it.ย
"Oh, I get it now..." You feel his smirk against your skin. "She likes it rough, but she wants me talkin' sweet, huh? Want me to tell you how much I want you? While I finger fuck this tight little gash 'til you scream?"
You can't form words, you can only nod, your hips bucking against his hand. He pushes one long finger inside you, a groan rumbling in his chest. "Suckin' me in so good, honey. Gonna feel so sweet around my dick after."
Your head is spinning. The dichotomy is intoxicating. This is the same man who called you a 'smart mouthed bitch' an hour ago, and now he's murmuring praise as he curls his finger inside you, stroking that perfect spot that makes your toes curl.
He adds a second finger, then after a little work a third, stretching you, the slight burn giving way to a deep, rolling pleasure. "That's it. Take it. So fuckin' wet for me. Been waiting for this, haven't you? All that fightin' and screamin' at me... just a cry for attention."
"Shut up," you gasp, but it's a weak protest, and you both know it. His thumb finds your clit, pressing down, circling in time with the thrust of his fingers. The pace is relentless, designed to overwhelm, to break you down.
"Nah, I don't think I will," he murmurs, nipping at your shoulder. "It's okay, I like your attention too."ย
He pulls his fingers out, and the sudden emptiness is a physical ache. He uses them, slick with your arousal, to push your hips, silently guiding you onto your stomach. You follow, boneless, pliant, a strange sort of trust settling in your chest. He takes his shirt off and moves over you, the hair on his chest a rough, pleasant friction against your bare back.
He spreads your thighs with one of his knees, settling himself between them. His cock, hot and heavy through his boxer briefs, nudges at your entrance.
"Gonna let me fuck you now, honey?" he asks, his lips against your ear. The question is soft, almost gentle, a stark contrast to the raw power of his body caging you in. "I'll make it feel real good. Promise."
You don't answer with words. You just push back against him, a silent, desperate plea. He groans, pushing in the small of your back to get a good arch. "So fuckin' perfect." He hooks a thumb into the band of his underwear, and you hear the rustle of fabric as he pushes them down and off. He runs the tip of his cock through your folds, coating himself in your wetness. "Soakin' for me. All that bark... and all I had to do was learn how to pet."
"You talk so much," you grumble into the pillow, your face burning with a mix of shame and need.
He chuckles, a low, dark sound. "Yeah? Then what about this?"
He thrusts into you in one long, smooth stroke. He's big, bigger than you expected, and the sudden, full stretch makes you cry out, your fingers clutching at the cheap sheets.
The sound you make does make him pause a second, one of his hands coming to the base of your skull, his fingers tangling in your hair, a surprisingly gentle touch.
"You can take it," he murmurs, more to himself than to you. "You can take anything I give you, can't you, my tough girl?"
He begins to move when he feels you push back against him, a slow, deep rhythm that steals the air from your lungs. His other arm wraps around your waist, pulling you up to your knees, changing the angle.
"Feel good? Huh?" He grunts, the words punctuated by the sharp slap of his skin against yours.
The question is rough, demanding. All you can do is moan, a broken, needy sound that feels like a complete surrender. It's not a whimper, not yet, but it's close.
"Takin' it so well, pussy's grippin' me like a fuckin' vise. All that attitude, all that fight... and you just needed a good, hard fuck." He releases your hair, trailing his hand down your spine, leaving a path of heat in its wake before pulling out and turning you over to face him.
He looks down at you, his chest heaving, pupils blown so wide they swallow the warmth of his irises. He looks wrecked. Beautiful. His hair is a mess, falling into his eyes, and there's a thin sheen of sweat on his brow.
He slaps his cock against your clit a few times, the wet sound lewd and obscene in the quiet room, before pushing back inside you with a groan. "This is better," he rasps. "Get to see those pretty tits bounce."
He leans down, bracing a hand next to your head, and starts to move again. This angle is different, deeper. His pelvis grinds against your clit with each thrust, sending sparks of pleasure shooting up your spine.
"Fuck, you're beautiful when you're gettin' fucked," he whispers, and the raw honesty of the compliment hits you harder than any insult ever could.
Your hands move around his neck and you pull him down, kissing him hard as he pounds into you. It's a hungry, messy kiss. He's moving faster now, a rhythm that's becoming erratic, losing its control.
"Gator," you gasp against his lips, a warning and a plea.
"Fuck," he chokes out. "Tell me to come."
You dig your nails into his shoulders, clinging to him as the coil in your belly tightens to an impossible degree. Your vision blurs as the release crashes over you, clenching around him.ย
"M'so close. Where do you want it honey? Where... wherever the fuck you want..." he babbles, clearly lost in the feeling.
"Inside," you breathe, the word a final surrender. "On the pill."ย
With a loud whimper that he muffles in the crook of your neck, he buries himself as deep as he can and spills inside you. You feel the hot pulse of him, a dizzying intimacy that makes your own orgasm peak again, a lingering aftershock of pleasure that leaves you boneless and trembling.
For a long moment, he's murmuring against your neck. "That's it, that's it. Good girl. Fuckin' perfect." The praise is a low, possessive rumble that soothes some deep part of you.
He stays inside you for a beat, then another, the weight of him grounding you in the aftermath. Then, slowly, carefully, he pulls out, the loss an ache. He shifts to the side, pulling you with him so you're tangled together, a mess of limbs and sweat and other things. He doesn't say anything, just tucks your head under his chin and holds you.ย
"I made you whimper." You smile in realization against his chest. It feels like a victory, but it sounds like a confession.
He huffs a small, tired laugh. "I sound dumb as fuck when I finish. Always have. Never made that sound before though. 's embarrassing." His fingers trace idle patterns on your back, a calming motion.
"It was cute," you admit. You feel your entire face flush with heat. Did you really just say that? Out loud? To Gator Tillman of all people? You blame the post-orgasm haze.
"Cute, huh? Glad to know I'm cute when I'm emptying my balls into you. That's not the usual feedback." His voice is laced with more amusement than usual.
"There's that wonderful way with words again," you retort, but there's no sting. You're too tired, too sated to muster up the energy for a proper fight. You burrow deeper into his warmth, the solid, hairy expanse of his chest an unexpected comfort.
"Just what I'm like when I'm trying to impress a girl."
"Are you trying?" you snort
"Honey," he says, and the word still makes your thighs clench, "I've been tryin' to figure out how to get in your pants since the day you spit in my face at the station."
The memory floods back. The too-bright fluorescent lights of the interview room. He'd cornered you, leaning over the table, all smug superiority and cheap cologne, and you'd spat, a direct, defiant act of contempt.
"You think you woulda got away with half the shit you pulled if I wasn't sweet on you in some way? Please." He's running a hand through your hair now, and the gesture is so gentle, so domestic, it feels more intimate than the sex. "Roy about had my balls for that one. Told me you were 'feral' and I needed to put you down."
"Put me down?" you lift your head, looking at him.
"Yeah well. He's got his methods and I got mine. Can be as feral as you want if you let me fuck it outta ya every now and again."
He's grinning now, the familiar, infuriating smirk, but it's different now. Softened. You can see the way the lines crinkle around his eyes. It's the same look he gets when he's won, but the prize is different.
"You're an idiot," you say, but you don't move away. "I'm not gonna be some obedient little--"ย
He kissed you hard before whispering against your lips. "If you ever become obedient, I'll be so fuckin' pissed at you."
The admission floors you. This whole thing, this rivalry, this endless dance of push and pull... it's the foreplay. The fight is the whole point.
You don't know what to say to that, so you just kiss him again.
Different anon, but to follow up, whatโre your thoughts on perv!eddie?
GOD I HAVE SO MANY. so so many.
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
teaches you how to kiss properly. slow. messy. lets you practice sucking his tongue and licking into his mouth while he palms himself underneath the table where you canโt see. โthatโs it, baby. youโre such a fast learner,โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
jerks off into your dirty panties like itโs a scheduled event. folds them up, presses them to his nose, and grinds into his hand while moaning your name into his pillow. โfuckโfuck, baby, it still smells like youโโ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
takes pictures of your tits while you sleep. not even nudes โ just soft, messy, blanket half off kind of pics. blurry flash photos at 2 a.m. with his cock in his fist and a guilty smile on his face. saves them in a locked folder labeled โhomework.โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
convinces you to let him to off on you. not your tits. not your stomach. you. thighs, back, cheek โ anywhere. he says itโs โcause youโre so pretty he canโt help it. but really, itโs because seeing his cum on your skin makes him feel like he owns you.
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
gets rock hard just from you calling him out. you pull his hand out from under your skirt and say โjesus, eddie, youโre so grossโ โ and he smiles. eyes blown wide, lips parted, cock twitching in his jeans. โyouโre just now figuring that out?โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
asks you to let him just put the tip in your ass, swears itโs just to see what it feels like. heโs panting already, thumbing at the stretch, whining โyouโre so tight back here, baby, f-fuckโjust wanna feel you squeeze.โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
asks if youโll let him hump between your cheeks the first time you say youโre not ready to take him there. โsโfine, sweetheart, reallyโjust lemme fuck โem, yeah? promise Iโll be good.โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
calls you bunny in that sweet, sugary tone right before he ruins you โ โsโthat all it takes, bunny? just a few fingers and now youโre all dumb for me?โ while you nod with glassy eyes and moan into his palm.
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
makes you repeat โiโm your bunny, i donโt need to thinkโ while the chubby head of his cock bullies your cervix, his voice wrecked and filthy as he praises you for taking it โ โthatโs it, dumb girl, you love this cock, huh? my bunny loves it stupid.โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
asks if he can practice tying you up โ โjust for DnD, swear, need to make sure I get the knots right.โ and when you let him, he spends way too long adjusting the rope, murmuring โyouโre so pretty like this, bunny. you donโt even know.โ
โถ perv!eddie whoโฆ
lets you straddle his thigh and ride it for the first time because youโre not sure youโre ready to go further yet โ and he just pets your hair and whispers filth in your ear while you grind yourself stupid. โyouโre doing so good, bunny. makinโ such a mess on me. wanna see how dumb you get when i really fuck you.โ
Summary: the two of you are a little too bold, a bit too stupid, and insanely horny when youโre intoxicated. // MDNI
WC: 4.7k
Includes: friends to lovers (kinda?). poor robin has to put up with Steve and readerโs nonsense. smut, with little to no plot. drunk!steve, high!reader. mutual masturbation, dirty talk, cumplay, praise, panty sniffing. no description of readerโs appearance, aside from having breasts and a vagina. gender neutral pronouns. takes place post s5.
A/N: yeah, I know, this isnโt any of the WIPs Iโve been working on, sorry! I actually started this in August, for @stevenoseโs writing challenge, and never finished it in time (obviously), but their high!steve fics inspired me to pick this back up, so everybody say thank u han ๐โโ๏ธ (also pls go read their fics if you havenโt yet!!!) anyway, lazily edited, sorry for any errors lol. hope yโall enjoy <3 (divider from @/diviniyae)
Not too long after Hawkins begins to find permanent normalcy, Robinย finallyย gets her license.
At last, she passed her testโ third timeย reallyย isย the charmโ and that little coveted plastic card of verification is earned.
Turns out, coming within an inch of the world's potential end is a solid motivator to achieve your goals, and now, Robin Buckley is officially street legal.
At first, Robin loves the freedom; a license to drive is liberty to control the music, to roll the windows down as much as she'd like, to use as little or as much heat as she needsโ because lordย knowsย she wants toย crawl out of her skinย when she's overheated with layers on andโ
That's not the point.
Point is, that freedom achingly feels a lot like babysitting right now.
Christ,ย Robin thinks, watching Steve check the glove box for the fifth time; maybeย nowย a pack of gum will magically appear. He frowns when-ย shocker-ย there's no gum.ย Is this how Steve feels driving the kids around?
"No, noโฆ" Steve slurs, now reaching behind the passenger seat, blindly grabbing for you. Any part of you. Because he's way too drunk right now.
And you're way too fucking high.
And Robin-ย bless her heart- the angel that she is with a fresh license, is now regretting her once eager volunteering of being tonight's DD.
"They're stayin' with me, s'too hard driving high."
"You also shouldn'tย driveย while high, Steve." Robin side eyes him, only for a moment, still too terrified to take her eyes off the road for more than a second. "That's just as dangerous."
"Well,ย yeah,ย s'what I said," he giggles, making grabby hands behind the seat at you. You swat them away with a snort, and he gasps. "Breakin' my heart over here."
Robin grumbles something under her breath, but neither of you catch it. Not fully. Something about 'just hook up already'.ย Or maybe you're just wanting to hear that, wishing someone else would validate how you act around one another.
It's been nothing but flirting and teasing and inside jokes with an edge only you two balance on, nothing but this for atย leastย a year. Maybe more. You're not sure when this started.
Honestly, it feels like you're always looking for him in every room, watching his face light up when you find one another. He's always quick to share a blanket with you during movie nights, always lets it slide when you steal fries off his plate at the diner, always waits for you to get inside when he drops you off before driving away, always calls when he's home safe and expects you to do the sameโ you do.
You always answer the phone on the second ring late at night; he's the only one who calls you at ungodly hours after nightmares, or nights he can't fall asleep. You're always asking if he drank enough water or ate when his headaches persist, offering to get whatever he needs. You're always supportive even during his hardest daysโ he returns that support for you, too.
Always there for one another.ย Always.
The car jerks to a stop, gravity shoving you into the back of the passenger seat with anย 'oof!'
Robin looks back over her seat once the car's parked, scolding, "What'd I say about the seatbelts?!"ย
"โฆ To wear 'em," you giggle through a groan, peeling your face off the seat.ย
"Okay, just-" Exasperated, she shoos you both away with a wave of her hand. "Get out of my car, weirdos. And drink water. Aย lot, and maybeโ"
"Okay-yyyyy, mom," Steve whines like a child as he stumbles out first, opening the door for you next. "M'buying you a shot next time. You need it."
"'Kay, next time, you're drivingโ andย onlyย drinkingย water," she retorts while you close the door behind you. "Andย you," she points at you through the open window. "You need to cool it with the weed."
"Oh my god, you really are like a mom tonight," you snicker.ย
Robin rolls her eyes, flipping you both off as you head to the front door.ย
While Steve fumbles with the keys, you rest your head on his shoulder, giggling while he mocks Robin in a voice that soundsย nothingย like her.
"Don't forget to use protection!" She hollers out the window before driving off.
You gasp, albeit a bit delayed, while Steve glances up at you once the door's unlocked, brows scrunched together. "Protection? For what?"
"Ohโฆ" the laughing is back as you both flounder inside, "oh, you'reย soย gone if that went over your head."ย
You'd hoped satisfying the craving of your munchies would be enough to begin sobering you up, but no. Steve is still pretty drunk, too, despite the ungodly amount of pretzels he's inhaled.
"Seriously, what was the joke?" He huffs, one hand on his hip, sassiness surfacing when you giggle. "I don't get it!"
"Dude," you rest your head on the kitchen counter, slumped on the tall stool with your hand lingering in the bagโ second one, nowโ of pretzels. "You can't be serious."
"Protection forย what?" He sips from a glass of water before adding in panic, "Do I need my bat?"
"Notย thatย kind of bat," you mutter, snickering into your arm.ย
"Demo-bats?"
You sit up, waving your arms while your head shakes frantically; this is taking a weird turn. "No, not thโ that's not what I meant!"
"Or regular bats? Those can be scary too if they have rabies. Robin told me about rabies when I got bit by the demo-bats, and that shit'sย noย joke." Steve's just wandering further and further from the punchline. His hands wave around dramatically as he speaks. "And, look, I know they have those cute, tiny faces, but anything can be cute and still be rabidโ"
"Steve!"
He blinks. "Huh?"
"It was about sex!" Embarrassment burns hot under your skin as you shout, arms wide open in disbelief he gotย thisย lost and isย thisย hung up on understanding the passive comment. "Protection! Condoms!ย Hello?"
Steve plants his hand onto the countertop, leaning with his arm supporting him up. His fingers drum on the surface, gulping. Red in the face, he attempts to laugh it off, "Ye- yeah. I knew that."
You tilt your head with a deadpan stare.
"Don't look at me like that."
"Steve, where theย hellย do your brain cells go when you're drunk?" You don't bother hiding your amused smirk. His jaw drops with a scoff.
"Oh, like you're all brains when you're high."
There's no malice in the banter, there never is.
It's a comfortable teasing you've fallen into before the Upside Down was destroyed, to blow off steam. One time too many it came close to some dangerous flirting, but never anything more.
There was always an unspoken line, never to be crossed.
"Didn't say I was, Harrington."ย
You stride over to the sink, filling your glass with more water when his arms slink around your waist from behind.
"You're so clingy when you're drunk," you tease, grinning over your shoulder. He shrugs, resting his forehead against your shoulder.
Steve turns his head, breath tickling your neck, taunting you. "As soon as we hit the couch, you're gonna be just as clingy, like always."
You set your full water glass aside, wordlessly holding your hand up for his. He doesn't move, embrace tightening.
"Steve, c'mon. You know Robin's right about the damn water." He grumbles and gripes under his breath, releasing you only in one arm to reach back to the island counter for his empty glass. You softly thank him when he hands it over.
"Just wanna hug you all the time," he slurs, pressing up against you. He probably hasย noย fucking idea you can feel his bulge, half-hardened against your backside.ย
You bite back a moan, filling his glass with a shaky grip.
"Yeah," you force out a laugh, praying it's convincing enough. "Only when you're drunk."
"No, not only then," he pouts slightly, carefully taking the glass from you. "Thanks, angel."
Steve backs off, swallowing down gulp after gulp of water, while you watch his Adam's apple bob, mesmerized. He misses how your shoulders tense, while tucking your lip between your teeth.
Angel.
Along with the need touches, he only calls you the sweet names when he's intoxicated, too.
Steve finishes off the water with a satisfied gasp, gently pushing past you to fill his glass again. He smirks, eyes fixated on the faucet. "Why'd Robin make that comment anyway?"
He's got to be playing you; he's smarter than this.
In fact, you want to call out his feigned, coy, perplexed demeanor.
Instead, the challenge dies in your throat while your mouth runs dry.
"Whatever," you grumble, heading out of the kitchen. "Are we watching a movie or not?"
The two of you don't make it to the couch.
No, you drop to the floor, to which Steve stumbles into a heap next to you. At least you're in front of the television; perfect access to load a tape into the VCR from here.
Steve does just that, and the two of you fall into waves of comfortable silence, drifting off to allow mindless conversation to trickle in.
This is normal. This is what the two of you usually do on intoxicated nights like these; a movie droning on in the background while the two of you lazily chatter away.
Whatever film is playing offers another generic sex scene, blaring through the TV's speakers. You have no fucking clue what Steve picked out; it's a film from hisย 'borrowed'ย stash, never returned even after quitting Family Video.ย
And, really, it's not like youย care;ย how can you care about anything else while watching a silhouetted version of a couple together, with one going down on the other among the shadows.
No, your train of thought is heading off the rails without a conductor; you wonder what Steve tastes like, then wonder if he'd like the taste of you. Intoxicated and void of a filter, you questionโ
"You ever taste yourself before?"
Steve immediately spits out his water onto the coffee table.
"Sorry,ย what?"
Unfazed by your lack of a filter, you shrug, still lying on the floor. "Like, when you get off. You everโ"
His face contorts into disgust, "What? No.ย Ew, no."
Even through the haze of your high, you're intrigued by his reaction. The smirk on your faceย screamsย trouble. "No? Never? Not even once?"
"Wh- why would Iย wantย to?" Nervously, he's darting his eyes all about, landing anywhere but your own stare. The living room's baseboard moulding, in all its beige, dull glory, sure looksย fascinatingย right now. "Isn't thatโฆ that's gross."
"Says who?"
"Says me!" He's easily flustered, and you refuse to let this go. Leaning back, palms flat on the floor, he scoffs with immense judgment, "Seriously, what on earth would make me want to do that?"
"Curiosity? The heat of the moment? Oh, dude, c'mon." You shift toward him, snorting as he goes rigid. "I've done it."
"Iโฆ I am learningย wayย too much than I can handle right now," he quickly murmurs, running a hand down his face. Yet that sold the conversation for him. "โฆ Why?"
"'Cause it's hot," you wickedly smirk. He doesn't notice your legs spreading, knees bent, presenting a clear view before him.ย
"Well youโ" The accusation leaves his lips before he can think twice, "You're just lying."
Silently, you pop the button of your jeans open, hand slinking underneath the denim. His heart drops while his stomach flips andย oh,ย he thinks,ย this isย notย happening right now.ย
"Wh- what are you doing?"
Is this seriously happening right now?
"Proving m'not a liar."
Yep, this is definitely happening, right fucking now.
"You don't have to do thโ" Steve stops, breath caught in his throat. His eyes drop to your hand, picking up the sound of your finger running through your slick folds, and the airy whimper you release.ย
He gulps as your hand retreats, refusing to blink when the slick on your finger glistens in the low light. Without a second thought, it slips past your lips.ย
His jeans are way too goddamn tight.ย Agonizinglyย so.
Sucking slowly on the digit, your gaze, tinted red and hooded with lust, finds his, fixated on your every move. When your hand pulls away, a string of spit glistens in the low light, still chained to your pouty lips.
"Still gross?" Your tongue darts out, sweeping across your lips after feigning innocence.
Steve forces his head to shakeย noย slowly, stare tunneling in only on you.
"What's got ya' so quiet, then?"
He shrugs, eyes drifting around the room, taking in everything but you. "Iโฆ I'm jus' thinkin'."
"Uh-huh," you coo, crawling toward him. You hover over his bent legs, sitting back on your heels while your hands slide up over the tight denim on his legs. When they reach his knees, you sweep your thumbs back and forth while a devilish smirk curls along your lips. "About what?"
Steve opens his mouth, plans on responding, somehow, withย someย words, maybe, but all that spills out is a whimper as you part his legs gently.
"What you t- taste like," he timidly answers, face flushing redโ still tinted from drinking earlier.ย
"You really wanna find out?"ย
Steve nods, nods so frantically, you're ready for his neck to break.
"Okay." The carefree response has him springing up off his elbows, hands on yours, ready to pounce. Teasingly, you hum, "Hmโฆ tomorrow."
That hopeful, eager expression on his face crumbles at once.
"Tomorrow?!"
"Neither of us are sober enough for this, Stevie." He throws his head back with the most exaggerated groan he's ever pulled. "I know, I hate being responsible too, butโฆ"
Steve lifts his head, hope restored in his dopey, drunk daze. "But?"
Heat floods through you as all self-doubt floats away, lust taking over. "Okay, soโฆ hear me out on thisโฆ"
This crush, this endless teasing and dancing around feelings, could come to an end tonight.
If only the two of you were fuckingย sober.
You're fine with it while high. Steve's fine with fucking around while drunk. But you both know for a first time, between two friends, that maybe this should be handled with care.
Sure, it'd be easier to shake the nerves while under the influence, butโฆ you like Steve too much to not care, to not get it rightโ and vice versa.
That's how the two of you end up back to back on his living room floor, pants pushed down enough to toy with yourselvesโ all under a set of rules, of course.
Those rules are simple enough:
1. No peeking.
2. No touching one another (aside from the position you're already in.)
3. Absolutelyย noย kissing.
There's not much harm in getting yourselves off in the same room, right? You're not watching one another. Not touching. Nothing with crossed wires of intimacy and feelings.
โฆ but, you're listening.ย
You canย feelย his back tense up with every quickย schlick-schilck-schlickย of his cock in his fist, stroking it wildly as you grow more vocal.ย
Your whines, whimpers, little whispers under your breath, it's all enough of a praise to keep Steve going, to release his own symphony of sinful melodies.
"If y'still wannaโย fuckโ w- wanna fuck around tomorrow, we can."
"Only if we'reโ" you gasp while your finger dips between your folds, tracing around your throbbing clit; you throw your head back against his own, jolting from the sudden pressure, all thanks to your own clumsy hand. "Sorry, sorryโย shit, m'sorry."
"If we're sober, ye- yeah, I know," he huffs, already over the rules and your responsibility.ย
He gets it. He respects it. But godย dammit, does he hate waiting like this.ย
"It's good we're not fuckin' around," you pant while you arch into your own touch, glancing at him over your shoulder; a rule quickly broken, but he doesn't seem to notice. "I'd make a fuckin'ย messย outta you, Steve."
A moan thunders lowly out of Steve, strong enough to roll into you. Everything's bliss when you're stoned like this; even just the faintest brush of his body against yours would send you spiraling.
But it's not faint. It's not subtle. Because when he moans, he's digging his heels into the plush carpet, shoving his back against yours.
"Needa'โฆ" he trails off, and it's quiet. He's still. You're ready to turn around and ask what's wrong, but then you hear the obscene way heย spits, probably against his palm; it paralyzes you.
Even just the faintest sounds, hints and suggestions of sin, are enough to drive you to the brink of insanity.
Sure enough, the unmistakable sound of his slick palm stroking along his shaft echoes throughout the room.
"Fuckโ" he gasps, head falling back onto your shoulder. In your peripheral view, you catch his dazed stare as he licks his lips. "Needa' touch youโฆ"
You try to be the voice of reason. "To- tomorrow."
Steve whines, desperate and pouty.
You hope he's like this when he's sober, too.
"No, c'mon, I-" he gasps while bucking up into his fist. "I can be good."
Steve's shoulder blades dig into yours as he arches, lifting off the floor, just by an inch, and only for a second. It feels something like flyingโwrapped up in desire and desperation, writhing over the possibilities of pleasure with youโ or, it's as close to flying as humanly possible.
He collapses against the floor, against your back, with a grunt, and a bonus string of apologies.ย
Your finger curls within your walls, heel of your palm nudging against your puffy clit, breathing out, "โฆ Steve."
He's not sure if it's a prayer or a warning, but he's addicted to the way his name tumbles off your lips already.
"How many fingers you got?"
"O- one."
"Oh, sweetheart," he chuckles darkly. "You're gonna need more than that."
When Steve lifts his head, you loll yours back next. He's so fucked out from the sloppy dirty talk and his wavering thrusts into his fist. His cheeks are red, tint dusting over the bridge of his nose like it always does when he's drunk; the blush brings out the green in his hazel irises.
He's not only inebriated from a foolish count of shots, but drunk over a pussy he hasn't seen, touched, or tasted yet.
"H- hey, we're breaking aโ"
"I don't give a fuck," he rasps out, licking his lips at the sight of your own. "You broke it fi- first."
Heat floods through your face, though you try to play off getting caught with a shrug. There's no room to apologize when Steve's already babbling about something else.
"S'pretty," he slurs, laced only with sincerity. "Can't wait t'fuckin'ย ruinย you."
"N- not if I ruin you first."
Steve Harrington may have grown out of his old ways, but he stillย lovesย a good challenge.
"Guess we'd have to do someโ" He murmurs a thread of expletives under his breath, eyes screwing shut as his strokes pick up. "S- something at the same time. Make it fair."
"Like wh- what?"
He shrugs against you, "I 'unno, get each other off at the same time. Maybeโฆ sixty-nine. Grind against each otherโ whatever it takes you make you come." Almost arrogantly, he adds, "Make ya' squirt, too."
He says it soย casually, that alone makes you squirm, sends your hips rolling against your palm, clit begging for friction.
"Steve, I- I've never squirted before."
"Oh, trust me," he grunts, back shoving against yours again. "You will."
"Fuck," you cry out, grinding onto your hand, feeling soย emptyย with only one finger. "How?"
"M'gonna keep that pretty mouth full while you ride my face," he grins lazily, lips shaping into anย oย as he shudders out shallow breaths. "Suck your clit, stretch you out on my fingers, my tongueโ"
Sharply, you gasp, spine curling while you tilt over his shoulder, just a little. Your own fingersย aren't enoughย for the vision he's planting in your mind.
"I'll keep doing it 'til I find what makes you squirt."
The sheer thought of coming onto his tongue is dizzying, but soaking his face? Jesusย Christ.
"And Iย alwaysย find what m'lookin' for."
Your hipsย shudder, clenching around your finger while biting back a moan.
You're not sure if he's just being a cocky son of a bitch, or if he actuallyย meansย this, but if it leads to his mouth on your cunt come morning, so be it.
"Wanna choke on you," you mumble, ring finger sliding through your slit alongside your middle finger. You gather slick along your fingertips, tilting your head back just enough to give Steve a show. "Would you fuck my face, Stevie?"
His jaw drops, speechless, strokes slowing as you bring your fingers to your lips, kitten licking the gloss from the tips. The sight, theย smell, it's all so fuckingย intoxicatingโ maybe more than the shots he took tonight.
Steve leans close, just enough to rest his forehead against yours, breath fervently hot as it fans across your lips. His tongue darts out, and if he moves even a centimeter closer, he could lick the arousal dripping off your lips.ย
Some way, somehow, Steve finds restraint.
"T'morrow," he whispers, more to himself than you.
He's so close. Soย goddamn close.ย He could kiss you, slot his plush lips against yours, move together with chaotic synchronicity. Dripping spit and your essence and, hell, he could even lick the precum off his hand and slip that into the filthy matrimony of your mouths.
But he won't. He respects you, respects what the two of you have already. He refuses to fuck it up.
You nod, but not without nudging your nose against his. "Mhm, y- yeah."
And you're so lost in the moment, lost inย him, you don't even realize what he's doing as he leans away.
"Whโ Steve, why'd youโ"
You catch it quickly enough; precum dripping down his hand, lapping it up onto his tongue as his stare burrows into your own.
"Fuck.ย Fuck," he whimpers, licking his lips. "S'gross butโฆ but it'sโ"
"Hot. Not gross." Steve's hips twitch at the validation. "I told you."ย
"Ye- yeah, whatever, you're right," he tries to deadpan, but the quiver in his voice exposes just how much it affects him.
Turning away, you smirk, still giving yourself room to steal glances of Steve comfortably.
Rule oneย is long fucking gone.
"Shit," you hiss out, sliding another finger into yourself. "T- two enough?"
Again, Steve chuckles lowly. "Just two? There's no way I'm gonna fit."
He expects you to whine, to beg and try to prove you can handle it, handleย him.
He doesn't expect you to challenge that, either.
"Make me take it," you demand, voice shattering as your toes curl. "Stretch me out, nice n' slow."
"Babyโฆ" He soundsย devastatedย right now. "I- I can't do that to you."
"Sure y'can," you thrust your fingers a little harder, wrist cramping from the bent angle. You power through it, too close to bliss to give up now. "Youโย mnphโย you'd take care of me, yeah?"
Steve spits again, shuddering while his strokes pick up; the things he'd do to watch you get off are nothing short of unholy.ย
"F'course I would," though strained, he manages to respond. "I'd g- go slow. Get y'real wet f'me." Panting in rhythm with his strokes, he adds, "Bet you were soaked before we started this, though."
Through a gasp, you confess, "Almost whenever we're together."
Steve draws out a whine, one that pairs well with his desperate, sloppy strokes.
Somewhere along the way, god knows when, his left hand found your right one, draping over it, pressed against the floor. You only notice when he squeezes it while shuddering outย "H- hahโ fuckโ"ย
Rule two:ย eliminated.
Except you snatch your hand back, and he apologizes, genuinely, but it's not his main concern right now.
Your back rubs up against his as you shift around, with little grunts and incoherent phrases whispered under your breath.
"Wh- what're you doinโ"
Steve feels your hand return to his, but you're holding something.
โฆ Fabric?
"You can keep 'em," you giggle, patiently waiting for it to register in his drunk mind.
There's a sticky, damp spot he runs his thumb over, realizing immediately you just gave him a pair of panties. Freshly torn off your body and damp from how wet you've been all night.
"Whโ holy shit." He grabs the fabric like he's claiming treasure, frantic and greedy as he holds them up, admiring the darker patch of fibers. "Oh my fucking god, oh my gโ"
It happens so fast, too fast for him to both warn you and indulge himself, so he shoves the fabric against his face, inhaling deeply through an orgasm.
"Oh fuck, ohย fuck,"ย he whimpers, muffled by your panties held tightly to his nose.ย
His toes curl and eyes roll back, arching against you one final time, and crying out while losing composure over his strokes. Thick, white ropes spurt out, spilling across his fist, himself, his clothes, the carpet, andโย who fucking cares about the goddamn carpet?
All the while, from where you sit, you miss out on the delicious vision of Steve, mouthing at your panties, tongue lazily flitting and rolling onto the damp spot; the fabric darkens, and his hunger for you only grows.
You hear him chant out your name into the fabric, and that alone is the final thing to light your fuse.
Nearly mirroring his high, your back curves as your hand struggles to stay in place, tightening around your own fingers and grinding against the heel of your palm. You dig your feet into the carpet, slumping into Steve as you push back; he holds steady to hold you upward, panting through his own comedown and aftershocks.
His hand finds your free one when you babble his name, over and over within breathy sobs,ย "Steve, Steve, Steve".ย You're too far gone to hear him murmur encouraging praise,ย "m'right here, y'can let go"ย andย "so good, you're so good for me, angel."
It's never hit you this hard before, not while only touching yourself. Your vision whites out for a moment, ears ringing as your hips tremble, legs tensing while riding out the peak of your high.
And as quickly as it hits, it's over.
Hanging above your heads is the smell that's not quite of sex, but close. Echoing against the walls are your sounds and Steve's of satisfied exhaustion. His heartbeat is rapid enough to feel through his back into your own; you wonder if he can feel yours, too.
Your body twitches and jolts with aftershocks, laughing dazedly while reality sets in. You think the truth is enough to sober you up, but you've got one final request, only boosted by the haziness lingering in your body.
"Steve," you pant out, hand pulling away from his and gripping your chest as you catch your breath.
"Yeah?" He sounds equally as spent.
"M'gonna do something real fuckin' stupid," you huff out, slipping your fingers out to swap them with your other hand. You turn, just enough to offer your soaked hand to his lips. You don't touch him, waiting patiently for permission while sloppily fucking yourself. "Only if y- you want."
When he freezes, like a deer caught in the headlights, you feel the rejection flood in.
That was stupid, of course he wouldn't want toโ
Steve pulls you back from spiraling, cradling your face with his thumb hovering over your lips. There's a pearlescent drop on his calloused pad, begging not to be wasted.ย
You flit your tongue out, lapping slowly along his thumb, guiding it in between your lips with a whimper. Even if salty and a little bitter, the satisfaction of tasting him is sweet.
As you suck softly on his thumb, Steve licks your fingers, eyes rolling back, swallowing your taste with a groan. Greedily, he parts his lips, not only sucking them, but lazily bobbing his head along your digits, too.ย
You pop off of his thumb, warning, "Tomorrowโฆ" before the two of you become too carried away. You can't help fixating on his lips, still wrapped around your fingers. Absentmindedly, he nods, but drool slips from the corners of his lips.
"Tm'rw,"ย he mumbles, pulling away and whining as a string of spit follows him.
I am absolutely eating up your dunstinโs cousin au! So good!! I was thinking about a scenario where maybe the reader gets hurt and the rest of the party is trying to help/comfort her but in her upset state she only wants Steve and keeps asking for him and everyoneโs kinda shocked. xx
oooh hell yes! thanks for the prompt!! <3
Steve Harrington x fem!reader who shows up hurt [1.7k words]
part 12 <- part 13 | series masterlist
CW: part of dustin's!cousin au but can be read as a stand alone, reader is spicy in this one again, mentions of financial insecurity, brief reference to reader's shitty childhood, hurt/comfort + fluff
Steve has a bone to pick with whoever granted you your drivers license. Not because youโre a bad driver or that you donโt deserve it, but because it makes it very hard for Steve to give you the princess treatment.ย
Particularly when thereโs a group activity that requires two drivers and youโre one of mere two from the entire Party who can drive.ย
So tonight, Steveโs stuck giving the princess treatment to the likes of Robin, Mike, Will, and Lucas.ย
The best part of the load of crap that is chauffeuring everyone back to Steveโs place is them getting the hell out of his car.
โWould you stop pouting?โ Robin laughs as she throws half a Twizzler across the living room; it hits him in the side of the head. โYour girlfriendโs gonna be here soon.โย
Steve bites back the harrumph that threatens to leave him as he sinks further into his chair, arms crossed over his chest rather petulantly. โMโnot pouting.โย
Lucas snorts. โRight, and Will here is the spitting image of Arnold Schwazenegger.โย
Steve moves his glare from Lucas to Will when the little shit has the audacity to chuckle.ย
โSo, youโre not pouting, but she is your girlfriend?โ Mike continues, the look in his sideways glance anything but innocent. Steve glares at him too.ย
โDonโt call her that.โ
โWhy? Sโshe not your girlfriend?โ Robin earns herself a glare as well.ย
โYou just canโt call her that, okay? Especially not in front of her.โย
โYouโve got terrible luck, man,โ Lucas muses. โYโspent years yearning over a girl who didnโt want you, and now you find a girl who wants you but threatens to bolt if you call it what it is.โ
Steveโs voice is void of emotion when he asks, โDo you value your life, Sinclair?โย
โIs that really fair though? I mean, how many times has Max broken up with you, Lucas?โ Will pipes up in Steveโs defence. Heโs Steveโs favourite tonight, he decides.ย
โHey, this isnโt about me, alright?โ
Mike makes a noncommittal sound. โMaybe it should be about youโฆโ
โBesides,โ Lucas continues undeterred, cocky as ever, โIโve always gotten her back.โย
โCanโt even begin to understand how,โ Mike mutters.ย
โYou wouldnโt get it, Mike,โ Lucas grins as he leans back in his seat, fingers intertwined behind his head as he smiles at the room, โitโs something we like to call Black magic.โ
โThink you can lend some to good olโ Steve over here?โ Robin chimes in with a smirk. Steve would almost be mad at her if he hadnโt just been thinking the exact same thing.ย
Lucas turns to look at Steve appraisingly but doesnโt have the opportunity to respond when the front door opens and Dustinโs voice rings out into the house.
โDustin, man, you might wanna shut the fuck up,โ Eddie advises.ย
โIt does look pretty badโฆโ El interjects somewhat warily.
โEveryone justโฆshut up,โ you grit out. Steve sits up at attention like a German Shorthaired Pointer who has picked up a scent.ย
Max does not seem to realize that โeveryoneโ includes her. โBut is it broken? Do you think itโs broken?โ
โMayfield, what didnโt you understand about shut up?โ you bite back. Steve stands at that, knowing itโs unlike you to snap at the redhead.
โI think thatโs a fair question for her to ask, gorgeous,โ Eddie tries placatingly. โCan you let me see? At least make sure you can still move it?โ
โMunson, if you touch me right now I am going to rip your fucking head off, you hear me?โ
โJesus Christ, yeah I hear you. Sorry for caring,โ Eddie mutters.
El appears in the archway before Steve manages to round the corner. โI think you should tend to her,โ is all she says to Steve before carrying on into the living room. Weird girl; Steve loves her.ย
โWhatโs going on?โ Steve asks as he comes upon the crowd still hovering by the front door. Eddie shoots him a look of warning from where heโs kneeling to help untie your shoes as you protectively cradle one arm in the other.
โY/N shut the car door on her hand,โ Dustin tattles immediately, earning him a quiet yet scornful squealer from Max.ย
โBaby,โ Steve coos consolingly. โLet me see.โ
โMโfine,โ you murmur, far less bite in your tone than the way you spoke to your friends. Eddie looks up from your feet to shoot you a look chock-full of indignation.
โOkay, let me see it then,โ Steve continues as he reaches for you.ย
The metal-head finally lets out a scoff of disbelief as he stands when you relinquish your hand to Steve, and Dustin and Max snicker as they walk away to leave you in Steveโs capable hands seeing as you havenโt told him to shut up or threatened to rip his head off for caring.
Your knuckles are already swollen and discoloured, broken skin marking where steel met flesh. Steve canโt pretend he doesnโt feel the way your entire arm shakes within his grasp and knows without a doubt that youโve got to be in a lot of pain.ย
โLiar.โ Steveโs voice is heavy with upset. โYou are not fine.โ
Your voice is a bit tight when you respond. โI am too fine.โ
โA bad liar, too,โ Steve murmurs as he begins ushering you towards the kitchen. โMy poor, lying girl.โย
The two of you manage to shake Eddie who carries on into the living room to recount the incident with far more dramatics than truly took place.ย
โWhenโd it happen?โ Steve asks, helping you up onto the counter where granite meets wall. You go willingly โ saying nothing of his manhandling โ and immediately melt into the wall; Steveโs heart squeezes painfully at the sight.ย
โJust now,โ you admit. โGetting out fโthe car.โย
Steve tsks sympathetically. โWell whatโd you do that for, huh?โ
โI didnโt do it on purpose.โ
He returns to you with an ice pack and tea-towel in hand, though he puts both down beside you in favour of holding his hand out in ask. โLet me see it again.โ
You give him your hand; another embarrassingly tender sound escapes him as he brushes the briefest of touches to the back of your knuckles.ย
โCan you move them at all, sweetheart?โย
Steve knows youโre feeling really poorly when you donโt fight him over all the petnames heโs pulling out; he wonders how many more he can get away with, and then wonders if he should risk pushing his luck.ย
You do your best, holding your breath as you flex your fingers as much as you can. Your subsequent exhale is painfully shaky, but Steveโs relieved to see that most of the resistance seems to be on account of the swelling and how sore your knuckles are, not because anything is broken.ย
โDo you think you need to have it X-rayed?โ he asks anyway, looking up at your face when you let out a snort of laughter. Your eyes have fallen shut but a single tear slips out from your lashes and trails down to your chin. Steve feels a bit like crying now too.ย
โI canโt get it X-rayed.โ
Steve lets out an inquisitive hum, pushing your knees apart so that he can stand between your legs. You still donโt open your eyes. โWhy not?โ
You huff another quiet laugh, though itโs entirely humourless. โI canโt afford an X-ray.โย
โOh, shut up,โ Steve protests. โDonโt be dumb. If you need to get an X-ray, youโre getting an X-ray. Got it?โย
โI-โ
โIf your appendix burst right now and you needed emergency surgery, youโd get that too, you know?โ he carries on, chucking you under the chin to encourage you to look at him. You do, though the sight breaks Steveโs heart.ย
You look thoroughly exhausted, far beyond what is just the adrenaline from your injury seeping from your body. Itโs the kind of tired that comes from the familiarity you share with pain, from being the only one ever around to take care of you, from having to always figure things out on your own, from being denied or not having access to the things you need.ย
โIf you dislocated your shoulder and needed it to be reset and put in a sling, thatโd happen too,โ he explains, reaching up to wipe away another stray tear with his thumb. โOkay?โ
You sniff, clearly trying to imbue as much nonchalance as you can. โI can reset my own shoulder.โ
โIdiot,โ he mutters, though he believes you. โThatโs not the point.โย
โโKay,โ you sigh.ย
โDoes it need to be X-rayed?โ
You consider the question, taking stock of yourself and gently flexing your knuckles once more. You wince, but you manage. โNo, IโฆI donโt think so.โย
โOkay. Thank you, honey,โ he whispers, leaning forward to press a kiss above your right brow and lingering a few moments too long before he finally pulls away to wrap the ice pack and hold it out to you. โTry icing it for a bit.โ
Steve threatens to undo all of the petnames when he swats your good hand away and takes the ice pack back from your grasp. โNot like that, idiot.โ
You scoff, indignant. โWhat?โย
โPut your knuckles on the ice, not the ice on your knuckles. Youโll have more control of the pressure that way instead of the weight of the ice pressing down on your sore hand.โย
You hum in acknowledgement and do as told, looking up at him through damp lashes. โIced a lot of knuckles, have you?โ
Steveโs responding yeah comes out as a sigh, moving to lean against the counter beside you.
A thought occurs to him. โYou know, for someone who has started a lot of fights, I really havenโt won very many.โ
โOr any,โ Dustin comments around a Twizzler in his mouth as he and Eddie walk past the kitchen on their way to the backyard.
You snort a laugh, much lighter in nature than the ones before; Steve is grateful for it.ย
โLoser.โ
ยฉ ellecdc; do not copy, translate, or repost my work anywhere under any circumstances.
I pretend I donโt care about her stare, while sheโs giving me a tough time.
summary: youโre an observer of sorts, a wall flower, and the last hire made by the infamous runaway Jimmy โfast handsโ Lee. It was a job you took on a whim, a decision made without much thought. You werenโt expecting to ever share a room with Steve Harrington again, but when it starts to happen five days out of the week, you certainly werenโt expecting the now quiet and brooding former king to take up so much space in your mind.
WC: 17k
warnings: 18+ slow burn, soft soul touching smut, takes place a few months after season five not exactly canon accurate (he still has his beamer), steve is picking up the pieces of his life, reader has no knowledge of upside down, moved back after the military disappears, touch and love starved steve (reader is similar), mild angst, lots of yearning, mentions of holiday sadness, smoking, one bed trope, p in v van sex, scar kissing & touching (steve has scars).
authors note: well this was originally supposed to be a long one shot but it grew legs and became too long. so enjoy part one of two of the story iโve been writing since volume one. Writing this got me through a rough holiday season and it started to feel really special. I hope it feels that way when you read it and thank you for waiting so long. I wouldnโt call this a holiday fic at all, its used as more of a backdrop. also i have no idea how things at a radio station work so if itโs not accurate beyond what I googled I apologize! donโt hate me! Thank you to Andy, Candy and Jelly for listening to me ramble and read snippets over the course of the last few months, couldnโt have finished it without you!
Three Weeks Before Christmas - A Monday Morning.
Steve Harrington was an anomaly.
A word you never thought youโd use for the face and hair of Hawkins Highโs sports programs circa 1981 to 1985.ย A jock who used to push kids in lockers, break their cameraโs, the kind to stand girls up who would just turn around and beg him to do it again. The popular guy who always seemed to get what he wanted, someone you thought would have his future laid out for him on a road paved of gold. So when you had your first day at The Squawk almost three months ago, and found him not only working the sound board for WSQKโs very own โRockin Robinโ aka your favorite trumpet player to skip band practice with, but that they were also best friends. Like inseparable best friends, finishing each other's sentences kind of best friends, you werenโt sure how many chapters you missed after leaving for college four years ago.ย
Steve Harrington was an anomaly, and he was wearing that damn brown bomber jacket again.
It was your favorite of what seemed to be his early winter collection that had started to appear in the form of thick sweaters and fitted jackets once the sun began disappearing after four pm. Another thing you hated almost as much as not being able to put your chipped polished finger on him anymore, was that now, the word favorite is in your vocabulary when it comes to the guy who never even looked your way despite sharing the same homeroom all four years of high school.ย
This particular jacket though? It was your kryptonite. The soft suede wraps around his broad shoulders like butter, tapering just enough at the bottom to give the illusion of a loose fit, like itโs tailored special just for him. Its rich earthy brown color brings out the gold flecks in his hazel eyes that you swear changed colors with the season, or maybe it was because Nancy Wheeler finally stopped coming around.ย
Youโd overheard a conversation between him and Robin a few weeks ago after noticing an extra broody-ness about his presence that she had finally left Hawkins to attend Emerson in Massachusetts. It was all you were able to catch without being caught eavesdropping on your way to map out the next few weeks DJ schedules in Jimmyโs abandoned office. An office you were only supposed to be an assistant too, but now somehow managed to end up being the one to do the job it was made for. It was becoming a full time one too, keeping the station running since its operating hours are no longer the allotted time slots given by the military. Which still seemed like a fresh nightmare for most of the people that decided to stay when the fences finally disappeared.
โMorning!โ You greet them, stretching your neck enough to peek out of the open office door, making your presence known since your ever changing schedule keeps you at the station at random times.
Today youโd gotten here at 3am to fill the late night dead air with your own curated mix, something you do whenever Steve or Keith couldnโt. It was easy money, you didnโt even have to talk, just make sure to queue the ads youโve been having to fight tooth and nail to get in order to keep the lights on.ย
โGood Morning!โ Robin waves stretching her neck to meet your gaze with her signature toothy grin that lights up the whole room. Her blonde hair is extra frizzy from the snow starting to fall outside, the cold kissing her cheeks with roses.ย
All you get is Steveโs back as he continues his path to the studio, giving you a quick flick of his wrist in acknowledgment. It was 50/50 depending on the day, or even his shift if heโd stay mute or give you a short โMorningโ. Either way, it didnโt matter because he still cared enough to pretend that he likes his coffee black in front of you. A secret that youโve always kept close after catching him put cream and an absurd amount of sugar in his whenever he thought you werenโt lookingโ on multiple occasions.
โI put your coffees in there already, three creams and two sugars for Robin, and donโt worry Steve, I left yours black just how you like it.โ
Your lips twist at the slight tense of his shoulders.
โThanks boss!โ Robin sings, skipping to catch up with her best friendโs long strides.
โIโm not your boss!โ You call back, brows furrowing รฑ at the nickname sheโs been determined to make stick. They werenโt paying you a radio managerโs wage.ย
โCouldโve fooled me!โ Her raspy voice carries across the room, before both her and Steveโs go muffled behind the soundproof door.
5 minutes till showtime.
You can see them through the glass that encases them from the cracked window in your office. Steve looks like heโs rambling about something to her, big hands gesturing wildly before they push back his thick mane of chestnut hair, the blonde tips it used to have, long forgotten. It is his personal tell that heโs stressed, besides a thumb flick to the nose which follows shortly after. Robinโs face softens, not meeting his chaotic energy as he takes off his jacket, revealing the cream mock turtle neck sweater underneath it. You canโt hear what sheโs saying, but whatever it is makes his shoulders slump, nodding in response with another card of his hair. Relaxing.
Itโs unexpected when his eyes shoot across the room, meeting your gaze for the first time in a few days. Averting your stare as quickly as you can, your cheeks feel like they're being raked over coals, they burn hot as you try and refocus on the spread sheet laying on the desk. Quietly vowing to leave the station before they break for lunch as your escape plan. This way you can lock yourself in your dark apartment and sleep off the exhausting seven hours before suffering the kind of embarrassment that radiates from your fingertips and all ten of your toes.
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Thursday Early Morning
5:13am. The bright green numbers on your dash feel like an assault as the tires of your Oldsmobile crunch against the snow and gravel leading up the path to The Squawk. From inside, the constant vigil of the studio lights fades into a soft glow, filtering through the glass front entrance doors to cut through the last bit of night and bounce off the shimmering snowflakes that somehow continue to fall. ย Itโs been four days of this now, the sky alternating between flurries and heavy snowfall. Itโs starting to feel like it might never stop, like the universe seems determined to deliver a white Christmas during the one year you and the rest of this town canโt seem to find the spirit.ย
Your jaw stretches with a yawn as you try to will the caffeine to hit your bloodstream faster. You pull up beside what should be Keithโs Thunderbird and rub the remainder of sleep from your eyes blinking at Steveโs BMW parked next to the WSQK van. ย A newfound anxiety flutters beneath your ribcage, at the memory of how his eyes caught youโ like you were intruding on something personal, a secret only meant for his best friendโs ears. Everything with Steve Harrington has felt like a secret lately. An unsolvable puzzle with a missing piece always just out of reach. Thereโs a determination to find it. With slightly shaking hands, you arm yourself with a travel mug of homemade coffee and a deep breath to collect your courage before heading inside.
He probably wonโt even say hi anyway, if youโre lucky heโll just wave from the studio, maybe, and then youโll both ignore each other until he leaves without saying goodbye.
Frank Sinatraโs โIโve Got You Under My Skinโ spills from the speakers in the studio, the door propped open allowing the soft trumpets and piano to fill the normally quiet space. He plays a lot of Sinatra on his overnights, a taste youโve assumed he acquired from Robin, but part of you canโt be too sure anymore.ย
Christmas lights that werenโt there the night before are draped around the DJ booth, with even more hanging half hazardly above the soundboard. They twinkle in red, green, and gold, warming the room in a comforting glow. Itโs not until you round the corner that you see Steve on a step stool stringing more around the common area, a small pile of multi-colored shimmering garland on the table beside him with tiny Santas and snowmen hanging off the tinsel.
Steve Harrington is decorating for Christmas.ย
โYouโre not Keith.โ You say, finding your voice, trying to break the usual awkwardness between the two of you with some kind of joke. Butterflies waking up in the pit of your gut when you hear it.ย
A laugh.
Itโs so quiet that if you didnโt see the slight shake of his shoulders, youโd probably miss it. An unfamiliar desperate need to make him do it again tugs at your heart.
โDefintely not Keith.โ He huffs, but you can hear the slight smile in his voice. Youโd almost forgotten what he really sounds like.
His Nike covered feet step down from the stool, leaving the string of lights to dangle half way on their journey across the room. Turning around, he runs one of his big hands through his messier than usual hair, those familiar hazel eyes catching yours for the second time in one week. A record breaking streak.
Heโs wearing dark washed jeans, they fit him snug like all of them do. A navy WSQK sweater stretches over his chest, the letters faded and peeling because Jimmy cheaped out on the printing company.Youโre willing to bet Steveโs got three more washes till they're all completely gone. The sleeves are pushed up revealing his permanently sunkissed skin despite the warm weather hiding on the other side of the earth, and theyโre dotted with more freckles than you can count.ย
โHe asked me to cover his shift last minute, something about a pet ferret?โ His face twists in the kind of judgment that has an uncontrollable giggle slip past your lips.
The gold in his eyes seems to sparkle at the sound, the corners of his mouth twitching, fighting a smile that he doesnโt let win.ย
โThat explains the smell of his jacket sometimes.โ Scrunching up your nose at the memory of the last time you saw Keith, Steve canโt seem to fight his grin off this time, pearly whites gleaming behind plush pink lips.
It threatens to steal the breath from your lungs, teeth digging into your bottom lip with cheeks that start to feel like the surface of the missing sun, warming your skin with something that has you looking away. Suddenly, you have a new understanding for all those girls in high school.ย
โI hope you donโt mind, me uh - decorating and stuff.โ He scratches the back of his neck, like talking this long to someone thatโs not his best friend is hard for him, or maybe itโs just because itโs you. โRobin was complaining about how sheโs not feeling very festive this year, and itโs her and vi- itโs her first Christmas dating someone so I was thinking maybe this might help.โ
It almost makes you mad at how sweet of a gesture it is, and how it feels like youโll never quite figure him out. Every time you think youโre close, he sheds another layer. Throwing off your scent.
โNot at all, honestly, I havenโt been feeling very โjollyโ myself.โ You laugh weakly, finally meeting his softened gaze, making his shoulders relax as if there were a world where youโd actually be mad. โThis job has beenโฆa lot.โ
You donโt go into anymore detail about how none of this was what you signed up for, or how your home doesnโt feel very much like one anymore, like your childhood was some figment of your imagination the military erased. Youโre not sure heโd even want to hear any of it anyway. No need to test the boundaries of this new progression between you and the former king of Hawkins, anyway.ย
โWell, if it means anything coming from me, I think youโre doing a great job, all things considered.โ He answers with a casual shrug, like he didnโt just shatter all the assumptions you thought he had of you in one sentence.
โIt- It does mean something, thanks, Steve.โ It feels weird saying his name out loud, despite how many times itโs crossed your mind over the past few months.ย
Pink powders the apples of his cheeks, and now itโs his turn to look away.
โDecorate all you want. Iโve got this, like, 4 foot tall Christmas tree I had in my dorm in college that I can dig out and bring into the station tomorrow.โ You add, returning to the safety of the original conversation, and you can tell heโs thankful for it.
โCool.โ He grins, shoving his hands in his pockets, rocking back on his heels a little bit.
โCool.โย
The two of you stand there, not really sure where to go from here until the music cuts off and Steve remembers the job heโs actually supposed to be doing.
โOh shit!โ He gasps, eyes looking like a deer caught in headlights. โI gotta flip the record, Iโm sorry, I swear I donโt let it go silent like this normally.โ
You want to tell him that you know, because his overnights are some of your favorites to listen to. But you decide it's another secret best kept to yourself instead.
โItโs fine, Iโm sure the four people listening will forgive you.โ Rolling your eyes playfully, you catch the small grin you get in return as he jogs to the studio room. โIโm gonna go do my job too.โ
Grabbing the stack of ad proposals next to his garland, you wave them in your hand, before making your way to Jimmyโs office, the kind of smile that makes your cheeks hurt tugging up the corners of your lips when youโre sure he canโt see it.
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Saturday
โSecret Santa!โ Robin exclaims from the doorway of Jimmyโs office, bright blue eyes staring at you with the kind of excitement that threatens to be contagious. โWe need to do a Secret Santa!โ
โThereโs like six of us who work here.โ Steve speaks up from behind her, a half eaten sandwich dwarfed in his big hand, leaning against the studio room looking far too cool in a maroon sweater and dark washed jeans.
โOkay and? Thatโs an even number. You couldnโt ask for a more perfect scenario actually.โ She gives him a tight lipped sarcastic smirk, before bringing her attention back to you,rolling up the sleeves on her white turtle neck sheโs layered with a black The Smithโs shirt on top of. โHere me out -โ
โWe can do it.โ You say simply, closing the radio tower instruction manual that was starting to give you a headache.ย
โWait, really?โ She gasps with a smile so big it shows all her teeth, practically vibrating when you nod your head yes. โOh my god this is so exciting, Iโll get everything together, you donโt have to lift a finger. Let's say a ten dollar budget, nothing too crazy.โย
โTen dollars?! I donโt like anyone around here enough to spend ten dollars on.โ Steve scoffs, shoving the rest of his sandwich in his mouth before crossing his arms.
โAre you kidding me? You donโt like me enough to spend ten dollars on? Her?โ Robin points at you, and the urge to hide is the most tempting idea youโve ever had, especially when Steveโs eyes meet yours from across the room with something you canโt decipher. โDustin, Mike? Literally you just hate Keith.โ
โDustin and Mike hardly count. They are here like two hours a week but fine! You win.โ He surrenders, throwing his arms up before running an annoyed hand through his hair. His plan to help her feel more festive worked a little too well.ย
โI always do!โ She sings, throwing a wink at you before sauntering back to the chair and mic that feel like they are made for her to deliver Hawkinโs favorite segment of the day, nudging Steve playfully on her way. โHurry up dingus, weโre back on in three minutes.โ
โYou had to walk around me, Iโm already here.โ He huffs, kicking off the corner and back into the studio room closing the sound proof door behind them.
You canโt seem to fight the smile that twists at the corners of your mouth as you grab your weekly planner from under the pile of work orders that youโve been deluding yourself into thinking you can find the fixes in the manual.ย
The faint sounds of Billie Holidayโs โI Thought About Youโ catches in your ears, something shifting in the air as the heat from an unfamiliar stare warms against your skin, sending goosebumps pebbling, begging for your attention. You havenโt risked even a glance through the window of your office since the day that Steve caught you, but something was daring you to do it again.
You arenโt sure what youโre expecting when you look up but it isnโt his eyes already locked on you, holding your gaze after they meet letting you know itโs not a mistake. Butterflies stretch their wings wide as you work up the courage not to look away first. The grip on your pen tightening, teeth digging into your bottom lip watching the slight shimmer of gold around the darkness of his pupils. He studies your face like heโs looking for the answer to something hidden inside of the contours of it, and you think this must be the way you look when he catches you staring.
Itโs Robin that unknowingly interrupts whatever was going on, tearing his attention away with a bob of his Adamโs apple and a shake of his head. Saying something that looks a lot like the word โsorryโ before switching out the sound effect 8-track for the one she clearly wanted. In the hour it takes for you to wrap up and reach the end of your day, neither of you dare to look up again, and itโs you who leaves with a quick flick of your wrist, not saying a word this time.ย
What was that?ย
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Two weeks before Christmasย
You stare at the name on the small piece of paper youโd grabbed from Robinโs Santa hat on your way out the door. The white wisps of your breath filling the freezing space of your car, too stunned to even be bothered to turn it on. You read it a few more times just to be sure that too many overnights werenโt making you delirious, but there it was, clear as day in Robinโs signature bubble writing.ย
Steve
His name plays on a loop as you finally kick on the engine to your car, it finds its way in every thought, sneaking past your efforts to shut it out. โSteveโ lingers in the cold breaths you take on your way to the front door of the small apartment youโd rented while your parents house gets rebuilt. It warms against your skin like the hot water from the shower that rinses off yet another long day at the station, following you to bed and curling around you under your covers, meeting you again in your dreams.
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ย Tuesday
You climb up the short ladder that leads you to the hatch door, pushing up, you give it a good shove, the rusted hinges squeaking as it flings open. The clearest night sky youโve seen in what feels like weeks shimmers brightly above you. Suddenly it didnโt matter that it was twenty degrees, not when it looked like this. Tightening your scarf and zipping up your coat as far as it will go, you finish your climb up onto the roof.
The cold greets you with a sharp sting, sending a shiver straight to your bones.Too focused on closing the door to keep the heat trapped inside the station you don't notice you arenโt the only one admiring the view. It shuts with a loud thud at the same time someone clears their throat behind you. Jumping at the sound, you turn around with a startled scream just begging to escape and echo through the darkness until your wide eyes meet Steveโs panicked ones.
โHey! Itโs just me! Itโs cool, youโre cool, weโre cool.โ His hushed words come out with urgency to stop it from happening, a nervous hand running through his already wind swept hair after it seems to work.
Cool seems to be Steveโs favorite word when it comes to you. You werenโt entirely sure how you felt about that.ย
โJesus Christ, Harrington.โ You gasp with a hand on your chest, your quick huffs of breath embarrassingly visible in the cold air.ย
โSorry! How was I supposed to know anyone else would come up here?โ He exclaims, a slight agitation to his voice that doesnโt last long before asking โAre you okay?โ
Your gaze lands on his Nikeโs first, wandering up the light wash denim that covers his legs, accentuating parts of him that youโve been trying not to think about. Tonight he wears a dark brown leather jacket that tapers at the waist just like your favorite one does. While his lack of scarf seems like a choice, it has the moles that cluster around his neck in their own constellations battling for your attention with the ones above him.ย
โYeah, Iโm good. No scarf?! Arenโt you col -โ You lose your train of thought when your eyes catch the glowing ember at the end of a half smoked cigarette tucked between two long fingers. โWait, are you up here smoking?โ
His eyebrows furrow together like heโs confused, until realization dawns on him smoothing the wrinkles on his forehead.
โYeah,โ He shrugs, flicking the ash before taking another drag. โI used to in high school, well, mostly at parties when I was drunk trying to look cool. But I donโt know, I picked it back up recently, I donโt smoke all the time, mostly over nights when Iโm stressed or bored.โย
โWhat are you now?โ The question comes out before you can even filter and mark it as inappropriate, the look on his face burning your cheeks only adding to your immediate regret.
But then he does the last thing you expect, he answers it โ honestly.
โStressed.โ Wind whips his hair around some more before he shrugs in a squeak of leather adding, โand a little bored.โ
Thereโs storm clouds in his stare as he looks at you with an intensity you can feel tingling at your fingertips. Underneath it lives a nervousness that tries to hide in the dark pools of his eyes from letting you perceive him, gauging your reaction by taking another drag.
โI come up here when Iโm stressed too.โ You say with ease despite the wild thumping of your heart in your ears, taking a few steps closer, your boots crunch against the frozen brick.
โTo my spot?โ His words come out around white clouds of smoke, a small smile twisting up the corners of his lips.
โExcuse me? Your spot? Iโve never even seen you up here.โ Scoffing, you dig your hands deep in your pockets, shuffling closer with chattering teeth you desperately try to hide.
As if on instinct, Steve positions his body to block you from the wind, cinnamon and amber from his cologne tickling at your nose. He was closer than youโve ever been to him, close enough to have your palms sweat, for your softened gaze to trace the purple bags under his eyes. The pale pink of a healed scar you donโt remember from high school shows its imperfect end from the edge of his beige sweaterโs collar, only to hide from you again when he lifts his cigarette towards you in an offering.ย
โIโm pretty sneaky. Stealthy, if you will.โย He winks, cold bitten cheeks pushing up at the snort you give him in response.
Your fingers brush with his accepting the nicotine with a spark you blame on the emanating voltage from the tower.ย
โWhat about you?โ He asks quietly, his eyes wandering over the details of your face like he was really looking at you for the first time. Maybe he was.ย
Despite yourself, you canโt help but wonder if he likes what heโs found.
โStressed, maybe a dash of depression, maybe.โ If you admit to it out loud, that might make it true, but itโs his honesty that pulls out your own.
He nods his head in response, mimicking your previous stance, shoving his cold hands in his pockets. He kicks at the small patch of ice, brows furrowing as he thinks about what he wants to say. The pad of your thumb brushes against the butt of his cigarette still a little wet from his lips, thereโs an intimacy there when yours wraps around it, cheeks hollowing as you take a drag. Inhaling him.ย
โHonestly, this time of year. Itโs never been my favorite.โ His gaze is piercing when they meet your eyes again.โThe only time I really liked it was when I had a girlfriend and that was like once.โ
โNancy Wheeler.โ You hum, biting at your bottom lip wondering if it was a mistake to say her name out loud.
โYeah,โ he sighs, watching you take another drag, eyes lingering just a little on your mouth when you hand it back to him. โBut honestly, Iโm starting to realize a big part of that was because I didnโt have to spend it alone.โย
โWhat do you mean?โ You ask confused because heโs Steve Harrington, the boy whoโs always had it all. โWhat about your parents?โ
โTheyโre never home โ hell, they were gone when the quarantine happened.โ Thereโs a bitterness in his dry laugh, taking one last hit before tossing the cigarette to the ground, snuffing it out with the toe of his sneaker. โThey couldnโt get back in, but I think they preferred it that way, part of me thinks I did too.โ
โIโm sorry, Steve.โ You donโt know what else to say, but it also doesnโt feel like he's looking for much more than that either, giving you just a peek into the closed blinds of his soul.ย
The bare trees rustle and snap in the silence between you. Itโs not an uncomfortable one, but one that lets you sit with the weight inside of it. Steve Harrington, the king of Hawkins, the boy who everyone adored school but always returned to a shell of a home. You can feel the wall rebuild itself around him after revealing more of his hand despite the way both you subconsciously shuffle closer to chase each other's body heat. Steve looks up at the sky, but your eyes stay trained on him. Maybe you were seeing him for the first time too.ย
The moon shines bright above, casting shadows on his sharp features, revealing the slight dusting of a five oโclock shadow that covers his jaw you didnโt notice before. Steve Harrington had grown up into a man. You arenโt sure how you missed it until tonight, under a blanket of stars no oneโs seen in weeks. What else havenโt you seen?
His gaze finds yours again, the wind making his hair go wild. He holds it like he did in the studio room the other day, and you swear he moves even closer, the toe of his shoe tapping against yours. You can smell the leather of his coat, the tobacco clinging to the fabrics of his sweater mixing with the spice of his cologne in a way that shouldnโt smell as good as it does. A playful smirk teases at the corners of his mouth.
โIs there something wrong with that?โ You hum quietly.
โN-no.โ He smiles with something timid behind it, weary even. โJust no oneโs ever reall-โ Heโs cut off by the crackle of the walkie talkie you didnโt know he had clipped to his back pocketย
โRadio silence again dingus!โ Robinโs voice comes through the small speaker, โTrying to make moves here and you arenโt helping.โ
You donโt think youโve ever seen Steve roll his eyes any harder, a loud irritated breath escaping through his nose like a bull. He mouths sorry before bringing the walkie talkies to his lips, pressing harsh on the red button.
โIโm doing you a favor tonight if you remember, watch the tone.โ He turns it off after, leaving her no room to respond, determined to get the last word.
โAnother day of catching you not doing your job.โ You tease with a wink, getting your own eye roll but this one comes with a smile.
โI keep getting distracted by my boss.โ He wiggles his eyebrows, starting to back away towards the hatch door.ย
Was Steve Harrington flirting with you?
ย โUgh! Not you too.โ You groan, crossing your arms watching him open the rusted metal with ease.
โIf the shoe fits.โ He shrugs, โDonโt stay out here too long, canโt have you getting sick, the station would probably burn down or something like that.โ
โYou and Robin ran it just fine.โ You argue, with a grin that refuses to go away.
โYeah, sure.โ Steve snorts, climbing down the first few steps of the ladder stopping when all you can see is his shoulders up, โbut seriously, itโs cold. I mean it.โ
โOkay, Dad.โย
He visibly grimaces at the nickname.
โYeah, pretty awful isnโt it?โ You arch a brow, laughing at his glare for falling into your trap. โIโll come back in a few minutes, promise.โ
He lingers for a few seconds more looking torn, like he wasnโt ready to leave yet, and youโd be lying if you said you didnโt wish he could stay too. But he does the selfless thing youโve noticed he always does, closing the hatch behind him with one last look catching your small wave goodbye.
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Friday
Robin is a ball of energy at seven in the morning, completely consumed by whatever sheโs ranting to Steve about when they burst in through the front door together. You watch with an amused smirk from your spot on the lime green couch in the common area, a cup of fresh coffee you brewed for the three of you warm in your hand. Sheโs so distracted that she doesnโt notice you, but Steve does, almost as if he was searching for you first. The blue hidden in the gold and moss of his eyes are like sunbursts when they find your gaze. His smile is small, but itโs just for you and itโs enough for the butterflies youโve managed to snuff out all morning with distractions to wake back up. Hiding your smile in your mug, you watch as he nods his head giving Robin a โyeah,โ like heโs listening, but something tells you he had stopped a while ago.
Once they get inside the soundproof room Steve peels off the same leather jacket he wore on the roof. Robin follows suit tossing her long navy blue tench coat to the side, lips still moving a mile a minute. He runs two big hands through his hair, the little bit of flurries that had stuck to the ends melting on his fingertips before pushing up the sleeves of his WSQK sweater. And just as you suspected the K at the end of it had already peeled off since last week.
Robinโs lime green polished hands fly all over the place making the people on her โBeam me up, this place sucksโ sweater look like theyโre actually running. Crossing his arms as he leans against the door frame, Steve seems distracted, but you can tell heโs still actively trying to focus. Heโs shaved since the last time you saw him, and the bags that had kissed lavender under his eyes on the rooftop were gone. Maybe that meant heโd finally gotten some sleep.ย
His best friend grabs her coffee mid sentence, holding out a finger to give her a minute as she drinks what has to be at least half the cup. Your teeth dig into your bottom lip watching Steve grab his own. Suddenly you wish youโd have gone into Jimmyโs office for this moment as a new fear that maybe something that seemed like a cute idea in the middle of night actually makes you look like a weird stalker. The intrusive thought eats away at your confidence as he takes the first gulp and looks confused peering down in his cup before taking another just to be sure.ย
Steveโs eyes lock on yours through the glass, something inside them shifting just like the air between you on the rooftop. A secret revealed that paints his cheeks red, a small gesture that you donโt know has never made him feel more seen as he takes another sip of his coffee made the way he actually likes it today.
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โHey boss, Iโm running out for lunch, but Dustinโs got the news report covered while Iโm gone.โ Robin pokes her head in Jimmyโs office where youโd been for the past hour lost in balancing the books.
โNot your booosssss,โ You sing with an annoyed smirk, giving your eyes a break to look up at her. โIsnโt he in school?โ
โWinter break!โ She grins, shoving her arms into her coat like sheโs in a rush, โIโll be back in like thirty, maybe forty minutes tops!โ
Sheโs gone in a blur of blue and blond before you have a chance to respond, and as if on cue Dustin comes strolling in not even two minutes after her departure. He waves at you with a wide grin, green braces gleaming against the low light. The ends of his long tan trench coat are stained wet, dripping on the checkered floor. Duck boots squeaking against the linoleum. He mustโve rode his bike here like a lunatic.
โHiya boss!โ He greets, turning around to face you walking backwards to the studio room completely oblivious to the angry Steve yelling behind the soundproof glass watching him drip water and salt everywhere.
โHenderson!โ You groan, burying your face in your hands before resting it on your desk.
โItโs a compliment!โ He argues, getting you to look back up only to see that Steve is now standing behind him with his hands firmly planted on his hips.
โAre you kidding me asshole? Look at the floors.โ He huffs, with the kind of outrage a parent would have with their kid.ย
โItโs just water, itโll dry.โ Dustin rolls his eyes, pushing past Steve to start setting up but not before adding. โOr you can make yourself useful and mop it up.โ
โHow about I kick your teeth in, instead?โ
โNot the first time youโve threatened that.โ The teenager raises his eyebrows at him, looking unimpressed, letting you know theyโre always empty. Of course Harrington is all bark and no bite.
Another endearing quality, unfortunately.
โYeah, and one day it just might happen if you donโt watch your sass dickhead.โย
It takes every ounce of will power not to snort at the sight in front of you, smiling like the Cheshire Cat at all the ways youโre going to schedule them together this summer.ย
If it ever comes.ย
โIโll let you know if I need, I donโt know โ like, a car crash sound, or maybe a police siren, but otherwise quiet on set. I have a job to do.โ Dustin closes the door to the studio before Steve even has a chance to get the last word in, something youโve come to find as the clear indicator of who the winner is in these little spats between all of them.
Steve still flips him off through the glass, grumbling to himself about getting the mop so someone doesnโt slip and break their necks. Dustin gives you a thumbs up from behind the sound board switching the ON AIR sign โRedโ. He taps the sheets of paper you assume is the โnewsโ loudly on the desk to add his own effects as he kicks it off with the weather. Which is snowโฆ always more damn snow.ย
You groan, rubbing your temples at the thought of having to clean off your car every day for another week and all the shoveling, so much damn shoveling.
โGod, I miss summer.โ You mumble, exhaling a defeated breath through your nose grabbing the calculator to finish where youโd left off.
You donโt get very far though, the familiar sound of someone clearing their throat in the doorway breaking your concentration. Heat warms your cheeks instantly, teeth digging into your bottom lip daring to look up and meet the hazel eyes you swear have changed colors again. Something new โ brighter, something that feels more like Steve.
โH-hey.โ He waves awkwardly, giving you a closed lip smile riddled with the kind of nerves that tighten in your chest too.ย
โH-hi.โ It comes out quieter than you intend, your voice cracking making you try to clear the nerves out of your throat too.ย
Steve digs his hands into his pockets, leaning on the door frame with a shyness youโd never expect from him. Itโs got a stubbornness about it like heโs worked himself up to do this and is vowing to see it through.
โHowโs your uh, howโs your day going?โ A hand that canโt help itself comes out of his pocket running through his hair.ย
โItโs going,โ you sigh, a little defeated tossing your calculator to the side. Suddenly the weight of the last few months makes itself known in the muscles of your shoulders, while your bed starts to sound a little too welcoming for it to only be half way through your shift. โWhat about y-you? Howโs your day going?โ
โNot too bad, I passed out on the couch and slept for like 12 hours yesterday. So Iโd say feeling pretty good all things considered.โ Another card of his hair.
Your eyes catch Dustin watching you both with an amused curiosity.ย
โOn the couch?! Rest in peace to your back.โ You smile trying to crack a joke that somehow works, earning you the twitch of his lips that you were looking for.
โItโs been through worse.โ He laughs softly, looking down at his feet before meeting your gaze from under his thick lashes with a shy teasing grin. โDid you switch up the coffee this morning or something? It was better than usual.โ
The giggle that bubbles out of you makes Steveโs full pink lips stretch wide over his teeth that look even more brilliant in the daytime. It cracks at the awkwardness that's tried to settle between you.
โI guess youโre not as stealthy as you think you are huh?โ You wink, giddy feet bouncing under the desk.
โApparently not.โ He narrows his eyes playfully, โit needed maybe one more packet of sugar though, but hey, whoโs counting.โ
โSteve, I put in three already.โ You scoff with a smile so wide it hurts, heart skipping a beat when his grows like it canโt contain itself either. โWhy did you even pretend to like your coffee black in the first place? Such a weird thing to lie about.โ
โI donโt know!โ He whines, embarrassment flushing his cheeks as he runs his hands down his face, โItโs like I did it once, because you know, youโre pret โ โย
Steve clears his throat catching the words that almost slipped from his mouth, but you catch them, heart thumping wildly at the idea of how that sentence almost ended.ย
โI hadnโt seen you since high school, so I wanted to come off more like an adult? I donโt know, it was dumb and honestly, I donโt know whatโs worse, the fact that you caught me lying or that you let me keep up with it for so long.โ He groans, huffing out a laugh scratching the back of his neck.
โDonโt worry, it was pretty amusing, dare I say my favorite part of the morning. You always looked so nervous, like you were about to be caught robbing a bank or something.โ You try to hide your laugh behind the back of your hand, when you earn another one of his glares.
โHa, ha, ha.โ He rolls his eyes, but the twitch at the corner of his lips gives him away.
โSteve!โ Dustinโs voice interrupts you, making his shoulders tense, jaw clicking with instant annoyance.
โWhat Henderson? Canโt you see Iโm in the middle of a conversation?โ He snaps turning around to face the high schooler, broad shoulders blocking him from your view.
โIโm sorry to interrupt your flirting to ask you to do your job.โ Dustin responds with a taunting smile that you donโt need to see to know is there.
โYouโre really pushing me today, you little shit. Iโll be there in a minute, just give me a second.โ This time Steve runs both hands though his hair before turning around to face you again, the thumb flick you were expecting hitting his nose.
โWhat is this, the third time now in the past few weeks?โ You canโt help yourself, or the teasing smirk that spreads across your face, lashes fluttering a little too much, but the greens in his eyes sparkle because of it.
โLike I said the last time, I keep getting distracted by my boss.โ He laughs at your scowl about the nickname, walking backwards towards a very impatient Dustin, like he doesnโt want to stop looking at you until he absolutely has to.ย
This time you didnโt have to wonder, Steve Harrington was flirting with you.
โโโโ-
Five days before Christmas
Monday
When Dustin said to expect snow this week you didnโt realize that he meant a blizzard. Of course itโs a fucking blizzard.
Your tires spin in the foot of snow thatโs already fallen since it started this morning. The smoke from your exhaust comes out in huge plumes, over working your engine until you finally give up and take your foot off the gas. You curse the day you decided to go with the cheaper car that lacked the four wheel drive needed to leave the station tonight. And god, you really wanted to crawl into your bed.
โYouโre gonna flood your engine!โย
Itโs muffled, but the sound of Steveโs voice is unmistakeable, the timbre of it etching into the corners of your mind lately. Cutting off your engine, you look through the fogged up passenger window to see him and Robin standing at the front entrance of the station, the low yellow light almost turning them into shadows. Robin waves excitedly with mitten covered hands like she didnโt just see you less than ten minutes ago, an oversized crocheted beanie threatening to swallow her eyes. Steve on the other hand, he looks almost as stressed as you feel with only that damn leather coat protecting him from the winter storm quite literally raging around him, Nikeโs still on his feet.
Leaning over your console, you start to crank open the window, the glass sticking from the frost, groaning like it might shatter before it gives way to snow fluttering into your car. Maybe this wasnโt your best idea.
โIโm stuck!โ You yell over the howling wind jutting your bottom lip out for dramatic effect despite stating the obvious.ย
โSteve can drive you home!โ Robin volunteers without hesitating to ask him if that's okay, but he doesnโt even flinch at the idea.
โOh โ oh no thatโs okay, I live on the other side of town, maybe you guys can just help dig me out?โ You suggest instead, heart rate kicking up at the thought of being inside Steveโs car.
Youโve heard a lot of stories about that BMW, most against your will.
โYouโre just going to get stuck again trying to get out of here, Iโve got four wheel drive. Itโs fine, I can drive you.โ He waves you off, taking his first steps towards you and into the storm. He walks past his BMW parked on the other side of the WSQK van that blocked some of the snowdrifts, protecting his car from suffering the same fate.ย
โHow will I get to work in the morning if I donโt try and get my car out of here now?โ You counter, with the kind of nerves that only seem to get worse every time heโs around.ย
His steps crunch softly in the snow stopping at your half opened window bending down with a hand on the roof to meet your eyes. Robin follows close behind, tilting her head to the side to listen, a smirk twisting up the corners of her lips.
โIโll pick you up, youโll need help digging out your car anyway.โ He shrugs like he wasnโt offering to completely inconvenience himself for the next 24 hours for solely your benefit.ย
โSteve - I canโt, I- โ
โSeriously itโs fine! Steve loooves doing stuff like this, itโs like a hobbie, a kink if you will.โ Robin interjects, a little too pushy for you not to narrow your eyes at her. โHeโs got like a white knight complex or something.โ
โOkay, Robin.โ Steve snaps, glaring at her from over his shoulder. โAlso, how is enjoying being helpful to my friends a kink? What the hell is wrong with you?โ scoffing incrediously, he turns his back almost completely to you.
โIโm just saying!โ She shrugs winking at you like youโre in on the joke, but all you can focus on is Steve insinuating that youโre his friend and why that word has a sting to it.ย
Running an irritated hand through his hair, he mouths something to her you canโt hear before turning to meet your gaze again with a softness inside his eyes that doesnโt match the tone he just had. Itโs the same way he looked at you under the stars that night.ย
โWeโve got two options here, and they are either accept my help now, or after you make me throw out my back attempting to dig out your car in a blizzard that will inevitably still get stuck half way down the hill.โ The teasing grin on his pink lips disarms you with the kind of charm only he knows how to have, the kind you remember from high school. โIโll do whichever one you want, honey, so you tell me.โย
Honey.
The word wraps around you gooey and sweet, covering your insides in sugar, warming your bones, leaving you no choice.
โFine!โ It comes out in a playful huff, the edges of your mouth threatening to curl as you pull your keys out of the ignition. You meet his eyes from under your lashes, giving him one last chance to change his mind. โIf youโre really okay with this.โ
He nods, those perfect teeth of his tugging his full bottom lip between them, cheeks dusting a pretty shade of pink thatโs not just from the cold.
โOh, trust me, he is!โ Robin interrupts, and you watch in real time the way the gold sparkling inside his eyes turn black before they roll in the back of his head.
โKeep running that mouth Buckley, and youโre going to get real familiar with the walk home.โ He groans with another hand through his hair, the constant snow fall making the ends wet.
โEmpty threats.โ She scoffs, completely unphased just like Dustin. โNow let's go before we all get stuck too. No offense to you guys but I donโt want to have a sleep over at The Squawk with Keith.โย
She says his name like it leaves a bad taste in her mouth, and Steveโs face twists in disgust like he can taste it too.
โCouldnโt agree moreโ.โ You add, amused by another display of the two of them sharing the same brain.
Leaning over to crank your window back up, you meet Steveโs gaze from up close, something swirling inside it that you canโt figure out making your heart thump a few beats quicker. He holds you there till youโre sealed inside, leaving the storm muffled just like his voice.
โIโll go warm up the car.โย
โโโ-
You never thought youโd be sitting shotgun in Steveโs BMW, or that it would relax every bone in your aching body, loosening the stress knots that have made a permanent home in your shoulder blades. Itโs the way the cinnamon and amber fill the small space with the musk of his cologne, and how they mix with the deep tanned leather of the seat underneath you. The heat that blows from the vents only seems to intensify it along with the man next to you. It feels like youโre surrounded by him, encased by him.ย
He drives slowly down the winding road that leads into town, the tires crunch as it compacts the thick snow underneath them. It falls from the sky like itโs angry, wind sweeping the wet flakes against his headlights. His wipers squeak working overtime to keep visibility. The full moon hidden behind the deep purple clouds fights to shine its way through the storm, casting a deep lavender glow along the banks. Illuminating the snow that hangs heavy on the edges of the trees that line the bare woods surrounding you. Frank Sinatraโs โYou Go To My Headโ plays softly from his speakers with a light crackle from years of playing his music way too loud joy riding with Tommy and Carol.ย
Steve readjusts slightly in his seat to shift gears, and you catch a whiff of tobacco still clinging to the fabric of his sweater underneath his coat. Tugging your bottom lip between your teeth, you have to fight the urge to lean forward and inhale.ย ย
โOkay, so โ secret Santa. We were thinking of having it at the Wheelerโs, since their basement is practically like our second apartment anyway, on top of the fact that itโs way easier to get to than The Squawk.โ Robin breaks the silence, leaning forward resting her elbows on the backs of either of your headrests.ย
You donโt miss the way Steveโs grip on the steering wheel tightens enough to show the whiteโs of his knuckles at the name, or the anxious pit that forms in your gut at the idea of being the new face in a group of friends that are tied together by something you canโt even begin to comprehend.ย
โHey! Sit down, are you kidding me?โ He scolds, glaring at her from the rearview mirror.
โSorry, Dad.โ She huffs, raising her hands in defense, flopping herself back into her seat. Your lips twitch at the familiar nickname.
โAnd put your seat belt on too. Jesus, Iโm driving in a freaking blizzard Robin.โ He only takes his hand off the steering wheel just long enough to run it through his hair.ย Robin sticks her tongue out at his reflection, but you still hear the click of her seatbelt before she continues.
โAnyway, Iโm thinking around 8 o'clock Christmas Eve. You can make Keith work the overnight shift since youโre the boss and all.โ She grins wide when you toss her your own glare from over your shoulder.
โWhat if Keith wants it off?โ You counter with teasing revenge.
Itโs Steve that snorts next to you, bringing your attention to the curve of his lips, doing good to keep his eyes on the road.
โKeith was banned from secret Santa, per our agreement, so therefore he has to work and you have to go.โ He argues siding with his best friend daring to meet your gaze before adding a little quieter. โBesides, I want you to go.โ
Your stomach flips at his admission, cheeks warming enough they could fog the window next to you if you were just a few inches closer. Biting down on your bottom lip, you try to fight off the shy smile that wants to take over your face. Nervous hands pulling at the sleeves of your coat.
โI guess Iโll see what I can do.โ You try to play along with a roll of your eyes and a bad attempt at an even voice, but you can tell Robin sees right through it. The heat of her stare threatens to burn a hole in the back of your head daring you to meet it.
โPerfect, then itโs decided.โ She finally says, something mischievous dancing around in her tone. โHey dingus, drop me off at our place first, I forgot I gotta wake up early to help my Mom with something.โย
It sounds casual, the way she lays the trap, but you know exactly what sheโs doing and youโre almost positive Steve does too. Especially by the way he stares her down through the rear view mirror before clearing his throat.
โSounds good.โ He nods with a small smile that almost seems nervous, glancing at you from the corner of his eye to gauge a reaction you donโt give despite the wild thumping of your heart in your chest.
Robin Buckley was a menace.
Of course it doesnโt take much longer for Steve to pull into the small parking lot of what you assume is their apartment complex. Itโs one of the two in Hawkins, and yours of course is on the exact opposite side of town. Guilt consumes you with the realization of how far out of his way heโs going to not only drive you home, but to also pick you up first thing in the morning as the never ending storm clouds continue to dump what seems like another foot of snow on top of you.
Robin jumps out of the car before it even fully comes to a stop.
โDrive safe, and Iโll see you on Christmas Eve!โ She smiles, sticking her head in one last time, throwing Steve a wink that makes him scoff and wave her off.
โBye. Close the damn door before the snow ruins the leather.โ He scolds, trying to dismiss her very obvious ulterior motives, mouthing โgoโ until she finally obliges.ย
The wind outside isnโt loud enough to drown out her cackle after she shuts the door, and despite his annoyance he still doesnโt drive away till he sees her disappear safely into their apartment. Adding yet another quality to the long list of things Steve does that you unexpectedly find extremely endearing.ย
โIโm sorry โ I donโt know why sheโs being so, so - sheโs being weird.โ He stammers nervously, slowly pulling out and back into the snow storm thatโs only seemed to get worse.
โI think thatโs just Robinโs general demeanor.โ You say casually, like your palms werenโt sweating.ย
โThat is also true.โ He laughs quietly, shifting gears when his tires slide, turning a corner.
โAre you seriously sure this is okay Steve? We're still not that far from the station. Itโs getting bad, I can just stay there.โย ย
As if to prove your point, the wind kicks up, smacking loudly on the side of his car.
โYouโre not sleeping at the station.โ He responds seriously, shifting again before slowly hitting the gas getting back on the main road. โI would not have offered it if I didnโt want to.โ
โTechnically Robin offered.โ
โWeโre basically the same person, so.โ He shrugs, a toothy grin spreading across his face that only seems to be more handsome draped in shadows and moonlight.ย
Frank Sinatraโs โIf I Had Youโ fills the quiet space between you, the strings and his deep melodic voice turning the snow outside into something magical instead of treacherous.ย
โYou really like Sinatra donโt you?โ The question makes him do a double take, a reveal that warms both your cheeks and sends butterflies soaring deep in your gut giving your cards away about listening to his overnights.
โI could show the world how to smile. I could be glad all the while. I could change the grey skies blue, if I had you.โย
โChecking up on me I see.โ He grins, shifting again only this time the side of his hand grazes your thigh, the slightest touch sending your body buzzing.
โI mean, Iโve got to keep tabs. Iโve caught you slipping, what? Four times now?โ You tease, doing your best to hide your grin.ย
โThree. And all of them were your fault.โ He corrects, sly eyes finding yours over the console making you giggle.
โSounds like a deflection to me, Steve.โ You sigh, relaxing even more in your seat meeting him from under your lashes. โI just never pegged you for a Frank Sinatra kind of guy.โ
He huffs out a laugh, running a big hand through his hair that almost looks like a messy kind of bed head after the amount of times heโs done it throughout the day.ย
โI wasnโt until Robin started judging my love for Eddie Money like it was the worst thing sheโs ever heard in her life. Which is crazy cause โโ
โHe makes hits!โ You agree, with the kind of excitement that makes a smile stretch so big across his face that it splits in two.ย
โThank you! Yes, he makes hits. But, she disagrees and decided to dedicate the first two months we worked at the station โexpandingโ my music taste. I tried hiding the fact that I liked Frank outta spite, but apparently you arenโt the only one who listens to my overnights.โ He glances over holding your stare for just long enough to make your heart skip a beat.
โYou really arenโt stealthy, Steve.โ You giggle before adding, โI bet she knows youโre smoking again too.โ
โYouโre probably right.โ He groans at the possibility.
โI hear that a lot.โย
Steve snorts, flipping his blinker on to turn down the road that leads to your side of town, shifting again his knuckles brush against you for the second time sending goosebumps pebbling across your skin.ย
โI was so surprised the first time I heard you play โMy Wayโ, but honestly Harrington, it kinda suits you. I like it.โ Your cheeks warm at your own compliment, something about saying it in his moonlit car has it feeling bigger than intended.
He stays quiet for a moment, letting the song fill the space between you charged with the new feelings that sit on the edge of both of your tongues.
โAnd I could leave the old days behind. Leave all my pals, Iโd never mind. And I could start my life anew, if I had you.โ
โYeah?โ He asks quietly, with a kind of soft vulnerability wrapped around the word thatโs unmistakable.
โMmhmm.โ You whisper matching his tone turning shy, heart thumping wildly in your chest. โItโs hard not too.โ
You arenโt talking about Sinatra anymore, and you think you both know it.
His gaze feels heavy as it crawls over the details of your face in the silence that follows, trying to figure out whatโs going on inside your head. You hope whatever heโs looking for is hidden, just like the feelings that are starting to bloom despite how much youโve tried not to water them.ย
โWhat was it like?โย
The question youโve been too scared to ask since youโve been home slips out without warning, nervous fingers fidgeting with the sleeves of your sweater that poke out from your coat.ย
โLockdown?โ He clears his throat, straightening his posture holding the steering wheel with a harsh grip.
โIf you donโt want to talk about it, I understand.โ You try to take it back watching the way all the muscles in his body seem to tense at the memory.ย
โNo, no, itโs fine.โ He responds with a small smile reading you like a book from the corner of his eye. โI donโt mind, just, uh, I wasn't expecting it.โ
โSorry, I have a bad habit of just blurting out whatever pops into my mind.โ You laugh nervously, tugging your bottom lip between your teeth.
โOh, I know, I remember your conversational skills on the roof.โ He teases, the whites of his teeth shining against the dashboard lights.
โNow look at us because of my lack of conversational skills.โ Smirking, you dare to look over at him again, your eyes tracing the moles that dot his profile.ย
Steve was always handsome, but was he always this handsome?
โFast friends.โ He chuckles softly, meeting your gaze briefly before focusing back on the road.ย
Thereโs that word again. You guess itโs better than โcool.โ
The snow falls so heavily outside you arenโt entirely sure how heโs even able to see through it anymore.
โLockdown was like being trapped in a never ending loop of the worst day of your life.โ He says with a low voice, his handsome features going dark at the memory.
Shifting gears again, his Beamer slowly trudges up the kind of hill that you know would have been your car's demise if you had even made it out of the station's parking lot. He leaves his hand to rest on the stick shift this time, the tips of his fingers press softly into your thigh, he doesnโt move them.ย
โBut at least I had a real excuse for once as to why my life turned out the way it did.โ Thereโs a layer of self hatred sewn into what heโs saying, itโs hard to miss in the way it diminishes the light in his eyes.ย
โWhat do you mean by that?โ You whisper, too nervous to talk at full volume, but you lean your thigh further into his touch, keeping him connected to you. The rev of his struggling engine bleeds through the conversation, and you wonder if his car will even make it back.
โI mean look at me.โ He laughs, like itโs obvious.ย
โI am looking at you Steve.โย
You almost tell him that itโs all you seem to be doing lately.
โMy Dadโs a lawyer with his own firm, and Iโm a sound guy at a radio station who peaked in high school that canโt seem to get it together enough to leave.โ He scoffs like you must need a reminder, running that nervous hand through his hair again, knee starting to bounce.ย
โThatโs not what I see.โ It comes out soft just like your gaze, fingers flexing in your lap fighting the urge to wrap around his.
โYeah?โ His voice cracks a little, but he keeps his focus on the disappearing road. โWhat do you see?โ
โI could be a king, dear, uncrowned. Humble or poor, rich or renowned. Thereโs nothing I couldnโt do, if I had you.โ
โSomeone that loves his friends so deeply that he constantly puts his needs last. Youโre selfless almost to a fault Steve, and sometimes I have to fight the urge to yell at you to take care of yourself when I see how bad the bags under your eyes get some days.โย
He chuckles dryly, his grip on the steering wheel tightening as he blinks back tears that threaten to spill like heโs never heard these things about himself before. A storm raging inside of him just like the one outside.
โI see a guy whoโs so kind, heโd sacrifice his own happiness for anyone that he loves. And I think thatโs exactly why youโre still here. I wouldnโt call that being a failure. Not by a long shot.โย
Thatโs when you do it, you wrap your fingers around his and squeeze, he does it back with zero hesitation, like he was waiting for you. Keeping you there.
โI think about it all the time you know?โ He whispers, the pad of his thumb brushing against your knuckles, butterflies multiplying deep in your gut.
โWhat?โ
โLeaving.โ
Frank Sinatraโs deep baritone fills the quiet that falls between you when he turns on your road, letting the weight of his confession hold the space there. A deep longing inside of it to see what lies past where the twenty feet tall fences were.ย
โWhy havenโt you?โ The question feels loaded when it leaves your mouth, and the way his thumb stutters tells you it is.
โI just need to know theyโre safe โ that they get out of here first. Especially Dustin, that little shit gets under my skin but I love him like he's my kid.โ He answers the question with the most selfless kind of reason you shouldโve expected. Something else lingering inside of it that he doesnโt want to unpack just yet. โAfter everything, I just canโt, I canโt. Not yet. Part of me feels like maybe Iโll always live here.โ
He pulls into your complex like heโs done it a thousand times before, wheels spinning in the snow before his car propels forward into the first spot, only letting go of your fingers to put the car in park.
โThat doesnโt mean you canโt explore whatโs past Hawkins, Steve.โ You whisper, turning in your seat to face him, already missing the warmth of his hand. โYouโre not stuck, even if you stay, you can always see what else is out there, one place at a time, one trip at a time. Bit by bit. The world is big, and itโs not going anywhere.โ
His eyes shine, glassy and shimmering under the street lamp above his car. They tell you everything he canโt bring his mouth to speak, your hands flexing in your lap fighting the urge to grab onto him again. Shadows make the moles and freckles that dot his skin look like the last flick of a paint brush, the final touches to a painting and you realize โ yes, Steve has always been this handsome, you just didnโt see it before.ย
You see it now though.
โThanks for taking me home.โ You smile a little shy, the heaviness of the conversation hanging in the air.ย
โAny time, honey.โ His full lips twist into something sweet, the new nickname making your body come alive. โWant me to walk you to your door?โ
He glances around your well lit parking lot like something could be lurking in the shadows, it feels silly to you, but the expression that furrows deep in the V of his brows tells you that itโs anything but to him.
โIโm already scared youโre not gonna get out of here as it is. Iโm just right there.โ You point to the door of your apartment, the one conveniently closest to where heโs parked and his shoulders visibly relax. You knew he was going to watch you till you got inside anyway.
โIโll pick you up around 8?โ He asks, his eyes glancing down at your hands that fidget like he missed your touch too.
The bold red numbers on his dash read: 9:38PM. Suddenly tomorrow feels like a million years away.ย
โThat sounds good.โ It comes out in a whisper, your mind frantically searching for anything to say to keep him here even if just for a few minutes more. But itโs all static.
โIโll see you tomorrow morning then.โ He smiles, leaning back into the headrest.
โIโll make you coffee for your troubles โ with four sugars, donโt worry.โ You tease, trying to ignore the nervous crack in your voice, but your joke lands earning you a snort in response and it only pushes your cheeks up higher.
โBetter make it five.โ Steve winks, white teeth gleaming against the dashboard lights at the eye roll he gets.
โWhatever Harrington, it's your body, your diabetes." You shrug, not expecting the genuine full belly laugh you get, quickly doing your best to try and memorize the bass and timbre of it in case you donโt hear it again.
You take one last look at him, committing this moment to memory. His eyes do the same as they trace over every curve and dip of your face, it makes you squirm a little in your seat. Your fingers grab the door handle at the same time he clears his throat leaning back into the leather. He flicks his thumb across his nose, before that big hand of his wraps around the stick shift, signaling that itโs really time to go.
โPlease drive safely.โ You beg, stepping out of the car and into the snow, remembering all those times he peeled out of the stationโs dirt road.
โI will, I will. Donโt worry.โ He waves you off with a smirk, โIโll be thinking about that coffee the whole way home.โ
Heโs not talking about the coffee.ย
You tug your bottom lip between your teeth, the wet snow flakes that stick to your cheeks melting from the heat emanating off of them. Shutting the door, you wave at him one last time before trudging up to your apartment, feeling the warmth of his stare on you the whole way. He waits until your keys are in your door before you hear the squeal of his gear shifting, his tires spinning loudly just like yours did at the station. It makes you turn around, and you watch him try to back out again just to get himself even more stuck in the snow that just continues to pile around him. He tugs at his hair trying one more time, finally giving up when smoke starts to come up from the burning rubber of his tires. His eyes meet yours through his windshield, apologetic and nervous, the wind kicking up a notch to add salt to the wound.
โYouโre gonna flood your engine!โ You tease with a grin, getting the shine of his teeth you were looking for. Bright like the sunshine you missed so much, they break through the storm clouds that threaten to hide his face.ย
Steve Harrington was snowed in at your apartment.
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You never thought your place was that small for a studio until Steve was standing in the middle of it, broad shoulders and long legs taking up so much space. His eyes are curious as they absorb his new surroundings, mouth slightly agape unzipping his leather jacket looking around like heโs being let in on a big secret. Nerves twist tight in your gut at the general clutter scattered around your room that doubles as a common area, especially the pair of underwear hanging half hazardly from your laundry basket.
โSorry for the - the um, mess. I wasnโt expecting anyone, obviously.โ You stutter, peeling off your coat in a rush.ย
Hanging up your puffer by the front door, you scurry past him to try and clean up what you can, starting with the black lace but the deepening red in his cheeks tells you that it's too late.
โYou're fine, seriously. Youโre cute โ I mean.โ He clears his throat like it's closing up, scratching the back of his neck, โIt's a cute, cute apartment.โย ย
You canโt stop the twist of your lips no matter how hard you try, giggling a soft thank you as you speed clean around him. He stands there awkwardly, unsure of what to do with himself either, both of you lost in uncharted territory.ย
โHere, Iโll take your coat.โ You huff throwing away the last of the wrappers youโve collected, taking a deep breath at the realization that youโre being a bad host. โYou can sit on the couch, and get comfortable.โย
Steve looks like a deer in headlights when you walk over to him with an open hand.ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย
โIs it okay if I use your bathroom real quick?โ Thereโs a shyness in the way that he asks, slipping his wet leather coat into your grasp, that nervous hand pushing his hair back.
Thereโs a brief moment of panic as you try and remember the way you left it, but since you werenโt running late today, youโre nintey nine percent sure itโs safe.
โYeah of course, itโs on the right around the corner, not the left, that's just a closet.โย
He nods, patting himself down like maybe heโs forgetting something before turning around and disappearing into the bathroom with a soft click of the door. A shaky breath you didnโt even know you were holding slips out from between your lips as you hang up his coat. The musk of his cologne hits your nose along with the relaxing hint of amber inside of it, and this time, you give in, inhaling a little more.
You take one last look around your apartment for anything else you mightโve missed before grabbing an extra blanket from the closet you warned him about. Your heart thumps a little quicker hearing the muffled sound of the water running in the sink as the reality of Steve Harrington having to sleep on your couch just a few feet from your bed settles in.
You grab the extra pillow you usually cuddle with from its hiding place under your comforter, laying everything out for him on one side of the loveseat.ย Staring down at the short piece of furniture, there's a part of you that wonders if heโs even going to fit on it, at least comfortably. Another wave of guilt hits you like a tsunami as you start to think maybe you should be the one to sleep on the couch instead.
The sound of the bathroom door opening stops you from being able to fret about it too much as he emerges from around the corner. His hazel eyes find yours instantly, the gold in them looking warm like honey. A toothy grin cracks his handsome face in two calming the anxiety that had begun tightening uncomfortably in your chest. The sleeves of his brown sweater are pushed up, and the windswept mess on the top of his head had obviously been tamed in his absence. A mental image of him fixing his hair in your small bathroom mirror has the corners of your mouth curling up. It feels like something to check off a bucket list.ย
โI like the pink rugs you have in there.โ He points over his shoulder with his thumb taking two long strides to the middle of the room, his gaze wandering the posters on your wall like he's trying to piece you together.
โThanks, I bought them when I first moved back to brighten it up a little.โ You sigh with a shrug, looking down before adding โthis one too.โ
You point to the fuzzy burnt orange throw carpet under both your sock covered feet, a proud smile pulling up your cheeks meeting his eyes from under your lashes.
โIโve got the last little bit of my favorite summer candle. I usually light it when it snows like this. If you wanna get really crazy, we can even pretend itโs June.โ The wiggle of your eyebrows earns you the kind of laugh from him that threatens to become your favorite sound.ย
โWhat does summer smell like to you?โ He questions with a soft stare, teeth tugging at his full bottom lip. The warm light from your floor lamp casting shadows across his sharp features.ย
โIt smells like the beach on the sunniest day of the year โ salt water, sunshine, with the smallest amount of sweetness and dare I say a dash of clean linen.โ You sigh at the thought of it, side stepping him to light it from where it sits on your kitchen island.ย
โTake me away to cocamo or whatever the song says.โ Steve huffs, finally flopping down on your couch. A low groan rumbles from his chest as his body molds into the cushions. This time he runs both hands through his hair.
โIโm just gonna change into something more comfortable really quick.โ It comes out in a rush, your nerves from before jumbling the words on the tip of your tongue.
โTake your time,โ He waves you off with a yawn, โdo you care if I use your phone to call Robin while youโre doing that? I donโt want her thinking Iโm in a ditch somewhere.โ
โGo for it.โ You smile, grabbing your softest pajama pants and an oversized shirt doing your best not to over think it, or the fact that you have nothing for him to sleep in.
Disappearing around the corner, you have to ward off the mental image of what Steve sprawled out across your couch in his boxers would look like.
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His voice sounds faint on the other side of the door and even though he's speaking in a hushed tone you can still tell heโs annoyed by whatever his best friend is saying on the other end. Judging by the way she was acting in the car, you can only imagine in the privacy of a call.
You stare at yourself in the mirror, probably the same way he did, messing with your appearance. Your mind wanders, replaying the night and how pushy Robin was all of the sudden, and it makes you wonder if she knows something you donโt. Maybe you werenโt the only one figuring out what that flutter in your stomach actually means.
Clearing your throat loudly, you give him a subtle warning of your return, fingers wrapping around the doorknob for ten extra seconds longer before finally coming out.
โYou are not basically Dave Hull, you donโt host a match making show, please shut upโ I gotta go, seriously? Can itโ bye!โ
He hangs up, running an irritated hand down his face mumbling something to himself before turning around. His eyes go wide, crimson staining his cheeks clearly oblivious to all the warnings you tried to give him.ย ย ย
โSounds like she was super worried.โ You tease trying your best to hide your smile and ignore the way his gaze wanders your softer edges, the hardened shell at work hung up with your coat.ย
โYeah, sorry about that.โ He snorts with an annoyed groan, โshe was just being โโ
โRobin.โ You finish with a giggle, dragging your feet lazily to your bed, as a guilty conscience has you sizing up the couch again.
โI forget that you understand.โ He laughs dryly flopping back down where he was sitting before you changed, thighs spreading wide as he head lulls against the cushions.
โSteve, I really donโt think that couch is going to be big enough for you.โ Crossing your arms, you try to think of any kind of comfortable position he could possibly sleep in without his legs hanging over the arm rest. Or worse, propped up in mid air.ย
โI think you should take my bed, Iโll sleep on the couch.โ
โNo, nope, absolutely not.โ He sits up, squaring his broad shoulders in stubborn finality.ย
โSeriously, I re-โ
โI mean it, I'm fine, I could sleep standing up if Iโm tired enough.โ Steve grabs the blanket you laid out for him, leaning back and stretching out with one leg on the arm rest and the other on the floor.ย ย ย
โSee? Comfy.โย
He drapes the quilted comforter over himself to really drive his point home. It doesnโt look comfortable at all, but itโs obvious heโs not going to back down.ย
You narrow your eyes at him, staring just long enough to get a laugh before he shoos you away to a bed thatโs been calling your name since the station. This time you donโt have it in you to argue, taking one last look at him letting him win after he whispers a final โIโm fine, go to bed.โ
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The wind howls loudly outside, noisy gusts blowing against your windows sending in a chill that bleeds through the cracks of the poorly sealed glass. Another harsh blast against your apartment building has the flimsy foundations shake, and despite the thickness of your comforter goosebumps pebble across your skin, teeth threatening to chatter. Glancing over at your alarm clock, bright red numbers flash a harsh 12:34AM at you.
It was the sound of Steveโs light snoring that lulled you to sleep about an hour ago, but now itโs his constant shuffling and re adjusting on the couch that pulls you out of it. A long huff escapes through his nose after turning for what feels like the hundredth time, and you donโt have to see him to know heโs running a hand through his hair.
The wind kicks up again, blowing out the dim flame of your dying candle on the kitchen island, the soft yellow glow disappearing turning the room a deep blue. A shiver runs up your spine at the same time the springs of the couch squeak as he tries to readjust again.
โSteve, just get in the bed.โย
The shuffling stops, both of you holding your breath.
โIt doesnโt have to be weird, youโre clearly uncomfortable.โ You sit up rubbing the sleep from your eyes finding him in the kind of position that was sure to give him back problems for the next week.ย
The internal battle heโs having with himself is evident on his face, and it lasts long enough for the uncomfortable weight of regret to start settling in your chest. Nerves digging your canines into the skin on the side of your thumb.ย
โFuck it.โ He huffs under his breath sitting up, grabbing the pillow you gave him that had been rolled up to help support his neck in the pretzel of a position he had put himself in.ย
Your shoulders relax for a split second until the realization of what this means quickens the beating of your heart. Chewing your bottom lip, you lift the comforter in a silent invitation doing your best to keep up with the ruse that this wasnโt a big deal, even if it feels like the exact opposite.
Steve stops at the side of your full size bed, running those long fingers through the already messy main on the top of his head. Purple shadows kiss the bags under his weary eyes as he takes in the small space next to you before they meet your gaze.
โAre you sure? I- I donโt want to make you uncomfortable.โ He asks with a sleepy rasp in his voice that makes your chest swell.
โIโve actually never been more sure of anything in my life, if you can believe it.โ You give him a lazy reassuring grin, โbesides, Iโm cold and Iโm willing to bet youโre like a human furnace.โ
He lets out a soft laugh at the reveal of your ulterior motive, the stress in his shoulders softening as he runs a hand over his face before nodding tossing his pillow down next to yours.
โAs long as itโs mutually beneficial.โ Steve smiles a little shy climbing under the covers, his weight making the mattress dip in the middle daring you to come closer.ย
The bed squeaks underneath him as he adjusts, your metal bed frame smacking against the wall. He settles on his side facing you with a hand tucked under his pillow. You mimic the way he lays, nerves coming out in the form of fidgeting feet, your toes brushing against his under the covers. Heโs so close that you can see the smattering of freckles at the corners of his eyes, and every mole that dots along his neck. Amber and tobacco hit your nose, warming you just like the heat that radiates off his body, eyes glowing a golden evergreen in the deep blue light of your apartment.
God he was close, so close.
His gaze traces the lines of your face and you swear they linger on your lips. Even if just for a fleeting moment, catching your breath in the back of your throat.
โBet you regret offering to take me home now huh?โ You tease in a whisper, the tip of your toe catching on his shin.ย
โNah,โ he scoffs with a soft grin,โI do however regret not wearing my boots, I wasn't even thinking, rookie mistake.โย
Your giggle makes his full pink lips stretch wide over perfect white teeth. Butterflies flutter in a kaleidoscope of color when he catches your feet with his own.
โIโll help you,โ you hum, as your hand not tucked away finds a new home in the space between you. โDonโt worry.โ
Thereโs a moment of silence while his fingers follow yours, resting close enough for the tips of them to brush. His thick eyebrows marry in the middle of his forehead, thinking hard about whatever heโs wanting to say next.
โSorry if that was a little much in the car earlier, I didnโt mean to dump all of that on you.โ He looks up at you from under his lashes, insecurities swirling in the depths of his irises.
โDonโt be,โ your voice comes out quiet, swallowing your apprehension as your index finger hooks with his, โI like seeing that side of you.โ
His finger flexes at your response, squeezing.
โYeah?โ He questions with the kind of disbelief that cracks open your heart.
โMmhmm.โ You murmur, holding his gaze, toes digging into the top of his foot, silently saying I like you.
You donโt know when it happened, but staring at him in the incandescent light of your room. Youโre sure of it now.ย
Steve scoots closer, the heat of his breath fanning against your lips. Drawn to him like a magnet, you do the same, the tip of your nose brushing with his. Cinnamon from the Big Red he always chews invades your senses like the left over cologne clinging to his clothes. Another gust of wind smacks against your windows, sending a chill up your spine. Steveโs lips quirk on one side.
โWant to test out your furnace theory?โ He breathes, a nervous crack in his voice, as he takes the leap of no return, first.ย
Tugging your bottom lip between your teeth, all you can muster is a shy nod, your legs wrapping tighter around his. Something greedy warms every inch of your skin like itโs a need to have him as close as possible, and here he is offering it to you like itโs all he wants too.ย
His big hand finds your hip before sliding to the small of your back, his palm flattening along your spine tugging you to him. It doesnโt take much to close whatever space that was left between you, legs tangling together with bodies pressed so close that you can feel every ridge and dip of him. You look up from under your lashes just to find him already staring down at you, and even with the heavy weight of his mind evident under his eyes, heโs somehow more handsome than he was an hour ago.ย
Your palms flatten along his chest, the unbuttoned collar of his sweater revealing the top of a thick patch of hair that hides underneath the cotton. It makes your thighs press into his, your cheeks burning but if he notices he doesnโt show it. The pad of his thumb presses softly running along the dip of your spine, soothing your stiff muscles while his eyes trace over the contours of your face. Thereโs something about the way he looks at you that makes you feel like he can see everything that youโre trying to hide, and when his gaze lingers on your lips youโre sure he can.ย
The hand he kept tucked under his pillow outstretches with his arm, sliding under your head to pull the rest of you in. Tucking you under his chin, you bury your face into the side of his neck, thankful for the hiding place. His skin feels just as sunkissed as it looks, and it takes everything inside of you not to nuzzle deeper into him searching for more.ย
โIs this okay?โ He whispers against the crown of your head, soft fingers running up and down the length of your back.ย
โMmhmm.โ You mumble against his throat instead of โcan I live here?โ curling your fists into his sweater to pull yourself closer.
For the first time all winter, youโre thankful for the snow.ย
โAre you okay?โ Your question comes out in a murmur, lips ghosting against his skin as you attempt to look up at him failing miserably nosing the sensitive spot behind his ear.ย
โAm I โ am I okay?โ He snorts incredulously, pulling you close enough to feel impossible, turning his head just enough for your cheeks to brush, the heat of his breath pebbling goosebumps along the side of your neck. โNever been better, honey.โ
Honey. You want to change your name to honey. Get lost in the gold of it hidden in his eyes.
All you would have to do is lift your chin up slightly, and your lips could be pressed to his. The thought of them being so close quickens your heart beat, breath hitching as the tip of his nose nudges against the side of your cheek. Testing the boundaries like the realization dawned on him too. The sound of your heavy breathing mixes with the howling of the wind outside, filling the quiet space of your apartment, neither one of you daring to speak. His chest rises and falls under your palm, his own heart matching yours, skipping a beat at the tilt of your chin.ย
His fingers slide down your spine, fiddling with the hem of your shirt until he feels the slight nod of your head giving him permission. Electricity sparks goosebumps along the soft skin of your lower back the moment the tips of them touch you, a low hum escaping the back of your throat. You swear you feel his lips curve up against your cheek at the sound. Your bodies move together, seeking friction youโre not ready to give into yet, heavy breathes hot against each other's necks.ย
Your hands trail down his chest, a greedy need to touch more of him taking over all logical thought. They reach the bottom of his sweater at the same time your nose presses harder into his cheek when the blunt end of his nails drag softly down the dip of your spine. Your fingers slip under the hem, the pads of them meeting the rough hair of his happy trail. His body tenses, the movements of his hand coming to halt. You immediately feel the loss when he pulls it out, long fingers grabbing a hold of your wrist.ย
โHey.โ He whispers against your ear, his voice laced with something soft and scared.
You work up the courage to push past the bitter taste of rejection sneaking up on you to pull your head back just enough to meet the heavy gaze of his eyes, eclipsed dark with want, fear sparkling in the depths of them. The tips of your noses brush, and your fingers itch to smooth the lines in the middle of his forehead from the furrow of his brows despite the way your heart drops to the pit of your gut.ย
Maybe you read this all wrong.ย
โThereโs โ Thereโs stuff you donโt know about me.โ He starts, the hand on your wrist letting you go so he can thread his fingers with yours, easing some of the anxiety that had started to build. โThings happened to me โ happened to a lot of us during that time.โย
You press your forehead to his, the pad of your thumb rubbing softly over his knuckles, silently encouraging him to continue. His face twists like heโs in pain, shame shadowing his handsome features, breaking your heart before he even has a chance to finish.ย
โThese things, they left their mark on me. Itโs โ itโs a lot to explain, not really pillow talk.โ huffing out a nervous laugh, he swallows avoiding your gaze, he moves his focus to your tangled hands instead before continuing, โmy stomach and umm parts of my chest โ Iโve got a lot of scars is what Iโm trying to tell you pretty fucking badly. A lot of them, and I havenโt really shown them to anyone before. Well anyone โโ
โNew?โ You finish, squeezing your legs around his calf a little tighter remembering the one you saw wrapped around his neck.ย
Tears that you donโt let fall sting the corners of your eyes. Seeing him vulnerable like this, leaving himself bare to trust you to help pick the pieces back up has a sharp pain tightening in your chest. A vengeful rage boiling under the surface at the idea of whatever it was that caused him so much pain. The urge to apologize to him eats at you but you keep it to yourself knowing thatโs the last thing he would want. Steve Harrington hated pity.ย ย
โYeah,โ He breathes a slight sigh of relief, his eyes finally meeting yours with a worry he canโt seem to shake swimming deep in the pools of them.
โSteve.โ His name comes out gentle, a softness about it that has his nose nudging against yours. โYou only have to share with me whatever youโre comfortable with.โ
You run the tip of your nose along the length of his, breathing him in.ย
โI donโt need to see them yet, or ever if thatโs what you want, I just โ I just really want to touch you.โ
Your eyes close, hiding from his gaze that searches for you.ย
โI want that too, honey. God more than anything.โ He whispers against the corner of your mouth, the silk of his lips waking up every nerve ending in your body.
He lets go of your hand, fingers lazily crawling up your hip before returning to their home on the small of your back. A shiver runs up your spine at how good it feels to be touched by him again, only a few minutes passing but they felt like a lifetime.ย
You meet Steveโs stare, an intensity burning in his eyes that wasnโt there before. The kind that gives you the courage to slip your hand back up the bottom of his sweater. Tentative nails raking through his rough happy trail. The feeling of your touch sends a shudder through his body, like itโs been denied this kind of intimacy for a long time. A low groan catching in the back of his throat pressing his forehead harder against yours.
Your touch grows bolder, more curious as your fingers dare to crawl further up. The pads of them are met with uneven skin, evidence of large almost teeth-like shaped gashes lining the sides of his ribs. Despite pinching his eyes closed, he leans further into your touch. Your teeth dig into the fat of your bottom lip, holding in the cry that wants to slip out.
What happened to you?
The blunt ends of your nails find the softer patch of hair on his chest, your hips meeting his on their own accord. Steve tilts his head up, his mouth hovering just above yours as his hands spread wide across the small of your back. He pulls you to him like thereโs somehow more space between you even though there isnโt. Your top lip brushes just slightly against his full bottom one, while your fingers dance slowly down the other side of his ribcage. The bumps of identical scars kissing the pads of them again.ย
His nose presses into your cheek, a shaky breath tickling against your skin. The blunt end of his nails digging crescent moons into the soft skin of your back when you go over a deeper indentation.
โSo handsome.โ You whisper, lips ticking just under the shell of his ear as you glide your fingers over the same spot again.
He breathes out a shy laugh, nuzzling deeper into you leaving a whisper of a kiss at the hinge of your jaw. His mouth is so close to where you want it most, a fluttering tickling deep in your gut at the feel of them dragging along your skin.ย
โSo beautiful.โ His voice comes out low against the sensitive spot in the crook of your neck. Its baritone has your body curving soaking in the warmth of him through your palms because touching Steve feels like bathing in sunshine.ย
The need for more is insatiable, and he lets you take as much as you want. Your hands wander the broad expanses of his chest, tracing the dips and curves of the pinched skin of his scars until your eyelids grow too heavy to keep open. The soft caresses of his fingers against the sore muscles of your back lulling you to the deepest sleep youโve had in what feels like months but not before you hear a quiet whispered โsweet dreams, honey.โ
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Part Two โจ
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Summary- Reader comes home drunk from a girls night out with Robin and Dustin sees how good Steve takes care of her.
Context/warnings- established relationship, drinking, drunk, some mention of being at a bar. Steve being a caring and loving boyfriend, dustin being supportive
A knock on the door is what steve heard and he got up from the couch and paused the star wars movie he was watching with dustin. Then more knocks started to happen and steve mumbled under his breath โiโm coming In coming.โ As he opened the door it was you clearly drunk and looked like you were about to fall over. โStevie baby my beautiful hot sexy boyfriendโ You said slurring your words smiling at him draping your arms around his neck. Your short black skirt was ridding up as you moved and Steve noticed imdenilty and pulled it down as he put his other arm around your waist.
"hey baby, how was your time." Steve said to you as you came off of him and wondering into the kitchen looking for the wine as Dustin got off the couch and started to walk towards Steve. You pulled out two wine glasses one for you and one for Steve. "Hey no no no, babe you have already had to much." He said gently to you like he was talking like a baby. "Yeah but Stevie I want to have fun with you and stuff." You said your words slurring over one another.
"Holy shit Y/n your wasted." Dustin said as he watched Steve put the wine and the wine glasses away. You walked towards dustin and gave him a big hug. "Awe dustin I missed you did you have fun with Stevie." You said giving him a nice big squeeze. He pulled away from your hug, he hated physical contact. "Um yeah he had a good time I guess."
Dustin said as he watched you trip over your feet and Steve was right behind you to catch you. "Honey I think its time you get to bed." He said gently stroking your hair as you melted into his arms. "Yeah but I want to tell you about my time, it was so funnnn." You said smiling as you looked up a him. He gave you a sweet smile back. Dustin saw how in love you two where and it made him not only sick to his stomach that his sister was with his best friend but also happy for them.
"Go ahead sweet girl tell me about your night." Steve said gently as he lead you to the couch. You talked a lot when you where sober so just imagine how much you talked when you where drunk. "Okay sooo robin you know she meet this girl and she was like super funny but then she was kinda of mean to me like she would make comments that where like why would you even say that you know but robin reallyyyyyy likes her a lot which is weird because she dose not look like robins type at all. But other then that she was okay but then this guy offered us free drinks but I said no because I have a hot sexy boyfriend at home to pay for my drinks and the guy laughed at me but then I was like whatever he could never compare to my man that I have at home. Then that girl that robin was with Stacy well she was kinda of rude to me again and she said she would take robin home and not me and robin was like even drunk but robin was like if your taking me home you haveee to take my best friend home and then finally Stacy agreed I honestly just thinks she hates me a lot a lot a lot. But Robin really likes her so I guess it dose not matter. So Then I came home and sae my amazing sexy hot caring gentle sweet boyfriend and now we are about to go upstairs and then we are going to have the best se-"
Steve looked at you with wide eye and covered your mouth as Dustin rolled his eyes. "Babe we are not doing any of that tonight you are drunk out of your mind." he said looking at your sweet face. "But that Stacy girl sounds like she is the meanest girl on earth, I mean who could ever be mean to my sweet baby." He said babying you as he always did when you where drunk, hurt, crying, or just stressed or upset. "Yeah I know its like she hated me because I was just there."
You said looking up at him with a pouty face, dustin at this point gaged at you two. You guys are gross I'm going to bed." Dustin said as he went into Steves guest bedroom that dustin slept in when he slept over at Steves. "Goodnight dusty." You said giggling at the nickname dusty. As you giggled you cuddled into Steves side. "Stevie?" You asked softy "What my angel?" Steve said kissing your forehead gently. "Do you think we are going to end up together forever."
You asked softy looking back up at him batting your eyelashes. He gave you a soft laugh combined with a soft smile. "Of course I do baby I promise we are going to get married and have like six little nuggets and live together in a big house and I wouldn't have my life any other way." He said gently reassuring her thoughts.
"That sounds like a good plan, maybe expect the six little nuggets part." You said your eyes blinking slowly about to close.
"Yeah I knew you would say that." Steve said kissing your forehead once more and telling you that he loved you and that you have sweet dreams.
Have we considered Eddie Munson somnophiliaโฆโฆ.
Whatever You Want
Boyfriend!Eddie Munson x Reader
Summary: You're so pretty, Eddie's so hard, you're so sleepy, Eddie's so not deterred.
Word Count: 1.2k
Warnings: 18+ MDNI!!! smut, PiV unprotected sex, kinda dubcon but itโs fiction and heโs your boyfriendโyouโll let him do anything to you, somnophilia, cream pieeeeeeeee
A/N: We are now! I canโt help but make Eddie a horny, pervy, silly little goose. You whores are flooding my inbox now, got me working like a dog, writing faster than Iโve ever written. Iโm loving all the asks, youโve got my mind whirring with ideas.ย
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Eddieโs staring up at the ceiling, watching the glint of headlights glide across the otherwise dark room. Heโs been huffing frustratedly, tossing and turning all night. For the life of him, he canโt find a comfortable position.ย
Turning his head on the pillow, he watches the subtle expansion of your back as you breathe in and out, smiling at the soft snorts you occasionally let slip between drooling, parted lips. His eyes travel down your figure, admiring the way your tank top rides up, giving way to the smoothest sliver of skin before his gaze locks on to the hem of your pink panties.
He didnโt mean to get hard, but itโs your fault. You complained about being hot before bedโof which he had nothing to do with, the thermostat was at 73ยฐ when he got home, and he would not be testifying under oath for that as perjury is, in fact, a crimeโopting to wear less clothes than normal. So, really youโre to blame in this situation. Itโs your fault your soft, supple, womanly body has his one caveman neuron activating.ย
Heโs a warm-blooded man, of course heโs going to get hard when he sees your bare hips, smells your intoxicating shampoo, feels the softness of your skinโhow are girls so smooth? He swears, you feel just like a dolphin.ย
Inching his hot body closer to you, he presses his chest to your back, wrapping a tattooed arm around your waist. He practically shudders at the feel of your doughy flesh, sliding his hand up your body, he gives your breasts a little groping squeeze. His eyes practically roll back into his head when you let out a contented hum, unconsciously backing your ass into his erection.ย
Heโs trying to be good. Heโs trying to be a decent man. But you look like that. And you feel so good. Maybe just a little rock, he thinks. No harm, no foul. Giving his hips a tiny roll, he curses out a soft, โFuck.โ The fat of your ass has him feeling clinically insane, he feels like he could cry from how well the friction rubs his needy cock.ย
His heart drops, breath freezing in his throat as you let out a sigh, readjusting to bring a knee up, turning your chest flat onto the bed. The sheets are crumpled, pushed down the mattress, kicked off by your restless legs. He pulls off of you, biting his knuckles as he looks at your ass, perfectly propped up in the dark. Maybe just a little more.
Palming his aching cock, he glides his nose along your shoulder blade, taking in the scent of your lotioned skin. You call it lotion, he calls it pheromones. Why else does he feel like a rabid dog when you give him a simple hug?
Quickly reaching his limit, his erection showing no sign of lessening, he decides to throw caution to the wind. He whispers, โSweetheart, are you awake?โ Clearly, youโre not. But how else does he broach the subject?
Your silence and deep breaths answer him. He continues, nonetheless.ย
โYou remember that one time when you were really tired and I was horny, and you were getting annoyed at me pestering you?โ Silence. โAnd then you said, โDo whatever you want, just donโt wake me up.โ You remember that, honey?โ Silence.
He watches the way your mouth smacks before opening again, small snores coming out. Shrugging at your non answer, he starts pulling his boxers down. โGood enough for me,โ he quips.ย
Eyes darting between his hand guiding his hard cock, your sleeping face, and his other hand pulling your panties to the side, he carefully glides his leaking tip through your spread folds. The position your leg is in helps him, your pussy already open and relaxed for him.ย
Notching the tip into your entrance, he plants the hand that held his cock down beside your twisted body, holding himself up. He freezes as you let out a little hum, shivering all of a sudden. Not wanting to wake you up, he drops lower, draping his body over you in a light hover, allowing his body heat to wash over you.ย
Starting out slow, he thrusts the tip in and out, working his cock in inch by inch. Luckily, your unconscious mind seems to recognize his affection because he feels your pussy gush with arousal, sucking him in.ย
Heโs letting out strained breaths, doing everything in his power to withhold the throaty groan heโs dying to let loose. Damn you and you wet ass pussy. Heโs certain that if you were a super villain, that would be your power. And heโd be the Batman to your Bane, if Bane had a tight little snatchโhe shakes his head, dumping the train of thought before it softens him.ย
You must think youโre having a sex dream because you let out a whine, rolling your hips to open yourself up more for him, but you never wake up. This is like his dream come true. If he had one dying wish, heโd spend it on you, the way your cunt welcomes him in like heโs home.ย
Thrusting at a slow, languid pace, he huffs out quiet breaths, โFuck, sweetheart. Tightest, prettiest pussy, even when youโre asleep.โย
Stomach tightening, he feels his balls pull taut against his body as he looks down at his thick cock disappearing into your sweet little hole, stretching open just to greedily suck him in. The streetlights outside the curtained window allow just enough light that he can see a milky ring around the base of his cock, the sight has his hips stuttering.ย
Heโs sent over the edge when you unconsciously bring your knee back down, now prone on your stomach. The sudden snugness around his cockโyour pussy no longer wide open for himโhas him biting his lip, struggling to conceal moans as he spurts his warm seed into your pulsing cunt, painting your velvety walls with him, laying his claim on your sleeping body.ย
A quiet mewl leaves your drooling lips as he pulls out, making sure to squeeze every last drop of his spend into your hungry pussy before throwing his tired body next to yours.
Your panties only haphazardly cover your core with his hand no longer holding them open. He kisses your shoulder blade as he watches you huff with need, turning over in your sleep. A smirk creeps onto his face at the evident frustration you display, your dream didnโt end in an orgasm for you. But heโll get you tomorrow.ย
Eddie doesnโt remember falling asleep. Last he recalls, you had maneuvered yourself onto his body, your legs hugging his. He remembers getting a chubby at the feeling of your cum soaked panties resting on his bare thigh, but at that point, he was too tired to do anything else.ย
Yawning as the morning light brightens the room through the curtains, you roll over, sitting up. You frown at the most uncomfortable feeling youโve ever felt, it feels like something is leaking out of you unwillingly. You cup your panties and quickly waddle to the restroom. Sitting on the toilet, you see itโs not period blood. Itโs a milky substance, slicking up your whole pussy, underwear too.ย
Itโs then that you remember having a sex dream last night, but youโve never been this wet. You think about who your boyfriend is and the answer is clear, the perv.ย
โEddie!โ
A/N: Like, reblog, and especially comment if you're as wet as I was writing this
โSteve hears that all the time and he goes in anyway, donโt you Steve?โ
Robinโs words had yet to leave your mind since she said them in front of everyone at the WSQK station.
You know Robin meant well, a harmless, funny sex joke. A throwaway line meant to lighten the suffocating mood as you all faced yet another apocalypse due to Vecna. Unfortunately for you, it just made the already existing pit of anxiety in your stomach grow tenfold.
Your relationship with Steve was new enough as is.ย
Hell, you didn't even know what you were really doing here with these people who were trying to save the world anyways. The knowing, slightly suggestive looks that had flickered between everyone after Robinโs joke only solidified that feeling, making you want to shrink into the floorboards.
Steve instantly shot Robin a pointed, silencing look and genuinely asked, โWhat the hell is wrong with you?โ
He turned to you after, sensing you retreat further into the seat behind him. He placed a soft kiss to the side of your head and rubbed your arm lovingly hoping to ease you a bit..
But the damage was done.
That queasy feeling lodged itself somewhere deep in your chest and refused to leave.
It had been three days since then. Three days of Steveโs warm hand finding yours, of his comforting presence on your couch, of his soft kisses goodnight at your door.ย
And three days of you quietly, systematically, building a wall.
Not intentionally. Never intentionally.
You still kissed him, still leaned into him when he wrapped an arm around your shoulders, still loved himโgod, you loved himโbut everything stopped short. Kisses didnโt linger for more than three seconds. Hands didnโt wander. The moment it felt like it could lead somewhere, your chest tightened and you pulled away.
You were in his bed now, at his house, a rare moment of peace stolen in the midst of the ever-looming dread of whatever was happening in Hawkins. His arm was around you, a rerun of your favorite show playing and casting a blue glow over the room. He was tracing idle patterns on your shoulder with his thumb.
Your mind couldnโt help but wander.
Steve was your first real boyfriend. Your first everything. And you wereโฆ you were a virgin. It wasnโt a secret, not really. Steve knew. Heโd never pushed, never made you feel anything less than adored.
You were both content with the slow and sweet pace you had set and just relished as much as you could in the dizzying newness of falling in love.
But now Robinโs comment had dragged the unspoken into the harsh light.ย
You knew of his past, โKing Steve.โ
You also didnโt really care at the time, but now. Now, it made your own inexperience feel like a gaping chasm between you. What if you were terrible? What if he was bored?
And god was he actually that big?
Your breath hitched, a tiny, involuntary sound.
Steveโs thumb stilled. โYou okay?โ
โMhm,โ you hummed, too quickly, nestling closer as if to prove it. You tilted your face up for a kiss, a peace offering to your own paranoid thoughts.
He met you halfway, his lips soft and familiar. It started like all your kisses did, sweet, a little hesitant on your part. But then Steve, maybe sensing your need for reassurance, deepened it slightly. His hand came up to cup your jaw, his tongue swiping gently against your lower lip.
A jolt of panic shot through you. You froze. Then you pulled back, breaking the kiss after only a few seconds, turning your face into his chest.ย
You felt him go still. The hand on your jaw dropped. The arm around you tensed. The laugh track from the TV sounded cruel and mocking.
โBaby, can we talk about this?โ Steveโs voice was low, carefully neutral.
โAbout what?โ you mumbled into his t-shirt, playing dumb. Your heart was a frantic bird against your ribs.
โYou know what. What Robin said. I know it got into your head. Youโve been acting weird ever since.โ
โIโm not acting weird.โ The protest was weak, even to your own ears.
Steve shifted, pulling back just enough so he could see your face. In the flickering light, his expression was painfully earnest, etched with a concern that made you want to cry. He nodded slowly. โOkay then.โ
He leaned in and kissed you again. It was a test, and you both knew it. He poured everything into itโall the affection, the worry, the sheer Steve-ness of him. It was the kind of kiss that usually made your toes curl, that made the world shrink to just the two of you.
But still, after three seconds you pulled away.
A small, distressed noise escaped you, and you physically untangled yourself, pushing back against his chest.
โSee,โ Steve said, and the hurt in his voice was evident. He sat there, running a hand through his perfect hair, making it endearingly messy.
โYou are being weird. You hardly want to touch me now, you pull away, and I justโฆ fuck.โ He let out a shaky breath. โI donโt want it to be like this. Not with everything going on. I mean, you heard them in there. Shitโs probably gonna hit the fan any day now. I donโt want things to be weird between you and me when it does.โ
He looked at you, his brown eyes wide and vulnerable. โI love you, baby. You know that, right?โ
โI know, Steve, I love you too,โ you whispered, tears finally spilling over. โRobin just got in my head a bit. Iโmโฆ Iโm scared.โ
โOf me?โ He looked horrified.
โNo! Well, kind of. Not you, per se..โ You swiped at your cheeks, frustrated. โOf umโฆ of that.โ
You gestured downwards.
Oh, Steve thought.
You could see it register in his brain but you continued anyway.
โYou know Iโve never done this before. So it kind of freaked me out. Robin being right, that yo-youโre big. Too big. What if it doesnโt fit or what ifโโ The words tumbled out quickly before you could stop them.
โOh,โ he breathed. He reached for you slowly, stopping just short, giving you the space to pull away if you wanted. โHey. Hey, itโs okay.โ
You shook your head, voice barely there. โSorry, Iโm being stupidโโ
โNo, no youโre not stupid.โ Steve interrupted your rambling firmly, โFirstly, Robinโs an idiot, who shouldnโt have said that. And second, we don't have to do anything. Ever. I mean that. If the idea of me... down there... is scary, we don't have to do anything about it until you're ready.
โBut I am ready,โ you whispered, the confession torn from you. โI want you. I'm just... intimidated. By the... logistics.โ
A soft, genuine smile touched his lips.
โLogistics, huh,โย He squeezed your hand. "We can make it a little less intimidating. If you want.โ
You blinked. โHow?โ
โGet you used to it. So it's not some big, scary uh, thing. It's just... a part of me.โ His cheeks went faintly pink, but his gaze was steady on your eyes.
โYou could... touch me. Just to see. No pressure or expectations. We don't even have to take our clothes all the way off. Just so you know what you're dealing with. So it's not so scary in your head.โ
The offer was so vulnerable, so utterly Steveโturning his own body into a teaching tool to ease your fearโthat your heart squeezed.
โOkay,โ you breathed, your voice barely audible.
He nodded, his eyes soft. โOkay. You lead, alright? Whatever you want.โ
With trembling fingers, you reached for the waistband of his sweatpants. He lifted his hips slightly to help you, his movements careful and non-threatening. You pushed the soft fabric down, your eyes widening as he sprang free.
Up close, the reality of him was even moreโฆdaunting. And Robin was 100% right. Steve was huge. Thick and heavy, already half-hard just from the intimacy of the moment. You stared, a mix of awe and that old fear swirling in your gut.
โYou can touch it,โ he murmured encouragingly, his voice a low rasp. โIt's just skin. It's just me.โ
Hesitantly, you wrapped your fingers around the base. He was warm, the skin surprisingly soft and velvety over the rigid core of him. You gave a tentative stroke, and he hissed in a sharp breath, his stomach muscles clenching.
โSorry!โ you yelped, pulling your hand back.
โDon't be sorry,โ he gasped, a breathless laugh escaping him. โThat's uh... that's the point. It's sensitive. It's okay. You're not gonna break it, I promise.โ He guided your hand back, covering it with his own for a moment before letting go. โSee? It's just a part of me. It reacts to you. That's all.โ
Emboldened, you explored him, your touch growing surer. You learned the weight of him in your palm, the way the head swelled under your thumb, the way his breathing hitched when you traced a certain vein. The fear began to recede, replaced by a fascinated curiosity.ย
And Steve was just as patient as he promised, letting you learn him and touch him so intimately.
โSee?โ he whispered after a few minutes, his voice strained. โNot so scary when it's just us, right?โ
You shook your head, a real smile touching your lips for the first time in days. โNo, not so scary.โ
He leaned in and kissed you then, deep and slow and full of a promise that had nothing to do with sex and everything to do with trust. When he pulled back, his forehead resting against yours, his eyes were serious. โWe can stop right here. This is already more than enough.โ
You looked from his earnest face down to where your hand still rested on him, feeling the throbbing heat of him. The anxiety was a quiet hum now, the love, the want, now that was louder.
โI don't want to stop,โ you said, and you meant it.
Steve shakes his head, reaching for his pants, โBabyโโ
โSteve.โ you cut him off sharply, the heat between your legs getting warmer. You needed this and you were ready. โPlease. Iโm sure.โ
โOkay, if youโre completely sure,โ Steve starts, but you interrupt again.
โI am.โ
โOkay, alright,โ Steve says, as if he's talking himself up now. He pulls your body closer to him and places a deep kiss on your lips.
Steve stayed true to his word. He talked you through everything making sure nothing was intimidating, his voice a low, soothing rasp in the quiet room.
โJust gonna take this off, okay?โ he murmured, fingers at the hem of your shirt. You nodded, lifting your arms, and he peeled it away, his eyes drinking you in a way that made you feel beautiful, not exposed. โGod, youโre gorgeous.โ
His own clothes followed, and your breath caught. Youโd seen him without a shirt before, but this was different. In the dim light, he was all lean muscle and smooth skin, broad and solid. Hot. A fresh flutter of anxiety arose.
Steve saw it. He just kissed your shoulder, his hand splaying over your stomach. โItโs just me,โ he whispered. โWeโll go so slow, I promise. You set the pace, remember.โ
You nodded, ready.
He touched you like you were made of spun glass, his hands and mouth mapping your body, learning what made you gasp and arch off the mattress. Steve used his fingers first, making sure to take extra care stretching you gently, watching your face intently for any sign of discomfort.
As comfortable with him as you might be now, that still didnโt take away from the fact that he was still going to have to put it in, and you needed to be prepped properly. So he fingered you expertly, making sure to work his way up to three fingers so that he knew you were ready to take him.
โYouโre doing so good,โ he praised, kissing your temple. โSo perfect for me.โ
Steve made you come on his hand and then in his mouth, making sure you were absolutely soaked before he settled between your legs. He was propped on his elbows, his face close to yours. The tip of him pressed against you, and you both froze.
โOkay?โ he asked, his voice strained with the effort of holding still.
You nodded, wrapping your arms around his neck, anchoring yourself. You took a deep breath. โOkay.โ
He began to push forward, an inch of impossible, burning fullness. You stiffened, a small gasp escaping, clenching instinctively.
He stopped immediately. โToo much?โ
โJust uhโฆ a lot,โ you panted, then got worried. โYou sure it'll fit?โ
โIt will, baby,โ Steve assured you with a gentle kiss. โI know, I know, just breathe for me.โ
He dropped his forehead against yours, his own breathing ragged. He didnโt move, letting you adjust and relax your muscles, peppering your face with soft kisses. โTell me when.โ
You focused on his eyes, on the love and patience shining there. You focused on the feeling of him, a stretch that was slowly growing. You shifted your hips, experimentally.
A groan ripped from Steveโs throat. โFuckโฆโ
โMore,โ you whispered. โPlease, Steve.โ
He obeyed, sinking another inch, then another, in a slow, relentless glide that stole the air from your lungs. The feeling of being filled, utterly and completely, was overwhelming.
He was so big, stretching you to a limit you couldnโt have imagined, but the burn was edged with a piercing pleasure that grew with every millimeter he sunk into you.
His large dick, forced your walls open, stretching you out for the first time nice and wide.
Steve bites his lip hard to keep himself from sinking into you too fast. Your squelching cunt makes it difficult to restrain himself, especially because it makes an obscene sound with every inch he pushes into you.
The whole time, your muscles canโt help but flutter and try to suck him deeper while also trying to reject his prominent bulge from splitting you open.
โThatโs it,โ he coaxed, his body trembling with restraint. โYouโre taking me so good. So perfect. All of it, baby, just like that.โ
Steve mustโve spent at least twenty minutes just feeding you his dick slowly, all at your own, agonizingly slow pace. You could feel the veins and thick head that were just in your hands molding you to fit him inside.
At the halfway mark, you look up at him, with large teary eyes. โSteve.โ
โYeah, baby.โ
โCan you just put it all the way in?โ
โYou sure?โ he asks.
โYeah, I just want it over with. Please.โ
โAlright, I can do that for you sweetheart. Take a deep breath for me, okay.โ
You nod rapidly, not wanting to look and turning your head to the side. Steve takes that as an opportunity to latch on to your exposed neck, sucking hard to distract you from the stretch you were about to feel.
You count to three in your head, then inhale deeply. Before you can even finish taking a full breath, Steve sinks the rest of the way in.
โMmph fuck.โ you cry out at the pain, โGod, Steve.โ
โYou okay, still with me?โ
You didnโt really think you were.ย
The first half felt like nothing in comparison to this half. Steve only seemed to get bigger as he got closer to his base and god did you feel it. His warm body now pressed to yours completely, feeling the shared and growing stickiness between you two.
You felt a little dizzy at the feeling. Steve stilled again, letting you feel the fullness and getting readjusted to his length.ย โLook at that?โ he whispered, his voice raw. โMy girl taking me so well. See, nothing to be worried about. You were made for me, baby.โ
He began to move then, with a rhythm that was gentle and painfully slow at first, then growing more confident as your body welcomed him, opening up, meeting his thrusts with tiny movements of your own.ย
The earlier fear was gone, completely burned away by the heat he thrusted into your core. He was everywhereโhis scent, his sweat, his whispered praises in your ear, the solid wall of his chest against yours.
โSteve,โ you gasped, your fingers digging into the taut muscles of his back.
โI know, baby, I know,โ he repeated, his rhythm faltering for a second as he fought for control. โYouโre so tight, so perfect. Gonna make me lose it.โ
โDonโt stop,โ you pleaded, arching into him. The coil of pleasure in your lower belly was winding tighter, a pressure building that was both terrifying and exhilarating.
โNot gonna stop,โ he promised, his voice gravelly with strain. He shifted slightly, angling his hips, and the next thrust sent a shockwave of pure, white-hot pleasure through you. You cried out, your vision blurring at the edges.
โThere?โ he breathed, doing it again. โThat the spot?โ
You could only nod, words stolen by the sensation. He focused on that angle, his movements becoming more purposeful, driving you relentlessly towards the edge. His own breathing grew more ragged, his thrusts losing a fraction of their perfect control.
โCome for me,โ he urged, his lips brushing your ear. โLet go. Iโve got you. Iโm right here.โ
It was the permission you didnโt know you needed. Your body seized, a silent scream caught in your throat as pleasure radiated out from your core. Your walls clamped down on him in a series of frantic, fluttering pulses, milking him deeply.
The sensation was too much for Steve. With a ragged, broken groan of your name, he buried his face in your neck and followed you over, his own release pumping into you in hot, pulsing waves. His hips jerked through the last few, shallow thrusts before he stilled, collapsing heavily against you.
For a long time, there was only the sound of your ragged breathing mingling in the quiet room, the frantic beat of his heart against your chest slowly returning to normal. He was still inside you, softening now.
Finally, Steve stirred, pressing a soft, damp kiss to your shoulder before carefully pulling out. You winced at the sudden emptiness, a faint, oversensitive ache settling in.ย
He immediately gathered you against him, tucking your head under his chin, his arms wrapping around you in a secure, possessive hold.
โYou still doing okay?โ he murmured.
You were more than okay. You were boneless, spent, a little sore and very cockdrunk, but utterly, completely at peace.ย
You tilted your head back to look at him. In the dim light, his hair was a wreck, his face flushed, his lips swollen from kissing. He looked utterly debauched and more beautiful than youโd ever seen him. A soft, sated smile played on his lips.
โBetter than okay,โ you whispered, your voice hoarse. You reached up, tracing the line of his jaw. โThank you.โ
โDonโt thank me,โ He caught your hand, pressing a kiss to your palm. โLet me go get you cleaned up, Iโll be right back.โ
He slipped from the bed, moving with grace. You watched him pad naked to the connected bathroom, the sight of his strong back and the easy confidence in his movements sending a warm, drowsy aftershock through you. You heard the soft rush of water in the sink.
He returned a moment later with a warm, damp washcloth. His expression was soft, focused entirely on you. โJust gonna make you more comfortable,โ he murmured, sitting on the edge of the bed.
Steve was gentle, so incredibly gentle, as he wiped the cooling sweat and combined release from your stomach and thighs. He was methodical, folding the cloth to a clean section.
But then you saw his hand pause, his brows drawing together for a fraction of a second. His eyes flicked down to the cloth, then quickly back to your face, a mask of calm slipping over his features a little too fast.
He tried to subtly turn the cloth over, to hide the side heโd been using.
But youโd already seen it. A vivid smudge of red against the pale cloth.
Your breath caught. A cold spike of panic shot through the warm haze of your afterglow. Blood. Youโd known it could happen, logically, but seeing itโฆ it made everything feel suddenly real and intense. Not to mention taking someone that big for your first time. What if he accidentally ripped you apart?
โSteveโโ
Steve saw the shift in your eyes and immediately dropped the cloth onto the nightstand and cupped your face with both hands, his thumbs stroking your cheeks.
โHey, look at me, baby,โ he said, his voice low and firm, anchoring you. โIt's okay. It's completely normal. It doesn't mean anything is wrong. It's just a little bit. It's okay.โ
Steve searched your face, his gaze unwavering. โDoes anything hurt more than it should? Are you okay?โ
You relaxed a bit, shifting your gaze and trying to take a mental inventory. There was a deep, pleasant ache, a feeling of being thoroughly used in the best way, and a sting where heโd been. Sharp, but not too alarming. Just the evidence of his size and your obvious newness.
You shook your head. โNo. No, I'm okay. A bit sore. Justโฆ seeing it surprised me.โ
He nodded, understanding. He leaned forward and kissed your forehead, a slow, lingering press of his lips. โI know. It's a lot. But you're okay. I've got you.โ
He finished cleaning you up quickly, disposing of the cloth, then helped you sit up. โC'mon, let's get you to the bathroom. It'll help.โ
Steve slid an arm around your waist, supporting your weight as you stood on wobbly legs, and walked you there. He waited just outside the door, giving you privacy but staying close enough that you could call out if you needed him. When you were done, he was there, helping dress you in PJs, which swallowed you whole, smelling like his soap and his skin.
Steve led you back to bed, which heโd already straightened, pulling back the covers. He guided you in, then climbed in beside you, immediately drawing you into his chest.ย
You arranged your limbs around him, tucking your head under his chin, his arms a solid band around you.
Steve placed soft, sleepy loving kisses to you, and you felt your body getting more heavy with exhaustion, your mind drifting on the edge of sleep.
Just before you slipped under, a thought, clear and undeniable, floated to the surface of your drowsy mind. You nuzzled closer, your lips brushing the skin of his chest.
โSteve?โ you whispered, your voice slurred with sleep.
โHmm?โ he hummed, already half-gone.
A sleepy, utterly genuine smile curved your lips against his skin. โYou're fucking huge.โ
A silent shudder of laughter went through him. You felt the grin spread across his face even though you couldn't see it. He tightened his arms around you, pressing a smiling kiss into your hair.
โYeah, baby,โ he murmured, his voice thick with sleep and smug, fond satisfaction. โI know.โ
Description: Eddie loves watching you getting ready. His full undivided attention is on youโฆuntil he finds a little Rubikโs cube on one of your shelves. Naturally, he just has to prove he can get it done under a minute.
Tags/warnings: just eddie being the fluffiest and coolest boyfriend ever, gets kinda suggestive.
Note: The moment they said he could do this I knew I had to write a little something about it <3 and Iโm never letting this go!! he really is the coolest person ever and I'd kiss him stupid too if he did this in front of me ๐ค enjoy!!
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Eddie has priorities when heโs allowed in the sacred walls of your bedroom.ย
Heโs leaning against the window heโd climbed through an hour ago. He came earlier just to โhang outโ, but the truth is he just likes watching you with heart eyes as you stroll around the room getting ready, looking all happy and absolutely gorgeous in your date night outfit.
So, naturally, his eyes are fixed on you. Checking you out every time you turn around from your vanity to tell him something.ย
โEds, does this sweater look good for where weโre going? I donโt wanna get cold,โ you ask, brushing off some pieces of lint from the sleeves.ย
To be fair, Eddie thinks even a sack of potatoes would look hot as hell on you, but he settles for just nodding and smiling at you with all his adoration.ย
โItโs lovely, sweetheart,โ he says, delighting in the way you beam at the compliment. โNot like I wouldnโt keep you warm if you need it, you know, boyfriend privileges and allโฆโ he adds, shrugging nonchalantly but already wearing that smug grin that drives you mad.ย
โImagine my relief,โ you laugh, shaking your head, turning your back to him again to spritz some perfume.ย
Heโs about to say something else, when something on your bookshelf catches his attention. A Rubikโs cube. Unsolved. Just sitting pretty on the shelf and practically calling for his name.ย
Eddie brushes past you to grab it. โDidnโt know you had one of these, babe,โ he says, lifting it up in the air like he finally found something more interesting than the way your hair looks tonight.ย
You glance at him sideways. โOh, yeah, Iโve been trying to practice with it, butโฆmy brother wonโt share his secrets. Guess Iโve given up on it,โ you chuckle, more focused on choosing your accessories than the cheeky grin growing on his face.ย
Ah, a challenge.
โJust give me a few seconds, angel,โ he drawls giddily, walking away and plopping onto your bed dramatically, fingers already working the color blocks.ย
The confidence in his voice makes you stop only for a moment from adjusting your necklace, but you donโt turn around as you shrug with a chuckle, โSure. Knock yourself out, rockstar.โย
The teasing tone and the way you donโt even look at him as you keep focused on your reflection only makes it better. God, it makes it so much better.ย
Oh, sweetheart. Do you not know who youโre talking to? He thinks. A Rubik's cube? Please.ย
Eddieโs been doing this for long enoughโbefore he even picked up a guitarโthat heโs already halfway through and his fingers practically vibrate from anticipation. He canโt wait to see your face.ย
Twist. Solved another color. Twist.ย
And when he clicks the final move that finishes the cubeโ30 seconds in mind you, but whoโs counting?โhe rises from the bed, quietly but triumphant, and places it on top of your vanity when you turn around to grab a bracelet.ย
You almost crash onto him, as he leans all smug against the wood. But this time is not his smile that knocks the air out of your chest, but the solved stupid little cube between you.ย
โEddieโฆHowโwhat??โ You stammer in disbelief, as your eyes dart from the cube to his face multiple times, and he has to keep himself from laughing.ย
โThe secret, sweetheart, is when people underestimate you,โ he says, leaning closer to you. โNow would you close that pretty mouth so we can go?โ
He expects a giggle. Maybe a playful shove to the shoulder. A โGod, youโre annoyingโ or even a โTeach me, baby.โ Which, he wouldโve delighted to do of course.
But what he doesnโt expect is the way your eyes darken, and the flirty little smile that takes over your dumbfounded expression.ย
You drop the bracelet you were holding next to the cube, and Eddie barely has time to register anything before youโre dragging him by the collar of his leather jacket toward your bed. He lets out a surprised, cocky little laugh as you guide him to sit on the mattress.
โThatโs all it takes, sweetheart?โ He teases, already clocking your intentions as you climb onto his lap with enthusiasm. โA little plastic toy and youโre all worked up?โ
You hum, unashamed. โLetโs say I have a thing for skilled hands,โ you whisper, dragging your palms up his chest, batting your eyelashes at him. โWe might be a little late...โย
His grin widens when you roll your hips teasingly, feeling heโs just as worked up as you under his jeans. โYou say that like itโs a bad thing,โ he chuckles, hands landing tightly on your hips, anchoring you to his lap.ย
You shrug playfully, already melting under his touch. โI just want to know what else you are secretly amazing atโฆโย
โOh, angelโฆโย
Thump. One second you are straddling him. The next, your back hits the bed as he flips you over before you can blink. Eddie hovers over you, his curly hair tickling your chin as he drags his fingers up your thigh teasingly.ย
โWe wonโt be late at all,โ Eddie grins, oh he grins like the little devil he is. โI can get you there under a minute too.โ
Wink.
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