Oriol Vidal
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Oriol Vidal
Its all coming back
So kanina kasi ininvite ako ng friend ko sa church nila.. Baptist I think..and now I remember why I dont like going to church.. kahit sa catholic church.. its just that alm nyo yung feeling na yung sinasabi nila is against your principles at yung stuff na kinalakihan at iniisip mo biglang umiiba. No offense pero lalong gumulo yung utak ko.., I accept the fact that Jesus is our savior but I dont think I can say that Jesus is my God. He was deviant during his time but now, those so called church leaders dont want us to be deviant.. not in a bad way though... tapos in my point of view they were givig boundaries,, I believe thay God gave us the free will, the gifts and everything that happens even our mistakes was planned... cant get away with it.... pero we need to act too as people.... we should give our best and God will do the rest... tapos basta madami pa... pero yun kanya kanyang belief lang yan xD
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I appreciate everyone who greeted.. though this had been the most silent, loneliest birthday ever,,... thanks for everyone who made me feel less lonely xD
when my parents finally understand where I'm coming from right now,,, I can literally disappear from this world. If that happens It will be an advantage to my younger brothers because now they know that my younger brothers wouldn't want to to feel the same way I'm feeling right now. I want my younger brothers to feel that they are being trusted with their decisions too. Their decisions might be wrong but they will be there to guide the decisions they will make
what were my problems?
So it was such a bummer that I failed a subject this summer term which caused me to be sent to the guidance office which was actually kind of nice but still hassled me a lot, worse, I may not graduate on time and to top it all off my father and I are not in good terms because I failed that subject (It sucks being me right now)
Lately I have been failing a lot of my subjects and I don’t know where the problem lies… Was it the wrong course, the wrong classmates? the wrong atmosphere? the wrong study habits? the wrong me? or was it just because I was too lazy to really understand the lesson? too relaxed that our instructor will pass me? I’m still not sure but somehow, when I got to the guidance office I realized some of my problems why I kept on failing my subjects
It wasn’t really always like this. When I was in Highschool I was an honor student but not during the senior year which was graduation but still I was smart back then xD :)) xDDD During the earlier parts of college I was a dean’s lister, not really at a high rank and not consistently but I still managed to do so SO WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW?!?! (not just academically but basically everything)
After I got sent to the guidance office I realized something. When the guidance counselor asked me if I did my best I couldn’t really give a straight yes answer. She noticed it too. I know because she me asked why there was some kind of hesitation and doubt in my answer xD Which was true I think I really didn’t give my best and Im just lying to myself because I feel guilty since my mother is really being supportive about all of this. She’s not scolding me, unlike my father (but I think I need both of what they are doing but my father’s disappointment is just too much that I’m getting annoyed and disturbed and a hint of resentment ). But I think my mother knows that I’m not trying enough because she said so xD She told me to try because when I repeat the lesson, even without exerting any real effort, I can get more than a passing grade.. so yeah she knows…
So I think somehow, I can remove wrong course to my list of problems (hurrah! xD) but now I realize I got much bigger problems.. So my realization summed up to these:
1. Rebellion
I think subconsciously but mostly not, I’m rebelling against my father. I didn’t choose this course in the first place, but I really did not know where to go since I had no passion in anything except sleeping and those random things I do at random moments. But I told my father that I wanted to shift a long time ago.From the first year of my engineering life but he wouldn’t listen to me (but he did have a point when he said I wasn’t even trying) but my point was I wanted to make my own decisions and I wanted both my parents to trust me with my decisions.(I wouldn’t really shift I just wanted to hear their approval even though I despised engineering before I tried being a dean’s lister) My mother understood and gave me the opportunity to change course After all this is my life and I would be held accountable for my mistakes. I was hoping I would get both their supports and they would guide me all through out but he didn’t listen. So I guess I’m making him accountable for the mistakes I’m making now but I don’t know if he felt it because he’s mad at me. I’m not saying that I’m not feeling bad about him being mad at me (duh he’s my hero and I look up to him… that’s why I didn’t want to defy him in the first place) but I want both my parents to realize that I’m almost a grown up ( I can’t believe I just said that) and I would like to learn how to make decisions for myself my decisions might be full of mistakes but I know they will be there to support me and to guide me still. I guess I just didn’t know how to prove my point in a better way but it got out of hand that I also told most of the people that I would like to shift courses….
2. Wrong study habit
I tried studying all night, I over studied but I didn’t really study, I wasted my time by staring and at my notes and well looking at other sources too. But I didn’t take the time to understand the solution. I just took the time memorizing the solutions and the answers without understanding the method by which the problems were solved. Of course it was more disastrous to memorize without knowing what was happening and so I ended up not remembering anything… WHAT A HEADACHE!
3. Distractions
While I was reviewing and even during the lectures different things not related to anything about everything was running in my head.I was really distracted„„ I think Im having a hard time focusing too
4. I had no clear goal and I set the wrong goal subconsciously
I didn’t really think anything through.I thought I just didn’t care. I was rebelling but I didn’t really realize it until sometime . I think I made an automatic subconscious decision to make rebellion my goal since I had no goal. It wasn’t even my goal to pass the subject because I was being I don’t really know.. I was a mess!
5.The subjects in Chemical Engineering aren’t a stroll in the park
It’s a very challenging course. It’s a course that requires dedication and proper goal setting. And of course alot of proper study habits and a lot of confidence and a lot of prayers ;))
Yeah so basically it was really my fault, despite the fact that I dont really feel any support from my father anymore and he’s making me feel bad about myself now and he’s still mad that we had to pay the damn expensive miscellaneous fees (The story of my life is Perfect by Simple Plan) and I guess I have to fix these problems of mine now…My rebellion isn’t really taking me anywhere so I should set a better goal now -_- -_-
What were my problems???
So it was such a bummer that I failed a subject this summer term which caused me to be sent to the guidance office which was actually kind of nice but still hassled me a lot, worse, I may not graduate on time and to top it all off my father and I are not in good terms because I failed that subject (It sucks being me right now)
Lately I have been failing a lot of my subjects and I don’t know where the problem lies… Was it the wrong course, the wrong classmates? the wrong atmosphere? the wrong study habits? the wrong me? or was it just because I was too lazy to really understand the lesson? too relaxed that our instructor will pass me? I’m still not sure but somehow, when I got to the guidance office I realized some of my problems why I kept on failing my subjects
It wasn’t really always like this. When I was in Highschool I was an honor student but not during the senior year which was graduation but still I was smart back then xD :)) xDDD During the earlier parts of college I was a dean’s lister, not really at a high rank and not consistently but I still managed to do so SO WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW?!?! (not just academically but basically everything)
After I got sent to the guidance office I realized something. When the guidance counselor asked me if I did my best I couldn’t really give a straight yes answer. She noticed it too. I know because she me asked why there was some kind of hesitation and doubt in my answer xD Which was true I think I really didn’t give my best and Im just lying to myself because I feel guilty since my mother is really being supportive about all of this. She’s not scolding me, unlike my father (but I think I need both of what they are doing but my father’s disappointment is just too much that I’m getting annoyed and disturbed and a hint of resentment ). But I think my mother knows that I’m not trying enough because she said so xD She told me to try because when I repeat the lesson, even without exerting any real effort, I can get more than a passing grade.. so yeah she knows…
So I think somehow, I can remove wrong course to my list of problems (hurrah! xD) but now I realize I got much bigger problems.. So my realization summed up to these:
1. Rebellion
I think subconsciously but mostly not, I’m rebelling against my father. I didn’t choose this course in the first place, but I really did not know where to go since I had no passion in anything except sleeping and those random things I do at random moments. But I told my father that I wanted to shift a long time ago.From the first year of my engineering life but he wouldn’t listen to me (but he did have a point when he said I wasn’t even trying) but my point was I wanted to make my own decisions and I wanted both my parents to trust me with my decisions.(I wouldn’t really shift I just wanted to hear their approval even though I despised engineering before I tried being a dean’s lister) My mother understood and gave me the opportunity to change course After all this is my life and I would be held accountable for my mistakes. I was hoping I would get both their supports and they would guide me all through out but he didn’t listen. So I guess I’m making him accountable for the mistakes I’m making now but I don’t know if he felt it because he’s mad at me. I’m not saying that I’m not feeling bad about him being mad at me (duh he’s my hero and I look up to him… that’s why I didn’t want to defy him in the first place) but I want both my parents to realize that I’m almost a grown up ( I can’t believe I just said that) and I would like to learn how to make decisions for myself my decisions might be full of mistakes but I know they will be there to support me and to guide me still. I guess I just didn’t know how to prove my point in a better way but it got out of hand that I also told most of the people that I would like to shift courses….
2. Wrong study habit
I tried studying all night, I over studied but I didn’t really study, I wasted my time by staring and at my notes and well looking at other sources too. But I didn’t take the time to understand the solution. I just took the time memorizing the solutions and the answers without understanding the method by which the problems were solved. Of course it was more disastrous to memorize without knowing what was happening and so I ended up not remembering anything… WHAT A HEADACHE!
3. Distractions
While I was reviewing and even during the lectures different things not related to anything about everything was running in my head.I was really distracted„„ I think Im having a hard time focusing too
4. I had no clear goal and I set the wrong goal subconsciously
I didn’t really think anything through.I thought I just didn’t care. I was rebelling but I didn’t really realize it until sometime . I think I made an automatic subconscious decision to make rebellion my goal since I had no goal. It wasn’t even my goal to pass the subject because I was being I don’t really know.. I was a mess!
5.The subjects in Chemical Engineering aren’t a stroll in the park
It’s a very challenging course. It’s a course that requires dedication and proper goal setting. And of course alot of proper study habits and a lot of confidence and a lot of prayers ;))
Yeah so basically it was really my fault, despite the fact that I dont really feel any support from my father anymore and he’s making me feel bad about myself now and he’s still mad that we had to pay the damn expensive miscellaneous fees (The story of my life is Perfect by Simple Plan) and I guess I have to fix these problems of mine now…My rebellion isn’t really taking me anywhere so I should set a better goal now -_- -_-
Th theme song of my life is Perfect by Simple Plan
The theme song of my life is Perfect by simple Plan here is why
When I was a little girl, I was what other people may term as a “daddy’s girl” I really love him. I used to go to him when my mom scolds me,I used to go to him when I wanted to have fun. I even remember his words before after he scolded me because I did something wrong. He said “Walang magulang ang makakatiis sa anak nya.Kung nagalit man kami sa inyo, lilipas din yun”(No parent can stay mad at his/her child for a very long time,If we get mad at you, it’ll pass soon) I used to approach him everytime but that was when I was little. He used to be my hero and my idol.
But when I got to my teenage years, I got closer to my mama than my papa but I could still approach my papa quite well. When my mama started leaving to go and work abroad, things are still going quite well bur after sometime, they became really cold with each other. (When my mama goes home every after 6 months, they wouldn’t even talk to each other, most of the time, they wont even share the same room and then they wont talk even until after my mama leaves. My papa is also in a very bad mood everytime my mama goes home) But I think it could be resolved soon too…. I hope ANYWAY as I was saying I could still approach my papa quite well until lately.
See, I was a good daughter (so I think), When I was in Highschool, I got high grades, In fact I was an honor student well not until fourth year Highschool. I remember when I had nothing left during that time,just a darn Loyalty award that most of us got, I cried a lot but both my mama and papa were there to support me emotionally they kept on saying that it was okay and they really made me feel that way.
When I got to college, I followed what my papa ‘suggested’. He suggested that I take up Chemical Engineering. Many times I have told him that I want to shift already (I really didn’t like engineering then) but he kept on telling me that I shouldn’t but I did feel his support during that time. There was one time I failed a subject during prelims, he kept on telling me that I could do it and heck yeah I did it . I became A dean’s lister for 2 years (not consistently but hey!) Because I felt their support all the way.
As supportive as my father was, he was seldomly with us. I dont know what he was up to when he’s not here but I can still feel that he would like to make it up to us. He would take us out for dinner, or a simple bbq sometimes, we would go out of town. We even had allowance when there were no classes but because of the limited time he spends with us, other relatives (grandparents and uncles) would say something not so good about my father but my brothers and I would keep on defending him so that he won’t look bad. At times I really dont want to hear their words anymore because at some point they would already say something that would criticize his beig a father. Okay he is not the perfect father but they had no right to criticize him because we are the children, not them but as of this point I also got tired of explaining for him because lately he’s provig them right. He’s out of the house more often, He’d go home really late despite the fact thatour helper was not here, he’s being more “plastic” by showig a facade when in front of other people.We keep on hearing about our papa’s driver dude, papa’s like protecting him from some people more than us. He gives his support to that guy more than to us, he spends his time with that dude more than with us…why is it always about that guy lately?! The more I think about it, the more I resent…fak di xa na…
Now, I can’t really feel any support from my papa at all.As I said, I told him I wanted to shift long ago but he didn’t let me actually at first he scolded be and told me things I wouldn’t like to hear but at least after that he I felt his support, See lately, I have been failing some of my subjects and he keeps on getting mad already. Semester after semester we had to pay miscellaneous fees already (tomorrow’s the 3rd time I think) (When you are an SLU dependent, you wouldnt have to pay for anything,except ID sticker, when you dont fail any subject). I really cant feel any emotional support anymore I can also feel that he is hesitant to pay for the damn miscellaneous fees. My mom was still very supportive and told me that things are alright and I shouldn’t really stress too much.. But It really hurts that I can’t feel any support from my papa anymore. He’s making me feel bad about my failures as if I didnt try, as if I liked this. Im not that to let myself get delayed for a year. He keeps on bringing back people from the past that I didnt even like to remember. I dont know what’s wrong with him lately but one thing’s for sure Im starting to feel anger towards my father. I hate this feeling but I cant help it! Before I would still manage to say that he has a reason and whatever it is, it is for us so I shouldnt get mad but now, he’s getting into my nerves… its like I dont want to talk to him about anything anymore because he’ll shrug it leaving me feeling bad about myself. I really love my papa but it seems like he doesnt care anymore. He cares more about that whats his face driver guy. oh and he keeps on blaming my mama about everything. He knows that my mama shouldnt have left us to work abroad but why would he like to leave us too? He thinks that things are alright? No they are not! I just hope we’ll resolve this soon
The theme song of my life is Perfect by Simple plan
The theme song of my life is Perfect by simple Plan here is why
When I was a little girl, I was what other people may term as a “daddy’s girl” I really love him. I used to go to him when my mom scolds me,I used to go to him when I wanted to have fun. I even remember his words before after he scolded me because I did something wrong. He said “Walang magulang ang makakatiis sa anak nya.Kung nagalit man kami sa inyo, lilipas din yun”(No parent can stay mad at his/her child for a very long time,If we get mad at you, it’ll pass soon) I used to approach him everytime but that was when I was little. He used to be my hero and my idol.
But when I got to my teenage years, I got closer to my mama than my papa but I could still approach my papa quite well. When my mama started leaving to go and work abroad, things are still going quite well bur after sometime, they became really cold with each other. (When my mama goes home every after 6 months, they wouldn’t even talk to each other, most of the time, they wont even share the same room and then they wont talk even until after my mama leaves. My papa is also in a very bad mood everytime my mama goes home) But I think it could be resolved soon too…. I hope ANYWAY as I was saying I could still approach my papa quite well until lately.
See, I was a good daughter (so I think), When I was in Highschool, I got high grades, In fact I was an honor student well not until fourth year Highschool. I remember when I had nothing left during that time,just a darn Loyalty award that most of us got, I cried a lot but both my mama and papa were there to support me emotionally they kept on saying that it was okay and they really made me feel that way.
When I got to college, I followed what my papa ‘suggested’. He suggested that I take up Chemical Engineering. Many times I have told him that I want to shift already (I really didn’t like engineering then) but he kept on telling me that I shouldn’t but I did feel his support during that time. There was one time I failed a subject during prelims, he kept on telling me that I could do it and heck yeah I did it . I became A dean’s lister for 2 years (not consistently but hey!) Because I felt their support all the way.
As supportive as my father was, he was seldomly with us. I dont know what he was up to when he’s not here but I can still feel that he would like to make it up to us. He would take us out for dinner, or a simple bbq sometimes, we would go out of town. We even had allowance when there were no classes but because of the limited time he spends with us, other relatives (grandparents and uncles) would say something not so good about my father but my brothers and I would keep on defending him so that he won’t look bad. At times I really dont want to hear their words anymore because at some point they would already say something that would criticize his beig a father. Okay he is not the perfect father but they had no right to criticize him because we are the children, not them but as of this point I also got tired of explaining for him because lately he’s provig them right. He’s out of the house more often, He’d go home really late despite the fact thatour helper was not here, he’s being more “plastic” by showig a facade when in front of other people.We keep on hearing about our papa’s driver dude, papa’s like protecting him from some people more than us. He gives his support to that guy more than to us, he spends his time with that dude more than with us…why is it always about that guy lately?! The more I think about it, the more I resent…fak di xa na…
Now, I can’t really feel any support from my papa at all.As I said, I told him I wanted to shift long ago but he didn’t let me actually at first he scolded be and told me things I wouldn’t like to hear but at least after that he I felt his support, See lately, I have been failing some of my subjects and he keeps on getting mad already. Semester after semester we had to pay miscellaneous fees already (tomorrow’s the 3rd time I think) (When you are an SLU dependent, you wouldnt have to pay for anything,except ID sticker, when you dont fail any subject). I really cant feel any emotional support anymore I can also feel that he is hesitant to pay for the damn miscellaneous fees. My mom was still very supportive and told me that things are alright and I shouldn’t really stress too much.. But It really hurts that I can’t feel any support from my papa anymore. He’s making me feel bad about my failures as if I didnt try, as if I liked this. Im not that to let myself get delayed for a year. He keeps on bringing back people from the past that I didnt even like to remember. I dont know what’s wrong with him lately but one thing’s for sure Im starting to feel anger towards my father. I hate this feeling but I cant help it! Before I would still manage to say that he has a reason and whatever it is, it is for us so I shouldnt get mad but now, he’s getting into my nerves… its like I dont want to talk to him about anything anymore because he’ll shrug it leaving me feeling bad about myself. I really love my papa but it seems like he doesnt care anymore. He cares more about that whats his face driver guy. oh and he keeps on blaming my mama about everything. He knows that my mama shouldnt have left us to work abroad but why would he like to leave us too? He thinks that things are alright? No they are not! I just hope we’ll resolve this soon
Bla bla yapyap dribble dribble drible
Confusion confusion confusion.. Im almost 20 yrs old and I should really start deciding for myself. For almost 20 years my parents did it for me.. now it is my turn.... if its wrong, so what? How will it compare to all the mistakes I will still create in this lifetime? There is always a room for learning... If I made the right decision (which I believe I did) then good for me xD
My dream house
So I was looking at random stuff in the internet and then I found my dream architecture style of house and a dream location of my house.. The location type was actually how I pictured my future house to look like xD xD teehhee.. Now I have something to dream and wish and work for :)) The facade of my future house would look like this
(source:http://msnbcmedia.msn.com/j/MSNBC/Components/Photo/_new/g-biz-120605-Dusk-Entry-230p.photoblog600.jpg)
I think this is part of the Aspen palace which had a cheap original price of $ 135million xD haha if you were a very very very rich person xD (Which I would like to be xD) but this part would be really enough for me :)) I cant spend 135 million dollars just for a house maybe 5M dollars would do :P
And the future location/ atmosphere of my house? THIS
(Source:http://specials-images.forbes.com/imageserve/0eev65952934L/300x210.jpg?fit=scale&background=FFFFFF)
I think this is the same location as the lovely house above. This type of location kept on forming a picture in my head.. Well everytime I think of a dream house that is...
Now I have a dream :)) hurrah for me :) Now I will be a better student because I am now inspired b m new established dream :))
I don’t want to greet you on facebook because their’s is enough..You already have loads of them.. I don’t want to greet you on text because you might think I’m a stalker..Can’t talk to you personally ‘coz I don’t see you and I keep on running away from you Can’t post this on twitter because xD… but Happy birthday crush xD :)) (Even though you don’t know I’m greeting you here xD)”
Its me against the world... pero gusto ko nang ayusin yung buhay ko PLEASE
Lately I've been really pissed off about everything,, It's like I can't fix my life.. As in talagang feeling ko ang gulo gulo ng buhay ko. Di ko alam kung bakit ba bwisit na bwisit ako sa mundo ngayon? I mean lately more than 1 week na akong bwisit na bwisit... Walang araw within last week + ngayon na hindi nasira araw ko.. Nagsimula ata lahat ng to mula nung sinabi nung isang friend ng friend ko na paglalapitin nya si crush at yung nagkakacrush sa kanya (ouch) ang masakit, sakin hiningi yung number ni crush tapos ako naman si tanga binigay ko naman tapos kahapon masaya na sana ako eh kasi nakasama ko mga barkada kong sobra ko nang namimiss tapos pinaalis ako dun agad kasi hinihintay na daw nila ako.Kung pinagalitan nila ako kagabi hindi ko din alam kung masasagot ko sila kasi di ko naman sinabing hintayin nila ako..Pinagmadali panila ako Meron pa yung araw last week din na pinaalis kami sa upuan kasi daw istorbo or something bastos yung instructor or watever na nagsabi nun kasi sabi ba naman nya " Mga iha di nyo ba ako naiintindihan kailangan ko pa ba kayong ipagtabuyan?" pero di ko narinig yun naka earphones kasi ako.. pero kung narinig ko yun di ko alam kung may magagawa ba ako... fak epal akala mo naman.... EH WALA KAYANG PASOK SA EE NOONG ORAS NA YUN!!!! TAPOS KAMI LANG SINABIHAN NG GANUN?! FAK MAKARMA SANA XA parang tanga lang? tapos itong week din na to si sexy back sobrang nakakabwisit.. di man lang mag act na parang instructor... dapat ipaevaluate na samin yan para bumagsak na.. tapos kanina kasi wala na ngang pasok yung isang anak ng mga magulang ko kaya sabi ni mama ibigay na sakin yung 100 di binigay nya tapos binawi nya ang masama pa nito di naman based sakanya yung decision kasi si mama yung nagsabi na ibigay na kaya wala xang karapatan pero binigay ko nalang pero nabbwisit parin ako hanggang ngayon wala na akong kinikibo dito sa bahay. Hindi naman talaga dahil sa 100 kaya ako nainis eh.. naiinis ako na di naman sakanya galing yun. galing kay mama yun kaya walang xang karapatan na bawiin or whatever tapos meron pa yung isang time na kinausap ko si mama na nahihirapan ako sa course ko tapos sinabi ko na gusto ko nang magshift ayaw na din akong payagan ni mama :(( kaya wala na din akong magagawa kailangan ko nalang ipasa para matapos na... Tapos last week din kasi nagbigay sila ng grades online tapos yung nilalait kong subject dail sinasabi kong sure pass bagsak ko!!!!!!!!!! tungunu minor na nga lang... mali pa yung prelim grade ko.. bakit yung iba tinaas nya yung akin binaba yung grade?! wala naman akong absent.. ayoko lang talaga xang pakinggan at ayoko nang magreview sa subject na yun kaya mejo di ko nasundan.. haaayyy gusto ko nang ayusin buhay ko pero di ko magawa.....Bakit ba kasi ganito yung mga napapasok ko?! haaayyy lately bad hair day, bad physical appearance day, umiitim daw ako sabi ni Chardynne, bad academic year maganda yung start ng financial ko pero ewan haaaayyyyyyyy ewan sana ayos na ako bukas malapit nanaman akong magbreakdown at lahat ng mundo ko sirang sira na for the past week+ ngayon :(( kaya tuloy ang sungit sungit ko kay Chardynne, sa mga tao dito sa bahay , sa ibang kaklase ko, sa mga strangers na basta basta ko nalang binabangga o kaya basta basta ko nalang harapang binibwisit na hindi na ako nagsosorry.....pero sabay sabay sabay lang kasi yung sama ng loob at inis ko sa mundo.. kaya pasensya na,,, tao llang
sudden life
so kahapon kasi ng GM si Dyan.. her father passed away :’(.. kahit kami nagulat nung nabasa nman yung GM ni Dyan… napakasudden naman kasi… grabe nakakalungkot isipin na ganun yung nangyari..Holiday season pa naman.. tapos nung isang gabi kasama pa namin si Dyan.Haay buhay nga naman biglaan :((.. naisip ko tuloy paano kaya kung ako nasa situation nila? at naisip ko na sobrang natatakot ako :( lalo na kung parent mawawala di ko talaga kaya yun.. siguro kung sakin nangyari yun di ko din talaga alam gagawin ko :’( (knock on wood)pero yun narealize ko na habang nanjan pa sila dapat lagi ko silang pinapahalagahan at lagi kong pinapakita na mahal na mahal ko sila (grabe natatakot parin ako :( ) (sa totoo lang sa mga prayers ko nga nung bata pa ako mas gusto ko nalang na maunang mawala kaysa sa parents ko :’( )
anyways kahapon nung pinupuntahan ko na sila Dyan nilakad ko ang Suello ang haba nakakapagod may naawa naman na delivery truck people pinahitchhike nila ako xD first time ko ginawa yun at ayoko nang ulitin pa sa buong buhay ko xD nakakatakot pala maglakad sa Suello…..so nakasama ko din LVC kahapon :P
the past days nasa asin din kami di na ako sanay na wala yung grandparents ko dun (na PPG pa naman ako xD) tapos ang layo ng loob ko sa ibang pinsan namin kaya mas ginusto ko nalang umuwi dito sa bahay.. at least may tulugan at pwede kaming kumain ng kumain na hindi nahihiya xD xD xD
nagpa ice rebond din pala ako.. sana maganda effect nito.. di ko alam difference sa regular rebinding eh xD
HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance xD… 2013 please please please be good.. nagmamakaawa ako xD..
forever alone.. but heck! who cares xD
LOL so ngaung araw na to una after ng hinayupak na quiz sa Matsci pumunta kami ni Chardynne sa Sbarro sa SM.. namiss ko yung lugar na yun xD.. dati kasi dun kami laging kumakain with family pag trip lumabas (ahhh the days) tapos nameet ko yung ate ni Chardynne kasama yung bf nya xD.. natutuwa ako sa kanilang magkapatid hahaha… ang cool lang alam mo yung una palang ang gaan ng loob mo kahit di mo kilala?? ahha ganun yun xD.. tapos wala naman nang maxadong nangyari ng araw na to kasi natulog din lang ako pag uwi ko.. tapos inopen ko yung twitter account ko tapos may pinost si Kim para sakin.. actually natawa ako sa reaction nya tapos nung pinabasa nya yung dahilan kung bakit ganun nalang xa makareact mejo nabwisit ako xD ang epal kasi ni cras„, ang feeling nya kasi… nung night kasi ng handog napagtripan nilang tawagan si cras tapos itong lalaking ito I think he’s really full of himself kasi feel na feel nyang may “stalker” xa eh napagtripan nga lang xa nung gabing yun tapos pinabasa ni Kim sakin yung convo nila na he’s claiming na stalker nya si Kim ganun ganun (napakamafeeling na nilalang) di after naming pag usapan yun nag late night convo na kami (You know those late night talks where you blurt out everything? yun yun xD) di ang dami na naming napag usapan tapos nag online si cras di tinignan ko lang pero di ko xa pinansin tapos ang dami pa naming pinag usapan ni Kim tapos late din kasi nabasa ni Chardynne nung sinabi ko na mag online xa at may ipapakita ako… di nag online na si Chardynne nung kinwento ko sakanya ang dami nya ding nasabi ahahah di matagal nanaman kaming nag usap tapos sinabi ko online pa pala si cras… sinabi ni Chardynne ”pagsabihan mo nga yang ——- mo at napakamafeeling nya” di dun ko palang chinat si cras.. pero nanginginig ako nung chinat ko xa (wahaha muntanga lang?) tapos nung narinig ko na tumunog yung chat sa fb kinabahan na talaga ako… actually tinanong ko lang naman yung tungkol kay Kim nakakanganga pa kasi nagblublush ako habang nagtytype.. ahaha naramdaman ko pa na mainit yung muka ko xD.. nag gum blleeding pa ako at feeling ko lalagnatin na ako kanina…. feeling ko feeling nya na pati ako stalker nya (assuming din ako eh xD.. pero mafeeling yung taong yun eh.. di gago vs gago at mafeeling vs assuming na xD) pero kasi sabi nya “magkakasama kau nun diba?” so malamang yun iniisip nya… so kilear ko yung pangalan ni Kim sakanya…. LOL pati pangalan ko kinlear ko din sakanya actually pati kay Chardynne though di ko nabanggit yung name ni Chardynne…. tapos ang bait nya magreply kaya naiinis ako na hindi ko xa mabarat… actually nung chinat ko nga xa may plano akong awayin xa kaso maxadong mabait yung approach kaya wala din… tapos nag end up na pinag uusapan na namin yung instructor sa strength… I guess nung nakausap ko xa nabawasan yung pagkagusto ko sakanya… feeling ko gusto ko lang din xa maging friend… at feeling ko kasi bading xa at ang tagal nyang naka getover sa “stalker” nya….. well pero kahit nabawasan ang tagal kong nagblush >_< haaayyy di bale na nga soon may darating din para sa akin at para kay Kim at para sa umeesempe xD xD (nahugot ko lang yan sa late night convo kanina xD)
ermergerd this day
eish naman tong araw na to.. bagsak na nga ako sa quiz ko sa strength (LOL naconstant naman ata ako dahil wala akong nakuha! AYOKO NG TRUSSES!!!!) pero mejo compensated na din xD kasi nagstay kami nila Chardynne sa school hanggang 5 pm (wahahah hanggang 2 lang pasok namin eh xD) tapos nakita ko si kras xD (ang tagal ko na xang di nakikita xD.. bagay haircut nya xD) di nag hi ako.. feeling ko naghihintayan nanaman kami sinong unang papansin (pero mafeeling ako eh ahaha pagbigyan nyo na ako >_< ) tapos nung nag hi ako sa kanya mas kinikilig nanaman sila Kim at Chardynne pati sila Loreto at Vhal napatahimik LOL LOL LOL pero ito yung mas epic nung lumabas na sila engineer sa room nila di hindi ko na xa pinansin pero nung pinansin naman ni Shalem tumingin si Shalem tapos di ko na din alam paano ako gagalaw tapos nung napag isip isisp ko na umalis nalang doon at pumunta sa kabilang dulo ng Otto Hahn muntikan kaming nagkabanggaan ni kras xD xD feeling ko nagslow motion nanaman nun eeh xD di ko na alam anong mga nangyari wahaha bast nung nakarating na ako dun sa kabilang dulo namumula na daw ako... xet wala na nabuko nanaman ako,,, di naman kasi ako marunong gumalaw ahaha...magaya nga ang line ni Kim.."WALA NA AKONG MUKHANG MAIHAHARAP" ahaha.... pero ngayon ko lang ulit xa nakita eh.... bumalik nanaman yung kinikilig ako wahaha,,,waaahhh!! di na ako tatambay sa school til 5 xD ayoko na din xang makita after ng econ waahH!!! la na akong mukhang maihaharap >_<