dreams of my nightmares @emo-tater-tot - Tumblr Blog

I love you but life's so much better now that you're gone.

some days i can feel the trauma slipping out and pulling me down

other days i can't even tell its there

"why do you insist on staying in the darkness?"

"because it's the only thing that was there for me when nobody else was."

even though they were the happiest moments of my life, our memories make me want to slit my wrists and beat myself into a bloody pulp. "my dreams become my nightmares, my mind won't go to sleep."

you're just a stranger, in place of the person i once knew. i miss you. when will you be home? every time i think of you, i get the urge to hurt myself again. everything hurts, but the pain i bring upon myself when i think of you, makes it all go away. maybe i like it. i don't know. it feels good to hurt, when i know you're the cause of the pain.

do you still think about me? do i even exist to you anymore? it feels like while im dying, you're getting so far in life. im happy for you.

you promised me you wouldn't leave me.

i promised you i wouldn't hurt myself again.

i guess what was once us is just a pile of dead memories and broken promises.

i miss you.

good bye.

please don't waste your life away like me.