Just. Why?

Trigger Warning *** I don't promote any self harm --------------------------------------------------------- Girl / 27 / Germany

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I try to be enough.

I really do.

But I also know I will never be.

There's no point in me trying. Cause in the end I'm a failure, and that's all I will ever be.

[iwanty0urskullzxxx]

i don't deserve anything, i treat everyone like shit..

[sad-fairy-forest]

There must be something inherently wrong with me

[im-barely-even-here]

My hobbies?

Oh, I love triggering myself to past trauma and purposely digging myself deeper into a mental black hole that inevitably will end in a terrible relapse and take days to recover from.

Wbu? :)

[worthless-misery]

I would say today has been a bad day.

But that's been every day for quite a while now.

[aloneaasf]

i am such a burden to everyone at this point i don’t know where to turn.

i’m not enough for anyone. i can’t do anything right.

i hate myself.

[wh0r3zzz]

No amount of apologies will ever make up for the fact that I'm ruining you.

[real-demons]

Damn gurl are you good ??

Not at all

[worthless-misery]

I hate myself.

I hate my face.

I hate my eyes.

I hate my ears.

I hate my nose.

I hate my mouth.

I hate my lips.

I hate my hair.

I hate my neck.

I hate my shoulders.

I hate my chest.

I hate my back.

I hate my belly.

I hate my hips.

I hate my arms.

I hate my hands.

I hate my fingers.

I hate my skin.

I hate my crotch.

I hate my thighs.

I hate my knees.

I hate my legs.

I hate my feet.

I hate my ankles.

I hate my toes.

I hate my smile.

I hate my laugh.

I hate my scars.

I hate my stretch marks.

I hate my bones.

I hate my body hair.

I hate my voice.

I hate my mind.

I hate my thoughts.

I hate my dysphoria.

I hate my depression.

I hate my anxiety.

I hate my eating disorders.

I hate my trauma.

I hate my nightmares.

I hate my past.

I hate my memories.

I hate my childhood.

I hate my adolescence.

I hate my adulthood.

I hate my existence.

I hate my life.

I just hate every single thing about myself so fucking much...

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

[real-demons]

2025 now

[borderlinebaby420]

it feels like the only way to heal from this pain is to physically carve it out of my body and let it bleed out…

73 days clean..

[hatred-rage-and-repression]

Deep down I wanna be worse because I deserve it... I don't wanna be happy, safe, or loved. They are such alienated feelings to me... I deserve to live a life full of misery, because I am evil.

[depresso-espresso-5150]

I keep all of the pain inside because I'd rather let it destroy me than everyone else.

idk not me

[mypersonalventaccount]

..but why did you go from messaging me every day, several times a day, checking on me, showing interest in me and reassuring me to suddenly distancing yourself from me, messaging me less and less until you just. stopped..? am i really that disposable, replaceable.. unlovable? just say so..

it's not like I ever felt any different anyway..

[real-demons]

I‘m so sorry

[ihat3ev3rything]

Sometimes I wish I could just make myself dissappear.

[real-demons]

I wish it had worked out with us.

And it‘s my fault that it didn’t.

I‘m sorry. I miss you

-m

[foxlungz]

All I do is fuck things up I honestly don’t know why I’m still alive god I fucking suck