MAYBE RED ISN'T SO BAD

RED AESTHETIC, SELF-CARE, AND VENT BLOG (( Aesthetic/vent blog for Karkat RP blog, Hemoskittish )) (( Blog viewed OOC unless link given ICly ))

[unbeknwn]

No one will know the violence it took to become this gentle.

[unbeknwn]

No one will know the violence it took to become this gentle.

[mountainqoats]

Kansas City, Kansas (1897), Henry Ossawa Tanner / Andrew Eldritch Is Moving Back to Leeds, The Mountain Goats

[alicenmaryjane2016]

[salty-red-mage]

[arabwife]

i admire people who could’ve turned cold after everything they’ve been through but still chose love anyway. there’s strength in that

[choked]

[emoskittish]

I FEEL LIKE I DON’T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE. WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I IDENTIFIED MYSELF BY MY ANONYMITY. WHEN I LEFT THE PLANET I IDENTIFIED MYSELF AS A QUADRANT WORKER. WHEN I GOT OUT OF THAT SITUATION I IDENTIFIED AS A THRESHECUTIONER, A WORKING MAN, AN IMPLEMENT OF THE EMPIRE. 

THEN THE EMPIRE REJECTED ME AND I STARTED TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHO I WAS WITHOUT IT. I FELT LIKE I WAS STARTING TO GET TO KNOW JUST WHO I ACTUALLY AM WHEN I WAS LIVING WITH LC AND SPENDING TIME WITH SAM AND FEN. 

NOW I FEEL LIKE I’VE FORGOTTEN WHO I AM BECAUSE I’M TOO FOCUSED ON WHO I’M SUPPOSED TO BE. I’M A REBEL AND THAT’S ALL I’M SUPPOSED TO BE RIGHT NOW. I DON’T EVEN REMEMBER WHO I FELT LIKE WHEN I HAD THE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE.

[mujaya]

[love]

[jueki]

[arabwife]

Understand that even an “understanding heart” grows tired of being understanding and never understood.

[emoskittish]

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE I’M RUNNING FROM SOMETHING?

[beamingsuggestion]

nobody expects you to be perfect, and neither should you. forgive yourself

[fixedyourmeme]

[emoskittish]

I’VE MISSED SAM A FUCKING LOT. SO WHY AM I SO GODDAMN TERRIFIED OF GOING BACK TO SEE THEM AGAIN?

[sapphiac]

Sometimes you just gotta lie face down in a grassy meadow surrounded by butterflies and bunnies and let the sun’s warmth heal the sadness in your heart and I think that’s valid

[toomanythoughtshere]

being mentally ill is weird, I can go through traumatic shit and maintain a poker face but then have a mental breakdown over losing a pen