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Tw:Murder, jealousy, cursing, daddy calling, baby calling, mentions of punishments, body piercings, yandere?

I came up with this I had the idea since long ago and I think Jay fits this type yandere I hope you like it :)

She never asked for this, she just applied for a job and her life changed completely and she couldn't be more happy about it, one day she was the CEO’s personal assistant and not long after she's the CEO’s girlfriend, now she's painting her toes without a worry in the world, mumbling any song she has on her brain when the front door opened she saw Jay immediately leaving everything on the side waiting for him to go get her, he smiles leaning to kiss her holding her chin to keep her in place, smiling when he pulls a part.

-hi babydoll, did you had fun today?- she nods

-yes daddy, so much fun… I have a surprise for you- she gets up going to his bar to prepare him a drink

-a surprise for me? What did I do to deserve it baby?- he sits on his couch watching her, all giggly pouring his whiskey

-being the best daddy ever just that- she gets close giving him his glass, sitting on his lap his hand immediately on her bottom- wanna smoke?- he nodded she leans to the coffee table, taking one of his cigars, putting it to his mouth to light it the dense smoke covered both his faces and she leans to kiss him tasting the tobacco on his mouth- stay here I'll show your surprise- she got up in front of him, taking her phone putting some music and swinging her hips sensually for him to the rhythm of the song

-that's a lovely surprise- he smiles while taking a long puff of his cigar letting the smoke out- did you practice for me baby?- she nods, turning around sliding her shorts showing him her underwear, the little pink thong he smiles seeing her remove her tshirt too staying in a bralette turning around, Jay focused on her belly and the dangling diamond there- is that? Come here immediately baby- she did as he said standing in front of him while he inspected the freshly made piercing on her navel- did you do it today?

-yes, I went shopping and there's a tattoo studio nearby, they do piercings too. I thought it looked sexy on the ad outside so I thought my daddy is gonna love it, right?- he's serious taking a long sip of his whiskey caressing the surroundings where her skin is a little red, he doesn't say anything and for a moment she's worried- don't you love it daddy?- her voice is worried and he shush her taking his phone making a call

-how soon can you be here?- his tone is serious and calm, she tried to go take her clothes but he held by her thigh not letting her- fine 10 minutes be quick… now you go get clean and dress you have 9 minutes

-yes daddy- she sprinted directly to her room, he picked her clothes and made more calls

She quickly rushed inside the shower, picking up her hair in a messy bun washing her body getting ready quickly, once out she looks at her phone still a minute left before he gets on the room, she dried and dressed just on time for him to open the door, she stands still in front of their shared bed, he looks up and down to her garments, her silk pajamas flowy over her body.

-sit in bed I'll be back soon- he went out, she stayed there seeing him go back with his personal doctor- baby uncover your abdomen and lay down

-good night Mrs Park, I'll put gloves and check your navel- the doctor carefully touched around the navel moving the piece- does it hurt?- she shakes her head- is normal that it's a little red or inflamed since you did it today, you'll have to clean really well twice a day, keep the area dry, don't wear tight clothes it should be fine, call me if it hurts or if it oozes pus or blood, any funny smell too, okay?- she nods her head and the doctor pulled back her top to cover her

-thank you for coming with such a short notice- Jay escorted the doctor to his car coming back to her- did you finish your skin care and all your routine to sleep?- she shakes her head as no- I'll help you let's go to the bathroom- y/n followed him seeing him kneel down in front of her to put lotion on her legs

-are you angry for what I did?- her voice is cautious making him look up at her

-no baby you did nothing to make me angry- he lifts her cami shirt and she holds it, he takes gauze and a solution the doctor left to carefully clean around the jewel

-did you not like my surprise? Do you want me to take it off?- she pouts tears already gathering on the corners of her eyes

-no baby, if you like it so much you were so excited not long ago- he finished cleaning her navel getting up to cup her face

-but you don't love it you're angry with me- she whines and complains, he pulls her to him kissing her rough, she whimpers on his lips- why don't you love it?- he quickly wipes a little tear holding her face

- I love it babydoll stop crying… you were right is so sexy and I love it- he goes back to his knees lifting her cami kissing around her belly button- I can't wait to fuck you and cum all over your belly I want to see it covered baby- he looks up and she smiles wiping her tears

-why you got angry?- her hands caressing his hair

-i wasn't angry, I was worried is different, you can get an infection I don't know the person who did it neither the materials they used, if you wanted a piercing you should have told me so I can hire someone to do it and use gold jewelry not this cheapy thing… - he flicks slightly the fake diamond making her giggle a little- now I have to call my jeweler to make a new piece for you with a real diamond babydoll- he kiss on top of her navel- don't do stuff like this again okay?

-don't ignore me again- her voice is still whining like all the times she wants something from him, Jay arched his brow- you have been working so much neglecting me, you don't pay enough attention to me you only say I'm busy baby- she did a mocking tone that he hates and she knows- you haven't touched me in a week, last time we had dinner was six days ago…- he's frowning- I changed the color of my nails and toes and you didn't said anything, I bought new panties and you haven't noticed daddy- she's stomping throwing her tantrum

- I did noticed, baby your nails were pink last week and now they're blue, your toes had a French made and now you left them half done in pastel yellow- he looks down and she blush because is true only one of her feet is done- your new panties are lace in several pastel colors I already saw you using the pink and lilac ones, there's other new ones folded on your drawer lime green, white and a black one, that one comes with a matching bralette, am I wrong?- he arched his brow and she shakes her head- I noticed everything, I see every little slightly change on you babydoll, I know every mole on your body how can I not notice when you change something, you wanted attention why you didn't asked for something, you're a big girl can't you just use words to ask daddy to fuck you?

-that's not what I want, you're not listening- she whines frustrated crossing her arms on her chest- I want you to tell me I look pretty, to come have dinner with me, to tell me my new clothes are nice that I look good

-you're so spoiled babydoll, you want all of daddy's attention all the time- he makes circles with his thumbs on her hips- you know I have a big deal going on now, that's why I can't be here for dinner this week, I told you and I promised to take you to Italy for the weekend, didn't I?- she stutter

-yes, but daddy you are never apart from me now, is hurting you don't pay attention to me- she pouts and he smiles

-Didnt I listen to you? I come every night not late to see you awake and help you with your night routine, I take breakfast with you every morning even if I arrived late every single day to my office risking my deal- he slowly slipped her shorts- still isn't enough for you little brat- he's pulling the thong snapping on her skin- want me to tell you this tiny piece of fabric looks good on you but don't want me to fuck you- he scoffs- tell me what you really want baby?

-I want you daddy- he slipped her underwear letting it fall to her ankles- daddy not like that- he use his index to rub all over her slit

-how then? Want me to eat you? To bend you? To abuse your ass?- he spanks her butt a little harshly, making her moan- because you complained I didn't touch you this week, want me to use you until I'm satisfied? Weren't you planning this, taking off your clothes dancing for me? Did you think I was just gonna stare and not use this body that belongs to me?- she's all wet now dripping on his hand that started to rub he clit her legs failing

-undress now and lay down- he stopped making her whimper, she removed her top part laying naked- open your legs I'm tired of this behavior gonna fuck some manners on you little brat- he started to take off his suit until he's standing naked in front of bed, getting on top of her- safety word?

-princess- he nods in approval lining his cock on her entrance and pushing- daddy, too much- she arched her back moaning trying to fit him comfortably when he started to move she moans uncomfortable- no daddy don't like it

-shhh baby relax, lift your hips- she does as he says feeling him deeper moaning, he slides a pillow under her to keep her in that position- remember to breathe you can take me, you always do… didn't you want all my attention? Now you have it- he holds her hips mocking her- is this what you wanted so desperately?- she shakes her head no and he holds her waist moving her as a fleshlight seeing the piercing dangling- you were so right baby is so sexy

-daddy please softer- she moans hard trying to get away from him but Jay pounds harder- no daddy don't like it now

-you have to take all my attention baby- he pouts rubbing her clit y/n squeezed him and Jay moans deep too- there you go, better?- she nods finally feeling his cock fit comfortable inside her, he's rubbing her clit setting a rhythm that she's enjoying

-i like it daddy- she started to move matching his hips now whimpering in pleasure- wanna scratch- Jay smiles leaning over her, giving kisses all over, while she wraps her arms on him scratching his back squirming in pleasure under his body while Jay plays with her nipples and clit, making her cum without warning

-fucking brat- Jay put his hand around her throat not squeezing just to pin her down- who told you, you were even allowed to cum tonight?- he started to ram inside her with force overstimulating her- do you think you can do whatever you want? No baby you're mine and you do as I say- he rubs harshly her clit making her scream in pleasure- you can't cum again you have to please me- she feels another orgasm building in her

-please daddy I want it… I'll be good- Jay smiles seeing her squirm around, he holds her waist angling his thrust to hit her spot screaming in pleasure- that's mean daddy… not my spot… please let me cum- tears fall overstimulated holding back

-you're a brat and I'm mean- he scoffs- don't you dare to cum again, okay baby?- he circled her waist using her body to cum he pulled out jerking himself releasing on her tummy up to her breast to avoid her navel- enough attention?- she nods still crying frustrated wanting to cum again- let me clean you- he gets up to the bathroom cleaning himself going back to slide clean boxers- why are you crying?- he gets in bed wiping her stomach

-wanna cum please daddy- she's rubbing her thighs trying to release some of that frustration- please I'll be good

-you already did, and you didn't care for daddy to cum- he slides her pajama top wiping her tears- you did something reckless too only good girls deserve to cum- he finished putting on her pajamas tucking her inside the covers, she looks angry at him tears clouding her vision- don't look at me like that- she turned to the side ignoring him- fine do whatever you want I'll go finish work

Jay left her going to his studio downstairs, pouring himself a drink and only sitting on his desk looking at the nothing, knowing is only a matter of time for her to go search for him, he's in the dark with only the light from the garden reflecting inside, he was right his drink is halfway when she entered his office, looking at him in the dim light just drinking not working, she slowly approach him sitting on his lap kissing his neck as an apology he didn't hug her just let her do whatever.

-can you come cuddle me please? Is cold daddy and not as comfy as when i'm with you…- she cups his face giving pecks on his lips- don't be angry with me, I'm sorry, please love me- she kiss him and finally his hand touched her, holding her possessive against him, leaving his drink on the desk his other hand cupped her bottom

-i do love you baby, you're my entire world I would kill anyone for you- she giggles snuggling on him

-i loooove you a lot daddy I don't know how to live without you- he gets up holding her going back to the room

Kissing her cheeks laying her down again in bed, but this time slipping next to her to cuddle.

The message was somehow dry, “meet me at the dinner, wear the new dress” no I love you, no I missed you, no baby or pretty names, she frowns not replying but getting ready, giggling with her new surprise for him she's doing her makeup when one of his bodyguards knocked on her door to tell her everything is ready to leave, she finished putting perfume and leaving to meet Jay, his parents are throwing a party for their anniversary and It's the first time she'll see him in two weeks, as he was away on a business trip, ignoring her messages sometimes making her act a little reckless so his bodyguards would call him and he will call her back, like that time she asked a stranger to rub some sunscreen on her back and Jay called her seconds later after she passed the bottle, telling her to stop messing around, she played dumb that time but she heard how angry he was and how he was holding back. She's super excited now wearing a satin dress with a low cut on the back feeling so sexy and ready to seduce him again, a lot of men turned their heads when she stepped into the building, she took a glass of wine from one of the servers talking with Jay's partners since he's still not there, she's laughing softly when a hand rest on the small of her back, his cold hand on her warm exposed skin.

-hello I think your father is looking for you- Jay's voice made her feel a child down her spine

-oh let me go check on that, was really nice to talk to you y/n- he took his hand kissing her knuckles making Jay angrier tensing his jaw

-bye Jun, hope to see you soon again- he bow and left, Jay immediately took his handkerchief to clean were he kissed her skin- daddy stop, you're overreacting- she giggles but Jay is still angry

-why were you misbehaving while I was gone?- he puts his handkerchief on his pocket pulling her to him- going out, asking strangers to carry your bags, tie your shoes, put sunscreen and worse the day none of the guards knew where you were- he holds her chin

-I was bored and alone- she shrugged her shoulders

-but you're not single- he's tense pulling her closer, their chests colliding she push him slightly

-it felt like that, my daddy didn't even made time to wish me good night most of the days- she pulls a part completely- he didn't answered either when I called and his messages were so dry I bet he's more lovely to his new assistant- she's now angry and jealous- he likes to date his personal assistants- she leaves him there going to her father in law who asked her for a dance at the beginning of the party

Jay saw her and his father dancing and he knows is wrong but he's jealous now, she's wearing that dress so sensual laughing and smiling with another man, it's been two weeks he expected for her to be all over him not this behavior ignoring him, the song finished and he got close to her but she went on her way to the toilet leaving him behind, he was waiting outside when his assistant came with his agenda and the program his parents made since they wanted him to give a speech, they're on a corner talking lowly about details so when y/n is out and saw them she just frown and feels jealous, Jay didn't even kissed her today and now he's hiding with his assistant, he made eye contact leaving his assistant.

-are you done with the attitude?- he said fixing her cleavage in a possessive controlling manner- I need you to look happy for the speech- he takes her clutch taking out her lipstick and holding her face in place- I'll do everything I just need you beside me, since my parents love you so much, I need you to look good- he's retouching her lips looking up and down her noticing something in her chest

-because your parents love me, not you- she takes her lipstick putting back on her clutch- I'm not a thing to look pretty next to you… ask your assistant to be next to you maybe you can take her on a date later and take her to live with you- she's angry and jealous stomping to the exit

-come here baby before I get angry- she didn't look back so he rolled his eyes and catch her- I don't know what's wrong but you better drop your attitude babydoll I'm getting tired of it- she's challenging him with her gaze

-what attitude? The one you caused for neglecting me for so long, are you surprised to receive what you give- she's tearing up a little trashing around so she can get off

-baby, stop now- she tried to push him but Jay hold her waist pulling her for a kiss, passionate and she melted involuntarily on his arms, he wraps her in a hug- tell me what's wrong, I'll apologize for what I did, gonna make it up to you but you need to talk to me- his thumbs are making soft circles on her cheeks

- you ignored me, for two weeks and you came and you couldn't even kiss me, you did until I'm crying- she push him but he didn't let her go

-I was busy baby, you know I went to work- she whimpers and he pulled her inside the lavatory locking both inside

-so busy you couldn't even take two seconds to say goodnight, or at least a minute of your 24 hours to know how I was, I sent you photos of what I was doing, messages of what I was planning to do, where I was going and the only time you find to call or text was when your bodyguards told you I was talking with someone else, clearly you don't love me since I'm not as important as your new assistant and your multimillionaire deal- she tried to go out but he got in the way

-I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that to you, you're my babygirl all I want is for you to be happy, happy with me I acted like an asshole and made you cry- he kissed her again- can you forgive daddy? I'll have next week all for myself to spend with you, no work just my babydoll all over me all day

-really? All your attention only for me?- he nods- no calls or messages, no assistant, nothing about it, just me?

-just you baby, I want you all over me, you don't imagine how much I missed you, how miserable I was those days- he lifts her sitting here on the lavatory counter

-why didn't you call then, daddy? If you missed me so much and you knew I don't live without you- she wraps her legs on his waist as he takes his handkerchief to wipe the smudged mascara

-because I was so stressed and busy with everything that I didn't want not even by error to let it out on you- he leans and kiss her neck- I saw all your pictures and how cute you looked all those days apart, I was foolishly hoping for you to run straight to my arms after I neglected you- they started to make out she moans on his lips

-daddy wanna go home… wanna be with you- she mess his hair pulling him to her neck so he can kiss her

-wanna take you there and kiss all over your body…- he kiss down to her cleavage- just one hour okay? I'll give the speech for my parents I'll toast and we pretend to stay for a little, we leave- he started to slip her dress off her body- we go home and you tell me all about your days, you can show me that lingerie you haven't wear and show me how's your piercing now- he tried to undress her top part but she held her dress in place- baby I wanna see you- he pouts but she holds tightly her dress

-i don't wanna do it on a bathroom like a prostitute daddy, wanna be at home, so you can love me- Jay smiles slipping back the straps of her dress- fine just because if I take this off I'll give my speech with a boner- he pulls her to kiss her one more time taking her down the lavatory and fixing her dress he felt how she's trying to cover her boobs not letting him touch, frowning he let it slip for now, a subtle knock on the door

-sir, everything is ready for you I made all the arrangements- he takes her hand opening the door finding his assistant

-thank you Soyeon, can you please take care of my fiance's purse- he handed her purse- oh and we would like a little appetizer for later if you can bring some to us please, that would be lovely- she's surprised because he called her fiance, the assistant left and she didn't walk when he did

-what baby? What's the matter now?

-fiance? We're not…- her heart is hammering on her chest

-I know, but really soon maybe- he smiles and made her scream a little

-really daddy? Your really wanna marry me someday?- she threw herself on his arms and Jay laughs seeing her so happy, wrapping his arms on her waist

-of course I would be nuts if I didn't want to marry my baby- she smiles so big kissing him passionately- let's go I wanna finish early so I can go home soon to have a night with my babydoll- she giggles

-i have a surprise for you too and I think you gonna like it daddy- she said a little cheeky

-I can't wait for it, let's go- he gives little pats on her bottom so she can walk

They did the cheers and speech for his parents congratulating them for their anniversary, they danced a couple songs together when Jay excused them to leave and go straight to their home, he carried his luggage since basically he just went down the airplane straight to the dinner, he sits in bed tired letting himself fall on the soft mattress, she got close getting on top of him kissing his cheeks, unbuttoning his shirt removing the bowtie.

-take this off I'll go make you a drink and get ready for your surprise daddy- she giggles leaning to peck his lips before leaving the room

Jay did as she said removing his tuxedo putting on his pajama pants staying shirtless sitting in bed again, so when she came with his drink he only smiles a little tired taking a sip of the glass, the liquor burning a little on his throat, she smiles placing herself in the middle of the room turning on the speakers with a sensual song, starting to swing her hips.

-just relax daddy and enjoy your show- Jay smiles seeing her slowly slipping her straps removing the dress presenting herself with only nipple pasties and a sheer thong, her piercing dangling as he started to feel his member reaction- close your eyes please daddy- he did as she said feeling her straddling him- don't open until I say so, she's moving on him making more prominent his boner, she kiss him slowly melting him, his hands squeezing her bottom making her moan- open now daddy

He slowly focused on her, her beautiful face smiling all giggly, her hair now down falling in cascades on her back, he smiles his eyes scanning her body, focusing on the new jewelry, he frowns seeing her nipples pierced, he tensed his jaw he left her on bed getting off her and out the room, she's confused and heartbroken taking her pajamas to dress herself turning off the music Jay came back fuming, slamming the door she jolts, trying to stop him when he pushed her to bed pinching softly one of her pierced nipples making her complain.

-now what is this? Did you make them when no one could find you?- she nods- because daddy again didn't give you attention?

-I'm sorry… I wanted to do something nice for you daddy, I thought you may like it since you like my boobies so much- she tried to get off him but he pinch her nipple making her complain- daddy it still hurts you should kiss them better- her eyes cloud with tears

-you should behave… now tell me was the same dude who made this?- he flicks the navel piercing and she nods- so you thought I would like someone else touching and seeing your body?- his tone is serious

-is not like that daddy… is… I wanna be so sexy for you I thought you would kiss them so they heal faster- she pouts and wraps her arms on his neck- don't you like them?- she bounced a little and Jay groaned seeing her breast, he's so hard is hurting

-fuck you know I'm a sucker for you, you take advantage of that you're a brat- he got up pulling her with him- you gonna ride me and put those tits on my face- he sits harshly putting her on top- I wanna bite and mark your boobs baby

-you can't… still hurts- she covers them and Jay smiles- daddy no, please no

-shhh gonna kiss them- he uncover her again leaning to see them up close- ow my poor baby must been through so much pain and daddy wasn't here to soothe it- he gives little pecks on her nipples smiling seeing them pebble- we can't call doctor this time we don't want more dirty boy's eyes on my baby’s body- he pulled down his pants- now ride me and you better not cum this time okay?- she nods positioning herself and doing what he says

Y/n woke up because of a loud thud, reaching out for Jay, finding the empty cold spot instead, she rubs her eyes sitting in bed, hearing another loud thud, alarmed she got up, what if Jay is hurt, she put on her robe to cover her naked body running out the room.

-daddy? Is that you?- she goes downstairs seeing the light on his studio on- daddy are you o…?- she saw him holding a baseball bat with blood splattered on his face and chest, she focused on the body lying on the floor and the red puddle there, she screamed trying to run

-baby? Fuck come here- Jay chased her upstairs catching her midway up- making her scream and trash around- shhh babydoll is okay is nothing

-get off me… -she’s fighting against him- let me go- she's trashing around pushing him and even slapping his hands away but Jay didn't let her go

-you better stop now before I get angry with you- he squeeze her shoulders putting her in place but she only slapped his cheek as hard as she could- baby, you better stop this before I really get angry and do something I might regret- he holds her cheeks squeezing them with force making her look at him- you know I hate brats and I hate when you misbehave, so if you don't want a real punishment you better stop this- his tone is soft but his eyes are maniac and for the first time she felt afraid of him, he carried her back to his studio throwing her to the floor next to the barely alive male there, she whimpers trying to crawl away but Jay pinned her and forced her face to look at the battered face- take a look at him, because you did it, is because of you that he's here- Jay started to undone the robe

-please no… I don't want it- she moves but he ignores her, exposing her breast- no, please I'm… I'm tired daddy- she tried again but he's deaf ears cupping her breast

-hey you… eyes here- the boy lifts his face barely holding onto consciousness- do you remember her?- Jay started to play with her nipples and the piercings there, softly, careful to not hurt her- you did these, pretty good actually, they look nice and my baby hasn't had any type of allergies or infection on them so thank you for a good job- Jay smiles devilishly- however I don't like anyone touching what is mine, so that's why I had to kill you, since you were also the one who did this- he caress her navel- I have to stop you before she even thinks in a Cristina piercing or something like that, you understand right? You'll do the same if you were me- Jay covers her body again holding her against his chest- I'm sorry we weren't introduced but is not relevant since soon you're gonna be dead for touching what is mine- he cups her face kissing her forcing her when she push him- you know what's worse baby? He asked for your number and you give it to him so he can ask you out, do you want that? Date him?- she only cries- ANSWER ME DO YOU WANT TO BE WITH HIM?- she whimpers

-no… no… - she curled up on herself- I just wanted to make you a little jealous so you put your attention back on me- Jay gets up taking his bat making her flinch, whining when he started to hit the man on the floor again and again- please stop- she covers her ears hearing the last of his life slip out of him

-so spoiled, is my fault because I love you so much, I give you all my attention and when I turn around for a little you do this type of shit- Jay brush his hair smearing some of the blood on his forehead- I never imagined that after I gave you everything you'll do something like this how can I trust in you now?- he gets closer to her making her back up until she collides with the wall

-please don't hurt me- she's crying seeing him kneel in front of her- please Jay I won't tell…- he shush her putting a finger on her lips

-wrong, you must say please daddy, say it again- she's trembling a little

-please don't hurt me daddy- he cups her face harshly

-it offends me that you think I'll ever hurt you- Jay leaves the bat and picked her up- let's go bed is late and I have a lot of things planned for us now that I have free time from work- he walks to their room and she can see his bodyguards going into his studio to clean

-daddy… I won't tell anyone

-I know you won't baby- he left her sitting in bed- you're gonna get in the shower, clean your body and wait for me okay? I'll go check they clean well and be back- he cups her face- you better not think in something dumb like trying to escape, I won't let you go, you can't- he pecks her lips leaving her trembling and crying

Y/n tried to do as he said, cleaning her body, putting on sweatpants and a tank top starting to quickly pack anything on a bag, she tried to be quick and think in something, looking at the window, she's rushing and crying when Jay came again, looking at her standing in the door, using his handkerchief to clean his hands, she turned around to their shared closed to take something when she saw him there, angry and intimidating.

-we’re gonna pretend you found out about our vacation and you're so excited that you started to pack already- he gets closer inspecting the garments- you better change these and pack a bikini and your beautiful beach dresses- he takes a sweatpants from the bag- Mykonos is not really suitable for runaway clothes baby- he kiss her forehead going to the bathroom to wash

She tried to run now that he's there, but at the beginning of the stairs there's one of his bodyguards, she walks past them going down and finding another at the beginning of the steps, she noticed all of them, in each door, each window, some cleaning his studio, she's dizzy going to the kitchen followed by someone, she takes a glass of water, sipping on it trembling she tried to reach for one of the knives but a guard stopped her, pinning her down against the counter, hurting her making her whimper.

-they can hurt you, unlike me baby that I would never touch you like that, so if I was you I'll behave and go back to bed- she looks at him through the tears, hair wet dripping- let go… now baby let's go sleep- he gently picked her up kissing her wet cheeks, wrapping her legs on his waist- I could kill for hug right now- he had say that so many times in the past and it made her giggly, but after today she felt repulsed- won't you hug daddy? Do you wanna be punished? Is that what you're trying tonight?

-i'm sorry daddy- she hugs him afraid of what can happen, now he seems more relaxed laying her back in bed, tucking her as he spoons her from behind

-do you wanna talk about what you saw baby?- she feels shivers running all over her body- I know you may have a lot of questions or maybe you're afraid, you shouldn't, daddy would never hurt you- he kiss the back of her neck making her tense- I won't keep any secret from you so you can ask me whatever- he keeps kissing her

-have you done this before?- her voice is cautious- kill someone?

-yes, that idiot from marketing that keep asking you out, I sent him to a business shooting and the car he went crashed accidentally since he was intentionally drunk and maybe drugged too- she remembered that, when they were informed about the accident and the condolences Jay made, he even paid for the funeral- we were already dating and he knew it, he just wanted to piss me off so I took him out of the way

-would you wanna kill me if I go?- Jay freeze turning her around to face her

-no, never you're my whole life, I would never do anything to hurt you- he cups her face- and you'll never go because you love me too and we're going to get married soon

-i wanna go please…- she whispered and Jay frowns- please I'm scared

-oh baby, why would you want to go? Don't you love daddy?

-please, let me go

-I can't do that, I love you so much you're the only one that I want for the rest of my life- he wipes her tears- you love daddy too, I treat you well… I sometimes punish you but I have never hit you or caused any harm

-please I won't tell anyone- Jay smiles kissing her forehead and pulling her for a hug

-of course you won't, because I would never hurt you, but that doesn't mean I won't hurt your parents or anyone you love and care for- she feels like suffocating

-please no…

-please daddy, I'll be good and won't cause more trouble, I won't flirt or do anything to make you jealous and stay with you forever- she hiccups just nodding her head- say it

-I'll be good daddy… please… I… daddy- she whimpers struggling to keep talking

-shhh is okay baby, just sleep I'll take care of you, tomorrow we can go for your ring so you're officially my fiance- he kiss her head caressing her hair still hugging her while she sobs on his chest- shhhh just sleep baby

She cried some more on his arms until she didn't have the strength to be awake anymore, while he gave her all his attention.

[en-trashy]

Shot at the night 박종성

Give me a shot at the night

Give me a moment, some kinda mysterious

8.2k

Tw: stalking, mental health, injury, stitches

Is a super late birthday post for Jay I'm still trying to get better, I didn't secure enha tickets in my country, then I did, is the first time they come to my country and I feel bittersweet, my life is a mess, sorry if this is too

-excuse me… exc… pardon me- Jay tried to catch someone's attention but everyone walked past him- ma'am I need…

-take a seat we'll call you when is your turn- the nurse dismissed him making him fall on the chair tired

-hi, I can give you a quick revision if you want- a beautiful smile made him look up

-that would be amazing if you can do that

-follow me over here- Jay happily went behind her sitting in the examination bed, she started to take things out from a locker- what's your name and age?

-Park Jongseong, I'm 24- she wrote down

-allergic to any type of medication?- he shakes his head- what happened?- she gets in front of him examining the wound on his hair line

-well a drunk driver knocked down a glass door in the cafe I was in. I think a piece of it flew into my face- she nodded, taking gauze to start to clean the dry blood and the wound- is it bad?- she takes a syringe full of water

-it will need stitches but I don't see anything too bad… is saline water to corroborate every piece of glass is out- she take a tray putting it against his forehead letting the liquid flood the open dripping to the metal he scrunch his face in discomfort- I'll go for something real quick- she left coming back some minutes later with more things on her hand, preparing everything- it will hurt a little when the needle pierce the skin…

-is okay I can handle it…- he groaned feeling the needle pierce the skin, Jay tried to stay still but the feeling was horrible scrunching his face in pain

-is all done, gonna get a doctor to check you before you can leave- she left and moments later only a really young looking girl entered the room

-hello, I'm surgery intern Kim Saram, I will check your wound and your stitches- she checks carefully- she did a good job cleaning- the doctor smiles, corroborating there's nothing wrong with him- gonna give you a prescription to take care of that…

Jay is waiting with his bill seeing the girl who made his stitches on her way out of the hospital. He wanted to pay and catch her to say thank you, but an older woman caught her first.

-y/n come here please- the doe eyes look at the head nurse- care to explain why you made a procedure without a doctor with you, and more important why you decided that the patient was in critical condition that you cut the line for him several people was way worse than a cut

-it was on the head it can be harmful if it's a concussion

-but you don't know that you're not a doctor, you're suspended six days, this is the third time doctor Choi put a complaint against you and how you overstep on your duty, go home and reflect on what you have done- y/n bites her tongue to not say anything only leaving with a knot on her throat

She walks angry to the bus stop putting on headphones and her most recent playlist; she wipes roughly her frustrated tears. On the other side of the street there's Jay wanting to go to thank her for her kindness but now unsure after witnessing her suspension, she quickly got in a bus leaving him there still trying to gather courage to talk to her.

Jay is reading the ingredients on the back of a sauce, when a small hand crossed in front of him taking a bottle and bowing as an apology for getting in the way, he looks at the person and is her, the same girl who fixed him, she slowly pushed her shopping cart to another aisle he followed her tapping softly on her shoulder, she took off the headphones looking at him.

-hi, um sorry to interrupt and bother you I…- she's frowning- I wanted to say thank you, for helping me when no one was doing it- he signaled his stitches almost hidden by his hair

-oh it's you, nothing to be thankful for is my job- she bows politely

-yeah, but I would have been there for way longer if it wasn't for you, thanks for been so kind- she smiles but deep down it stings that she's suspended for that

-i hope you have nice recovery, take care- she put on back his headphones pushing her cart out of the aisle

Jay was left there feeling like he did something bad, maybe he shouldn't have mentioned anything related to his visit into the emergency room knowing that she was suspended for that reason, he went back to his cart and tried to pay attention again on the bottle he was reading before but he couldn't, not fully, having the motivation as before seeing her, he threw things on his cart mindlessly walking to the self check hearing a little complaint and a bill rejected by the machine, Jay saw her struggling to make the check out, he got close towering behind her, tapping his phone and paying for her groceries, she looks confused at the figure recognizing him still frowning at him, what is this man up to?

-thanks, here keep the change- she gave him her rejected bill but he didn't take it

-is okay, take it as an apology- she looks confused- I heard what happened when you decided to help me yesterday, you were so helpful and I wanted to make it up to you

-is no need for that, is my job, now take the money- she push the bill on his chest but he refused to- take it, I can't accept for one of the patients to pay for my things they can fire me if they know

-they don't have to know, is not like there's someone from the hospital here- he takes the bill only to put it on her tote bag- have a nice day- he takes his cart to pay for his things leaving her somehow frustrated with him

She walked outside taking her shopping bags straight to the bus station, waiting patiently while Jay saw her, he put everything on his trunk driving trying to catch her before the bus, she's struggling a little balancing the bags trying to be more comfortable, her bus stops and she stepped inside just when Jay parked on that side of the street. What is going on with him? Usually he's a gentleman but even this amount of acts of service is weird to him. He drives in silence trying to shake off that feeling, is something weird, a tingle in his stomach like if he could do more for her just he didn't know why he wanted to make more.

Y/n is holding her bags as best as she can, lucky for her there's plenty seats available, she takes the ride now more calmly, even if his presence shakes something in her, something uncomfortable, something she tried not to think a lot, instead she tried to think what to do with her now mandatory free time, something she hadn't enjoyed in quite some time, maybe she can go to all those places she put on her to go list but eventually forgot about, maybe go to that new place everyone is talking about and posting pics about, she can do that, but for now she'll do something special for her to meal prep for the first time and hopefully she can stop eating whatever on the hospital, a little step into taking care of her instead of others.

She walks that long street from the bus stop sighing in relief when she can finally put the bags on her countertop, putting everything in place, making herself dinner and drinking that cheap wine she got for her; is a good night, chilling on her home, putting on a TV show and simply letting the evening go slowly.

Her day started nicely, she took a shower and made breakfast, getting ready to go out she even did her makeup now that she had time, and most important she rode her bike for the first time in years, she went downtown to have a look on the new gallery, even if she's not fan of modern art since she can't understand how banal things are sell for millions, she watch the canvas with a few splashes of red pain on it frowning.

-I like this one too- the masculine voice made her jolt and look at the source, it was the same patient as yesterday and the day before- very interesting concept- she frowns more because what is he talking about

-yeah great concept, a grown people selling something a 5 year old would do and calling it art for empty people who doesn't have anything better to spend their money on- Jay smiles

-yes, you nailed the concept here- he smiles- actually I don't understand this type of art

-then what are you doing here?- she sounds a little rude

-well my friend is dating one of the artists here so they invited me- he takes a box of mints from his pocket offering one to her

-sutil way to say my breath stinks- she rolls her eyes leaving him there and looking at other piece

- wasn't my intention, I just… - he gets next to her again- sorry I didn't knew what else to say I just wanted something to keep the conversation

-yeah whatever, I'm done with art, have a nice day- she left again leaving him standing like a fool

He feels defeated, Jay is just standing there watching at the door where she just left. He also feels so stupid, he never had a problem talking with girls but he can't get himself to talk naturally with her, he's not even sure why he wants to talk to her so badly every time she's around.

Y/n rode her bike to the nearest park to walk around, enjoying the nature and the good weather she looks at the beautiful lake and the swans just sitting on a bench taking deep breaths of the fresh air, closing her eyes for a minute feeling another presence next to her, she looks and is again him, she sighed almost tired, but not saying anything, he doesn't say anything either just staying there elongating the silence making her uncomfortable each second passing.

-are you following me?- she's on the defensive, asking him angrily

-no… I saw you and I wanted to say sorry for what happened before I don't wa…

-you already did, why are you following me?- she interrupt him making Jay frown just like she's doing

-i'm not I swear, I just saw you and I don't want you to think I'm an idiot- he's trying to look at her in the eyes but she's staring only to the lake

-well you're more like an idiot if I think you're following me is creepier too what if you have a gun or a knife- she finally looks at him and she looks angry, Jay opened his coat letting her see his t-shirt

-non of that I promise, I just… I don't know when I see you I want to get close and talk, I didn't realize I was being a creep- he let himself relax on the bench like if he's holding his breath and finally he can let it out

-why? Just because?- he doesn't understand- why do you want to talk to me?

-i, um I don't, don't know, I think you're cute- he rubs the back of her neck and she angrily gets up straight to her bike- did I say something wrong?- y/n gets on her bike to get away leaving him more confused than before.

She's crying on the way home, feeling an oppression on her chest, like she hadn't felt in a long, long time, the tears made her eyes fail as she can't see beyond the tears, by the time she managed to get on her home she could barely breathe, calling her therapist, it rang only twice feeling relief when the other side of the line picked up.

-please I need an appointment- her crying was heartbreaking

-is everything alright?- the worried voice helped her ground herself a little

-yes… I just please…

-tomorrow 1 pm, remember you can call me if it gets worse during the night

-thank you- the call ended and she tried to remember all the techniques to overcome one of her episodes

She sat on the floor in a stable spot away from everything that can hurt her, she wraps her arms on her shoulders giving herself a hug.

-today I saw two white swans with eight little babies… I believe they're called cygnets… I saw many cherry blossoms… plenty of trashy art… the worst was the sneaker in a resin cube… I saw a makeup store I want to visit that is really near a new cafe… the menu sounds interesting. They have a cherry theme seasonal menu… I heard a new song I didn't like it, the beat was weird but it was fine overall- her voice started to sound calm and now she can hear the echo in her apartment- I'm better now… I'm better he can't hurt me anymore… he won't hurt me again

She dried her tears and got up wiping her makeup and washing her face, she slipped in her pajamas and curled up on her sofa to watch TV, erasing all the bad thoughts from now until she fell asleep there, without the strength to go back to her bed or even try to.

When y/n woke up she felt wrecked, like if her body is now drained is almost midday so with heavy steps she went to get ready, put on whatever to go meet her therapist, her clothes baggy and her hair in a messy bun, tired eyes as she rode her bike downtown again, but now into the building she feared to be again, she put the lock on the bike and walked to the reception, then inside the room facing her therapist, letting out everything that happened in the past days but overall why she got another panic attack, the 60 minutes went really fast leaving with more exercises to regulate her sensations and a prescription for pills in case she can't sleep again, while putting on her helmet she saw Jay walking down the street on her direction his face light up but she only feels terror, trying to undone the lock faster he stopped seeing her trying to run waiting for her to actually get in her bike and go away so he can walk again, he saw her slowly disappear down the street while he looks at the building, it looks like regular house except for the metal plate on the front “psychiatrist Dr. Kim” he looks at the street where she just left then the place she went out, he keeps going down to his original place before encountering her.

It's been a week already, she tried to go out to go to different places, sometimes seeing Jay on the streets but he didn't made attempt to go to her and talk even if he wanted, she noticed him, stopping on his tracks even if he seems in a hurry, she somehow is grateful for that, doing his best to not make her uncomfortable again, letting her do her things so she can have rest during her suspension; even when is already time for her to be back at work she's still not in her best form to do it, so she asked for more days to fully recover mentally.

Is a rough night, one of those were she can't sleep, but she doesn't want to take the pills, so the best she can think of is go for a walk to at least ease her mind, she rode the bike to the park again, sitting in front of the lake, the dim light of the lamp post, the subtle glimmer of the water under the moon, she felt so much peace that she didn't have any other option but to cry, letting her bottle up emotions to vent in to the night, she hugs her legs in an attempt to hold herself, to keep herself together; a noise alerted her and a handkerchief was extended to her, she looks up at the man who is giving it to her.

-i'm sorry I didn't knew it was you- he left the handkerchief on her arm turning away quickly to leave

-Were you following me?- Jay turned around

-no, I work near here I went for something to eat at the convenience store- she frowns

- who goes out of work at 2 in the morning?- Jay keeps his distance shrugging his shoulders

- sometimes I do… I wanted to eat outside that's why I came here

-do you offer tissues and handkerchiefs to every girl you meet?- she finally uses the little piece of fabric to wipe her tears

-only if I see they are in need of one- he looks around how there's no one actually around only the very few cars on the main street- you come here often at this hour?

-only when I can't sleep- she turned her head to see the lake- you can sit here if that's what you want- she signaled the spot next to her, he got close carefully sitting next to her but not close enough to touch her

-Well let me see, I have a gimbab, hard boiled eggs, coffee, cream bread, and also a tropicana. What do you want?- he started to take out things to show her

-you gift food too?- she scoffs

-only if you let me- he smiles

-isn't it better just to share everything?

-if you don't mind, we can do that- he quickly snapped in half the gimbab giving it to her, she took it a little doubtful

-i'll pay you back is just i haven't realize I'm starving- she takes a bite closing her eyes letting the wind numb her face and fingers

-is on me, for all the struggle and bad moments I made you go through- he bites his food

It is quiet for a while just the two of them eating while looking at the lake, the only sounds there are the little nocturnal animals, she's cold now and sleepy.

-I should go now… -Jay roamed on his pocket taking a little presentation card

-please call me or let me know you arrived safely, is really late, or if you want me to take you home I totally can- she takes the card

-i won't feel comfortable if you take me, but thanks for the offer

-is okay- he gets up helping her to do the same- I work really near here, if you ever need something, in that building over there- he pointed one of the tall buildings with led letters- if you're around and need help you can call me

-thanks… -she started to walk to her bike- thank you, also for the company I needed it

-is a pleasure- he smiles seeing her go slowly disappearing into the night

Jay walks back to the building to keep working or maybe go home, now that he's also sleepy, he's smiling walking into his studio laying on his sofa, the notification on his phone made him smile more.

“I'm home now” he replied with a Good night and decided to just stay there, to lazy and happy to go home.

-are you awake?- the soft whispered voice on the phone made him smile

-no, someone else picked up my phone- he said with a hint of mischief

-do you wanna go out? Like now to the park- is silence for a moment- I know is late I'm sorry

-do you want something to eat?- her heart feels warm

-anything you want is okay for me

-see you in 15 minutes, same spot?

-same spot, see you soon- she whispered as if she's gonna wake someone, hearing him smiles

She put on shoes and a hoodie going on her bike, to the park, it wasn't long before she's there, going to the spot finding him with a picnic cloth or a blanket she's not sure because it is dark, he's sitting looking at the lake and she just goes next to him.

-did you know I wanted to have a date in the lake that you were ready for?- Jay looks at her

-no, but I was hoping you may want to do it again sometime so better be ready- she smiles as he handed her a cup of coffee- food is almost here, I know a really good 24 hour place that sells the most delicious skewers

-i'll pay this time- she takes a sip of the coffee

-no, I won't let you- he smiles- when you're out with me forget your wallet at home, okay?- she's about to protest when a delivery got close and he got up to receive the food- you're gonna love it I promise- he's back on his spot next to her giving her some of the food

-thank you- she give a bite and smiles so big, Jay is only watching her reaction- is so tasty, you have to tell me we're did you order because is amazing

-i'll send you the information only if if you promise you'll call me again when you want to hang out in the middle of the night

-deal… even tho I don't know why you're so eager to be around me- she gives a big bite getting sauce on her cheek

-i said it last time, I think you're cute- she frowns and it's about to get up but he holds her- is something wrong with that? I won't call you like that again but I'm really interested in get to know you, please don't go- she's holding her tears but ended up staying

-don't say that again please… I don't like it- she turned her face to hide her tears

-I won't again- he softly cups her chin making her look back to him taking a handkerchief to wipe her tears- must be a compliment I can say about you, I'm thinking in at least a hundred of them I'm just not sure if it's gonna make you run again

-just… just don't call me cute or anything related to that- she's frowning trying to be strong in from of him to not crumble

-so if I say that you're so beautiful is okay?- his eyes are intense on her

-you don't have to lie- he's so close to her she's about to

-i'm not, I couldn't never- he wipes her face gently as the tension between them only gets bigger- so pretty, so damn pretty I almost need CPR while seeing you do my stitches

-stop playing with me- she push him slightly glad is dark so he can't see how red she is now

-I think I'll need it now- he falls dramatically on his back closing his eyes- hurry up save your patient- she just laughed putting her hands on his chest

-please don't die- he put his hand on top of hers and she can feel his heartbeat

-thank you for saving me- now his voice is soft, no trace of the previous mischief humor.

-would you like to meet me here again tomorrow?- she's slightly leaning over him, seeing his smile

-were still on a date and you already want another one- he smiles pulling her hands making her chest collide with his- I would love to- he puts a string of her hair tucked behind her ear- now you can't stop thinking about me… just the way I do

She only smiles, laying her cheek on his chest getting in a more comfortable position, in a way to hide her face and to calm her irregular heartbeat, is nice, is quiet and soft, Jay started to play with her hair lulling her to fall asleep. He called someone to help him with her things to go back to his studio. One of his friends helped him carry her until he reached his office, leaving her on the sofa, covering her with a blanket.

She woke up a little frightened for the unknown surroundings, she's about to scream when she noticed Jay sleeping uncomfortable in a chair in front of his desk, neck bend in a weird position that probably will hurt after during the day, she slowly gets up to him touching his shoulder moving him slightly, he slowly wakes up groaning in pain but quickly he smiles seeing her face.

-am I in heaven? I'm seeing an angel, did I really die?- he cups her cheek making her blush

-stop playing with me- she slightly push his shoulder but she didn't pull apart from his touch- I need to go I have an appointment in an hour I need to shower and get ready

-we have showers here and I have spare clothes, I can take you to your appointment after we have breakfast

-i shouldn't you're not gonna let me pay- she leans on his hand and he carefully rubs her cheek with his thumb

-what's your obsession with paying? Do you have so much money you only want to spend it on me?- she shakes her head- you're so into me that want to impress me? I'm already impressed, I'm amazed by you- he smiles taking his bag from the floor- let's go, gonna show you were the shower is then we can eat in the cafeteria here- He guides her to the ladies showers given her his bag- I have everything inside, soap shampoo, clothes, towels use whatever you need I'll wait here by the door

She went inside trying not to take so long, using the dryer there for her hair and the skincare he has, she can recognize his smell in her, in the clothes, in the shower gel, in the creams, everything is an intoxicating smell of him, she's out still smelling the t-shirt.

-smells bad? I swear is clean- Jay panics and she laughs

-no, is just that smells like you… I like it- he smiles taking her hand and his bag to go to the cafeteria, leaving her sitting while he pick up the food

-i didn't know what you like so I bring a little bit of everything- he gently serves her something she bows thanking him- where is your appointment?

-is okay is not far I can go myself I just don't know where my bike is- she takes a bite

-is in my car I took it last night, I can take you no problem

-is okay, is a little private- she's playing with her food

-is with your doctor?- she looks up surprised and panicking- I'm sorry I just remembered I saw you going out of that building in downtown… I want you to know- he holds her hand to stop her from leaving- is nothing wrong in that I have my own doctor, is no shame in receive help

-i know- she sighed not taking away her hand- is just that, is something I never talked to someone, I don't have many friends and outside my parents nobody knows just… I don't know anyone else who has that type of doctor

-hello now you know someone else- he pointed at himself smiling

-you're not as bad as I thought- she smiles- you're not a creep and I appreciate that- Jay smiles

-ready?- she nods- I'll wait at the reception okay? Take as much time as you need- she just goes inside and he stayed there

He occupied himself writing on his phone, playing a silly videogame, reading a magazine he found there, when she's out after and hour, tears still running down her face he cups her cheeks in a silent understanding, taking his handkerchief to wipe them carefully, he just smiles guiding her to his car, she is let him do it, she types her address on his gps just looking at her feet while he drives, is not a long way to her apartment, she's just sitting there with him waiting patiently.

-that is supposed to my parking spot in case you want to come upstairs- she blush as he smiles big- not to do that you're thinking

-I was thinking that maybe I can cook for you and we can have a nice relaxing afternoon until is time to go to the lake if you still want to do that later- he smiles running out of his car to her side to open the door

-are you serious? You're not gonna try to convince me?- she takes his hand to go out guiding him inside the building

-no, that won't be nice on me- he followed her

-Sorry for the mess- she went to open her curtains and window, letting the sun rays in- I haven't had the motivation to do anything- she's ashamed

-I haven't seen anything just a beauty in the middle of a living room- he smiles putting his coat on the rack by the door and his shoes on the little shoe rack

-please take a seat, I have water, tea, juice- she picks up her laundry from the sofa going to her bedroom to leave it- what can I get you?

-water is okay- she quickly goes for a glass putting it on a coaster in the little table- your place is nice, cozy- he looks around to the decorations the color on the walls the photos

-thank you, my parents helped me to decorate

-me future in laws have a great taste- she couldn't help but to laugh cutely- I mean it

-stop playing around- she takes a cushion to cover her face- we don't even know each other well

-that’s why I said future, if it was it for me they will be already my in laws I wouldn't miss a second to be with you- he leaned into her pulling down the cushion to see her red face

-are you always this shameless?- she pulls back the cushion to her face

-only with you I don't know, but you make me feel this way, so shameless to try and maybe have a chance with you

- why?- her eyes peak over the cushion

-why I like you?- she nods- because you're so kind, the first time I saw you- he roamed on his pocket- you gave me this, my eyes couldn't stop watering because of my allergies- he shows her a little handkerchief, embroidered with her name and flowers- you said one of the cutest things, this little flowers will keep you safe from the real ones and then you gave me a pill- she looks at her handkerchief recalling that time, remembering the day- then the second time I saw you even tho you were more serious and distant you were still so cute eager to help, you helped me and saw me when all the other nurses weren't

-you can't just like someone for being kind- she's curled up in her- neither for seeing me twice

-i have saw you more that those two times, I have saw you around the city, in many different places doing just your thing- she's visibly uncomfortable- after the hospital I wanted to try and I guess is luck but I was coinciding in the same places as you

-Did you ever followed me?- Jay frowns- for any reason? To get together? Did you knew where I live before coming here today?

-no, no I was just at the same place casually that's why I tried to approach I would never follow you like that- he tried to take her hand but she quickly hides it from him, cornering herself on her sofa- I'm not that type of person and I know when a girl doesn't want something with me, I'm sorry if I bothered you in any way, it was never my intention- he got up going to the door- thank you for at least let me have a date with you I liked a lot going out at midnight- he puts on his jacket and shoes- please take care- and then leaving her

Y/n looks at her door, how she's alone now, she's trying to clear her mind, getting up and running out of her apartment trying to catch him finding him at the lobby of the building, she takes his hand and Jay is a little confused.

-I'm sorry… I didn't want you to go, is, is complicated how I feel… Can you give me time and I'll explain to you?- he nods- do you want to go back to my apartment?

-only if it's okay with you, I don't wanna you to do it because you feel pressured or something like that

-I invited you in the first place because I wanted to be with you I'm sorry it got weird… you promise me we're gonna eat together and go out later- she pouts and he can't resist cupping her cheek

-i said I was gonna cook for you- he let her guide him back to her apartment walking behind her

Once back he sits again on her couch, her next to him still holding his hand, is quiet and she's happy now, calm. Jay is making circles on her hand helping her clear her mind

-I wanna go to see the sunrise- Jay looks at her- wanna we sleep some before having our date out

-i would love to- he lifts her hand to kiss the back of her hand, she nods and her alarm rings

-sorry I have to take my medicine- she gets up to her kitchen taking her pill

-are you sick?- she slightly flinch with his voice- sorry I just want to know you're alright

-yes, is nothing, you know I'm a little crazy and my doctor thinks I need these- Jay understood immediately cupping her face

-you're not crazy is not wrong to have help- she pouts feeling not ashamed for the first time taking her medication- go sit I'll start dinner- she feels the tension between them and unconsciously she's waiting for a kiss like in the movies

She does as he said letting him in her kitchen with total freedom, staying in her couch, curling up in her, taking a blanket and turning on her TV

-do you want help?

-no, thanks I'm making points for myself so you can see I'm a suitable boyfriend- she giggles making him smile

Jay kept doing his own thing for a while finishing an hour later, going for her and finding her peacefully sleeping on her couch, he smiles letting her rest and instead starting to help her clean around her apartment, he put on gloves and started to do the house chores, dusting the furniture, washing dishes, mopping the floors, starting the washing machine that already had clothes inside, he arranged the best he can without meddling too much on her personal space. He sits on the floor next to her playing with her hair, making her stir awake slowly, her eyes open frowning a little but smiling seeing him.

-hi sleepyhead, did you sleep well?- she nods curling more in her blanket- food is ready if you wanna eat now

-i wanna please- her eyes sparkle and he just wants to scoop her from the couch hug her body and carry her to the kitchen

-let's go then, I have to heat it up a little since is long since I finished- he holds back that urge to touch her

-Did you only watch me sleep?- he shakes his head- what did you do then?- she looks around noticing how everything is in place, is tidy and smells like lavender- did you clean?

-just a little to help you, let's go- she blush ashamed the he not just saw her messy life but also helped her tidy up

They both sit at the table, Jay serves her, watching her eat first before he starts, they talk about anything, is warm, light and is what Jay has wanted since long ago, easy simple days next to someone. When they finish she quickly took the dishes to wash them before he can stop her; now the sun is going down and all her apartment is painted in oranges and pinks, all over the walls, the furniture, is cozier and Jay feels so calm and in peace, they went to the sofa again to watch TV, put it on whatever just to have an excuse to be together, her hand is slowly inching to his, her pinky grazing his skin, Jay smiles still watching the screen, but holding her hand intertwining their fingers she gasps like if she was just caught doing something she shouldn't, returning her eyes to the TV but not paying attention. Soon enough was dark and she was sleepy again, wanting nothing more but to rest before getting up early to catch the sunrise.

-do you wanna sleep? If we're still going on a date so early we need to- she looks at him with sparkly eyes

-yes, I would like a little rest before going out- he smiles seeing her happy about something so simple like go see the sunrise- if you lend me a blanket and a pillow I can stay here in your sofa

-don't you wanna be in bed? Is much more comfortable- she frowns playing with his fingers

-do you want me to sleep with you? Or you want me to only take your bed?- she turns her face away realizing what she just said- if it's to share I would love to, but if it's for me to take i would decline

-then let's go- she gets up pulling him to follow her to the bedroom, he does it not putting resistance- we're not going to have anything, if you're thinking that

-I wasn't I just want to sleep- he's smiling like a fool she push him slightly so he's sitting on her bed, she looks a little unsure- I can't go to the sofa if you're not comfortable

-I'm okay with you here, is just…I sleep in panties- she blushed- can you close your eyes until I get under my blanket please?-Jay smiles using a pillow to cover his face she quickly rushed to take off the sweatpants going inside the covers, Jay smiles feeling the movement- you can open now- he removed the pillow

-can you do the same for me please?- she nods pulling her covers to her eyes, she's blushing under her bedsheets, even more when she feels him next to her- you can open now

-are you in undies too?- Jay nods

-it makes you uncomfortable?- she shakes her head, the dim light from the lamp post made visible his concern features- I can go to the sofa if it does, or put back my jeans I don't mind

-is okay, is just, it feels so… intimate- she's reached for his hand trying to find it somewhere between the sheets- I feel comfortable is just something new- Jay takes her wandering hand- I never experienced this with someone to be so intimate without sex, without even being naked… is easy to be with you I like how calm you make me feel

-i like to be around you, is nice when you're not pushing me off or running away from me- she tenses

-sorry I thought you were a creep, I felt uncomfortable… but you're really sweet- she doubts for a little- is okay if I hug you? I like to do that with my pillows- Jay chuckle pulling her making her gasp- what? What are you… oh- he put her on his side so she can lay her head on his chest and he's hugging her too- it feels really nice- she relax on him letting go, cuddling on his side closing her eyes- see you in a bit

-sleep well- Jay plays with her hair until he's sure she's sleeping

He woke up with her sitting on her heels moving him slowly, he opened his eyes, still dark he blinks trying to get used to, he extended his hand reaching her right, still in undies he can feel her skin, removing his hand when he realized.

-sorry… what time is it?- his groggy voice made her heart skip a beat

-it's 4 am- he groans while stretching- I wanna be there to see the first rays

-Well, what are we waiting for?- she turned on her night lamp going out of bed happily Jay seeing her running in underwear searching for things, removing the top making him turn around- don't you prefer me going out?- she realized what she's doing covering immediately her naked torso

-sorry, I'm… -she’s stumbling on her words and around her room- I got excited and forgot that I'm… I'm used to be alone here- she giggles out of nervousness

-I could see that- he also chuckled nervously- Don't you want me out?

-you can look now, I'm already dress- Jay slowly turns to see her red in embarrassment- I have a t-shirt, I ordered online but the size is wrong- she roamed on her closet- I was planning on returning it but maybe will fit you since you don't have clothes for today- she shows it to him, is light pink with flowery skull print on the back- sorry is girly is okay if you don't want to use it

-is pretty, I'll take it- he smiles- is manly to use pink with confidence besides I look good in pink- he gets up slipping his jeans turning around to take off his shirt and slipping the one she provided she eyed his back, the muscles flexing turning around too, pretending she didn't saw him half naked- let's go then pretty, before the sun wakes up

She smiles following him downstairs to his car, getting on the passenger side and turning on the radio, the drive is slow still very dark around, when he parked he asked her to stay inside for her safety, he took things from his trunk taking a gym bag, going to her side to open the door, holding her hand to help her out, walking together until they find the perfect spot, Jay extended a blanket for them to sit, and she's impressed that he actually bring one, but more impressed when she's sitting and he wrapped her with another blanket.

-do you sleep in your car?- she smiles, seeing him take out a camping lamp, turning it on, also candles- did you plan this?

-no and no- he smiles getting next to her- the first time I found you here I liked so much just to be with you, then you called me for a second time and I loved that even more, so I just packed these hopping for a third time, more times actually I could do this forever everyday- he smiles

-you're so sweet I'm glad I was wrong about you being a creep… I didn't want to go all over again with something like that- she leans on him

-again? Did I make you feel like that so many times? I'm really sorry- he wrapped his arms on her shoulders making her feel warmer and comfier

-no… not you… someone else- she looks at his face- can I tell you a little story? My therapist said it will be helpful for me to let go with someone else and try to establish new relationships she thinks you're a good person

-i would love to listen to anything you have to say- he giggles- do you talk about me? I hope is for good

- I've been talking about you more than what I like to admit- she looks at the lake-y first session talking about you was because I thought you were following me and I had a panic attack- Jay tense not liking to hear that- then because I thought I was going crazy and making everything about my trauma… when you took me to my session my therapist recommend to give you a chance since she couldn't perceive something bad in you from what have I told her

-i'm sorry I made have a panic attack- he feels guilty

-it's not you…well maybe a little but is complicated- he slowly retrieve his hand and she holds him so he doesn't stop hugging her- when I was younger there was this man, he used to work at the school I was attending, he said he was in love with me… it was wrong, so wrong because I was sixteen and he was 40, he started to give me candies, flowers and stuff like that, I didn't accept any because I didn't want anything to be with him- she started to cry- he always said it was my fault he was so in love… he started to follow me without me knowing, he knew where I lived, where I was going for my tutoring after school, where I practiced dance, where I liked to go, he was always there watching me- she hugs herself and Jay slowly understand why she was so “rude” in the beginning

-I never did something like that, I promise I genuinely just I met you in all those places- she wipes her tears still holding his hand

-I know… now I do, sorry I was not nice to you those times… is just that he tried so hard to be around me, my parents were out for work one day, my dad was taking extra hours and my mom on a business trip, when I came from school he was waiting in my room naked, I tried to run but he grabbed me and started to touch me I screamed and fighted, my neighbor heard and called the police she came to help me, she hit him too so I can run away, police arrested him…- Jay feels disgusted of that- sometimes I still feel like if he's watching me, like if he's following me, all my birthdays he sent me a letter from prison I never open them but is a constant reminder that he's there he's always there waiting for the time to try again- she's crying feeling like she can breathe properly

-I’m sorry that happened to you… - Jay noticed that she's choking on her tears, quickly taking her tuning to face her, cupping her face- look at me… he's not gonna hurt you, never again… I won't let him- his words are firm but sweet- breathe inhale exhale, just do what I do- Jay started to take a deep breath that she mimicked, letting the air out slowly, he did it as many times as she could need- you're good now?- she nods and Jay can't resist anymore engulfing her in a hug holding her like a baby against his chest- is okay I'm here… maybe I'm not much but I won't let you go through this alone… unless that's what you want I still want to make boyfriend points- he plays with her hair hearing a little hiccup, he extended his hand taking out a water bottle from his gym bag, letting her have a sip- is all good now?- he takes a handkerchief wiping her tears

-i'm sorry I cried so much- she holds on his tshirt hiding her face

-you don't have to apologize for things like that… you don't have to apologize for anything that you can feel, not with me- he cups her face making her look at him, he makes sure she's wrapped on the blanket- I'm sure right now you look so pretty, even if I can see you because is still dark- he chuckled and she hides her face more on him- no, no stop doing that… the sun is already coming out you're gonna miss it- she looks at the horizon the little sparks of light going through the clouds glistening in the water, she curled up on him watching the water

-you really want to be my boyfriend? Even if I'm a little broken inside?- Jay holds her with care and love

-yes, I don't care if you think you're broken, I want to be with you- she looks at him

-can I kiss you then?- Jay nods- can you tell me if you don't like it?

-i can't imagine not liking it- he let her cup his face getting closer to her- please kiss me- no man had ever plea for her and it made her feel butterflies on her stomach she pulled him their lips touchin, lightly increasing the rhythm little by little, until she decided to depend more, his hand wrapped all over her pulling apart when she couldn't breath

-can we meet again here at night?

-every night if you want- she smiles letting him hold her while they watch the sun fully rising to sky.

Fin.

I'm sorry if it's not good, thanks for reading me little stranger

[sunishake]

Ni-ki resembled Heeseung sm today, the fandom is going through mass psychosis rn 😭😭😭😭😭

Like yes, in this club we all schizophrenic

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Sometimes I re-read what I write and today I chose the wrong one I bawled my eyes

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Every day I keep thinking you're back my love

[jwimura]

Always putting them on tour, never doing shit to protect them online or offline, never clearing up shitty rumors and making them do it instead, not pressing charges against literal stalkers who call themselves fans, making a whole fuckass former iof soldier touch their discography and profit from it, force them to promote zionist brands, silence them on everything, milk them for every cent. @ HYBE you will fucking die tonight. TONIGHT.

[en-trashy]

I hate it here

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Tw: I don't know I'm to wrecked to even think

I wrote this to go out of a mentally dark place, I'm struggling with my mental health now I wasn't expecting what happened today, I still wanna post it because I do love him so much, I've been Engene since iland I struggled back then, I have saw them struggle to debut, to make it, to not have a proper management so this feel like a part of me was rip a part.

Exhausted, it was exhausting, was a long night and she only wanted to go back home to cuddle in bed and have some rest, she's finishing her shift waiting for everyone to go so she can close, it's 3 am and she's watching all the ladies go together to keep themselves safe, she waved them goodbye wiping the last table, turning off the lights and going out, the cold sharp wind made her shrink on her worn coat, putting the lock on the door and the metal bar to secure it, she heard a scream, alerted she looks down the dark humid alley, seeing a man running afraid holding his side, bleeding, a gunshot resonates in the silence of the night and the man falls to the ground, she looks beyond him the lights are coming closer to her so she can only run, to the opposite direction of the trouble, steps and more gunshots ring on her ears when she collided with a big body stopping her way of escape.

-look what we have here a snitch- she looks to the man holding her

-Please I just wanna go home, I just heard the commotion and tried to go away- she pleads as other dude is searching on her bag

-She has pepper spray and a pocket knife- all her things were scattered on the ground- what do we do? We tell the boss?

-no, why don't we have some fun?- the big dude picked her and walked to a black car

-no, put me down please- she started to trash around but the other one held her legs- please no, no, let go- she started to scream- help, help please someone- but one of them punched her on the cheek making her dizzy, her vision blurry

They throw her in the backseat as she slowly faints, the world around her dark and the voices calling her a treat disappearing on the back of her head.

The boss went out of his car to inspect they're cleaning properly, looking how they drag the body putting it on bags, dumping water on the concrete and beer to cover the smell of blood, he then saw a lot of girl stuff on the ground, squatting down to inspect the objects, lipstick, a broken mirror, pads, hand cream, hair ties and clips, most important a wallet with an ID, he checked the interior just a couple bills no card, one bus pass; he looks at the photo for a whole minute, then looking around the bag is there too next to a little pocket knife, but there's no girl, no trace of someone.

-Kim come here- a big dude walked a little clumsy to him- did you see her around while doing the cleaning?- he shows the ID and the big dude carefully thinks on what to say

-Jinu and Sanyeon captured her, they took it as a treat I heard- he shrinks his shoulders signaling the blood on the floor

-Yeah keep doing that, thanks- the boss walked to the other two that were giggling as if they were teenagers making a silly prank- hi, I believe you have someone, where is she? But most importantly, why don't you report that someone else was here?- the other two stand up straight hearing their boss stern voice

-Sorry boss, we didn't want to bother you with something insignificant- he put a hand on his pocket

-is that so? And what exactly were you two planning to do? Rape her?- they started to deny being offended- you know I don't tolerate that type of behavior, also you're well aware of what happens when someone from the clan does something like that don't you?

-Boss Lee we aren't like that

-Yes we will never we we're…

-Glad to know you're aware, now where is she?- they signaled the car- pick up her things and call Park to drive me home- he started to walk to the car

When he opened the door he found her, helpless and unconscious, he tried to fix her as best as he could, getting in the car next to her, her head on his shoulder, he calmly pinched his nose bridge when the driver's spot was occupied.

-long night boss?Who is she?

-Pretty much… I don't know those two idiots knocked her and put her here- the driver gave him her bag with all her belongings there

-Of course they'll do something like that, there's rumors about them taking advantage of women in vulnerable situations

-Why haven't you told me this?- he sounds angry

-Because is just a rumor, I have never witness something, you know I'll tell you, more than my boss you're my friend Heeseung

-can you do me a favor?- Jay nods through the rearview mirror- can you investigate that rumor and let me know

-no problem, I'll update you as soon as I know something

The rest of the driving was in silence, Heeseung was tired, closing his eyes from brief moments until he was parked outside his entrance, carefully taking the girl on his arms carrying her inside, with softness to not disturb her. He made the arrangements for her to rest, calling his maid so she can help her to change and clean her wounds. He stayed outside his bedroom waiting until he had a positive answer of coming inside, finding the stranger already tucked in bed still unconscious.

-I put ointment on the cheek sir so it doesn't get swollen tomorrow, also I remade some stitches on the ribcage she had a terrible wound there, she has a lot of bruises all over her body, poor thing- the maid pick up all her things

-thank you, I'm sorry I woke you up- she smiles and leaves him

Heeseung stares at the stranger on his bed, she looks fragile right now, helpless, he sighed tiredly going to the bathroom to change his clothes and have some rest too, getting inside his covers careful to not be so close to her or wake her up, he got comfortable slowly losing his own consciousness until he's fast asleep.

Y/n woke up confused and with an unbearable headache, her eyes focusing slowly on her surroundings noticing she's in an unknown place, sitting in bed she finally saw the man sleeping next to her she screams quickly covering her mouth, going out of the bed crawling around to get to the door.

-What are you doing?- a groggy voice made her yelp and try to run faster out of the room- y/n stop now you're going to hurt yourself- she stopped paralyzed at the door

-how you know my name?- the man got up from bed directly to her

-I found your belongings, now get up there and come back to bed you're injured- he's shirtless only wearing pajama pants- are you hurting now?- he gently scoops her from the floor putting her body back in the soft mattress

-no… did we slept together?- she looks at him blushing

-Yes but not in an intimate way, I just put you next to me, I didn't have any other option- he put on a t-shirt

-Did you changed my clothes?- she looks down at the oversized t-shirt and the boxers she's wearing as shorts

-no, my maid did, she also repaired your stitches and put ointment in the cheek- he signaled the bruise there, she touched her face as he started to send a message from his phone- do you want something in particular for breakfast?

-no thank you… I should get going I'm not sure how far my home is from here and I need to go to work later- she was about to go up when he pushed her back in bed

-You can't leave

-But… please I need to go, listen I'm sorry for the inconveniences last night, I'm not sure what happened but if what you want is money I don't have, either you let me go or I will run away- Heeseung arch his brow

-Okay try to leave- she got up slowly doubting the stranger walking carefully, she opened the door when he whistle, a big dog started to run straight to her barking angry, running back to bed to hide behind the stranger- Cerberus, sit- the dog stopped at his feet, calm

-are you crazy? Why did you ask him to attack me?- she push slightly his shoulder

-I told you, you can't leave, now anything is okay for breakfast?- she nods still hiding from the dog- let's go is already made

-No until that beast is out and far away from me- she holds onto Heeseung's arms making him chuckle and take her princess style to his dining room

-why is that following us?- she looks over his shoulder as the paws echoed behind

-Because he's attached to me and is also his breakfast time- he left her on a chair and she never stopped seeing the movements of the dog, meanwhile Heeseung started to eat and read the newspaper- eat before it gets cold- she did looking around the house

-Why can't I leave? I haven't done anything- Heeseung puts his newspaper down

-You know why, you were in a wrong place at the wrong time and you saw something you shouldn't- she opened her mouth to talk back- besides if my clan doesn't kill you the rival one will do since you saw how one of them died- he went back to read the news

-I'm going to lose my job- she takes a big bite

-Won’t be the end of the world, you can have a new one- he keeps reading and eating

-it was a luck that Chen hired me- he put down his newspaper to look at her

-do you work for Chen? Why haven't I seen you? You're not of my usuals but, are you new there?- she shakes her head as no- I give really good payments

-I know, I know who you're… I have saw you since I started to work there

-i'm sorry I don't remember you

-nobody remembers the girl who cleans the bathroom

-oh I thought, I'm sorry I thought you were one of Chen's girls

-no… I just clean, I remember you well because one time you puked outside the toilet and gave me one hundred to clean it- she takes another big bite chewing happily- you said sorry dude I miss it and handed me the money, I try to give it back and you told me it was your apology- she talks so excited about that time

-I'm really sorry for that, usually I don't drink that much, I'm sorry you had to clean it

-is okay because that week was the best for groceries I never had so much, all thanks to your money- she keeps eating while Heeseung looks at her, how she enjoys whatever is on her plate- you're really kind actually

-am I?- he looks confused

-Yes, you're the only one who's not an asshole with anyone, all the girls love when you go, you always tip, you're polite and kind, you never hurt them, they want only you, that's why they rush to you the moment you step there

-Have someone hurt them?

-A lot of men, they try to force them to have sex, even when they're only dancers, sometimes they hit the girls

-Have one of my men done that with anyone?- she thinks for a minute before nodding- who?

-The same that hit me last night were the ones who made the wound in my ribcage, they took away two days of work because the stitches get undone when I clean, Chen took away my payment of last weekend because of that- she eats as Heeseung can only be angry

-Did they hurt you more than one accidental time? Why didn't you call security? I would have known if I saw the guards taking them off, also Chen would have told me about their behavior

-it's never accidental and doesn't work like that, security is only for the dancers and bartender, if one of the men try to take advantage of me no one helps, for Chen if I'm not there is only a minimum wage girl, he can get someone else in no time, even an addict for a couple bucks will do my job, his girls are the only ones that matter- she keeps eating- how long do I have to hide? If I don't go for three days Chen will fire me

-as long as I consider it safe for you, why don't you search for another job?- Heeseung feels his blood boil

-I can't, no one hires me, I don't have experience in anything else, I didn't go to school, I barely have that opportunity after going out of the system, it's a luck so I have to take care of my job- she takes her empty plate- where can I wash this?

-Leave it my maid will do it- Heeseung looks at this girl full of bruises eating like if she's starving and offering to clean after herself- did you go out of prison or why were you in the system?

-no that system, I was in foster care for a long time, but no one wants the teenagers so I wasn't adopted and my parents weren't suitable for me, the education I received was until high school because it was expensive to provide for more for someone who isn't your family and that you only take because they give you a check to cover basic expenses… once out of the system, because I was 19, I had to find my own way to survive and Chen was the only option I had and still have- she looks at him with curious eyes- do you know what happened to me last night after I faint? Did they… you know… did someone touched me like that?- Heeseung understands looking at her with some cuteness

-no, no that I know, after my man knocked you they put you in the back of my car I don't tolerate any type of sexual crime or violence against women so they'll be severely punished

-boss we have the… -a big man appears on his dinning room looking at her surprised- sorry I didn't know you had a guest, the problem is solved but we need your approval to finish the job

-I'm coming, thank you- Heeseung got up cleaning his mouth- please stay inside the house, my guard doesn't know you're here and they have instructions to shoot anyone they don't know, my maid will help you if you need something, you can use my things in my bedroom, I'll leave Cerberus in charge of you in case you want to escape- she looks at the dog walking to her

-no, no get your beast away from me- she put her feet on top of the chair to get away from him- I won't go but please put him away- Heeseung only laughs softly taking his dog with him

Y/n got bored really quickly after eating, she took a shower but couldn't do anything else without going out of his room, afraid of the dog on the stairs growling each time she stepped out, that's until she was done with taking a pillow to throw at the dog in case he wanted to attack her, opening the door slightly watching him there.

-listen well Flea ridden you'd better stay put and do nothing to attack me- she opens slowly, seeing the dog running to her making her scream- stop now

The dog tackled her, smelling her, smelling his owner on the clothes she's wearing, she stayed petrified as he went down her, she slowly caressed his ear seeing his tail wiggle.

-You're a good boy right?- she takes the tag to read the name- Cerberus, well now that I know you're not gonna kill me why don't you help me?

Heeseung was finishing his work, leaving his bat on the floor wiping the blood off his face, his bread rigged brushing his hair back.

-Put them on the trunk and get rid of them- Hee takes his things- I'll take the day off tomorrow but call me if something is wrong or if something is urgent

The others nods and do what he asked, as he's driving home he went to pick something for dinner, when he arrived he can hear some music, frowning as he stepped inside, Heeseung is surprised to see her, she was kneeling on his living room, wearing his t-shirt and boxers, with a bandana on her hair, she's scrubbing the floor as Cerberus is next to her also wearing a bandana and holding the bucket with soapy water on his mouth, he walks calmly to his speakers to turn them off.

-Hey I was…- Heeseung smiles seeing her- hi when did you arrive?

-Just now, what are you doing?- he looks around- where's Mrs Kim?- she takes the bucket from Cerberus leaving it on the floor

-I’m cleaning, Mrs Kim had an emergency she left a note on the kitchen and it says she also left a voicemail- she takes the bandana off Cerberus kissing his head

-Now you're friends?- she nods, hugging the enormous dog- the beauty tamed the beast, are you hungry? Did you eat?

-I'm really hungry, I only took a little cheese and ham for a sandwich, I'll pay you what I ate- Heeseung chuckled taking the containers out in his coffee table

-You only ate a sandwich?- she nods- that's too little food lucky I brought dinner for both

-You bought me something?- she crawl next to him on the table looking at the containers- I don't have how to pay you for these

-I'm not asking you to do it- he opened the Chinese box and handed her the chopsticks too- I didn't know what you like so I bring you my favorite

-thank you, am I kidnapped? I never thought it will be like this, in the movies is different in the silence of the lambs the girl is in a ditch is dirty and buffalo bill doesn't feed her- she takes a big bite of her food

-You're not kidnapped I'm just trying to figure out what I'm going to do with you so no one hurts you, the other clan is chasing mine because some problems and you were there in the wrong time, you saw how one of my man killed a rival- he gives his dog a piece of chicken

-if I'm not kidnapped, can I go home? I need to pay my landlord this month, also I bought groceries and they're going bad if I don't eat them- Heeseung looks at her amused

-You can't go- she looks visibly sad- I'll see if we can solve something to take you there soon

-thank you, I have the money on my… -she looks worried- on my bag

-your bag is in my studio, I picked everything from the floor don't worry, now eat it's gonna be cold- she smiles eating contently giving small pieces of meat and veggies to Cerberus

When they finished she started to pick everything to clean, but Heeseung stopped her, scooping her from the floor to take her upstairs into the bathroom.

-get ready for bed I'll clean down stairs, you can take anything from my closet to wear- he takes some things to give her for hygiene and skin care

-Can I take another one of these?- she lifts the shirt slightly letting him see his boxers

-yes, whatever you want

Heeseung left her so she could get ready for bed while he went to clean the living room. Y/n washed her face and teeth, using everything he provided, going into his closet to take a clean t-shirt choosing a pair of boxers as shorts, she went inside the bed and Cerberus quickly got next to her cuddling on her side, when Heeseung was back, he arched a brow snapping his fingers making the dog go down bed going to his own bed, without leaving time for her to protest he went inside his bathroom to take a shower. She stayed there waiting for him to be back yawning, by the time he's back she's sleepy, the fog from the hot water filled the space; he came already wearing his pajama pants but bare torso.

-What happened to you?- she rubs her eyes looking at his wound

-I was hurt while working- he dismissed the problem taking a first aid kit to bed

-can I help you?- she sits facing him, he nods- I'm really good at it- she straddles one of his legs taking everything to treat the cut on his chest, cleaning and putting gauze to protect it- wanna a kiss? One of my moms from foster care said that you kiss it better to heal faster

-did she? And it works?- she nods smiling- then what are you waiting?- she leans carefully kissing around the wound and the gauze- how's your wound?

-Better it doesn't hurt, it's just a little itchy, wanna see it?- Heeseung nods and she lifts his shirt flashing him as she's not wearing a bra, he quickly takes the shirt pulling it down

-You have to be a little more careful with your body- he slowly lifts the shirt to be able to see- you can get yourself in danger, what if I'm a pervert? And instead of covering you I touch you inappropriately?- she's ashamed as he inspects the stitches

-I'm sorry… is because Chen checks that nobody steals something so he inspects our bodies I'm used to people see me naked

-Chen does that?- she nods- that's not very nice is it? Did you agree to do that?- she shakes her head

-It's part of working there so I have to do it- Heeseung put down the garment- you didn't kiss it better- she pouts

-can I uncover you and kiss you here?- Heeseung signaled with his finger

-why you ask? You can just do it

-I can but shouldn't, no one actually, when is your body you have to give consent no one should do anything you don't want to- she looks at him frowning a little since nobody ever did that- can I kiss it better?- she nods

-get ready for bed I'll be there in a minute- Heeseung let her inside the house and went to his studio

Heeseung lifts the shirt enough to let him kiss around the stitches on her ribcage, careful to not touch her breasts or her in any unintentional way, it was soft and she was feeling like porcelain, he was holding her and kissing her skin like never ever someone did, like if she's gonna break, the heat creeps on her, feeling suddenly shy at him pushing his shoulder to cover herself, he looks at her and how she's red in embarrassment, just smiling and manhandling her to lay down.

-is late, is time to rest tomorrow we'll have a long day- he tucks her going out to turn off the light laying next to her

-Good night Hee

-Good night y/n- it became quiet,both laying next to each other without touching, in the dark and she with an unknown feeling on her guts

Heeseung woke up with his phone ringing, and with an unusual weight on him, thinking is Cerberus he pushed slightly but received a complain, y/n cuddling him more hugging his torso tightly, he wrapped his arm around her feeling her body relax and melt on him, he works on his phone for some time until she stirred awake, slowly focusing on her surroundings until she made eye contact with him blushing instantly and pulling away.

-I'm sorry, I didn't knew I did that- Heeseung smiles

-don't worry let's go, we need to make breakfast since Mrs Kim is still on break- he gets up scooping her from bed to carry her to the kitchen

-do you know how to cook?- Heeseung left her on a stool and she looks at him arching a brow

-yes, why? It's surprising?- she nods and he just laughed seeing her sleepy face- I don't know why would be weird

-when rich people have service at their homes is because they're spoiled and doesn't know how to do basic adult things- Heeseung laugh

-I'm not spoiled my mom taught me how to be functional for me, I have Mrs Kim because I'm most of the time out of my home- he cuts a piece of cheese giving it to her, she contently eats it- besides made my money not many years ago a wasn't rich since my crib

-Chen says you made dirty money that you're a bastard for that- he talks with no filter and makes him laugh- sorry I shouldn't have said that

-he’s not wrong I hurt people for living- she gasp- I lend them money and if they don't pay me I take something valuable either a car, a house, jewelry anything I can get my money back

-then why are you good with people? You treat the girls good

-Because I'm only like that with people like your boss, the man you saw the other night owed me a lot and he also raped a girl so it's better if he's not around- he gives her the plate with her grilled cheese sandwich and veggies on the side- your boss also owes me a lot that's why I go to his club and don't pay I only tip the girls because they're working it's not their fault to have an idiot as their boss, neither yours, eat we're going shopping later

-I love going on shopping- she said giggly kicking her feet

Heeseung only smiles seeing her eating in silence, as she always does, eating like it's her last meal, enjoying like he never saw before anyone do it, he keeps smiling until is time to go, she changed into her worn garments so ready to go with him taking her bag, and waiting for him next to the car as he's taking the keys to leave, Heeseung drives calmly seeing her how amazed she is on the way to the store, watching the buildings and big houses even taking pictures of it, he parked outside a store opening the door for her, she saw the exterior impressed, once inside a gentleman came directly to them shaking Heeseung's hand, completely ignoring her as basically he praises Heeseung for existing, she looks around while they measure him to do a new suit impressed by the prices of something so small like a handkerchief, something that she usually makes for herself, she's patient until he's done seeing him pay without even thinking or asking the price, only having a note back to pick up his tailor-made suit later. Hee guides her back to the car driving to a different location, y/n can see all the brands that she only have saw on her phone in famous people, he's parking outside one of those so when she walked behind him she gasped seeing all the beautiful clothes there, as he's watching garments she's keeping her hands to herself afraid to rip or stain something.

-Why aren't you looking for something?- Heeseung's voice startled her

-I can't pay any of these, a shirt is worth three months of my rent- she whispers to him, he leaned to whisper on her ear

-but I can, you just have to pick something you like- he takes her hand pulling her to the girls section as she's blushing

-I can't accept it, is too much- but Heeseung is deaf ears choosing and putting the garments in front of her to visualize her wearing them, taking a lot to the fitting room, waiting for her outside

-ready? Let me see- she opened the door to let him see her- it looks pretty, do you like it?- she nods- try the other set- he stayed outside.

In the end Heeseung bought more than she could say no to, trying to stop him but he didn't even listen to her putting the bags on the car as she's trotting behind him, once he helped her on the passenger seat and she's about to talk he turned the radio loud to not hear her, making her pout as he drives to the next location, a lingerie undergarments store.

-I have my own in my home, can we leave?- she's walking behind holding tightly her tote bag

-I thought you said you like go shopping- he's wearing sunglasses barely looking at her

-I do, but I only go to second hand places where I can actually afford something, this isn't what I do- she finally catches him holding his arm to walk next to him- it would take me around 5 years to pay you without taking into account market interest rates and inflation

-Do you know economy? Tell me how long would it takes for you to pay me considering you have an increase of 10 percent in your salary- she frowns while making her calculations

-around 3 years and 9 months considering that each year I have the same 10 percent more, considering the inflation will be around 5 years 8 months- Heeseung gets with her inside the store- that if the inflation is constant not variable around 3.7 percent per year and if you don't charge me interest rates- he started to see the garments letting her talk

-so you really know calculations, if I charge you 25 percent of interest?- he started to pick clothes

-you charge 25 percent?- he nods- that's why no one can pay you, is impossible the interest rate is larger and the original amount, the debt grows more than what I can afford even with my ten percent more, I would be homeless in less than a year, is abusive what you do

-Life is not fair, it never is- he walks to an employee- can you help us with these? We need all of these sets and everyday wear, cotton for her- the lady took her to the fitting room while Heeseung just waves at her

They measured her, finding the best fit for her, bringing the ones she can try on, putting the protectors on the crotch of the garments for her to be safe, she started to get undress and barely dress again, when she talked to the employee asking to call Heeseung, surprised but calm he leaned on the door of the fitting room knocking slightly.

-I'm here, is everything alright?- he heard little careful noises from her

-yes, just that… I need help, can you please close your eyes for a little so I can show you- she wrapped herself on her coat opening the door slightly enough for him to slip inside- I don't know how to buckle this- Heeseung opened his eyes seeing her red, covered with the coat but her back exposed and the bra unhooked

-oh, I'll help you, can I?- she nods as his cold fingers touch her back, hooking the garment- do you not wear a bra?

-I do, but not like this- she blush covering completely- I used to have a training bra but I never develop fully so I use the same thing no this- Heeseung smiles- Chen girls tried to teach me but is uncomfortable

-is this uncomfortable? Do you not like it?- she nods- is that a no? I won't buy you something you're not comfortable with

-I don't like it, is big on me and uncomfy I like mine- Heeseung looks at her bra on the bench next to her clothes

-I'll tell them you want a different type, the panties are okay?- she blush and nods- good I'll leave

- no, you need to take it off first- she holds his arm uncovering her back

Heeseung did it quickly going out immediately letting the employees know what she wants sitting on a sofa there to wait, after a long time she's again with him dressed and red, he walks to pay for her, she tried to stop him again but he only took the bags handing them to her, walking to the car. The drive is awfully silent, heavy and it made her sink on the seat, all the way to his house he looks tense on the edge of bursting out everything; as she learned in all her years with different families, is that if someone is looking angry you get smaller and to the side to not bother and to not be hit, when he parked outside his entrance he opened her door letting her out she walks slowly behind holding the bags, Heeseung quickly disappeared into his home and she stayed on the living room uncomfortable, she wasn't sure if she did something wrong, she only sits on the floor taking out everything he bought, maybe he got angry for the prices, but is not fair because she didn't choose anything he did, maybe she said something that made him angry; not sure what it was she got ready to make proper calculations to pay him back taking her little diary from her bag writing down the prices of each garment, then folding everything carefully back to the bags with the receipt, also writing down the dates to be able to return them, it took her a while so when Heeseung appeared she was numb to be in the same Buddha position on the floor.

-What are you doing?- he looks at how the bags are lined perfectly and little notes lay on his coffee table

-I was making my calculations to pay you back, I don't think I can fully return the money considering your interest rate, I still think is abusive but that's the way your work, so I put in separate bags the most expensive pieces to return them, leaving me with a debt equivalent to only the 15 percentage of the original amount, will take me just a year to pay you, but I will have to move to a cheaper flat and have a new job, but I promise I'll make it- she smiles brightly

-You didn't like what I got you?- he looks disappointed

-I do but it's really expensive there's no way I can afford it, especially now that I'm most likely unemployed, I have to search for another job, sometimes cleaning jobs are poorly paid so I have to consider a reduction on my usual expenses- Heeseung extended his hand to take her notebook- since I'm not sure how long I will be here I just need two outfits so I can wash one when I'm not using it

-You wrote expenses for soap- he signaled the page

-Yes, since I'm staying here and I'm using your hygiene products and I want to use your washboard and detergent I wrote approximately how much I'll own you for a week, I can just multiply that when I leave, I read that accommodations doesn't have interest rates legally so the 25 percent you charge is not applicable to the payment of my stay here

-so your plan is to pay me basically everything- Heeseung gave back her notebook

-Yes, that's what is correct if I was kidnapped, thing that you said I wasn't, would be different, I'm more like an unwanted guest, I'm always one so I pay back, in my foster families my social services check was the payment but now I have to pay my own money… related to the food, I'll ask Mrs Kim about groceries so I'll do calculations for that too don't worry- she smiles all pretty melting him

-What if everything I bought is a gift? And that you're my guest so I don't charge for accomodations, what then how much you own me?- she's flabbergasted opening her mouth to say something but closing it quickly

-Why would you do something like that?

-Because I can, let's go I'm really hungry and you must be too- he gently takes her hands to help her get up guiding her to the car again

He drove again but this time the air around them felt different, light even sweet, she couldn't comprehend the shift in his behavior so suddenly both times, but she did enjoy him this way, feeling more calm as he parked outside a beautiful place.

-I don't think I'm dressed appropriately for this- Heeseung holds her hand to guide her inside

-I think you look pretty… table for two please- she blushed intensely but Hee didn't noticed, they were guided to their spot, she looks around and the decorations finding everything beautiful- you can order whatever you want- he takes his menu reading carefully

-can you order for me please?- she fix a little uncomfortable on her chair, leaving the menu on the side, Heeseung looks at her but didn't said anything doing as she asked, ordering for both when the waitress came

-You don't like the place? Is something wrong with the food I choose?- she looks at him surprised

-No, is really pretty thank you for bringing me here- she bites her lips- is just that I don't know what is on the menu, I didn't know what to order, thank you for ordering for me- she smiles as the waitress brings her drink and she gasps at how tasty it is

-Is it good?- she nods making him smile- you never had sushi before?- she shakes her head- well I think you're gonna like it

Just like he thought, when the food arrived she looked amazed at everything, eating until Heeseung gave her a plate with stuff in it, it was delicious, making a little happy dance with the first bites, he only admires her and how cute she is when she eats, eating peacefully.

-Do you want dessert?- her eyes sparkle and she nods, he gently called the waitress ordering for them- I wanted to discuss something with you, important actually, since probably I'm the reason you're unemployed now, I want to offer you a job opportunity nothing risky as you may think coming from me, but really helpful for me

-i would like that, but for domestic service I know is charged based on hours, so I would like to ask if you can make an equivalent with my previous income- Heeseung frowns

-no, I don't want you to clean, I want you to help me managing my personal finances and keeping the books for my business- a small why came out of her since she's confused- you're the only one I'm sure is capable of do that, you basically calculated how much would you own me if I let you use soap to shower in my house, you know how to do numbers, you're smart so I want to hire you

-but I don't have a degree to do that, I'm a cleaning girl in a stripers club, I can't- she minimized herself as the dessert came to the table, Heeseung thanked the waitress looking with some sort of sweetness at y/n

-yeah because maybe you didn't had that opportunity but you outsmart anyone with a degree- he takes her hand- please say yes, I'll give you everything, security number, insurance a retirement fund, you can stay and live with me until you find a better place to live, your salary will be four times what Chen gives, even more I pay bonuses for productivity and efficiency

-what's the catch in all of these? It can't be this easy if it's too good- she looks at him trying to detect the catch- I'm not going to do anything illegal

-I'm not asking you to do that, even if you don't believe it most of what I do is legal, I have a lawyer that helps me out with almost everything I have my business registered as a company, a financial one I just overcharge and take things to ensure I have my money back, but I do it legally they give me valuable objects and we write a contract they sign and have what they want even if they can't pay back I don't lose

-but the man, the one that is the reason I'm staying at your house… what about them?- she looks with big eyes of curiosity

-he used my money to commit crimes so my man ended him, because he also threatened to hurt families that's the only illegal thing we do but I don't get my hands dirty for nothing, also I have rules for my men that's why you're with me I don't let them hurt girls much less rape or torture so I took you with me until I know is safe for you- she looks at her plate considering his offer- please say yes, I promise nothing bad is gonna happen to you- she looks carefully at him then she nods accepting the deal- perfect now eat your dessert- he smiles as she takes the first bite now in a more relaxed interaction.

She immediately heard the big paws of Cerberus on the wooden floors running to her she giggles as he jumps to kiss her face, she walked to the bedroom holding the bags she left on the living room, picking one of the camisole and booty short that Heeseung bought for her, it was cold and so nice the texture of the fabric on her skin, she washed her face and teeth getting inside the covers snuggling Cerberus when Heeseung arrived she's almost sleeping.

-stop letting him in my bed- he snapped his finger making his dog go

-but why? He's so well behaved- she pouts, she barely opened her eyes to see him already wearing pajama pants and shirtless

-Because he's trained to protect me not to be a pet, besides I thought you were afraid of him- he started to remove the gauze on his chest to clean the wound

-I was but he's so pretty and I think he likes me back- she sits in bed- wanna help?- Heeseung nods and helps her to straddle one of his legs so she can clean the wound

-of course he likes pretty girls, big dog don't bite- she taps carefully the disinfectant on his skin

-Do you like pretty girls?- she whispers while putting a bandaid on him

-I do, a lot actually- she nods, putting everything away to go back to her spot in bed- aren't you gonna kiss it better?

-Do you want that?- he nods and she slowly and carefully kisses around the bandaid pulling a part red

-can I see yours?- she shakes her head no- is something wrong that you don't want to show me?

-I know that my body makes you uncomfortable so I prefer to check the wound myself… is better now not red or puffy anymore- he takes her hand

-why do you think that?- his eyes are intense on her

-because you always act like it does, at the store when I asked for help, last night when you covered me, you avoid touching me in any way possible… I know I'm clingy and that sometimes I touch people unconsciously but you don't let me never- she looks down to her lap- is only when you want, when you carry me, now that you hold my hand, so it must be because of that because my body makes you uncomfortable

-no, is not like that is just that your body should be something no one can touch unless they have consent

-I gave you at the store and you ran like if I'm disgusting- Heeseung didn't said anything- I won't ask you to help me with my clothes again to not make you uncomfy- he lifts her face

-is not that, is the opposite- he holds her waist carefully- I was having a little struggle down seeing you with so little, I didn't want to make anything inappropriate- she's surprised that he's so honest- can I check your wound? And kiss it better?

-Yes please- Heeseung softly lifts her camisole below her breasts- is better now it's not itchy anymore- he holds her really close kissing softly, she feels butterflies on her tummy- do you know how to have sex?- he pulled apart surprised- I'm sorry, I shouldn't have ask- she tried to pull away but his hand was wrapped around her waist impeding her

-I do know, I like to think I'm good, why you ask?

-I had that doubt, you're really gentle with girls in general and by the experiences of the others, boys are rude and nasty in sex, I don't have much experience so I don't know if it's true

-it shouldn't be nasty or rude, you should enjoy and have pleasure, even if you agreed to do it no one should touch you in a way that you don't like or hurt you- he goes back to kiss around her stitches- nothing should make you uncomfortable boys should stop when you say so, no is a full sentence- he looks up at her and out of impulse she cups his face pulling in for a kiss that he responded with sweetness

Not pushing her for more, not dirty or full of tongue, simply perfect, Heeseung shifts with her on his arms turning her to lay down and hover over her, he pulled apart before it turns into too much leaving her panting softly, he pecks her lips pulling the sheets over her, turning off the lights and getting on his side to sleep, she felt that warm sweet sensation on her tummy with him so close making her frown that he just went to sleep when her brain couldn't shake the feeling of his lips on her, with a lot of struggle she fell asleep, with Heeseung running on her mind.

Cerberus licking her fingers made her stir, the feeling of something heavy on her was what woke her, the dog was on top of her, she giggled when he's completely on top licking her face.

-good morning handsome boy- she's happy giggling petting Cerberus when she focused on him already showered and buttoning his shirt- good morning Hee- he looks through the mirror at her

-good morning, get ready we're going to work- his tone is serious and her smile slowly dies, she gets up bed going to the bags in the corner of the room- is already late and I have a lot of work so we'll have breakfast at office

She nods and walks into his bathroom leaving the door slightly open, as she wash her face and changes her clothes, she slipped the new undergarments feeling pretty already with just this, she put on a culotte and a t-shirt, since he didn't mention anything about a dress code, Heeseung noticed the door open and saw her reflection through the mirror turning around ashamed to see her like that, she went out putting her hair in a high ponytail, taking the few make-up that she carries on her bag to do something with her appearance, he started to gather his things from his studio, making sure everything is alright before going for her, she looks at him now with her eyes looking bigger since her lashes are curled and with mascara, she walks behind him to the car he already opened the door for her going to his spot to drive in silence, is silent not even the radio on, she's a little uncomfortable not knowing what to say or if he's repulsed by her because of last night, he didn't like it and of course because Heeseung is so nice he didn't rejected her, when they arrived at the building where he works a ballet parking opened her door.

-Thank you so much, have a good day- she followed Heeseung to the door almost running trying to keep with his rhythm getting on the elevator with him

-I'm gonna ask for someone to give you an access card, I'll give you an office is self explanatory what you need to do, just keep the books lined with the income of the business, I'll email you my expenses for the month so you keep track on me too, do you know how to do invoices?- she nods and he looks at her briefly- fine I'll send you some tickets from stores in need an invoice from, I'll give you all the information you need- they arrived at the last door he opened the first door letting her in- this is your spot, the computer do you know how to use it?- she nods, sitting on his desk- the password and everything is written down on the notebook there. Anything here you can use it is yours now, whatever you need down the hall is my secretary you can ask her and she'll deliver to you, any questions?

-not for now…- she wanted to ask when are they going to have breakfast but he just closed the door and leave

Y/n opened the laptop and started to see all the pile files there checking the previous accountant work, seeing some inconsistencies starting to write down all the peeks of money and the downs comparted to receipts and contracts. She was so into it that barely had time to see the time until her stomach started to growl, it was almost 3 pm and she hasn't eaten anything yet, she walked to the hall directly to his secretary.

-Hi, I'm Y/n I'm helping Heeseung with the accounting he told me I can ask you anything- the lady barely lifts her eyes from her computer, she didn't reply- do you know where I can find Heeseung?

-Mr Lee, you have to address him with respect, and yes he's in a meeting out of the office now, anything else?- y/n frowns

-Do you know where I can have a snack or something to eat?

-First floor there's a bending machine- the secretary roamed on her space- your access for the elevator and the front door- she gave a card with Heeseung's name, y/n bowed to her

-thank you so much for your help, have a nice day- she left immediately went to search something to eat she's starving

On the first floor people looked at her not knowing who she is, whiles she's digging into her little coin purse counting how much she does have, enough for a water bottle, peanuts and a protein bar, she takes all of that thinking that maybe is not long till Heeseung calls her to eat as he promised, she walked back to her office, alone and hungry she did as much work as she can before getting really tired of the numbers and numb, she lays down under the desk for a moment checking the time is late, is cold and her body feels so heavy, she fell asleep on the floor.

Heeseung arrived at her office not seeing her there but everything still on, he went to the other side finding her peacefully sleeping under the desk, he smiles saving the files she made and turning off her computer, he gathered her stuff on her bag picking her too, she stirred hugging him as he walks down to the car with her on his arms, the few that remains in the building looks at him holding that girl, being sweet, he's never rude or a mean boss, but he's so serious and keeps everything professional so it's a surprise for anyone to see that, Hee fixed her on her seat driving peacefully home, she didn't woke up not even when he took her inside the house and lay her on bed, taking off her shoes and wiping carefully the mascara, he removed her pants sliding a silk short covering her with the blankets letting her sleep.

Y/n woke up in the middle of the night hungry, she looks at Heeseung sleeping next to her, slowly going out of bed, tiptoeing to the kitchen to make herself a sandwich or something, anything, she poured a glass of milk, taking peanut butter and a slice of bread, trying to be as possible, she's spreading the peanut when the groggy voice startled her.

-what are you up to?- she turns around letting the spatula fall- are you hungry?- he looks at what she's making

-yes… sorry I woke you I was trying to be quiet- her stomach growl and she blushed ashamed

-oh that sounds like an emergency, are you really hungry or just wanted a snack?- Heeseung takes her to the stool letting her sit with her piece of bread and milk

-I'm starving I barely had food today- she started to drink and he didn't listen

-must be because you fell asleep before dinner, I'll make you something- she didn't say anything, just ate her slice of bread, until he finished a turkey sandwich with lettuce and cheese, with the first bite she teared a little- what happened is so horrible you cry?- he wipes gently her little tears

-no, is so good, the best sandwich I ever had- she takes another big bite

-Easy you're gonna choke

-I rather die eating than starving- her tears didn't stop- all day I felt like fainting I couldn't concentrate properly tomorrow I'll double check what I did

-you sound like you didn't eat all day- he chuckled but seeing her frown, tears falling and chewing made him serious- you eat right?- she shakes her head no- why?

-You promised me that we'll have breakfast together at the office I waited and waited but you didn't went for me, so I asked your secretary and she told me you were out in a meeting, I bought some peanuts and a protein bar while I waited for you to go eat together, I'm not sure when I fell asleep I was just really tired- her tears fall harder and Heeseung quickly cups her face wiping her tears

-I'm really sorry, I forgot completely I went with some clients I should have taken you with me to eat- he looks at her mimicking her pout- won't happen again I promise, okay? Now finish and let's go back to bed- she did as he says trying to stop crying

Heeseung wipes her tears and washed her dishes while she goes change her shirt for her pajama, and brush her teeth, when he's back she's snuggling already hugging a pillow trying to go back to sleep, he turned off the lights and he finally slipped in bed she cuddled on his side, snuggling now in him leaving the pillow forgotten, Heeseung tensed at first but slowly relaxed and hugged her too.

As the week goes by they did a routine, wake up, shower, breakfast, office, at lunch he either go pick her for lunch or order something if he needs to go, at 6 they clock out and go home to have dinner, by Friday she's already comfortable in performing her job and most she's fully happy like she haven't been in a long time.

-Get ready we'll go to the doctor so you can check your stitches maybe get them remove, also to have a proper health record with your new insurance- he said getting out of the shower walking to his closet, she rubs her eyes waking up completely

-Good morning Hee- he's already out of her sight

Since they kissed Heeseung avoided her more, yes he's still attentive and kind but other than that nothing, slowly he drifted more, no holding her hand, putting a pillow between them, leaving after waking her, eating in opposite sides of the table, barely communicating outside of work topics, she feels odd and that maybe she ruined things. She walks to her things still in bags in one corner of the room, picking a cute outfit and going to the bathroom to take a shower she sings softly as the water makes her relax, Cerberus is there laying by the open door, wagging his tail hearing her, she finished and dried her body to start and get dress; Heeseung got close to the door seeing her silhouette barely covered by her underwear, he looks but turned away when Cerberus started to growl at him.

-Traitor, you used to be my dog

-I'm almost done baby, I'll cuddle you in a bit- her singsong voice made his dog get inside the bathroom, she didn't take long going out wearing denim shorts and a pastel shirt- sorry I took long- she looks at Heeseung standing there

-is okay I'm finishing too get in the car I'll be there in moment- she nods taking a cardigan that he gifted her yesterday

She gives food to Cerberus and kiss his head going to the car, getting in and fixing her outfit, she turned the radio on to listen something in the meantime he appears she humming the song when his serious face come on her line of vision, he adjust on his seat turning down the volume making her also shut.

-can I ask you something?- she nods- why you never close the door when you change or shower or anything?- he seems a little angry at that while he started to drive

-It's a basic rule- she shrinks on her seat- when you're in the system social workers need to know that you're not sneaking illegal substances… I was in an only girls accommodation so they also checked for pregnancies after returning from a family, violence marks, they checked for self harm, injuries, anything that is harmful to the individual… you must keep the doors open at all times

-it never bothered you? Did you not have doors at your apartment? Or anyone from foster care mentioned something?- he drives holding so hard the wheel, his knuckles already white

-you get use to it so it doesn't bother me, I have but I don't close them I'm not used to do it… not many families said something, most ignore it or they just pulled the door after you- she plays with the hem of her sweater- I'm gonna close it now, I'm sorry- she feels him angry not knowing why, she never thought that something she doesn't even care can cause that to him

He didn't talk anymore just parked outside the hospital, opening the door for her she went out walking behind him she looks everything on the inside, the building is so white, Heeseung is at the front desk filling some forms, he stayed standing there almost like avoiding her, until someone called her name, she followed the nurse and went in, they took her to change to make some studies, weight and measure her, made it do some coordination test, draw blood, etc. she was in it for a while until they told her to change and go to the doctors office, she waited there until her doctor came in followed by Heeseung who sat next to her.

-let me check… - the doctor took a minute to read everything- I don't see a problem, you're not underweight but you're barely above a malnutrition, I'm gonna prescribe vitamins to help with that- he writes something- also an ointment for the scar on your ribcage gonna take off the stitches, sit there and lift the shirt please- she did as he said Heeseung looks at what the doctor is doing not turning away as he usually does making her shy- is an ugly wound but soon will be better- the doctor cut the last stitch putting ointment- twice a day for seven days okay?- she nods as the doctor fix her shirt and Heeseung seems angry- I noticed you're missing a vaccine I'm gonna apply it now- she pouts and close her eyes tightly as the doctor preps the syringe then the pinch and the liquid hurting as enters her body- is done you did so well, you can experience fever, head and body aches, just keep yourself hydrated and call me if something else happens, you're all good to go

-Thank you for your kindness and time- she bows and the doctor smiles, Heeseung is already walking by the door and she trots to catch up- do you want me to make breakfast when we get home?

-No- he's paying at the pharmacy for her medicines- go wait in the car- she frowns but still did as he said but it was close so she stayed next to it holding her cardigan due to the cold wind

-Why would you wear something like that with this weather?- Heeseung handed the medicines as he opened the door letting her inside- do you wanna be sick?- he started to fix himself on his seat

- I thought I looked cute and since is not winter anymore- she hugs herself

He rolled his eyes driving to a drive thru ordering food for both, handing her, her portion and going back to his house, Heeseung walked to his studio while she sits to eat in the kitchen, Cerberus next to her and she gives him little bites of food, when Heeseung is back is holding a little paper, handing it to her.

-Your check for this week work, when I take you to the bank to change it you'll open an account there so each week your salary will be deposited there- she takes the check seeing the amount she gasped

-is this really what I make in a week?

-is too little? I can give you a rise but not that big, let me just… are you crying?- her tears fall and she just looks at the amount

-i never had so much money all at once… thank you is more than enough- she hugs Cerberus as Heeseung just started to eat- gonna buy you something yummy baby- his dog wagged his tail

Heeseung's secretary left an envelope on her desk, she bows as a thanks opening it seeing the invitation to the company gala, it's been a month since she started to work there and since she lives with Heeseung, he's still cold towards her but she already get used to it, the invitation said that it does have dress code, she checks the instructions and quickly messaged Heeseung telling him that she already finished her work for today that she'll be out to find a dress, she picked up her things and walked to the bus station down the road, it's been long since she used the bus but it was the only way she had to actually move in the city, she went to one of her favorite stores in downtown, a second hand store with some vintage pieces, she chooses a beautiful dress from the 20’s going home to clean it, she got dressed in some cotton pajamas and started to carefully clean and steam the piece to have it ready for tomorrow she also chose some heel sandals Heeseung bought her, imagining herself in it, she's so happy with Cerberus next to her so when the front door was slammed she jumped afraid hearing the heavy steps and a desperate voice on the phone.

-i need at least twenty men covering the area, I don't care…- Heeseung looks with shock at her sitting on the floor fixing her dress- fuck, fucking cancell everything I found her- he cut the call

-hi Hee… -he kneeled next to her and she tensed

-Why did you leave like that? I sent dozens of my men to search for you, I went to every dress store in the city and you weren't there- she's intimidated hugging Cerberus as a way to protect herself from Heeseung

-I left you a message…

-Yes without telling me where you'll be, you didn't tell me you were already at home, what if something happens to you? Where am I supposed to search for you?- she started to cry as his voice increased in tone almost yelling

-I'm sorry… I… I- the tears didn't let her talk he sighed

-Come here- he opened his arms, she slowly goes to him- I'm sorry for talking so harsh- he wrapped her in a hug and she cried more- I just thought something happened to you I got worried and put my men on the streets searching for you… when you want to go out you need to tell me I can put a driver for you or take you myself

-I just wanted a dress- she sniffles and Hee swings with her on his arms

-I bet is really pretty, just don't do that again- he holds her until she stopped crying, he wipes the remaining tears- why don't you show me how pretty you look, go change and show me- she smiles and gets up really quickly taking the dress from the hanger and going to the bathroom changing quickly and going out giving a twirl- just what I thought really, really pretty- he looks at her from the floor where he's still sitting and petting his dog

-Is appropriate for the evening?- she flutters her eyelashes in a flirting cute way

-I don't think it’s appropriate to look this good, you're gonna make any other girl jealous of you- she smiles and blushes- are you hungry? I'm gonna order something for dinner- she nods and Hee smiles- go change and wash

She runs back in the bathroom with Cerberus guarding the door, he on his phone, the door is slightly open and he can see her, putting on her pajamas no bra pulling his shorts slowly, Hee takes a pillow to put on his crotch as she come out, getting in bed next to him inches away from his body, he tensed but didn't move, he turned on the TV putting anything she looks at the screen interested in the show, laying on her tummy to see it, her bottom facing Heeseung with that booty short he bought, his pants tightening he gets up before she can notice something, she frowns seeing him go but didn't move to go search for him, instead Cerberus got in bed along her, spending minutes there until Heeseung is back with the food she only smiles and thanks him when he pass her things, eating happily and giving bites to the dog.

The next morning was the same as if Heeseung didn't broke his shell last night, hugging her and comforting her, the morning was cold, she woke up alone with a message from him “I'll be home at 4 be ready I can't be late to the dinner I need to check something in the office” she did as he said getting ready having lunch alone Mr Kim helped her with her hair, while she does her makeup, ready for Heeseung earlier than what he asked for, when he got home he was already showered and changed, she went out directly to her spot on his card he drives without looking at her.

-I'm so excited I've never been to something like this- he nods not taking his eyes from the road- do we dance at events like this?

- a lot of people do but I don't like it personally- she feels a little disappointed but didn't show it

When they arrived at the place he told her where their seats are, leaving her there while he checked the details before the guest arrive, slowly the place started to get packed with people, all of them talking between them, she recognized some faces from the office, everyone was talking until the food was served, Heeseung talked to everyone else in the table except for her, when the dinner was over he made a toast for the hard work everyone is doing and for another magnificent year of good results, Heeseung started to talk with people he soy on a different table and she's alone sitting looking at the couples that are dancing, she stayed there for hours bored with no trace of Heeseung.

-do you wanna dance?- the masculine voice made her turn

-I would love to, but it's almost time for me to leave- she looks at the hour and how Heeseung mentioned leaving at midnight

-Maybe just a song, please, you have been sitting all night watching all the couples, Heeseung hyung is bore but you don't have to- she looks surprised at the man

-You know him?- the man smiles and nods

-He’s my boss y/n- she's surprised he knows her name- I drove you the night when you started to live in Heeseung's place I know who you are

-oh I didn't knew that, thank you for driving us safe that night- she bows to him making him smile

-I'm Jay by the way- he extended his hand and she takes it- would you honor me dancing this piece with me?- she nods and Jay helps her into the dancefloor

She's so happy dancing with him, as Jay is so skillful at dancing and also making her laugh with silly dad jokes, they're so happy together that time slips, it is almost two am when she notices the time.

-I need to go get Heeseung, is really late now- she pulls apart

-Let me go with you I want to go too- they go around the party without a trace of him- hey Choi have you seen the boss?

-he left an hour ago with his usual girl- she's surprised for all the bad reasons

-Thanks man- Jay looks at her- do you have keys? I can drop you by- she shakes her head

-I don't and I… I don't have a way to get in Mrs Kim doesn't come until midday- she looks worried

-I don't live far away from Heeseung and I have a guest room, I can take you with me to sleep then tomorrow I can take you home

-I don't want to bother you- she holds her little purse

-C'mon, I hope you like grandpa pajamas because is the only ones that I have- she smiles tiny

Jay let her in his car, his house, his life, he provided her with pajamas and a room with clean sheets, she thanked him a million times as he also gave her something to remove her makeup and a sweatpants for tomorrow, she got ready for bed feeling so sad that Heeseung left her, he forgot her existence and went home with someone else, she felt like all those other times when families send her back to the orphanage, she feels the same as when the social workers told her that her mom used drug again and wasn't suitable for her, every person left her because nobody loves her, nobody wants her, y/n only fell asleep because she's so tired but her mind is still running, so when the morning arrives she's wrecked, Jay was still so good with her taking her for breakfast before drop her at Heeseung's house, when they knocked on the door Mrs Kim opened the door, surprised to see her there, clearly confused that she's not at home, quickly she takes her inside offering both tea, cookies, coffee, they sit in the kitchen with Mrs Kim while Jay updates her on what he's been doing, y/n found out, not just Jay but before she lives here Heeseung used to bring his friends often and they were close, Jay phones started to pop notifications like crazy messages from Heeseung, asking to tell the others to check security system in the event place to find y/n, to go search for her, the three sitting at the table could see how the blonde girl was walking out of the house with the heels on her hand, not noticing the eyes on her, y/n saw her using her clothes feeling a pinch on her heart, not just Heeseung forget her he let someone else use her stuff, Heeseung appears too holding his phone Jay answered his.

-Good morning boss- his tone is satire

-Drop It, did you do what I asked?- Hee sounds angry

-No, it's not necessary turn around- his eyes met hers, Heeseung walked directly to her

-oh thanks, I was so worried- he cups her face but she pulls apart making him frown- I'll go drop Mina, do you want me to bring you breakfast?- she shakes her head

-I'm ready- the feminine voice turned everyone's head

-I'll be back in 40 minutes okay? Can you be ready? I need to do some errands- Heeseung took his keys and went out, the silence that came after was awful

-I'll start the food- Mrs Kim left the table

-Can you take me to see some apartments? Mine is no longer available- Jay nods and didn't questioned her- Mrs Kim when Heeseung is back can you tell him I had some errands to do myself- she nods and she and Jay left

She's sad, feeling replaceable, Jay took her to whenever she asked, the rents were higher than she expected, or what she planned, she wrote down all the information to do her calculations for later, considering how long is work from each place, Jay's phone didn't stopped receiving messages from Heeseung, but he ignores most of them, Jay took her to eat and drove her home really late at night, when she stepped inside Heeseung opened the door.

-I left my number in case you need something- Jay hugged her and she needed that so much holding back the tears- bye boss see you at office

She got inside, locking herself in the bathroom, to take a much needed shower, Cerberus standing out waiting for her crying at the door, Heeseung went inside his room waiting, sitting in bed, and she went out wearing Jay's clothes.

-I'm sorry I left without telling you, do you want me to pass you your pajamas?- Heeseung got up to search on the bags handing her the garments

-I'm okay wearing this- she took a blanket going to the sofa laying there with Cerberus

-aren’t you tired? Bed it's ready- he followed her to the living room seeing her with his dog

-I want to hug Cerberus, I missed him so much last night

-I can carry you back to bed when you fall asleep- she shakes her head

-I wanna be with him- she hides her face on the dog to hide the tears that probably will fall, Cerberus sensing her cried too

-is something wrong? Did anyone hurt you?- he kneeled next to her

-Just leave…- her voice breaks- leave me like everyone else

-no I can't do that I care too much about you- he started to play with her hair but she slapped his hand away

-You already did you left me at the party- she looks at him, her eyes red and tears falling uncontrollably- you put me to the side like everyone else does, you thought it wasn't important that I don't have another place to go, that I'll be fine at a party location when everyone else was leaving, you let whoever she was to use the things you said were mine, you pretended to be worried hours later when you finished with her- she hugs Cerberus- you don't care about me you made it clear last night- Heeseung tried touch her but his dog growls at him

-Listen, I made a mistake… I'll ask Mina to bring back your clothes. I promise this won't happen again… just let me take you to bed. I don't like to see you like this- the doorbell rang but Hee ignored it, so it rang again and again making him go up to open angry- what?- he yelled making her jolt

-hi boss- Jay pushed him to the side going to the living room with her- hi pretty lady, would you honor me going with me?- she nods hugging Jay he holds her carrying her out

-no, what are you doing? Put her down now it's an order- Heeseung tried to snatch her from Jay's arms hurting her in the process making her cry more

-stop now- Jay wrapped her in a hug- she's not an object, I don't know what is wrong with you since months ago, but you need to put your shit together- Jay walks to his car putting her in the passenger seat- I know you since long ago I'm sure what you have but you haven't realized

-Where are you taking her?

-my house just like she asked, now why don't you do things right and give me some of her clothes so she can be presentable for tomorrow morning at work- Heeseung sighs going inside the house, choosing her an outfit and putting it on a bag, also her skincare and makeup letting her go with Jay

Heeseung couldn't shake off the feeling of seeing her cry and go, of her not wanting to be around him, he barely slept as Jay's words keep repeating on his head, Cerberus lays on the floor on her side of bed, he barely slept that night and waited patiently for the morning to come, he got into his office and immediately started to attend meetings and stuff like that not having time for anything, but he made space for their lunch, planning on taking her out to his favorite place, he walked impatient to her office finding her sitting on the floor with Jay, he giving her bites of food while she talks about apartments and rent.

-it would be so useful if I had a credit to buy my place, rent is crazy on this part of the city

-why don't you change the area, here you would only take a bus coming here and I can drop you at night- he signaled a spot on the map, she nods and noticed Heeseung at the door

-Good evening is there something you need Mr Lee?- Heeseung frowns at her

-I came for you to lunch

-I'm almost finishing but you can stay here if that's what you want- she went back to check the map- I like this area too is not so busy and is the green spot for safety- Jay looks between them and how Heeseung is clenching fists

-Can I talk to you?- he looks at Jay- alone please

-is related to my performance or something about my work?- Heeseung shakes his head- I'm afraid that if it's personal I can't have a talk with you Mr Lee is not professional on my side to let you, now if you excuse me I still have 13 minutes of break and I want to enjoy them, I'll drop the report as soon as I'm done- she ignores him the door slamming made her jump but tried to ignore it seeing more apartments on the map.

Heeseung went inside his office and asked for y/n as soon as possible his secretary comply going for her, almost begging her to do it y/n rolled her eyes and took the files she needed to deliver, she walks down the hall knocking on his door without having an answer, she went inside seeing him typing harshly on his computer, she left the reports on his desk about to go but he got up quickly holding her against him in a hug, she squirms trying to get him off but Hee just holds her playing with her hair kissing the top of her hair, as if she's gonna disappear now.

-I'm sorry, I'm really am, I got drunk and I acted wrongly, please don't go- she finally stopped fighting but didn't hold him back- she drove me home seeing me like that, but I swear I didn't do anything with her

-You don't have to explain yourself to me- she pulled a part- those are the reports of the month, all the invoices I send them to your email, I'm still working on your personal expenses report but I'll have it ready before the end of the day, if there's nothing else I'll go back to my lunch Mr Lee- she bows and leaves his office leaving him with this strange feeling on his chest

Heeseung looked at the door and she was no longer there, he went back to work not really knowing what to do, angry, something he never felt before was consuming him, by the end of the day when she stepped inside to leave his financial report Heeseung took his things ready to go.

-Are you ready?- she looks confused- is time to go home, take your things

-Jay is driving me, thank you for the offer Mr Lee- she bows and it's ready to go but he stopped her

-Driving you where? You live with me- he didn't meant to sound rough but something boiled on him she shrinks a little

-I'll have my own place soon, thank you for everything, you can gift the clothes and all of that to Mina- she turned around but he spins her to be face to face

-Stop playing with me- he's really close, holding her waist- you're mine… my guest there and we didn't talk about this

-i'm telling you now, I'm moving to my own place- she got nervous with how close he is, his face going down

-Why? Don't you like living with me?

-I used to believe I did, but now that is clear that I'm an inconvenience for you I prefer not continuing with it- his arms tighten around her

-who said you're an inconvenience?- his Bambie eyes on her almost made her stutter

-You left me alone to go sleep with someone else- she pouts

-I didn't, not the way you think, let's go- he picked her up wrapping her legs on his waist- I'm so hungry I didn't have lunch my girl ditched me, what do you want for dinner?- he walks to her office to take her things

-I'm not your girl I'm not a thing you can just get in your house because you're bored and then abandon and get back because you want- she tried to get on her feet but he's holding her tight walking to the elevator down to the parking lot

He put her on her usual seat getting on his own, going straight to a drive thru to eat while driving she refused to order something claiming she'll call Jay to go pick her up again, and only ate a couple of his fries when he wasn't looking, but he was smiling everytime she put one fry on her mouth and her little happy noises came out, he bought her chicken tenders that he knows she loves and left them conveniently between them, she couldn't resist and took a little piece when he pretended to check something out his window, he turned around seeing her dipping the chicken on the sauce, smiling so big, she ashamed put it back on the bag red in embarrassment for being caught.

-I bought the chicken for you don't need to hide the fact that you love it- he took the piece out and hand feed her

-Why did you have to buy something I love? It's difficult to be angry with you- she takes the bite he's offering

-why you want to be angry at me?- he smiles parking outside his house

-Because you made me feel the way my mom does and I hate that- she takes her bag and her chicken running inside going straight to Cerberus who jumps and barks playing with her

-I didn't know you feel some sort of way, you can tell me when you don't feel comfortable or happy with me- he's standing behind seeing her hug his dog- If you want something or don't like what I do you need to tell me so I can make it better for you- she looks up from the floor

-I'm not a doll or a pet you easily put aside and then make happy with a little bit of attention- he slowly detached her from Cerberus carrying her to the sofa sitting with her

-I know it's never my intention to make you feel that way- he holds her chin- do you want to tell me what happened that I made you feel this way?- she frowns remembering how she cried at Jay's place

-I'm an unwanted guest, when my foster families thought I was inconvenient they send me back to the system- she feels angry but mostly sad, and it shows on her voice, that lingering rage- the worst was always my mom calling me to tell me she was trying and filling papers to finally be together, she used to take me on supervised playdates and then left me alone for days in her apartment, until one day she signed to give up all her parent rights, so legally she's no longer my mom, I don't have one because no one ever wanted me, no one ever loved me, they carried me from family to family, to different locations and houses like a doll without feelings but I was always disposable… you did that you…- she push him but Heeseung holds her- you abandoned me leaving me alone without a place to go while you fucked someone, you disposed me- she punch his chest and he just let her sensing that she needs to vent her feelings- then you act like nothing happened… you always do that you treat me softly and nice I even think you like me back but then you don't want to even speak to me like if I disgust you… you send your men to search for me as if you're worried someone steal your doll, you hug me but next morning you are repulsed by me that you don't want to touch me- she's crying now fully breaking down not even having strength to hit him again Heeseung holds her like a baby shushing her

-You're not, I like that you live with me, I love that my own dog loves you more than me, I like how you cling on me at night, how you sing in the shower, how kind and polite you are with everyone- he wipes her tears- that day I was talking with everyone, they were buying me drinks and at some point I started to lose consciousness Mina is an old acquaintance so she took me home before I tried to drive once in my car a don't remember much, she told me guards carried me inside and that I pulled her to bed to sleep, when I woke up you weren't there I called Jay to start the search for you, can you forgive me? I didn't meant to make you feel that way- her tears broke his heart and cut deeper than other time he saw her cry

-i like you a lot no one has treated me this good but you always push me, I don't like to feel like this, I'm sorry I kissed you months ago and that made you disgusted by me, I didn't think you'll hate it so much- she curled up on him and herself trying to make this moment last longer

-Why do you think I hated it? I've told you I'm not uncomfortable much less disgusted by you- he play with her hair

-Because you kissed me back, then in the morning you barely talked to me, you run away each morning you try not to touch me not to see me often- she looks at him- you don't even say good morning, that makes me feel like that unwanted guest you so eager to get rid off, that's why is better if I have my place that way you can go back to live comfortable on your home- Heeseung looks at her with softness cupping her face pulling her for a sweet kiss she opened her eyes big but quickly wrapped her arms on his neck, when he pulled a part he's smiling

-I'm uncomfortable most of the time when you're around me- she pouts- you leave the door open when you change and I need to go out of the room before you notice, when you sleep so close to me I woke up uncomfortable because I need to get into the bathroom before you can see me- she frowns without really understanding- makes me so uncomfortable how you don't realize and that I don't know how to act

-see? If I move out you're gonna be comfortable on your house as you should- Heeseung laughs but it's not rude, is light and innocent

-so cute, you're gonna make me lose my mind- he cups her face looking directly at her eyes- it makes me uncomfortable that I like you so much that I act like an idiot but worst it makes me uncomfortable that I get a boner with so little, you do everything without mean it yet I'm no better than a horny teenager- realization hits her, Heeseung smiles and she opens her mouth but close it immediately- I was angry most of the time I had this frustrating feeling of you being there and I couldn't do anything just solve myself in the bathroom

-You're not like other boys- she cups his face- most of the boys I know would just force themselves into the girl, you're so sweet even when you're grumpy- she makes circles on his cheeks he closes his eyes and she leans to kiss him softly he wraps his arms around her engulfing her on him, deepening the kiss when she pulled apart he didn't let go of her kissing her neck- Hee, no… -she pushed him slightly he pulled apart completely keeping his hands to himself

-I'm sorry I got a little carried away- he slowly left her on the sofa- get ready for bed okay?- he got up straight to his studio and she looked at the door closing.

Y/n frowns feeling like she broke something between them, but she did as he asked, washing her face and teeth, she took something from her bags to change the door open and she took her time so when Heeseung entered the room and saw the bathroom door open he sighed.

-Hee is that you?- he started to remove his work shirt

-yes, I'll take my clothes and change after you- he stayed only on his work pants sitting in bed checking his phone

-Can you close your eyes please?- he left his phone and did as she asked

-I have them closed- he heard the noise as she stood in front of him

-is not mandatory that we do something. I won't get offended if you reject me- Heeseung frowns about to say something- can you open your eyes please?- Heeseung sees her, in a beautiful bralette and matching lace panties- I like you very much and I'm sure you're not gonna hurt me if we do something- he looks at her feeling his pants tightening, she feels his eyes all over, trying to cover herself- do you want me to get dressed?- Cerberus is next to her Heeseung gets up taking his dog with him, she went for her clothes ashamed of what she did, how he ran away from her

-what are you doing?- his voice made her jolt dropping her clothes- do you not want it anymore?- she looks at him and his prominent bulge on his pants

-You ran… you want it?- he gets close towering over her pulling her body against his she can feel his boner on her stomach

-I just needed to take Cerberus out, he wouldn't let me touch you without barking and getting on bed- he wrapped her legs on his waist- I've been craving you for so long, I feel like is one of those dreams I often have about you

-Do you dream about me naked?- he nods and she's blushing more- and we have sex?- he nods again- is something you want now?

-Only if you want it too

-Yes please- her plea made him twitch- but… I don't have a lot of experience I'm not really sure what to do, I have only been with one person twice- he smiles dying of how cute she is now, shy but prancing herself in lacey lingerie- you can guide me about what you like and I'll do it- Heeseung kiss her while gently leaving her in bed

-we need to set rules here, no matter what if you don't like it you tell me and we work into something together- his eyes are intense on her- if it hurts, if it's uncomfortable, if you don't want it anymore don't endure… don't worry about pleasing me you're literally my wet dream, just let me please you- she nods

Heeseung kiss her lips softly, going down her chin to her neck slipping the straps of her bralette, his hand touching softly her waist and legs, stripping her out of her little garments, leaving her naked Hee took a moment to see her, no more prying through the door open but having her there for him, she slowly covered ashamed but he took her hands off leaning to kiss her breasts licking one of her nipples seeing her reaction, how she bites her lips and tries to stop the noises, he smiles fully getting her nipple inside his mouth pinching the other, the little surprise scream made him laugh, turning that scream into a tiny moan, he pulled apart kissing down her tummy slowly getting on his knees opening her legs fitting himself between, his kisses stopped when she pushed his head off.

-is something wrong?- he's making circles on her thighs looking up from the floor

-I… nobody has done that to me… I'm not sure if you'll like it- Heeseung arch a brow questioning her- I heard boys don't like to go down, only to have girls going down on them- she blush and Hee smiles and giggles

-Maybe, but real men love to eat pussy- he gets close to her core- can I? Please I'm dying for a little taste- she nods and he immediately went for it

His tongue licking all over her entrance tasting her arousal slowly coming out, he sucks on her clit making her moan loud and cover her mouth, he takes her hand holding it against her tummy to prevent her from covering again, he’s slurping on her entrance munching on her labia moaning himself at how she reacts to his ministrations, her hole is fluttering making him twitch on his pants, he pulls a part slightly only to spit on her entrance dipping again to lick all over making a mess on her, y/n push him again.

-I feel funny… is … is tingly- he kiss her clit

-You're gonna cum, just do it- he sucks harder on her clit twirling his tongue on the bundle of nerves- please cum, I wanna taste it- he licks and smeared her arousal on her

She moans biting her lips, clenching her fist holding the sheets squirming as he keeps eating her, her tights close around his head and he just dipped his face more into her, sticking his tongue on her almost fucking her hole she squirms and moves coming undone on his mouth and he just laps at her release taking the very last drop, sucking her clit until he's hearing a moan almost like a cry, he pulled apart wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, she's panting and still squirming rubbing her thighs together as soon as she can close her legs, he looks at her how she's a little desperate for another release.

-was it good?- she nods, slowly she sits on bed pulling him a little- do you wanna continue?

-Yes please- with trembling hands she started to undo his pants- I'm not sure how to do it… I know what you're supposed to do but I never tried- he helps her to remove his pants getting up off the floor and towering over her- can I remove your undies?- Hee chuckle hearing her so cute

-Yes, you can- she pulled his boxers down finding his member so hard and big hitting his stomach her face morphs into fear thing that he noticed taking her chin to make her look at his face- look at me, you don't have to do anything you don't want we can stop now if you're not sure

-I want it but… I never saw someone so big…- she blush before his eyes- I don't think is gonna fit in me- Heeseung smiles leaning to kiss her, pulling apart shortly she licks her lips after- is this how I taste?

-You're gonna be the dead to me- he kissed her again smiling between the make out, pushing his tongue on her mouth leaving her breathless- wanna still do it?- she nods, Heeseung takes her hand helping her get up carrying her, sitting against his headboard with her straddling him- we're gonna be really soft so it fits okay?- she nods and he extended his hand to roam in the drawer of his bedside table taking a condom

-I'm clean- she frowns seeing the metallic package, Heeseung arch his brow confused- I don't have an STD to use that- she signaled the condom

-I don't think you have something like that, but condoms are not just for that- he wrapped his arm around her waist- is a way to keep you safe, in all ways possible, I have been with other women there's virus that don't give symptoms to man but for girls do, you can get pregnant- he kiss her cheeks smothering her- is to keep my princess safe, if we keep doing this I'll go run some test in me so I know is safe for you, I can take you to the gynecologist to check a contraceptive method if you don't want to use condoms- she blush ashamed that she didn't knew that

-girls at the club said it was because people was dirty with infections so they used condoms- Heeseung smiles kissing her neck

-In part but is a way to keep you safe too, I don't want my princess to have any risk- she wraps her arms on his neck pulling him to keep kissing her until she's relaxed again- we can stop whenever you want

-I wanna be with you… please Hee… I feel tingly on my kitty I need you please- Heeseung feels himself getting harder with her pleas maneuvering to open the package taking her hands

-pinch with your fingertips the end- she did as he said while he guides her hands to slip the condom on him- you're gonna have the control over, you decide how much you want inside how fast you want it, if you wanna touch me or for me to touch you, anything you rule princess- he kiss her lips softly lifting her hips and guiding her over his length- take my cock on your hands and put it inside you slowly, sit on it- she slowly sinks on him moaning with every centimeter stretching her

-Wanna kisses- she whimpers and Heeseung did as she asked drowning her moanings until he's settled to the brim, she's so full of him- wanna move- his hands holds her by the waist letting her set a slow pace she moves her hips as he's just supporting her- is okay if you want to go harder…- she moans when his tip hit her sensitive spot- I want to please you

-I'm enjoying myself now- he leans to kiss her breasts- you're so hot… fuck I love you- he takes her nipple on his mouth- I want you all to myself- he helps her grind her hips on his feeling her clench around him, kissing and sucking her breast hearing her moan

She bites her lips as his cock is dragging inside her walls, she starts to bounce a little enough to feel his tip hitting her soft spot on repeat Heeseung is hypnotized by her movements how she's bouncing and moaning on top of him, how her breasts are giggling on his face, how her toes curl with every sensation, his hands run all over her body, she's slowly getting closer to cum bouncing harder, Heeseung notices licking two of his fingers and rubbing them on her clit making her whimper.

-More please- she arched her back allowing him more access to her core- more… more- she's whining and he moans at that image- he holds her helping her lay down while he starts to thrust inside her angling better his hips making her scream in pleasure- Hee… gonna… I'm 

-Shhhh princess… I got you- he goes a little hard- cum, show me how good you feel- she clenched around him, her nails digging on his biceps finding support, his hands holding her waist keeping her in place when she whimpers and cum around him- good princess, let me… just hold a little bit more I'm almost there

-Don't wanna you cum in condom- she squirms overstimulated his head dizzy at her words- please, please Hee- he pulled out quickly removing the condom jerking himself over her white ropes of thick cum landed on her tummy he moans deep 

-fuck… princess you seriously want me dead- he leans to kiss her cheekss- did you like it?

-yes… I never felt like that, not even when I touched myself- she get shy now trying to cover from him

-did you? Must be a compliment for me if you like it so much- she cups his face not wanting for him to go 

-I was right you're sweet in sex and you didn't hurt me at all- he pecks her lips

-Did someone hurt you in the past?

-Kinda, it was my first time and I bleed it hurt but not so terrible like I heard other girls said, he was good too but not like you- she pulls him to hug him, he wrapped her in a hug kissing whatever spot he can reach

-I'm glad no one hurted you or treated you wrongly- he kiss her for sometime before detaching himself from her, getting up, out of the room and leaving her alone in bed

She looks at the door and how he just left, she feels ashamed, y/n gets up picking her clothes to go and clean herself, she got in the bathroom feeling like she's about to cry- princess where are you?- he gets in the bathroom seeing her eyes glossy with tears- what happened? Oh my princess- he cups her face and smooch her pouty lips 

-You left… after using me- he carries her hugging her

-no princess, never… i went for something for you- he kiss her cheeks and neck- let me help you clean so we can go to bed

He left her standing in front of the sink, taking a towel wetting it before dropping to his knees, wiping his cum from her tummy kissing around her navel, he rinsed the towel again cleaning between her legs, he took her pajamas, sliding the shorts up, getting up to put on her camisole.

-can I clean you too?- she's ready for bed looking at him

-if you want princess- she nods taking the same towel getting on her knees taking his soft member and wiping it

- Can I kiss it?- she looks up at him and he feels like he's gonna be so hard in any second 

-Yes… I would li…- her beautiful lips looks so plump when his tip is resting against them- princess fuck- he brush her hair out of her face gently removing her from his member- you're gonna make me hard if you do that

-I wanna do it… -she tried to take him again but he's holding her hands softly- wanna taste you like you did- she takes his soft cock again looking up, Heeseung gets hard progressively- please Hee you told me I can do whatever I want- she kiss his tip and he groans, once sure he's not pushing her she kiss his tip- can I? Please- he nods incapable of talk so she suck his tip making him moan

-Fuck princess…- he caress her hair, she slowly puts more of his length inside not sure of what to do- hollow your cheeks baby, use your hands here- he guides her to jerk the part that doesn't fit inside her mouth- just like that… that's how I like it- he moans deep feeling her suck harsh and sloppy her spit all over dripping down his shaft to her hand, Heeseung wanted to thrust into her, she takes his length out with a little pop licking the saliva dripping from it

-Am I doing it right?- the view makes him twitch- do you like it?- she's kitten licking his tip playing with it between her lips 

-it's better than I ever imagined- she licks the little bead of precum- I'm not gonna last much- she smiles so cutely it didn't match how sloppy she's making his cock

-i like that I'm making you feel good- she licks from base to tip circling his little slit with her tongue making him shiver

Heeseung knew he was fucked feeling about to burst, he was embarrassed of how easy she made him this way, so vocal and a complete mess, he always bragged about how he makes girls cum so easily and how much he last long, but he's losing his mind right now, she sucks him ripping something similar to a whimper from him, her cheeks hollow creating pressure on his cock, is messy, is raw is everything he loves, without a warning he feels his balls getting empty releasing on her mouth, she's a little surprised by the sudden taste but she quickly takes him almost all the way sucking his tip taking the very last drop from him, little moans of pleasure vibrates through his length, keeping his hands to himself to not push her all the way, to not keep her there, but she didn't even bothered so busy still bobbing her head, pulling off when he whines overstimulated she swallows his cum opening her mouth to show him, Hee moans dropping to his knees kissing her desperately, she push him feeling out of breath so he holds her kissing her cheeks.

-What's with you now?- she push him a little more- usually you're only pushing me away but now you're all over me

-You don't like it, don't want me like this?- he reduced but didn't stopped the kisses 

-I do, it's just… is confusing and would hurt more when you'll treat me as usual… I'll miss you even more when I have my own place- she returned some kisses too

-Then don't, stay here with me, we'll keep living so happy together- he pulls her against him getting up with her walking to the bed

-I'm not sure if I can act normal after what we did- she looks at him- I think I ruined our friendship… I'm not even sure you were my friend 

-probably not because I never wanted to be your friend- she frowns and pouts hurt- since the first time I saw you I wanted you for me, all for me I didn't want anyone else to touch you or be near you, I brought you with me I kept you here with excuses so you won't left me- he wrapped her on his arms nuzzling his nose on her neck- I know is wrong but I'm not good at expressing my feelings and it's creepy that I was so into you after seeing you unconscious that night, is not sane how much I wanted to feel you after the first time we shared bed, how your body instinctively searched for warm and got really close to me, you turned my world upside down and I love that 

-so you love me?- she cups his face 

-I may say I do, more than what I like to admit- he's hovering over her looking at her eyes 

-I do love you, I like to be with you because you're like the cutest boy I ever met, you never treated me wrong or touched me to hurt me- his Bambie eyes sparkle and she feels her tummy flutter- you're the first one to ask if it's alright the way you touch me

-It should be like that all the time- his tone is a little more serious 

-maybe but you're the first and you made me feel like a fragile flower you took care of me and I like that too no one cared so much about me

-You're my little princess I like to be with you, I love how much you love food, how clingy you're at any hour but especially at night to sleep, how you're so innocent some times but no naive, you're slowly becoming my world- Cerberus was scratching the door- and also his, you changed our lonely lives for good- he gets up opening the door letting Cerberus in who immediately jumped in bed to her

-oh my baby, I'm gonna miss you when I leave- Heeseung is getting dressed, arching his brow- why do you still wanna leave me?- he's in pajamas getting in bed next to her- we can be a really nice family, mommy daddy and baby, the three of us

-do you want to adopt me?- she looks at him with sparkly eyes 

-Kinda, more like I want to date you, be your boyfriend, maybe get married in the future, give you everything you want- she gets up running to her bag

-Wait a little- taking a piece of paper scribbling something, going back to bed with the paper and a pen- there's nothing more that I want but to be adopted- Heeseung reads the paper, she created an adoption paper making him smile

-Where do I sign?- she smiles signaling the line under everything

-but first you have to make your oath, put your hand on your heart and you have to promise that you'll take care of me and all of the nice things you get when you're adopted- he smiles putting his hand on his heart 

-I Lee Heeseung on this day I promise I'll take custody of my little princess y/n, I'll take care of her, taking her to her regular medical appointments, to pamper her, buy her everything she desires but most important I promise to love her till the day I die, now as her guardian and hopefully boyfriend- she's smiling putting her hand on top of his- can I sign?- she nods seeing him put his name and sign there sealing his promise making her all giggly

-Thank you for adopt me- little tears fall- I wanna stay here, wanna stay with you and have lots of kisses everyday 

-Your wishes are my command- he leans cupping her face giving her a soft really sweet kiss.

[en-trashy]

Well shit I finished a Heeseung piece and now I'm devastated

[en-trashy]

Maybe you 양정원

Maybe you are the one, maybe you always have been for me

Tw: manipulative relationship, unconsenting photos, parties, friends to strangers to lovers I guess

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Honestly I don't know what is this I'm still unmotivated and depressed so I'm delivering this, again late for a birthday post

-do you find me pretty?- she whispered and Jungwon looked at her as if she's an unicorn

-You have pretty eyes and you're nice to be around- he went back to his worksheet

-but would you have sex with me?- he blushed as he looks at her- Jaehyun said I'm unattractive when I confessed, he said that he can have sex with me only if I'm not a prude- she frowns and Jungwon too

-He's a jerk, why do you like him anyway?- he's back trying to ignore her

-he's not a jerk, not all the time he's nice to me and you didn't answer my question, would you?- she pulls his hoodie making him roll his eyes

-he's only nice when his friends are not around, or when he needs a paper done- he keeps doing his assignment sheet

-you're avoiding still no answer I need to know that I'm sexually attractive- he rolls his eyes picking his things ready to leave

-I'll see you tomorrow okay? you're not letting me do this- he left her there pouting- also you're insufferable right now my head is killing me and you're making it worse

The weekend went without Jungwon having notice of y/n, he left multiple messages saying sorry for being so rude before he left, asking if she wanted to come over to watch a their favorite show but was declined with just a no, no further explanation or something, meaning she's mad, like really mad with him or hurt, so when he arrived to school holding a bouquet of her favorite flowers for her to forgive him, as he always do, he didn't expect for her to come looking different, heavy foxy makeup, micro mini skirt, strapless tube top and heels.

-hi, sorry for how I talked to you last time, I didn't watch the show so we can still catch on the last episode together- he extended the flower but she didn’t took them

-no problem, sorry I didn't answer I was busy, do I look good?- he frowns but still nods his head- great Jaehyun will be here any minute I want to look perfect- Jungwon frowns more about to say something but she interrupted- I'll call whenever I'm free, bye Wonie- she blows a fake kiss to him going to her classroom swinging her hips and flirting with everyone on the corridors

Jungwon stayed there watching her go while still holding the bouquet, frustrated he left the flower on top of a trash bin and went with his schedule, hoping for her to forgive him soon and go back to normal.

As the day went she didn’t appear on their usual meetings, not the lunch break at her favorite place, not the study sessions at the end of the last period, not the bus stop to go her dorm and he to his apartment, not a call nor a text. So on the week came to an end and y/n didn't call, didn't answered, didn't hang out with him, she was with the “populars” the frat boys from Jaehyun house, the cheerleader squat and the rugby team, wearing micro clothings and too much makeup, things that she always found uncomfortable to be wear everyday, but she was prancing the halls attached to Jaehyun's arm acting dumb.

Jungwon didn’t recognize her, but she's still his best friend so Friday night he got ready going to her favorite sushi place to pick up food, buying snacks and more flowers; by the time he arrived at her dorm she was already going out in a tight fitted black dress.

-oh Jungwon, did I forgot to tell you?- he frowns- Jaehyun and I, we're official now, I think I forgot to mention, I assumed you knew and that you'll understand that Friday is reserved to date my boyfriend

-yeah you didn't mention anything I bought stuff to see the show we already missed a chapter- he's just standing there feeling like an idiot

-is just a show we can watch it any other day- a loud car hit the horn making him jolt- he's here I'll walk with you to the entrance

Jungwon is flabbergasted seeing her act like this, with all the things she doesn't like, he looks at Jaehyun sitting in his car while she runs to the passenger side to get inside, he can just roll his eyes murmuring ‘no manners’ seeing him tongue kissing his best friend after letting her walk all the way down the building to open her own door, he walked away to his apartment to be alone and to watch a movie with himself eating what he bought even putting the flowers on a vase y/n gifted him claiming houses looks more pretty with flowers, now what? All his other friends are already busy and he was demoted to nothing.

Nothing, he's nothing since a month ago, y/n stopped texting, calling, hanging out, also he stopped trying to get with her, since now her boyfriend is always around, he did the study sessions alone, went to cinema and cafes on his own, he did went out to some parties with his friends but he misses when she's around; today is not different as he's getting ready for a party at Jake's, thinking in how much his Friday nights changed in a second, maybe if he would stayed with her that day in the library when she asked if she's pretty and sexy, if he wasn't so dry or rude, maybe things will be the same.

The party was average for him, people dancing and drinking, couples sneaking to dark places, nothing amazing or something extra, a couple girls flirting with him also dancing without noticing the sparkly eyes looking at him from across the room, while he holds Wonhee from the waist kissing her softly, pressing her to him, she leads him to the backyard to talk better without the noise from the speakers, they sit on the swings as they share some interest they have in common, laughing and he genuinely having a good time like he didn't experience since y/n stopped being his friend, he offered to ride her home seeing the hour, gladly Wonhee accepted going inside to tell her friends about it, walking out the party holding his hand, the same sparkly eyes seeing them leave, like a true gentleman Jungwon opened all the doors for Wonhee leaving her at the door of her building with a soft kiss, they said goodbye and he went to his place to finally rest, feeling tired already.

The next day Wonhee waited for him at the door to walk together to class, he's surprised but didn't hide his excitement to see her again, they slowly started to be around that day, going to the cafe near the campus, to the library to study together and he walked her to her building seeing y/n at the common area.

-Do you wanna come up my room? I have a projector and we can order something I know a sushi place- Wonhee flirted playing with the end of her fluffy skirt

-Only if you let me treat you- she smiles holding his hand to pull him to the elevator

Y/n stayed there on her ebook watching them go; Jungwon feels really comfortable in the room, the bed full of character pillows and plushies, cute decorations and a lot of pink, he got comfortable while ordering food, and Wonhee arranges the projector.

-i'm sorry is a little childish my room- she mentioned sitting at the edge of her bed

-is really cute, it matches your personality and you in general, I like it- she blushed and quickly kissed his lips making him smile

They choose a movie together and got comfortable on bed, when his phone rings indicating that the food is at the door, he quickly got up to go for it, running downstairs receiving the food and thanking the delivery person, he collided with y/n when he's about to go in the elevator, he made the sign for her to go in first letting the doors close with him outside preferring to walk up the stairs than to have an uncomfortable moment, besides Wonhee is in the second floor so it wasn't that much. Y/n saw the door closing and him not coming in, sad that he avoids her, her eyes water because of that but she couldn't be mad since she did that to him in the beginning, she arrived at Wonhee’s floor to see him happily going inside her room and she pulling him in, little giggles come out her door and she feels her stomach churning.

Another month went by quickly, Jungwon and Wonhee were a little more closer and went out often, so it wasn't rare seeing him at the girls dorm again, not for anyone but for y/n, one morning she knocked on Wonhee’s door knowing she's usually awake early, she smiles when Wonhee opened slightly peeking out.

-hi sorry to bother you early, perhaps can you lend me another pill? The one you gave me for period cramps last time- Wonhee smiles nodding

-give me a second- she went inside leaving the door slightly open, she can see Jungwon there, on her bed shirtless still sleeping- here is, I have another blister you can keep this- the sweet smile from Wonhee bring her back out of her thoughts

-oh you don't have to, thank you I appreciate it- Wonhee waves her hand saying goodbye and closing her door

The groggy voice of Jungwon asking what happened and then his deep laugh and her giggles made her want to puke, staying there at the door hearing them talk, frowning ashamed of her feelings when she was the one that cut the friendship, seeing him at the dorm was normal because he was always for her, but now with him spending the night with someone else bubbled the feelings she thought were long forgotten, walking with heavy steps to her own door.

She noticed him, walking around campus alone most of the time, sometimes his friends, but more often Wonhee, at parties too, together enjoying going to the same places they used too, sharing the time she used to have, she's now with the boy she wants so why she feels this way with the silly crush she developed on her best friend? ex best friend, she went inside her bed not wanting to go to classes today skipping the day, she succumbed to the tiredness and the tears that inevitably fell down as she curled up on her bed; by the afternoon she had a call from her boyfriend.

-hi baby…

-Where are you? Did you forget that I had practice or what? There's no one handing me my towel or my bottle

-I wasn't feeling well so I stayed at the dorm I sent you a…

-whatever I'll pick you at 8 there's a party wear something nice not like the last time you embarrassed me wearing that nun's dress- he hung up on her leaving her to cry more

But she comply getting ready for it, doing her makeup as she wipes the tears putting mascara and doing a smoky eye to hide the fact that she's been crying, once ready in the uncomfortable dress and heels going to the entrance waiting for her boyfriend, once there she saw Jungwon standing there with a bouquet of her favorites, her eyes light up as she slowly got closer about to say something to make him look up his phone when Wonhee ran to him holding his arm, he held her in a twirling hug giving her the flowers before taking her hand and start to walk away from her with new tears running down, she quickly wipes them seeing Jaehyun’s car arrive getting on her seat listening to his endless talk about the upcoming game.

It was this, her relationship with him parties all weekend, dress how he likes it, listening to him talk about what he likes, serve him on his practice and games, being a trophy, Friday night was a blur and now is Saturday night and she's in someone's else party, she doesn't know half the people she's partying with, he's already drunk and probably she won't be at the dorm until tomorrow morning or worse until the afternoon because he decided it was she best to have some beers and a BBQ with friends while watching sports on TV.

-babe I have to go now, I need to study for my exam- she got close to him and Jaehyun only frowns

-Are you crazy? This barely started- he pulled her to him palming her bottom- why aren't you useful and grab us a drink?- he turned her around sending her in the way to the kitchen

She rolled her eyes going for some cans of the fridge, she felt a hand creeping up her legs turning around alarmed.

-Easy baby is me- her boyfriend pulled her for a kiss and she only tried to push him away- let's go find us a better place- he takes her hand dragging her to the upstairs

-i have the drinks babe, let's go with your friends- he got in a room where his two best friends are sitting in bed

-Here they are baby, ready for you- his hands started to touch her lifting her dress

-what are you doing? Stop- she pulled her dress while he tried to undress her palming her bottom, squeezing her breasts- stop I don't like it

-Don't you love me? I really want you now I don't wanna wait and they are my friends we share- they started to take their phones to record when he pulled her cleavage leaving her breasts out- stop being a nun be useful for me and please me- she started to cry taking all her strength to get off him- stop fighting be a nice girl- she slapped him hard running away squeezing herself on the bodies down the hall- fucking bitch

Jaehyun ran behind her, running afraid she locked herself in a room, hearing the loud music and Jaehyun and his friends passing by, she crawled into the closet, her trembling hands reach for her phone in her boot calling the only person she knows can help her, it rang once, twice, again and again about to give up his groggy voice echoed on her ears.

-Y/n? What… is 4 am- he groaned and she considers this as a mistake

-I'm sorry Wonie… I'll let you sleep- her broken voice put him alert

-are you okay? Send me me your location- he start to get ready putting on shoes

-I'm at a party… Jaehyun touched me- she tries not to cry to not be found- his friends took pictures and I slapped him running away- Jungwon is already on his car starting the motor seeing her dot on the map

-where are you now?- he drives without slowing down- is he near?

-I'm in a closet… I don't… I don't know where he is- Jungwon speed up

-I'm almost there don't cry- she nods even if he can see her staying on the phone no more talking just company for some time

-I'm parking outside, don't go out just tell me where to find you- even if it was late there's a lot of people wasted still dancing

-upstairs in the master’s bedroom closet

He ran there not minding who he's pushing out of his way, finding the spot, he opened and she started to scream and trash around, until he pulled her in a hug, his warm, his perfume, his usual sweet self wrapped her in that familiarity she missed so much, once in his arms she broke down crying saying sorry over and over again, he holds her missing the feeling of her, of what they were, caressing her hair until she's calm enough, he cups her face wiping her tears.

-My apartment is closer from here, I'll take you there to rest in the afternoon I'll take you to your dorm- he took off his jacket putting it on her shoulders, holding her hand to guide her down into the party

-Where do you think you are going slut?- Jaehyun pulled her arm but Jungwon quickly put her behind him

-Leave her alone now, she's done with you- Jaehyun got close to Jungwon’s face

-this is not your business is between my girl and I- he pushed Jungwon slightly- get out of my way before I break your teeth

Jungwon moved of his way only to put y/n to the side, facing Jaehyun again kicking his face, the dry sound of his body hitting the ground made the music and everyone stop to see what's going on, his friends tried to jump at Jungwon but he threw more kicks putting down the three of them, he kneeled searching for their phones using their fingerprints to unlock, going through the gallery to delete her photos from it, he turned around holding her hand.

-Wonie, are you okay?- she looks at his smirk

-Yeah, just that it's been long since I practiced so I found it funny, I forgot how fun it was taekwondo- he started to walk- now let's go I wanna sleep some more before the sunrise

She followed him giggling at how silly and easy it is to be with him; the ride is silent but not uncomfortable, is nice to have that long awaited feeling back, he opened all the doors for her, letting her in first, he took off his shoes and helped her out of her really uncomfortable boots.

-You left some clothes from the last time we watched our show, is still on the same spot if you want to shower you know where your stuff is, you can sleep in my room- he took a blanket from the closet next to the entrance

-I should take the sofa- she takes the blanket

-no, it's a final this is my house my rules and if I say you sleep on bed you do- she cross her arms on her chest pouting

-you're still so bossy- she snatched the blanket from his arms

-you're still an airhead- she gasped offended- dating that trash you're insufferable, throwing a tantrum because you wanted to date the popular asshole

-he's not…

-not an asshole, did he treat you well? Perhaps he even listens to anything you say, does he know what you like? Your favorite food? Your family name? Anything about you?- she opened her mouth to protest but ended up frustrated and frowning- he doesn’t

-do you know all of Wonhee?- she spits angry

-I do, she likes cats and sea otters, her family name is Lee, she loves bibimbap, chocolate chip cookies and blueberry ice cream, her major is theater and contemporary dance- he smiles with superiority- I can go on and on because in fact I do listen when people talks, now go change and go to sleep

-you're insufferable- she humps going to his room

He smiles, getting comfortable on the sofa, closing his eyes to sleep, dozing until he hears her voice in the hallway, calling for him.

-are you sleeping? Can you sleep with me? I'm cold… Wonie?- he got up walking to her, he got on his bed and she ran behind him giggling- thanks… I missed this- she confessed in a whisper

-i didn't, nobody kicked me in my sleep- she can hear his smile while talking

-I don't do that

-You do, you move until you're comfortable, when you're having a nightmare you cry in your sleep, when you're stressed about something you talk but overall you like to hug something it makes you feel safe- he didn't open his eyes and she's glad is dark so he doesn't see how red her cheeks are

-did you get angry when I did that?- her voice is careful

-Not really, it was cute… you were always curled up on my side holding me like if I'm a lifesaver

-you're a lifesaver, even when I acted like an idiot you went to save me- she slowly wrapped her arm around him waiting for his reaction- I'm sorry I just cut you out of my life and stopped reaching out, the last two months were the worst of my life nobody makes me happy like you do, nobody understands me- he sighed

-You really are an idiot but I love you like this, that's why you have been my best friend even when you cut me for an asshole

-I did that because my crush never payed attention to me romantically, I guess I wanted to feel desired and pretty, but I ended up looking like a prostitute- she feels like throwing up nervous

-The answer to your question is no- her silence and confusion made him drag his hand over his face- in the library when you asked me if I would have sex with you, the answer is no- a faint oh and a shattering feeling on her heart bring new tears to her eyes ready to spill- I could never just have sex with you, how can I when for so long all I ever wanted was you? I wanted to love your body and you, your silly personality that drives me crazy… not just sex, no casual, not as an experiment, not because you wanted to test if you were sexy enough for Jaehyun, I wanted you, all of you- her tears fall on his shirt

-why didn't you say anything?- her voice trembles at his confession

-how can I? You talked about boys all the time, the new one from your class, how good the rugby team looks, the sexy accent from the exchange student, your partner in that class you hate…

-i'm an idiot…- she pulled apart curling on her side facing the opposite of him- because why would I talk about them when I liked you? When I still think of you even when Jaehyun was holding me

-You liked me?- he frowns and she can sense his change in the tone of her voice

-unfortunately- she turned around to smack him on the chest- do you still like me?- his voice is careful

-Unfortunately- she giggles, Jungwon turn around pressing her against the mattress to kiss her

She's surprised at first but quickly wrapped her arms on his neck pulling him to her, really close not wanting to pull away, because maybe if she opens her eyes is Jaehyun the one kissing her, because maybe her brain is tricking her after wanting this for so long, when he pulled a part to catch his breath she didn't let him go away, still holding onto him their foreheads together.

-What about Wonhee?- she whispers 

-She knows about you, we're just friends with couple benefits, also she likes someone else, I guess neither one of us likes to feel alone- the sun is slightly coming through the curtains 

-would you like to try to be together? Like my boyfriend?- he pretends to think

-I'm not sure, what if I fall more for you and I end up like an idiot when you stand me up for our Friday dates? Or worse at the door with your flowers because Jaehyun came to pick you up?- she pouts cupping his face 

-i won't, because you'll be my boyfriend you'll be the one picking me up… also we can find another show to watch together so you don't rewatch the one we used to love- he smiles kissing her nose

-I never finished the show it didn't feel right without my little airhead next to me

-Stop calling me airhead- she push him but ended up smiling

-but you're and is cute- he rolled in bed hugging her so she's on top of him

-if you think I'm cute that means you're my boyfriend now?- he nods and she giggles kissing all over his face- can we take couple pictures? And have matching outfits? Maybe a ring too- he chuckled 

-let’s start easy, I need to ask you out properly then we can do all of that

-Why you mean?- he gets comfortable holding her

-You know, the standard for dating, flowers, the candies you like, take you on a date to your favorite amusement park, buy those headbands you like and go on a photo booth, something simple to ask you out- she giggled excited since Jaehyun didn't do any of that but Jungwon knew all about her, she cups his face to kiss him deeply unable to stop smiling

-You're going to be the best boyfriend, did you know?

-Maybe but that's only because you're already the best I have, maybe I love you too much for your sake

Y/n can't stop smiling and giggling kicking her feet with every kiss they share, every word, forgetting how tired she was she just wants to attach herself to him.

Fin.

I hope you're having a great year as far as these two months are going, love you little strangers

[en-trashy]

Unleash 박성훈

You have me tied to you, you just haven't notice

Tw: power relationship, Dom sub dynamic? BDSM, bondage, spanks, whips, punishments, humiliation, public sex? Anal and vaginal sex, no protection (please you use), oral f receiving, Use of clamps, kegel balls, butt plug, zapper wand, cattle Branding. Not as heavy as I portrayed at first in my head, economic abuse, name calling kitten and slut.

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I'm sorry I'm kinda inactive I'm not in a good mental state now, but I'm trying my best.

Please be over 18, this is fiction, I don't think any enha member is like this, I don't support abusive relationships, if I write it doesn't mean it is right.

She slowly opened her eyes, regaining consciousness the tiles felt even more cold against her flushed skin, she sat confused looking around covering her exposed breasts, making eye contact with her boss, working on his laptop not giving her attention.

-You done napping?- his voice quiet but annoyed- you passed out for over an hour and you still have a lot of work to do

-I'm sorry sir- she started to put on her garments not finding anywhere her panties

-Close the door when you leave and if the lawyer calls tell him I'm busy- he didn't payed more attention to her focused on his computer- I'm not available for anyone unless the building is on fire

-yes sir, if you excuse me- she put on her shoes and tried to fix her pencil skirt

She went out of his office, going to her desk. The receptionist of the floor saw her and y/n can feel how she's being judged, now sitting on her desk she started to do her pending work hyper aware of her lack of underwear, moving uncomfortably each time. An hour went by when the phone rang.

-Mr Park’s office, how can I help you?

-Good evening, I'm the receptionist Kim, miss Lim is here asking for Mr Park

-I'm very sorry Mr Park is not available if she…- she was interrupted

-that's non sense- the lady arrived to her desk- tell your boss I'm here quickly

-I'm sorry like I mentioned to Mrs Kim, Mr Park is not available, I'll tell him you stop by to check on him as soon as he's available again- the lady looked up and down at her noticing the big hickey on her neck, after she rolled her eyes she went straight pass y/n to the door, she quickly got up and in the way stopping her to go inside his office- sorry miss but if you try to go in I will call security and the police since you're trespassing in private property

-Who do you think you are? Don't you know who I am, dare to call someone and get in my way again and I'll make sure you no longer work here… move out of my way

-Ma'am like I told you he's not available you may leave now

-Get off- she pushed her to the side and heard the knob clicking to open

-stop now, ma'am I won't repeat myself leave plea…- the sting pain from the slap shocked her

-Never in your life dare to talk or treat me like that or I will make your life a living hell

-What is going on?- the door was completely open and Sunghoon looked at them

-oh Hoonie I'm so glad you're here, this miserable secretary wouldn't let me in to see you- she clings on his arms

-as she should, miss y/n please call security, I specifically asked to not be bother, Yuna make sure next time you come here, thing that you shouldn't do, make sure you're welcomed- he took off his arm off her and slammed his door close again, fortunately the receptionist had already called security

-Don't touch me- miss Lim walked still prancing even when she was kicked out

-you don't imagine how much I hate her, she thinks she's the owner of the world and universe- secretary Kim handed y/n an ice pack for her cheek- before it leaves a mark honey

-thank you- she sighed feeling the cold

-you should go home, you don't look good and I don't think he's gonna be out soon- she was about to protest- besides this week you basically made double shift everyday, go I'll cover you

-seriously thank you, I'll just print this file and leave it for Mr Park, thank you- the receptionist smiles and leaves to her desk

She printed and put the files on her desk with a post-it indicating Sunghoon what it was, she picked her things and rushed to the door, finally having a free afternoon, no matter what have happened earlier, she went to her flat in a cab to take a quick shower, change her clothes and go to the hospital to visit her mom, for the first time in two weeks, she spent all afternoon there somehow happy to finally be along side, to have some time for her.

She was already on her desk typing and finishing some files and booking all his appointments, when Sunghoon arrived, he looked so pissed so she handed his coffee without talking.

-My office now- she followed inside not talking, watching his movements- take a seat, care to explain what is this?- he threw the stack of files she finished yesterday

-You asked me to do it sir, is something wrong with the information I put in them?- she takes the stack to go through the pages

-the files are okay, what I mean is what the hell is that stupid note you wrote?- he's angry and she wants to just go away- you don't talk now… get me a whiskey on the rocks- she gets up to his little bar there, pouring him some liquor as he watches her- when I hired a personal assistant I expect for you to be there when I need you, who gave you permission to leave early?

-no one sir, I wasn't feeling well so I went home…

-is that so?... Why didn't you tell me you were unwell?- he takes the glass and sips some

-I'm sorry I overstep on your authority it won't happen again

-of course it won't- he walked to his sofa sitting there extending his hand- come here before I get angrier, you don't want that, right kitten?- she shakes her head walking to him, taking his hand as he's pulling her down across his lap- do you have an idea what happened yesterday after you leave? What you caused, with your absence?- he started to lift her skirt leaving her still bruised bottom on full display

-Please no still hurts, I'm sorry, I'm going to make it up to you sir- she moved trying to get off him

-no kitten you better behave now- he left his drink on the side table, holding her down- when you decided to go without permission one of my partners called asking for me but no one answered, he called again and again, I lost a deal worth 10 million dollars, how are you gonna pay me that? Your little cunt doesn't worth that much- his palm landed heavy on her making her complain

-I'm sorry, I'll call to solve it, I'm gonna fix it- he started to take off his belt

-I already did that’s why you own me lots of money kitten- the first whiplash from the belt made her scream- no screaming, no crying you'll count ten that was?

-one sir- the second hurt even more- two… three… please just…- he didn’t stop in fact made it harder and faster- four, please sir… five…- Sunghoon keeps spanking her looking at her flesh turn red then purple hearing her cries and pleas to stop- six… seven- each time the leather hit her skin she feels the air coming out of her lungs- eight… nine- she feels like barely breathing choking on her tears- ten… please no more sir- her voice is barely above a whisper

-wasn't so difficult to obey, was it?- he leans over her to take his drink- you excelled yourself this time you're getting better at making my drinks…- he rubs her bottom softly- sit up kitten- she gets up fixing her skirt and wiping her tears sitting on his lap trying not to make noise as her tears keep falling- here taste some- he put the glass to her lips and she sips a little- so tasty just like you- he squish her cheeks pulling her for a kiss- now go finish your work and be ready for our meeting, you still have to make it up to me, my partner is coming in approximately 40 minutes and you have to be there to apologize for not doing your best and leave your job position okay?- she gets up, walking slowly to the door- leaving without a kiss you seriously like to be spanked- she went back to give him a kiss before leaving.

Sunghoon pulled her to deepen the kiss biting her bottom lip making her whimper while he's enjoying he tap her butt cheeks making a tear fall down, he quickly wipes and kiss her cheek giving her a sly smile, she carefully to not mess things more walks to the door finding herself alone, she walked to the bathroom to lock herself in a stall to properly cry finally, the pain was numbing and her legs feel like about to give up, she stayed there for a while until she didn't had strength to keep crying, mentally and physically she's drained, wiping her tears she heard the door and someone entering the bathroom.

-She's so shameless we all know that already, but yesterday y/n went home early and showing proudly the love marks from the boss

-is not a surprise anymore she got her position by fucking the boss, she spends so much time inside his office, don't get me started with the noises- they laugh and she only blush inside the stall

-Have you seen what she wears?

-yes, is more executive prostitute rather than professional- they laughed harder and she cried some more, the door closed and she's all alone again

Carefully she went out, making sure there's no one around, taking a look in the mirror noticing her ruined make-up, y/n sighs heavily walking uncomfortable out of the bathroom finding Sunghoon outside with some girls, who immediately looked at her horrorized, the face of someone who got caught, she recognized the voices the ones that insulted her moments ago, he in the other hand analyzed her face and the smudged mascara.

-Miss y/n would you be so kind to go into my office and bring the papers for the reunion I'll be with you in a minute

-Yes, sir right away- she walked limping a little thing that he noticed

When she arrived at his office she saw his belt still on the sofa next to handcuffs and a muzzle, she felt shivers down her spine, is he planning on using them on her today? Everything hurts and she just wants to run away and hide where he can't touch her, quickly she took the files trying to be out of that place but ended up colliding with Sunghoon at the door, he pushed her inside again making her lose her balance, he holds her by the waist closing the door behind him.

-What happened to you?- his voice is calm thing that made him fear him more

-Nothing sir I was on my way to deliver the files- he takes the folder throwing it to the side

-nothing? So why did you take 25 minutes inside the bathroom crying? You haven't done a shit of your job today yet you decided it was the best thing to go waste time crying over stupid things

-I'm sorry, I'll go to my desk to finish sir- she tried to go but he didn't move

-is almost time for our meeting you have to be ready kitten… let's get you all pretty again- he walks making her nervously back away- get on your knees next to the sofa okay?- she tried to protest but he pecked her lips leaving her there, she did as he asked, seeing him again holding her makeup bag- I need to buy you new things of these… come here- he sits on his sofa fitting her between his legs cupping her face- you look so good like this, but even if I want it we don't have time now… -he takes a wipe to remove her masacra- first take off those nasty tears and maybe you can tell me what happened in the bathroom because someone told me there's people talking about you and making you this sad, I can't let it happen- she looks at him

-is just the usual conversations nothing extraordinary- he's so soft now thing that made her doubt about him, usually he's like this before unleashing his sadistic self

-So they talk about you often?- she shakes her head- I know everything kitten, what people say about me, about the receptionist, about their jobs and especially about you, they called you a prostitute while you were inside the stall, didn't they? They said such nasty things about you yet you never told me even if you knew it all this time- he finished cleaning her face, taking her makeup to do it himself, putting blush on her already red cheeks- I like what you wear, that's why I gave you a card to buy all your beautiful skirts and blouses, so the only opinion it should matter for you is what I think about you- he put mascara on her lashes and some pink gloss- so pretty kitten, you don't have to worry anymore about those ugly jealous people I'll fired them so you won't heard nasty remarks about you neither I will heard them- he put her makeup away taking a collar from his pocket and putting it on her neck- now let's go before it gets late I don't want to keep my partner waiting for long is enough with how much you made him wait for an answer yesterday- he attached a chain to the dog collar pulling it a little

Her eyes went big in panic, he had used this leash before but always in private, now he's expecting for her to crawl behind him leashed, after he said that he tugs slightly making her move, once they stepped out of she can feel the looks from the ones from the bathroom holding their laughs, the whispers while she's on the ground, exposed and humiliated she keeps crawling behind Sunghoon not daring to look up to even look around to know who they are, who is seeing her like this.

-all of you please step into my meeting room- they stopped laughing when Sunghoon spoke pulling her collar more- be my guest and take a seat- he got himself comfortable on his chair tugging on the leash- on my lap kitten- she did as he said slowly sitting on him, his hands quickly wrapping around her as he kissed her shoulder and neck

-please stop sir…- she feels his fingers working on the buttons of her blazer taking the garment off

-can you tell them who chooses your clothing?- she stayed there in her pencil skirt and her lace Cami, all the bites, marks and hickeys he made recently visible- who pays for your garments? Who enjoys seeing you this pretty kitten?

-You do sir, every night you tell me what you want me to wear next morning and you inspect I did it properly- she can hear his smile as he speaks while the other ladies only watch her horrified

-don't you think she looks beautiful?- the others started to nod and agree- really? You do?... then why did you said she looks like a prostitute?- Sunghoon started to make a ponytail with her hair exposing even more the big hickey on her neck

-We would never say something like that…-one of them nervously speaks

-so you didn't said she's so shameless for having these?- he signaled the red purplish spot- haven't you notice?, she's my kitten of course she will show everyone how she belongs to me… give me kiss- she did cupping one of his cheeks for better support, Sunghoon follow the soft kiss for a few seconds before he pulled a part, getting up holding her, sitting her on the table deepening the kiss, everyone wanted to look away but it was impossible, when he pulled apart he gave her some files- please read that out loud so everyone can hear you

-Hwang Inna, retired because of injuries caused during her service in the police department of Seoul, monthly medical invoice for 9 million won… -she looks confused at Sunghoon, his face happy so unlike him, then she looks at the secretary and the panic- the insurance is under Park Industries with full coverage of the treatment

-Enough kitten, next one please- Sunghoon lend her the page

-Kim Saram Mortgage in the approval process under Park Industries financial department, house in Seoul in the Mapo gu area… -Sunghoon pass the page so she can read the next one- Lee Nayeon appliance for a full scholarship of the tuition for Lee Yeonji, under the academic excellence for internship and exchange program for students of workers under Park Industries- Sunghoon takes the paperwork giving her a kiss on the cheek making her blush since he's never this soft or sweet with her much less in public

-thank you kitten… as you can see miss Y/n is very dear to me, I appreciate her hard work, she was hired because her resume is impressive bilingual education, she knows finance, is very smart, obedient and beautiful, that's why my life will be ruined without her since she takes care of all my appointments, she deals with all the calls, messages and files I don't want and don't have time to do- he helped her go down the table back hugging her making eye contact with the others- she helps me in so many ways, I'm obsessed with her so I can't let anyone hurt her, this is what is going to happen all three of you are fired and since all the programs apply for workers your insurance, your mortgage and your scholarship are denied and cancelled, the lawyer will be in contact with you for the paperwork and your final check, now you can leave- they were about to protest- now I recommend to just leave before I call the cops I can ruin your life with just a call so no one ever dares to hire any of you- he didn't pay more attention turning y/n around starting to slip his hand under her cami to touch her- I love when you wear this and you don't put on a bra I can you have you naked easily- he started to touch her bottom finding her zipper to undone the skirt

-sir please no, not here someone can see us- she tried to push him

-Like if I care- he took off her skirt making her yelp- you just saw how easy is for me to finish anyone, stop resisting or I'll cut the payments for you mom’s treatment- he took off his tie to secure her wrist behind her back- you don't want that specially now that she's already scheduled for the surgery that will save her life- he say it so sweet that left her with no other choice but to comply- that's better now bend over the table- she bites her lips to not cry since everything still hurts a lot, he admires how purple and mark she is starting to undone his pants- so beautiful definitely a piece of art you should miss behave often so I can do this with a purpose.

He slapped one of her butt cheeks making her cry in pain, he used both hands to open her cheeks, moving the small thong to the side, taking his length to guide it to her entrance slowly pushing inside, no prep or lube making her squeeze her eyes in pain trying to hold onto something to ground herself he started to move harder, one hand on the tie and the other holding her hair painfully in a ponytail making her lift her face to the door, just in time to see his partner opening and getting inside for their reunion, she forgot completely about it wanting to disappear.

-Sir your partner-she tried to push him but Sunghoon holds her in place

-Just in time, kitten this is Mr. Sim say hello don't be rude- he hovers over her lifting her face to make her look at him

-hi… -Sunghoon spanked her making her eyes water- good evening Mr Sim

-Good girl, now explain yourself on why you didn't answer and caused so much trouble, you made him come all the way here to hear why you didn't answer his calls?- he thrusts harder and faster making her involuntary moan- maybe an apology too, that will be nice- Mr Sim took a seat in front of them

-I left my work place to go see my mom… I didn't told Mr Park about it- he slapped her harder and it made her cry- I'm sorry Mr Shim for not attending your calls- Sunghoon slapped her again also tightening his grip on her hair, thrusting deeper this time- I'm sorry I made you come all the way here

-Good girl, I'll see you tomorrow for our dinner Jake… unless you want to stay and see- Sunghoon lifts her body her back flushed against his chest- you don't mind, right kitten?- she wanted to say no, she really but his hand wrapped on her neck cutting her airway

Y/n stayed like that, just letting Sunghoon use her, he lifts her camisole to expose her fully, his cock dragging painfully inside her, she bites her lips to not make a sound holding back her tears, Jake seeing her with an amused face, Sunghoon cum inside her pulling out and fixing his clothes running his hand through his hair, he undone the tie on her wrist leaving it still around her hands, before shaking Jake's hand both leaving her there; she took off completely the garment to put her clothes back feeling the tears run down her cheeks, humiliated and used she falls down to the ground sobbing hugging herself feeling so dirty, her mascara ruined again, she feels her phone ring indicating a message, from Sunghoon “I don't see you at your desk, better start working now before I get angry kitten” she wipes her tears going to her desk, typing and doing everything she needs to finish doing everything on automatic, it was like that until miss Lim appeared on her desk, she only lifts her eyes taking the phone to tell Sunghoon.

-Mr Park, miss Lim is here to see you… yes sir immediately, follow me please- she went to open his door seeing him wearing his specks typing on his laptop not even caring someone else is there

-hi Hoonie, I brought what you asked me- she's about to leave

-Miss y/n can you join us please- she nodded and stayed there seeing how they started to talk about clothes- did you bring the red one?

-Our course I did here is- she took a beautiful red slip dress- are you really gonna dance and stay with me the whole party?

-a deal is a deal, you have my word Yuna

-Perfect I'll see you tomorrow, 8 don't be late- she got up kissing his cheek before leaving happy

-Start undressing… -she's about to protest when he looks at her frowning- put the dress I wanna see how it fits you- she did what he asked, covering as much as she can with her hands- come here let me… kitten I know where the smallest of your moles is stop trying to cover up- he took off her hands putting on the dress- just what a though, perfect for you- he takes a moment to see her- take it off and get dress again- she did handing the dress back to Sunghoon so he can put it back on the bag- use it with your black heels the one with the bow, the bracelet I bought your for special occasions, I'll give you my card so you can go do your hair and makeup, also to pay a cab so you can get ready for the charity dinner, 8:30 pm, don't be late

-What time should I leave from here to do my hair?- Sunghoon rolled his eyes getting close to zip her skirt

-Don't be an idiot if I'm asking you to go to a salon is for you to spend the day there, do your nails, a facial,go to the spa whatever I don't care how much will cost, just be all pretty and ready for the dinner- he cups her face to kiss her- now go finish your files I'll send you the address for tomorrow- he squeeze one of her butt cheeks making her moan in pain but making him deeply happy.

Y/n woke up happy and really early to go visit her mom, trying to stay as much as she can with her, since she will not be at the office all day, she allowed herself to feel in peace for once, but most important to be with her mom holding her hand during procedures listening to her doctors, she hold her just like when she was a little girl allowing her to feel safe and loved, this time saying goodbye was harder she didn't want to leave her mom, she wanted everything to be as used to.

With a heavy heart she went to the salon Sunghoon said, waiting for her turn, not really knowing what to do on her or what she was supposed to look like.

-Miss y/n?- she nods- great, follow me your stylist is waiting- she walks behind getting comfortable on the chair

-hi pretty, do you have an idea of what you want?- the stylist was really kind all smiley, she shakes her head as a no- well your fiance called to tell us what was the occasion and he told us about you Mrs Park- her eyes went big in surprise

-I'm not Mrs Park

-not yet, let's start- she feels like an imposter hearing how they call her but probably Sunghoon's name was the reason for making them act like this with her, so she let it happen.

They pampered beyond what she expected to do today, they did everything just like Sunghoon said, a massage without asking why she's so bruised, they did her hair, nails, toes and makeup, the ones in the salon even bought her food and coffee during the long process, Sunghoon message was always dry “text me when you're almost done so I can send someone to pick you up”

-You're looking so pretty Mrs Park I'm sure your fiance is gonna love it he really knows what suits you, you're all set, see you hopefully soon- she thanked everyone going out to find his driver

On the way to the dinner she got dressed in the back of the car, putting on the dress and the heels, just like Sunghoon asked her to be, when she arrived instead of going inside the place she stayed there to wait for him, seeing all the people elegantly walking in holding their purses worth more of what she makes a year, she finally spots his car and him going out, his hair brushed back, perfectly shaved, his tuxedo made only for him tailored carefully, then he opened the passenger side holding Yuna's hand passing by without acknowledging her, y/n went behind them giving her name at the entrance so they let her in, she admires everything the decorations, the lights, the people, she went to the bar to order a mocktail, taking little sips finding really boring to be there instead of at home or with her mom, until someone else got next to her ordering liquor.

-hi there… Are you miss Yang?- she turned around

-me? No, no I'm not … sorry you got the wrong person sir- the man smiles

-Sir? Do I really look old?- he scratch his chin

-no, I didn't meant to offend you si… sorry- he smiles

-i'm not offended but only my dad is called sir, not me, I'm Heeseung, Lee Heeseung, Leectric medical supplies- he extended his hand and she takes it softly and cautious

-I'm y/n, just y/n- she blush

-Are you here representing a company?

-I'm not sure… I guess I'm here if my boss needs me- she takes another sip

-Who's your boss?- he got a little close

-Mr Park- she signaled Sunghoon who is talking with some of his partners

-Of course you would call me sir- he gently chuckle- he's so up his ass with the titles and his last name he loves to be venerated as if he were a god- she didn't mean it but she couldn't help but laugh- am I wrong? He made me call him Mr Park one time, he forgot we went together to college and that I'm older

-mr Park, he's special

-Sure he is, now dating Yuna, she's gonna be a pain worse than your boss if she becomes the new Mrs Park

-Do you know her?- they both look at Sunghoon holding Yuna's waist

-everyone here, if you have money, a family name and a legacy her dad will try for you to marry her, I already decline- he smiles making her smile too- but your boss apparently is falling for it, not so smart as he pretends- she looks a little too much on his direction- wanna dance?- she turned around surprised

-I'm not a good dancer, sorry- he smiles and leans against the bar

-me neither but I cannot waste my chance to be around the prettiest girl in this party- she blush looking down and taking a step to the side putting distance between them- I'm sorry I made you uncomfortable… can I have another one like this,and please charge her drinks on my tab- she looks at Heeseung already walking away, she went behind him tapping his shoulder

-I'm sorry, it's been a long time since someone invited me… or thinks I'm pretty… I don't know how to react to compliments but I would love to dance with you- he smiles extending his hand for her

-Don't be sorry about it, but truly believe me when I say you're really pretty- she blushed as he wrapped his hand around her on her wait, not uncomfortable, not making her feel dirty…

-so he ran into the lake butt naked and jumped, he's seriously so competitive sometimes we forget he used to be a looser- she laughs not believing that Sunghoon was so wild on his teenage years

-and you? Were you like him?- she wraps her arms on his neck when the song turned slow

-no, I have always been a loser trapped in a hot body, that's what girls said they used to go with me but I don't know how to flirt

-I think you do, you're good at it

-I'm glad you think so… would it be okay if I kiss you?- she nods and Heeseung bends a little to catch her lips, is soft and nice- do you wanna go out of here? Not in I want to get in your pants way, even tho you're super hot, but in I want to have a date with you way, not just staying at this boring charity party- his forehead is resting on hers- besides I'm hungry your boss only gave us little bites of expensive food

-I know a really good ramen spot, they also have tteokbokki and beer

-Sounds amazing, let's go out of here- he smiles taking her hand and running to the exit, making her laugh too

She woke up next to Heeseung, blushing immediately remembering last night he's still holding her, she carefully slip out of bed taking one of his dress shirts to put on top of her dress, she checks her phone noticing is really late, Sunghoon will be so angry, she wiped the smudged mascara on her eyes trying to make herself look decent, roaming around Heeseung's stuff finding some rose water spray and putting it on her skin, she then wrote a note leaving it were she used to be running out of his house like a thief, rushing to work like that, on his walk of shame she was bombarded with text messages from her boss, he's definitely angry.

She arrived at the office shaking in fear, knowing Sunghoon is going to be so mad, she walks slowly not wanting a confrontation now, she's about to take the elevator when the door opens and Sunghoon is there, she's about to greet him.

-Shut up and walk, we need to move to other place we have things to do- she followed him to his car- you really out did yourself this time with pissing me off- he drives like a mad man, speeding honking and not minding anyone else, making her extremely nervous to be there.

He parked on his house going out, walking to her side opening the door and pulling her out with so much force, she whines while he pulls her, leaving her barely standing walking again inside his home with her running as best as she can with her heels to catch up with him, the door was slammed and he started to bark orders for everyone to leave immediately, he wanted no one for the rest of the day, his employees, afraid of him like everyone else, picked their things sprinting out, she was guided by him to the upstairs, she had been at his house a couple times now, but for work reasons only going to his studio there to check some things while he was sick, never stepping properly on the rooms, he stopped in one door opening letting her see his bathroom, pushing her in, making her trip and fall to the floor.

-What was your plan with Heeseung? What were you even thinking?- his voice is calm- because what I saw you were like a hooker asking for money and sex, you stayed all night with him laughing and dancing, then what? he took you to his home- she's on the floor back in every time he stepped closer- he fucked you, he dared to fuck you when you're mine kitten and you let him… undress- he calmly started to undone his tie meanwhile years were about to fall, the fear was flooding her senses- didn't you hear? You're already in big trouble kitten, I wouldn't make it worse so if I was you I would listen- with trembling hands she started to unbutton Heeseung's shirt, taking her garments off- did you enjoy being with him?- she's naked now, trying to cover with her hands when he squats down next to her- answer me kitten- she avoids looking at him shaking her head as a no- look at you so pathetic, dress in his shirt you didn't even showered you still have his cum dripping out of you- she closed her legs more wanting to disappear- I'll fix you, so you understand you're mine kitten

He picked her up, carrying her over his shoulder opening the water of his tub, placing her there, not gently, the water is ice cold making her shiver, as he calmly wash her hair and skin, taking his time, she can feel the cold seeping into her bones, he rinse everything with more cold water she puts her arms around her trying to keep the warmth there but it was unsuccessful, he pulled her roughly from the arm taking her out and pushing her to the hall, she looks around because why if someone is there and can see her like that, she's dripping on his expensive wooden floors while he's calmly opening a door with a key, once open he did the same pushing her inside making her fall on her knees with a loud, dry noise, she looks around terrorized by everything she's seeing, whips, handcuffs, paddles, structures with chains, a lot of toys and so many things she doesn't know how to use, he made eye contact with him, his smile wicked and sinister.

-Get on fours kitten- she shakes her head wanting to plead but feeling a lump on her throat- do what I say or it only will get worse your punishment- he started to roam on a drawer and she trembling got in position- did Heeseung notice your beautiful marks?- she shakes her head feeling something cold on her rim and a sting pain from a spank- wanna hear your voice when I ask you something, did he?

-I don't know… he didn't turned the lights on because I asked for it to be that way-she feels something toying with her entrance, a point trying to break through the resistance of her rim- sir please no, I never…- he pushed a plug on her making her moan in pain

-Shhhh I know you never had anal sex that's why I need to prep you for later- she removes uncomfortable- what did he do to you? Did he kiss you? Played with your nipples? Did he made you cum?- she nods- did he? One or twice, more? Just by penetration?- she can hear how he's taking more things from drawers and compartments

-Two times…he ate me the first time- she's whispering her words

-it was the first time someone ate you?- she nods as he gets in front of her making a ponytail, her hair still wet- I see, did you like him better than me?- she stayed in silence as he put on her collar and attached the leash- answer me, did he made you feel better than I do? Do you wish for him to fuck you instead of me?- she nods and feels the first tears running down her cheeks- why?

-he treated me good… and soft- she sniffles- it didn't hurt… he asked me if I like it what was happening- Sunghoon undone his buttons taking off his shirt

-so you like vanilla sex, isn't it so boring? Nothing interesting on it- he got up pulling the leash- get on the bed on the edge legs hanging, since you want it so much fine vanilla is what you'll have- she got in position, watching him kneeling in front of her opening her legs- is okay like this? Is this what you like, to be eaten?- he got close to her clit his lips giving a light feathery kiss on it, she moaned.

Sunghoon didn't hesitate dipping his face on her pussy, giving a long lick on her, from her entrance to her clit, he wrapped his lips on the little bundle of nerves sucking it slightly, she moaned almost too loud making him smile, he took his time between kissing, sucking and licking her, tasting her, devouring her at a slow pace, her arousal almost dripping but he lapping at it before it falls on the silk cover, his long fingers making circles on her entrance, teasing her making her clench around air, until she came he only sucked deeper taking every drop of her release.

-good enough?- she nods, she couldn't believe Sunghoon was asking about what she feels or if she likes it- did Heeseung leave you in missionary?

-Yes… he liked to kiss me and I like it too…- Sunghoon frowns but she couldn't stop herself remembering Heeseung crying afraid that in any moment Sunghoon will do something

-Our course he did- he opened his trousers letting them fall pulling down his boxer and guiding his hard length on hers- did he fucked you slow?

-he did… Hee was soft with me, he kissed me and touched me nicely, nothing hurt with him- she pouts wishing for Heeseung to be here instead of Sunghoon

Sunghoon pushed slowly, thing that made her arch her back in pleasure, still so sensitive from her previous orgasm, his hips moving slowly, his hands holding her waist just to steady her, without squeezing, without bruising, he leans to kiss all over her breasts, giving pecks on her nipples sucking on one of them, she moaned, her hands instinctively went to his hair to keep him there, his fangs grazing on her nubs.

-Hoonie… please- he twitch hearing her moan his name for the first time, wanting to hear her again, his thumb going straight to her clit rubbing it slowly- Hoonie more… please- he wanted to lose his control to be himself but he holds back his desire to ram in her as always- wanna kisses- her voice whining, he leans to kiss her softly, her fingers running on his hair, he feels her tense for a little then her body spamming in another orgasm y/n wrapping her limbs on him for support, grounding herself, he keeps thrusting deeper but still softly coming inside her

-did you like it?- he pulls out, his cum dripping out

-Yes… it was…

-Like Heeseung did?- she nods, Sunghoon smiles, fangs on display leaning to peck her lips- good, now that we did it the way you like it, it's time for me to enjoy just how I want it- he extended his hand and she took it- see that pole there? You gonna stand right next to it while I pick up some things- he takes her chin to kiss her lips softly, as a closure for the vanilla sex

She walked there staying very still, frozen when she saw him walking with a paddle and rope, nonchalantly he started to wrap the rope around her making knots, the rope was around her thighs, her tummy, her breasts squeezing them, he took some leather cuffs securing her wrist on them and hooking the metal strap to the end of the pole making her lift her arms and stretch uncomfortably barely touching the ground, the first paddle hurt so much and pushed the plug deeper making her moan both in pain and pleasure, he took two silicone balls attached between them, he drop to his knees opening her legs smiling at how wet she is using that arousal as lube to push the first ball inside, she moans moving around trying to ground herself, he pushed the second ball giving her a kiss on her clit before getting up, he took a whip, long made of leather.

-we'll do five, you don't have to count I'll do it- she felt it, fast and burning on her skin- one for staying with Heeseung- the second whiplash landed on her bottom on top of her bruises making her whine in pain- two for letting him touch you- the next one wrapped around her tummy leaving a red mark crossing her bellybutton- three because you're so dumb you haven't notice- she felt that burning sensation crossing her back, tears spilling in silence- four because in need to teach you- the last was the worse, is always the worst burning on her skin- five because you don't notice how much I want you, how much I need you to live- Sunghoon saw the red marks and the blood drops attempting to fall from the cuts the whip made- wasn't so bad right kitten? You can endure more- he looks disheveled like if he frantically messes his hair, cupping her face to kiss her messy- you're so pretty kitten, is this what you like, praises?- she nods her head- did Heeseung praise you?

-non stop… he called me pretty and a good girl, he didn't treat me like a slut like you do- she's crying tears going down her cheeks making Sunghoon angry

-If you act like one I'm gonna treat you like one kitten, this would be different if you realize- he took two clamps attached together by a chain, he started to play with her nipples making them hard- this would hurt a little bit you may end up liking it- he put the first clamp en her right nipple making her trash around whimpering- shhhh is okay is done just one more- he attached the other to her left nipple leaning to lick and kiss both making her moan and arch her body in pleasure even with the pain- feels good don't you think?- she shakes her head making him chuckle as he kneeled again to secure her ankles to the ground, leaving her completely immobilised- now probably you won't like this- he takes a zapper wand putting it directly on her tummy, current surges through the area, making her cry- we're going to play a little fun game, I'll ask you a question if you don't answer I'll use my wand

-i want to do the same- she speaks out of panic- I want to ask too- Sunghoon arched his brow amused by her, but he undid her restraints she fell to the floor rubbing her wrists attempting to take off the clamps

-No, no I didn't give you permission to do that- he takes her hands, wrapping his fingers on the rope that is around her breasts pulling her to the bed again sitting on the edge- you can take a seat or stay up I don't mind- she removes uncomfortable the balls and the plug making her extremely aware each time she moves

-can I take something out? Is a lot- he smiles pulling her between his legs kissing the mark the whip left on her tummy

-no you can't. I need you stretched for later and if I take one off you won’t experience pleasure- she's about to talk but he stopped her flicking his finger on the clamp making her whine- is my turn, if you had the possibility, would you date Heeseung?- she looks at him

-Yes…- Sunghoon's face morphs in anger making her feel uneasy- am I the first one you treat like this? I mean that you hit and treat with violence

-no… I had many others with a contract to use them in my playroom without being boyfriend and girlfriend- he's making circles on her sides frowning- do you really think I'm violent?

-Yes… you have only hurt me since I met you, I think you hate me and that you use me to unleash everything that makes you angry during the day- he now looks worried- has Yuna been here at your playroom?

-a couple times- he’s reflecting on what he wants to know-If you can, if the possibility comes, you'll stop working for me- it wasn't a question it was an affirmation

-When my mom is alright I'll start searching for another job- she's sincere and Sunghoon can only feel panic- why do you treat people like trash?

-I like the power and control I have over anyone, sometimes I don't control how mean I am, I'm rotten on the inside kitten- he smiles nostalgic- if I get you pregnant would you still go? Would you left me?- he's so sure and she's afraid seeing his face

-If that's the case I wouldn't have the baby and yes I'll still go- a little sadness sparkles in his eyes- why did you let Jake saw me but you got angry with Heeseung?

-I'm a jealous guy, Jake knew that he can only see not touch you, not try to get close, but Heeseung only took you and seems he's everything you want- he cups her bottom pulling her closer to him sucking on her nipple making her moan and try to push him- have you ever think of me?

-I'm afraid of you, I even dream about your punishments, I think of you a lot- he helped her softly to position her on top of him straddling his lap- do you like this stuff, only to give? I mean do you like people punishing you too?- he chuckled

-sometimes not a real punishment but if you slap me or hurt me while I'm fucking you I would love it, it feels so good- he takes the zapping wand making her tense- you click here when you put it against my skin- he moves a little taking his length- touch me and then put it on my tip you'll see- she did as he said, feeling him hard then she saw amazed how he twitch and threw his head back after feeling the electricity on his member- fuck I would let you do that as many times as you want- he takes the wand from her leaving it on bed- do I have an opportunity with you beyond our relationship at work?- she didn't answer and the silence felt heavy on him understanding- the little game is done, go to that corner- his tone was back as usual making her feel afraid again

Without complaining she went down of his lap walking, aware of the balls moving with each step, he came with more rope, using the already intricate pattern on her body to make more knots, tying her hands on her back, he was done talking, the softness he showed moments ago now forgotten, replaced by anger and frustration. When he's done tying her body he pulled a chain lifting her in the air, she scream alarmed and panicking, her body is all tied, hands in the back legs hanging, and she's facing the floor, he got in front of her putting a muzzle and tightening her dog collar, he got in position behind her, the way she is now made easy for him to have a view of her bottom the plug and the balls, he started to slowly remove the butt plug, lining his length on her rim she wanted to protest but the muzzle didn't let her, he steady her hips, pushing slowly, rubbing her clit feeling her slowly loosen tension, when he's settled to the brim he heard some kind of muffled moan. His movements are slow letting her adjust, gradually increasing the speed, his hand sneaks under her pulling the clamps removing them, she made noises, not sure if it's pleasure or pain noises, he keeps using her taking a riding crop, snapping it on her thighs, leaving more marks on her, he's grunting and moving at an animalistic pace, moving her body like it's made of rag, he pulled the leash on the collar bending her neck painfully, changing the riding crop for a Hitachi wand, putting it directly on her clit, the vibrations making her clench around the ball and drool over the muzzle.

-Did Heeseung made you feel like this? Did he treated you like I do? Does he pay for your bills? Your apartment? Your mom's treatment?- the pleasure is too much for her screaming through the muzzle- of course no, he doesn't love you like I do

Her brain is fogged with all the sensations barely processing his confession, she came, hard and spamming as he keeps thrusting inside making her roll her eyes overstimulated, when he stilled filling her hole with cum she couldn't help but to moan in relief, his cock dragging slowly as his pulling out and before his cum can drip he pushed the plug back again, she's breathing with difficulty as he started to put her down, legs wobbly making almost impossible to stand up, Sunghoon started to undone the knots, holding her against him, carrying back to bed, y/n started to close her eyes hearing some metallic sounds on the far end of the room, she feels the the bed shift before he slapped lightly her cheek.

-we're not done yet, get up kitten- barely conscious she sits, while he removes the muzzle leaving a numbing sensation on her cheeks- we're going to keep your hands secured okay?- she nods letting him manhandle her body, sitting on top of him straddling his lap- you're going to ride me and make me cum again

Sunghoon pulled the balls out of her pussy, the moan she let out made him twitch, guiding her hips and his length so she can sink in slowly, her nail digging on her palms, he helps to set the rhythm letting her do it alone, wrapping his arms around her, kissing her cheeks, her lips, and every part of her body that he can reach, she's now lightheaded dizzy with his attentions.

-I fucking love you, you don't have an idea of how much- he tightens his grip on her hugging her body as she bounce on his cock slowly- tell me you love me, please kitten tell me how much you love me- she bites her lips trying to stop the noises- please kitten, do you want me to beg? To fall on my knees to hear you say you love me? Or I'll have to make you say it with a punishment… fuck I'm trying to be nice with you but you resist

-I do… I do love you sir- her trembling voice made him angry as he knows she's only trying to get away with it

-you know i hate when you lie- he holds her hair roughly pulling her for a kiss, full of tongue, possessive, she can feel the anger seeping out him- you hate me, and you'll hate me more after this- he secured her holding her in place taking something- you can bite me if the pain is too much

She looks confused when she feels that unbearable pain on the side of her left thigh, the smell of skin burning, she screams in pain biting on his shoulder, hard digging her teeth there until the metallic taste fill her tastes buds, Sunghoon moaned feeling her clench and bite, coming undone inside her, he finally put apart the still red-hot metal stamp that made contact with her, tears run down her cheeks, he cups her face to wipe them feeling her spam and cum around his cock, he started to shush her giving little kisses on her lips.

-is done kitten, don't cry no more- she pulled apart to see, she saw his initials burned on her

-What have you done?- she whimper trying to get off him but Sunghoon didn't let her

-I told you you're mine, I won't let anyone else touch you, if they try they will know- he keeps kissing her cheeks caressing her skin, it was sick after what he did treating her with softness- let's get you clean and check your wound so it doesn't get infected

He pulled out carrying her crying form to the bathroom, he started to get the tub ready with warm water and his expensive soaps and bubbles, he started to undone the last knots that keep her hands on her back, kissing her wrist on the red marks.

-What am I going to tell Heeseung when he sees this?- she hiccups heartbroken- we have a date next week- she broke down crying loudly feeling like choking on her tears

-You can't date anyone, you're my fiance now- he's angry and frowning when she made eye contact- I love you I can't let anyone else get you- he scoops her putting her softly on the warm water- I'm even trying to be gentle with you so stop crying 

-You're saying non sense… I'm not… we're not engage- she hugs herself as he slipped behind back hugging her kissing her shoulders starting to wash her carefully 

-i’ll buy you a ring tomorrow so we can have the proper formalities, you can choose whatever you like for the ceremony I don't care as long as you're happy with it- she sobbed harder- do you want me to do a big display for a proposal? I can do that, I can take you anywhere in the world to ask you, make a party, invite everyone, but no matter what you're going to be my wife so no one ever can touch you 

-I don't wanna 

-Yes you want it because being Mrs Park brings tons of benefits like insurance for your mom, properties so she can live comfortably, money to hire nurses and caregivers, facilities for rehab… everything you never had now you will when you become Mrs Park, you'll be my wife for eternity- is sick, is crazy but she can only think on her mom and how will be if she had access to that for her, to save her life, to give her quality for the rest of her days- besides nobody would ever love you like I do, I would even change the punishments after you say yes, no more whips or cuts, or cattle Branding on you because you'll be willingly mine

-I don't wanna be just a branded piece of meat- she whines 

-I can make you one and you can do the same to me, forever yours to eternity, you can mark me, slap me, mistreat me, I'll be yours, for you to use and play just like I do with you- she frowns and he manhandle her to turn her around and kiss her desperately until she's out of breath- stop overthinking just say yes- she nods, not sure she has other option.

He kissed her until the water was cold, until she didn't put up resistance to be with him, until he was leashed to her.

Fin.

Thank you for reading me little strangers and happy comeback season, I love all of you, take care

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In your opinion

Wich member fits better this plot?

Dom really mean boss and assistant, with public humiliation and degradation, with lots bdsm along with manipulation, reader is trapped in that dynamic because is threatened but she doesn't like it

Link to the fic

who?

Hee

Jay

Jake

Hoon

Sunoo

Wonie

Ni-ki

Voting ended onJan 10

I have an idea but hopefully I can write it without taking so long

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Happy new year my lovely strangers on the internet.

I hope you had a great year, if you were struggling just to let you know that things get better, I'm sending you all my love and Best wishes for you and your loved ones.

Thank you for being here, either you were here since the beginning or today, thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading me.

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Forever 西村力

I wasn't ready for you, but I loved you since the first day

Tw: suggestive, not teen but young pregnancy, don't support teen pregnancy but support the pregnant teen

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I lied about have this done for his birthday, is just the time of the year I have the most work, this is closer to be a Christmas post than a Ni-ki's birthday but okay, more daddy enha, fluff.

The sounds of puking from the bathroom worried him, waiting patiently outside, a minute of silence before the water runs and the toilet is flushed, he knocked softly on the door, y/n came out mascara messed up, teary eyes, her hair in a mess, pouting.

-no more alcohol for you okay?- he takes a wipe from her bag helping her remove her masacra- do you wanna go home now?- she pouts opening her arms

-Please Ki, can we cuddle?- Riki picked her up carrying her downstairs and outside waiting for their transport

The drive to his home was silent as she was falling asleep on the backseat resting her head on his shoulder, when they arrive his home he helped her get undress to put something more comfortable to sleep, but she started to kiss him and try to take off his shirt, he stopped her softly putting her hands away from him, thing that made her frown.

-Don't you like me?- her eyes watering- but I thought you- Riki cups her face

-Listen, i really like you, everything about you, but you're drunk and that's take advantage of you in a vulnerable situation- he kiss her forehead- if you still want it tomorrow when you're sober I'll be more than happy to be with you, okay?- he slipped a t-shirt over her laying her down- we can cuddle tonight- she nods as she's still crying

Ni-ki undress himself, putting just some shorts and slipping behind her, pulling her close to his chest spooning her from behind, hearing how her breathing slowly goes back to normal until she's peacefully sleeping,he didn't took long to do the same, only getting up in the morning by the sound of her puking again he went out of bed knocking softly on the door, she didn't answer but didn't take long to open, her eyes watering, her nose red and the dark circles under her eyes made Ni-ki sigh.

-no more drinking for you, no in a long time at least- he kiss her forehead pulling her close to him

-I feel so awful, why do people like to do it so often?

-for the same reason you did it last night, for fun I guess- she pouts

-but it's not fair you're not like me struggling and sick

-Because I don't drink- Riki smiles, he leans to kiss her nose- go shower stinky I'll make breakfast- Y/n just frowned but didn't complain feeling drained and beaten.

Ni-ki finishes dance practice really late at night, going home thinking about what he can have for dinner, the message on his screen surprised him and alarmed him a little.

“I'm at the dorm please come as soon as you're available, we need to talk”

No Ki, no cute nicknames, or heart emojis, no anything a plain message from her, he frowns but still went there with an unsure feeling, when he arrived at his place the light from his bed is on, the faint noises from crying echoed in the space, he walked carefully finding her on his bed curled up crying hugging a pillow.

-hi baby, what's wrong?- he got in bed too scooping her body to hold her like a baby wiping her tears- did your pants ripped again in yoga class?- she smacked him on the chest making him chuckle

-i need to tell you something but please don't be angry- she looks down at her, she searched for something on the hoodie pocket- I didn't meant for this to happen please forgive me- he looks at the pregnancy test, positive, on her hand, she's crying harder as he doesn't say anything- please say something

-When did you find out?- he takes the test looking directly at the the two lines, maybe trying to find any sign that tells him is wrong

-Two days ago… -Riki is serious making her to shrink into itself, trying to disappear

-Why didn't you tell me?

-I don't… I don't know…- she broke down crying- I'm sorry, I swear I was taking care I'm taking the pill, please forgive me- Riki holds her kissing her hair

-is my fault, I should have take care of you too, not leave all that responsibility in you- he cups her face kissing her lips softly- what do you wanna do?- she looks confused at him, her relationship before Ni-ki was abusive so she's surprised sometimes by how calm and understanding he is all the time- do you wanna keep the baby? You don't?

-What do you want?- her voice is trembling a little

-I want whatever you think is best for you and us- he's caressing her cheek- I'm not the one who's gonna carry the baby, much less have pain or struggle at birth, so whatever you want is what I want

-I'm not sure… you're busy with your career, we're so young… I want to have my family with you but Is scary- she confessed

-I want to be with you until my last breath and even if it's scary I'll do anything for you… you don't have to take a decision right now you can think as much as you need and then we can decide together what to do- he leans to kiss her all over her face making finally giggle- what about you take a shower while I order something to eat I'll catch you in a minute, please feel free to use my things

-thank you for being a good boyfriend

-Anything for my girl

He kiss her quickly before leaving her on his room, he took time to process what is about to happen, what is going on with them, the idea of being a father scared him to death, Riki sits on the sofa the shared apartment now felt a little suffocating when Heeseung appeared into the fog of his brain, holding a bag with his own food, he got close to see his worried face, in a silent exchange Ni-ki showed him the positive test, Heeseung was surprised to see it trying to put his thoughts together, picturing the consequences.

-What are you gonna do?

-we haven't decided yet- Heeseung put a hand on his shoulder

-you know whatever you decide you have us, you don't have to carry anything alone maybe we have a secret talent to take care of a baby

-no offense but if I have a child you'll be the last I thrust to take care of them

-Why? I did a good job raising you- Heeseung smiles

- you did actually…thank you for being here

-Nothing to be thankful for- he pats Riki's back getting up and leaving to his room

Ni-ki waited for the delivery to arrive before going back to his room, clearing his mind a little, he's holding the bags, finding her in front of his mirror in panties and one of his t-shirts, rolled up as she's seeing her belly, startled when Riki appeared in the reflection.

-you look cute like- he chuckled- really cute- he started to take out the containers putting them on his coffee table in the room- I can imagine you all pretty and pregnant- he talked before he could stop himself- even if it's not now but later when we're ready

-you don't think we're ready now?- she sits next to him on his sofa

-no… not fully at least because we didn't plan on having a baby right now, but I'm sure we can make it if we try- she leans on his side- one thing I'm sure is that even if it's not planned they will be so loved and spoiled, not just by me and you but also the others

-I think I want to have the baby but I'm not sure yet… but I started to imagine you as a dad, maybe it's the little hormones I have because of pregnancy, but I really want to see you carrying our baby, I want her or him to look like you with all your little moles- she takes the first bite

-i think you'll look so pretty as a mom, also that you'll be an amazing at it since you already are so caring with the people around you

-Maybe we can make it- she intertwined their fingers

-I'm sure we can

-Where do you want me to put these?- Riki was carrying some boxes

-in the kitchen, but careful, there are the plates and mugs- she said arranging decorations on the living room

Ni-ki happily went to the kitchen putting everything on the shelves while hearing some curses from the bedroom, the other members were assembling the furniture and carrying more boxes from the truck, helping him and y/n to build their new home, she went inside the kitchen wrapping her arms around his waist back hugging him, she rest her cheek in the middle of his back, he put his hand on top of hers.

-are you feeling alright?- his voice is calm and even if she can see his face she knows he's smiling

-yes, just a little tired…- she didn't finish talking when he turned around scooping her to carry her to the brand new sofa- Riki what are you doing?- she holds onto him giggling

-taking care of my wife and my child- he lays her down and started to kiss her barely visible baby bump- I can't let them be tired by any means

-You're exaggerating- she runs her fingers on his blonde hair- do you think we're doing the right thing?

-With you everything is alright… I'm afraid of course but is not so scary with you by my side- he smiles making her smile too, he hovers over her kissing her passionately

-you already made a baby, stop- Jay mentioned all serious carrying pizza boxes- I'll go for the others you better be decent and ready to eat when I'm back

-you act like my dad- Riki rolled his eyes

-I didn't for five minutes and now you're pregnant- his laugh deep and sassy

-He's right tho- y/n laughs too making Riki roll his eyes more

-you paired with the enemy to be against me- he pretended to be stabbed- you traitor, doing this when you know I love you- she just smiles giving him pecks on the lips

The noise from the corridor alerted them that his friends are closer, all of them got around the little coffee table, discussing who made a terrible job assembling furniture. She smiles feeling grateful she does have a support big enough for her and Ni-ki, and they start to eat the pizza.

-Just to make clear, tomorrow whoever is not ready at 9 am we left him, except of course for y/n she can be late if she wants- Jay says looking at his phone

-It's not fair- Jake said pouting playfully

-You're the first we're going to leave

They keep bickering while she just smiles and enjoys the way they are.

Everyone is sitting in the small waiting area, some on their phones, some reading whatever is there, magazines and pamphlets.

-Alright Nishimura- the nurse called for them, Riki got up along with the others- which one is Nishimura and miss y/l/n?- Riki stepped closer with y/n- alright follow me here- she checked quickly the record- since you're minors in your country I need someone over 19 with Korean ID in the room with us please

-I'm the one responsible- Sunghoon took his wallet out before anyone can get in the way receiving a complaint from the others

-Please take a seat, you're here for your first pregnancy check?- the doctor scribble something on the paper- when was your last period

-Two months ago, I'm irregular so it wasn't a concern for me, I took the test 16 days ago

-any symptom?

-well I have a concern with that, I went to a party and drank, I thought I puke because of that but the feeling of sickness didn't left me so I took the test- she holds Riki's hand

-I see, any change on the skin, hair?- she shakes her head as no- we'll do a blood test and the first ultrasound… You're responsible for them, right?

-yes, I have my ID here- the doctor handed a paper for Sunghoon to read and fill

-While you answer that a nurse will come here to draw the blood… now the dad- he searched in more papers- I need you to fill these forms of you and her, because of the age of both parents, a social worker will be in contact with you during the pregnancy and in case of an evaluation that says the opposite she also will be during the first trimester of the new born just to make sure the baby will be in a safe space with the needs covered

They filled the documents and the nurse came to take vitals of y/n and draw the blood, the staff there moved them to another room to perform an ultrasound, the others waiting entered the small space, all cramped against the wall trying to see but also not to be in the way, the first images were confusing for everyone, the doctor moving around her belly for some time without talking.

-There you are- he focused in a tiny illegible form- here is your baby, is small, you have around 6 to 7 weeks

-are they alright? I mean I drank before I knew I was pregnant

-is too soon to know but the chances are low due to the time of conception, we'll wait for baby to be bigger and perform other ultrasound to know is everything alright, I'm gonna prescribe vitamins for you and schedule your next appointment

The seven of them were pushing against each other to see the baby even if they didn't really understand what exactly they were seeing, or if they were seeing it in the right way.

The first visit of the social worker was what she would call a disaster because of the hormones but something that got Ni-ki laughing for days, when the lady arrived y/n was extremely nervous cleaning while Riki is wearing a button up and Jay helping with the tie, the one that opened the door was Sunoo, Jungwon was vacuuming the living room, Jake and Sunghoon were out buying food and groceries, Heeseung was arranging all the paperwork. The social worker looked at the little chaos, everyone doing something, doing too much, Riki half dressed, the shirt off not buttoned all the way and the tie hanging, she was writing something.

-How many bedrooms in the flat?

-Two, we have one already selected for when the baby is born- the pen scribbling only made her more nervous- we already started to order online the furniture- Jake came banging the door, in middle of a discussion with Sunghoon about the food holding coffee cups

-oh hi, we didn't know it had already started, coffee?- they offered one of the cups

-No thank you…- the social worker silently counted everyone, checking how many people there were- are you here every day?- she signaled all the members

-yeah we're like super close and happy for the baby, we're so excited and so ready for when is born- Jungwon calmly explained

-is super important for us, is the first baby we're all super happy thrilled I must say- Jay spoke softly

-are all of you involved in this process?

-we definitely- Heeseung smiles

- I see… now y/n… with this Co living parental arrangement, do you know who's the dad?- y/n gasped and immediately blushing intensely, the others tried not to laugh at Riki's face- I'm sorry is a question a little uncomfortable but with poly amorous relationships we must ask to ensure the child…- Sunghoon spits his coffee over the social worker trying not to laugh- the child will have insurance and a last name, it can be your last name if they don't decide who's the dad- the laughing from the seven made y/n frown

-I'm the dad and we're not a whole as relationship- he laughs giving a tissue so the worker can clean herself- they are my members from my group they live in the apartment at the end of the corridor and the one above us- y/n was sinking in the couch- we're together most of the time because of work and because we have schedules together, and because we have been through many things together for the past 5 years I consider them my family since my own is in Japan- he explained

-He's just our own baby having a baby- Sunoo said

-I see, sorry for assuming, I'll do a quick inspection of the place and pick up the documents we asked for you

The social worker only asked a few more questions about the income and how often Ni-ki is away with his idol life, but they reassured that since they work together as she's part of the makeup artists they won't be far away when the baby is born.

The sound of puking made Ni-ki wake up going to the bathroom, finding her pouting, he kneeled next to her, caressing her hair, rubbing her back too, trying to make her feel slightly better.

-my baby is making my babe sick- he kiss her shoulder

-I hate this, I wish our baby can be without this awful sensation all the time- she flushed the toilet still sitting on the floor wiping her mouth with toilet paper- I really want this baby but if someone gave me the option of not morning sickness I'll take it

-Will you marry me?- she looks at Riki, surprised while his face is dead serious

-Ki stop playing around with stuff like that- she got up to brush his teeth looking a little annoyed

-So you don't want to?- he didn't even bother to get up still sitting in the bathroom floor looking at her

-are you being serious?- she turned to look at him, Riki just nodded- why?

-Because I love you- she squint her eyes trying to detect any lie but he's serious and so chill about it

-couldn't you think in any other moment to propose?- he shrinks his shoulders and her eyes started to water- why can't you be romantic?- she started to cry and that's when he got up to hug her

-Because I'm an idiot in love, I don't think much about big displays of love I just want to be with you forever- he cups her face towering over her- because I think you look so cute right now, even if our baby makes you sick, you're creating life and that is the most awesome thing ever- he kiss her soft and passionate- because if you tell me you want a big display, a big party an obscene amount of attention and pampering I will do it for you if you say yes- she nods still tears running down her cheeks- I'm gonna make you so happy I promise- they kiss again, Riki picked her wrapping her legs on his waist carrying her back to bed

-Ki I do want to marry you, but I want something more romantic for our wedding okay?- he's hovering over her kissing her neck and pulling her shirt to take it off- Riki what are you doing?

-Celebrate, the hottest girl alive is gonna marry me- he removed her clothes and his while kissing all over her skin

-is this correct?- she puts a hand on his chest pushing him away

-is not like you can be more pregnant- he smiles down on her- but still is only if you want it not just because I'm horny- she pulled him kissing Ni-ki a little desperate opening her legs to fit him there

The weather is nice, sunny and the breeze that run in his hair made him feel at peace, he gave a look around the few people sitting waiting, everyone looking so happy as he's so nervous, the music started and everyone got up, at the end of the aisle y/n appears wearing a fitted dress showing her baby bump, Ni-ki teared up a little bit hold himself together until she got next to him, they held hands hearing the start of the ceremony.

-you look stunning- he leans a little to whisper making her smile

-you look really handsome- they both were smiling listening until is time for their bows

-I know we're really young, but I'm always rushing on growing up, I started my career when people still called me a kid, when I decided this was for me I never thought that a pretty make-up artist will be the one assigned for me, much less I imagined I'll end up screwed, completely in love that I couldn't think in anyone else, it have to be her for me for the rest of my life, luckily she loves me back enough to keep on with my crazy ideas like marrying just 3 months after I proposed- he bends a little to be eye level with her- I promise to love you forever, to always take care of you and our baby, I want to grow old next to you in our tiny apartment or a beautiful house, whatever you dream I'll do because you're already my dream come true- she teared up smiling

-You're a crazy man and I knew it since the first time I met you, when you decided to run away from the location where you were filming only to go for ice cream, even when you were scolded you kept smiling, that charming cheeky smile got me hooked since the beginning, when we started to date I thought we were completely opposites I couldn't imagine how perfect we fit, but now I know that you were meant for me for the eternity, I promise to love you like crazy a little more every day together

Ni-ki finally shed a year, wiping it quickly, he stared at her, saying I do before pulling her by the waist to kiss her, sealing their love and union forever.

-I promise we'll have a proper honeymoon without schedules in between- he said as she's doing his make up for a shoot

-is okay, Italy is pretty I'm enjoying even if we're working- she said finishing with him

-Just today and the rest of the week is for us, you, me and the baby okay?- he gently caress her baby bump

-is okay for us- the gentle kicks made her giggle as Riki excited got on his knees

-are you happy too? Because I am- he give a kiss on her belly getting up pecking her lips before going to work

She saw him go and do his thing, the production and the staff from the company knew about them and the baby, they were both scolded for being so reckless but ended up helping them too, to move to buy things for the baby, helping them cover up, with the wedding, with the honeymoon, with everything in general and that's why she's so grateful, more because she got to preserve her job. One of the cameras brought a chair for her to be there while waiting for Ni-ki, y/n saw him do his thing pretty quickly before running happily to her to kiss her, making her blush because everyone is watching them, she pushed him slightly.

-I'm free now, wanna go swimming?- she nods

They packed everything getting on the van, since she's pregnant he became clingy, always attached to her, holding her hand or touching her somehow, playing with her hair and clothes, kissing her non stop, she's getting used to him being like this wondering if he would be the same once the baby is born; when they arrived to the villa where they're staying he immediately started to pick her bikini choosing a blue one making her arch a brow.

-C’mon you'll look so pretty and my baby too

-Fine just this time, but you can choose all my garments thinking in me with my belly on full display- she got in the bathroom to dress

-Why not? That way anyone can see my baby before they're out into the real world- she came out trying to cover with her hands since the bikini is really small- you look so cute and hot at the same time, let me change I'll catch you in the pool

She went out, putting on sunglasses and sunscreen, reading about pregnancy and maternity on her phone, when Ni-ki arrived rushing directly to her getting on the same spot with her, she moves uncomfortable, but Ni-ki only got closer until she pushed him.

-Ki it hurts- she signaled where his knee is digging on the side of her belly, he moves ashamed

-Sorry I just… you looked so pretty I wanted a hug- she opened her arms guiding him in a good comfortable position- I'm sorry I'm so clingy

-is okay I like it, just that sometimes you don't dimension that you're twice as tall than me and you often hurt me unintentionally

-Why haven't you told me?

-Because you look so happy when you hold me or touch me- she plays with his hair as he's laying on her chest now extremely careful with the baby

-but I have told you that even if I want it and it's making you uncomfortable or simply you don't want it is no, no negotiable

-I know, but you're so Happy about the pregnancy that I don't have the heart to tell you no

-you have to… you have to keep me in line to dom me- he pouts cutely

-I will now- he gets up a little to kiss her- wanna swim please, baby wants it too

Ni-ki didn't talk just got up carrying her before jumping with her to the water, she laughed hard immediately clinging to him, he holds her kissing her cheeks, both floating calmly.

-Ki, ki wake up- she only heard a complain- is important please wake- he opened his eyes rubbing them- ki we need to go now

-Why?- he looks at his phone 3:35 am- babe go back to sleep

-is time Ki, the baby- he opened his eyes surprised finally noticing the humid feeling on his pajamas- like is already coming we need to go- she's rubbing her belly

-Oh that important is…- he immediately got up taking random clothes to dress himself- dress yourself I'll be back in a minute

-Nishimura don't leave me- it was senseless he was already out- don't you dare- he was running out of their apartment to the last door in the hall knocking and ringing the doorbell

-I swear that unless you're dying- Sunghoon opened the door

-is time, is time- he hugs his hyung running back to his apartment

-Oh fuck- Sunghoon ran inside again to wake the others an tell them the news, also calling the ones in the up floor

The chaos that the seven made was something she wasn't prepared for, all of them came into the room, starting to put clothes for the baby in a bag and for her too, even for Ni-ki, everyone talking at the same time she tried to put her shoes unsuccessfully when Jay and Heeseung kneeled in front of her doing it rushing everything, she rubs her belly the whole time, like calming their baby, the others started to pack the cars running even when she's walking calmly to the parking lot, they got on separate arrangements and started to go leaving her there, she rolled her eyes looking one of the vans driving back to pick her, Ni-ki ran out to help her get in.

It was a whole new chaos in the hospital. The seven went inside screaming and frantic, while she's walking behind pushing them to the side getting to the front desk.

-hi I'm in labor now, every 3 minutes I have the contractions- the nurse got up calling other nurses bringing a wheelchair

-Only the dad can be in the delivery room and two more people that mom chooses, I'll call you for that… now mom let's get you ready- she sits and waved a bye to them while being pushed to the rooms

-I wanna be there- Jake said

-Shut up, why you even think you're gonna be there?- Jay playfully smacked him

-I wanna be the favorite uncle

-is a private moment, y/n will be all exposed you can't be there… besides I'm gonna be the favorite- Sunghoon got in the discussion now the three of them complaining

-If you don't lower the voice and keep the noise to a minimum I'll have to ask you to leave- a nurse got close to them making them immediately shut up- who's the dad?

-Is me- Riki pushed the others to get to the nurse, she made a follow sign and started to walk

They arrived in a room where she's already in a hospital robe connected to some machines, taking deep breaths as she read the parenting articles. He got on her side, taking her hand and kissing her hair, copying her breathing, trying to give her some support.

-You're dilating rapidly, you're going to push- the doctor said checking her and asking the nurses to be ready- c’mon one two push, push… we're going to try once again push

-You're doing so good babe- Riki kiss her forehead, while she squeeze his hand screaming a little

-is here… is a boy- they heard the doctor and she couldn't help but to cry hugging Ni-ki, he cut the umbilical cord and also cried a little watching how they're cleaning the tiny baby, the crying made him feel a love he never experienced before, the nurses got close to him putting the baby on her chest, her tears non stop as he wipes them.

-hi Yuki is me, mommy, I waited so long to hold you… isn't he so perfect Ki?- she looks at him tear stained

-So perfect like you, you did it so well babe… thank you for giving me my perfect family- they kiss when the door opened everyone got inside holding bears and flowers that they bought at the waiting area

-hi little one, we're your uncles- Sunoo got close to them leaving the bouquet on the table next to her

Ni-ki takes his baby holding him for the first time crying as his members surrounded him to look at Yuki, Jungwon got next to him to wipe his tears.

-Congratulations dad, still can't believe you're the first one to have a baby- Heeseung pat his back

-Our baby and his baby- Jake mocked

-Congratulations too y/n- Jay said

Sunghoon asked a nurse to take a picture of all of them Ni-ki sitting in bed holding Yuki, y/n holding his hand and all the members around the bed, in their first family photo.

Fin.

I hope you like it xo.

[en-trashy]

Wonderwall 박성훈

After all you found me, you saved me

Tw: injuries, attack, mentions of dead that's all I think

5.2k

Again another birthday post really late, and again daddy enhypen, at this point is almost a series. I'm working on Ni-ki's post but I have a lot of work I'll do my best to have it tomorrow

🎶I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding

And all the lights that light the way are blinding🎶

The rain didn't seem it could stop soon, she only look at the window thinking is closing for the day as the weather doesn't seem to help the lack of people coming in, she was reading when the bell on the door indicated her that someone was on the shop, she got up from behind her coffee bar smiling big.

-Hello, welcome to Idílico, what can I get for you?- the man holding a bump to his chest sighs heavily 

-anything is okay- she saw him for a brief second, his face tired and sad, sitting in one of the tables uncovering the baby he's holding as if his life depended on them.

Y/n saw him and could feel the deep sadness not just because of the weather, but something heavy on his aura, a gray spot on him so she did her best to give him her best beverage, doing everything more carefully for him, when she went to deliver to the table she did it with the biggest smiles she could give.

-Anything for you- Sunghoon looked at her like if she grew a horn on her forehead- hot chocolate, the specialty of the house, enjoy

-Thank you- he slowly gave a sip, feeling the liquid flood his taste buds, he closed his eyes for a moment when the little baby started to complain- excuse me can you perhaps give a little bit of warm water please?

-of course, do you have a bottle?- he nods handing the bottle from the bag- right away- she quickly served him again still smiling- the best quality water in town 

-thank you- he didn't understand how she did everything so happy

He focused on his baby, putting the formula and shaking the bottle to start feeding, she noticed how he's shedding tears, silently but overflowing on his porcelain skin, his chest raising as he's stopping the sobbing from actually be heard, he looked so defeated and her heart couldn't help but to squeeze in pain for this stranger and his baby, she got close to their table leaving napkins and a plate.

-Lemon pie, for a little sweetness today- she smiles brightly making him wipe his eyes immediately 

-thanks, but I just want the drink

-Is okay you can take it to go, is on the house- the sweetness on her smile moved a string on his mood making him frown 

-no I shouldn't 

-no really, it's new so I haven't even sold a piece so I need opinions… let's make a deal- she sits in front of him- you take it home you taste it and if it's good you come back other day, if I don't see you again next week I'll assume is bad so I should remove it from the menu- she extended her hand for him, he took it carefully 

-are you always like this? Gifting things to your clients?- he takes a sip of his mug

-You're actually my first client- her smile reached her eyes making her look adorable- I opened today but I didn't check the weather, I didn't thought it will rain this early or this heavy

-Is a bad day for you too mmmh?

-I don't think is bad, is a good day with some flaws, like any other but I'm really happy and proud I have my cafe now

-at least you're positive about it- he takes a sip of his chocolate, leaving the empty bottle once his baby finished he skillfully positioned on his shoulder to burp

-so tiny, how old is she, he?- y/n saw amazed the little baby

-she, and Sunye is 28 days old- the awww from her echoed all over the place 

- so cute… you're really good at taking care of her

-Thanks I guess- he fixed his baby on his arms swinging her softly to make her sleep, the bell ring indicating a new customer she smiles so big getting up 

-Hello, welcome to Idílico, what can I get for you?

Sunghoon saw her go, being all bubbly making her mood contagious for the other person, he gives a bite of his pie hearing the bell rang again and again, the little space suddenly has more people than what is safe for his baby, he took his things leaving immediately, the rain had stopped almost completely using the little blanket to make sure Sunye is completely covered and running to his car parked in the next street.

Y/n happily served and talked with every customer, noticing the empty table where he was sat, she got close, finding the half eaten pie and the empty cup, along with money to cover the bill, she frowns cleaning the space but still smiling and doing everything with love.

The first week of her little cafe went by so quickly bringing the winter with it, her shop flourished bringing a wave of regular customers that went for her desserts.

-bye honey see you

-bye Mrs Kim, have a good night- she waved goodbye closing the front door and changing her open sign for the close one, starting to clean when the bell on the door rings- I'm sorry we're close for today

-hi, I'm sorry… perhaps can I make an order for tomorrow?- that voice, she turned around happy

-hi, my first client ever- the same sad man was there standing holding his baby again- hi Sunye you're much more cute today

-you remembered?- he looked surprised that she remembers the name of his daughter

-Of course, how can I forget my first clients?- she smiles- take a seat I still have coffee made and some cookies- before he can protest she went to get the mugs for both and a plate with cookies- I also bring some warm water in case Sunye wakes up hungry, she left everything at the table sitting in front of him

-Thanks you… I was just passing by, I didn't thank you last time for your kindness you made my day back then… oh and the pie is delicious- he was so serious and she only smiles bigger with each word

-Such a shame I don't sell it since you didn't came back the following week I assumed was bad

-oh I'm really sorry but Sunye is still small to be outside or surrounded by a lot of people…- she giggles- I'm sorry you took out the pie I really liked it 

-is okay I understand, you don't have to explain yourself- she got up getting a plate and two spoons- the last slice I was saving it for later at home but what a better option that to share with my first client- she cut it in half leaving his spoon there

-oh no, I really shouldn't, is yours 

-I really want to share it with you, since you didn't let the house have your bill the last time- she smiles so brightly that he couldn't help but to do the same

-I'm Sunghoon, by the way- he mentioned taking a piece of the pie

-I'm y/n and is really nice to meet you properly- they keep talking about anything and everything, until is really late, Sunghoon looked at his watch

-I should go, is already pass her bedtime- she looks at the clock almost midnight 

-Oh my bus stopped running- she giggles turning the lights off- I should start walking now if I want to sleep enough 

-I can ride you home, is the least I can do after taking your time when you were closing 

-i liked the company- she smiles walking to his car seeing him fix his baby on her seat in the back, shushing her so Sunye doesn't wake up- you don't have to drive me all the way as close as you can get me is okay 

-No I insist besides you didn't charge me for the coffee or the pie tonight 

-This time is really on the house- she chuckles letting him drive, the conversation now soft and light- thank you for bringing me all the way home

-Thanks for having me really late- Sunghoon quickly went down running to her side to open the door for her

-Bye Sunghoon, bye Sunye… thanks again- she walked to the entrance on her building 

-Wait… can I have your cafe number or yours? To order sometimes to go please

-of course you can…- he handed his phone and she wrote the number from her cafe- spoiler for you only, tomorrow I will add chips or fries with every sandwich if you're interested- she smiles handing back his phone

-That's sounds great, I'll have one please, I'll go pick it up around midday 

-I will have it ready, extra seasoning for you- Sunghoon only smiles- good night 

-good night- he went with a warm feeling on his chest, a sweetness that his life was needing so badly

Sunghoon and Sunye became a regular on her cafe, everyday he would order his morning coffee and a piece of Bakery, every Sunday in the afternoon he would go for a slice of pie and a heartwarming conversation with her, usually she would close and they will stay there just chit chatting, he would drive her home and the routine for the next week will start. One Sunday while she was getting his slice of pie and his coffee when he came, hugging his baby tightly against his chest, breath rigged, sweating a little, slamming the door behind him as she looked at him, the blood on his brow running down to his cheek.

-Sit down I'll lock the door- he did it holding his daughter like if his life depended on it- let me see- she got close examining the wound- is not deep I have a first aid kit here I'll clean you don't worry- she smiles not making any questions, but doing her thing with care- probably will leave a scar but nothing to ugly or big, I don't think you'll need stitches

-Thank you I didn't know what else to do except coming here- even if he didn't told her what just happens she knows he needs her- I'm gonna pay you back I promise

-you own me a lot by now with all the awesome favors I do for you- she put on some butterfly closures on his wound- you own me an ice cream now- she smiles big, looking down at Sunye noticing a blood spot- let me see her- Sunghoon shakes his head pressing her more against him- let me, I promise she'll be alright, why don't you make a bottle for her I'll change her clothes and put something warm on her, you wash your hands and come sit your coffee will be cold soon

-Please be careful- with trembling hands he gives her his baby, small and fragile

She started to unwrap her, the blood seems to be from Sunghoon, staining only her blanket, y/n quickly changed her diaper and onesie, putting a sweater and a clean blanket, bouncing her, Sunghoon was impatient to hold her again so she didn't tortured him putting the tiny bundle on his arms.

-are you okay?- she sits in front of him

-yes, just… someone tried to rob me and take Sunye- he holds Sunye kissing her forehead- I was going out work when someone approached me with a gun he hit me before I started to scream and someone helped me, I ran away o just wanted to keep her safe- his eyes reflect all the fear and she holds his hand

-What you did was your best for her and you- she cut a piece of his pie- open big, you need something sweet- she offered him the bite and he didn't complain opening and letting her take care of him.

No more questions, just care, Sunghoon is grateful that she just smiles and pampers him and his daughter after what happened, since the first day she was just there taking care of them without asking him more than what he was ready to share.

On the monday morning she was making Sunghoon's coffee when he arrived, his face telling her he's not happy but exalted, almost worried.

-hi…- she tried to salute when he rushed behind the counter where she is

-I'm sorry but you're the only one I can ask you're the only one I can trust my daughter to be with, please, 20 minutes please, I'll give you whatever you ask me just please help me- he's a little frantic, she opened her arms to hold Sunye

-are you okay?- Sunghoon leaves his daughter on her arms his eyes sparkling with tears

-yes… no… I don't know, but please don't give her to anyone no matter what they say, no matter if it's her grandma or anything please just keep her with you- she was confused by his behavior but still she helped, taking a post it scribbling her phone number

-my personal number in case you need me, my worker has access to the one you have from the store- Sunghoon looks at her, for the first time she's not bubbly but serious helping him with his mess- please take care, whatever is happening… go I'll take care of Sunye

Sunghoon left his daughter and her things there, wiping his tears while getting on his car, to say that y/n was confused is an understatement holding the sleeping baby, calling her worked to ask if she can arrive earlier today to help in the cafe, thankfully her worker didn't took long coming to her rescue; all the customers were surprised to see her with a baby but that only added to her charm, her personality shines more when Sunye is on the little carrier close to her chest, the work day was going smoothly until three big men and an elderly woman came slamming the front door, y/n alerted looks from over the countertop.

-Hold her and take my baby- they got dangerously close to her one of the customers got in the way but received a punch on the face

Y/n and her worker gasped, she put Sunye on her little chair, hiding her under the counter, taking the baseball bat from under the boxes of cans, threatening the men, holding pocket knives and teasers.

-One step more and I'll hit you…- they looked at her smiling that a girl half their size was so feisty- Iroha call the cops and an ambulance- one of them jumped to get her but she swinged hard hearing a crack- I warned you

-get my baby morons I'm paying you a lot- the other tried to grab Iroha but y/n swinged her bat again hitting his back, once distracted the last one holds her from the back, the sirens far away made the woman scream more- hurry up… forget it I'll do it myself- she ran to try grab the baby, Iroha struggling with her to prevent it

-Get off me or you'll regret it- the deep laugh rings on her ears

-I want to see you try, you're not so brave without your weapon- the knife was pinching one of her sizes

Sunghoon rushed inside seeing the scene unfold, his mother in law trying to get his baby, Y/n held captive, blood on the floor, the police going in behind him, that's when she had enough twisting her body she throws the big man over her shoulder, taking her bat to punch him on the abdomen, hearing all the air going out of his body, she jumped over a table to get to the lady pulling her before pinning her to the ground, putting her arm in a lock the police put the guns down seeing her, rushing to aid the men on the floor, paramedics went inside seeing all the injured people, a police agent got close to the screaming woman making y/n let go, Sunghoon tried to run when Sunye started to cry but the police holds him.

-is my daughter, please, let me hold her

-no until someone tells me what is going on

-I have a restriction order against her- Sunghoon pointed the lady- I left my baby with my… with her because someone was trying to get inside my apartment, I went to report the incident only to come back to these- his tears went down his face

-Please calm down, the copy of your order and ID, also any documents with you to prove she's yours- Sunghoon nodded with trembling hands he showed everything on his phone to the officer- now your version ma'am- he looked at her smiling face

-oh well I was taking care of the baby while doing my job when they arrived threatening me, my worker and my customer, they hurt Mrs Ji- she pointed the man with the bag of ice in the cheek- they were carrying knives so I just attacked in self defense, this is my cafe and I won't tolerate anyone hurting anyone for no reason…- she took her phone- I have the recordings from the cameras- she showed the officers everything just as she said

-okay now everything is clarified. Would you like to press charges?

-Yes, she's a criminal- the lady now with a sling holding her arm talked- I want to press charges she's a kidnaper, she hurt me and stole my baby

-Ma’am don't make it difficult for you, you're the one under arrest, you violated the restrictions against you- the lady is frantic screaming and kicking her feet trying to get the officers let go of her

-yes I want to press charges- she's smiling brightly, even when she, Sunghoon and Iroha needed to go to the police to declare and proceed with the case

-Thanks you, for protecting Sunye- Sunghoon finally had his daughter on his arms holding her against his chest while waiting at the police station- I don't know how can I pay you back

-Is nothing, anything for my first client- she still smiling like if this situation wasn't something serious

-Is done you two can leave now, Mrs Shin will be under arrest until her trial so don't worry about her now- they got up taking their belongings getting on his car, where Sunghoon seemed at the edge of collapsing

-Wanna go to my apartment, I can make dinner for us- he only nods his head driving in silence- feel yourself at home, there is the bathroom if you want to wash yourself, change Sunye, you can use my room

-Thanks- she smiles disappearing into her kitchen starting to cook for both, hearing the small sobbing from her bedroom, letting him have his moment, after what happened she understood him

-Is ready for when you want to have dinner- she mentioned at her door seeing him, calm now, looking at his sleeping daughter on her bed

-I'm coming, thank you, sincerely I don't know what would happen if you didn't help

-No biggie- she gave one of her usual smiles, serving two plates of pasta- I hope you like it

Sunghoon felt that warm again, no questions, no uncomfortable conversations, no harmful words or memories just her, telling him about this new flavor of syrup to make cinnamon apple coffee and how she thought maybe will be an icky flavor but turned out better than she expected, he was beyond grateful for what she had done not just today, but everyday since he stepped in the cafe to protect his baby from the rain, her happy voice filled the space and also an empty spot inside of him, the cracks inside him starting to disappear each time her kindness and brightness reached him and everyone else around, just like that it was past midnight and he sighed tiredly.

-I need to go, thank you for everything… I need to find a place to stay, do you mind if I use your computer to book a hotel?

-you can stay here if you want, you can use my bedroom with Sunye, I'll take my sofa- Sunghoon shakes his head but she's already going to her closet searching for extra pillows and blankets- I have a couple pajamas, used to be my dad's you can use them- she handed them to Sunghoon, who was trying to stop her- i have new toothbrushes in my bathroom you can take one, take a shower whatever you need- he stopped her holding her shoulders

-I'm really grateful for what you have done but it won't be correct if I take your space, your bed, if I stay I'll take the sofa

-no, babies need to be comfortable and safe, Sunye can't sleep in a sofa and she needs you next to her… is alright I fall asleep in my living room more often than I should- her sweet smile makes him sigh, giving in and agreeing to stay

-just for tonight while I get someone to change my locks okay?- she nods…

The sounds of a baby crying alerted her, rubbing her eyes in the darkness, then the subtle sound of someone getting up trying his best to not make noise, the steps and a dime light tinkling in the corridor to the kitchen, she got up finding him searching for something while bouncing Sunye.

-I have a pot in the cabinet above your head- y/n got close to him taking the pot and pouring water there to heat it in the stove

-I'm sorry we woke you- she prepared two cups too with tea bags

-Is alright, it's almost time for my middle of the night snack, tea?- she smiles

-yes, please, any flavor is okay for me

-your lucky night I have any flavor tea- she giggles, pouring the water on the mugs and the bottle shaking the formula- let's go to my bed- she walked to sofa holding the mugs while he's already feeding his daughter

-where or how did you learned to fight like that?-she turned on a lamp

-my dad is a jiu jitsu Dan, 9th level red and black belt, he used to teach and I was his best student even tho I only got black belt

-Only black? You said it like if is nothing

-well there's black belt and then 10 levels of Dan and different belts so compared to him is nothing, he also taught me how to play baseball I have a really good arm for swings

-I did see that, real talent for sports, your dad must love it, is not usual for girls to have that… don't get me wrong but I have a sister and she would never want to do something she doesn't consider girly- he laughs for the first time that day

-Is really girly to be sporty

-it is… I was figure skater, a very girly sport

-That's awesome, did you wear sparkling outfits?- he chuckled and nodded his head- do you want to teach her how to skate?

-Probably if it's something she wants and is interested in, whatever she chooses I'll help her no matter anyone else

-What about what her mom says?- his mood changed completely and she knew she shouldn't ask

-her mom… well, she passed away, is something I don't like to talk about- the silence that stretched between them was uncomfortable and she could see is something it hurts

-My dad passed away too… I don't like to say it out loud because is only real when I say it, in my head he's still waiting at home for me- she looks at her mug and the steam

-I'm sorry for your loss

-I'm sorry for yours

-Is okay, we didn't get along well… I mean we weren't together anymore when she found out she was pregnant but we still wanted the baby, we tried again for the sake of Sunye but she had some complications during labor and didn't make it, Sunye was in hospital for almost three weeks in UICN attached to so many machines and tubes, I was afraid to lost her too… my mother in law became nuts after that, she claims that I killed her daughter and kidnapped her grandchild, she's the one from your cafe

-Pain can make you turn nuts, I almost lost my head when my dad passed away… I never actually meet my mom she left one morning when I was still sleeping so it was just my dad and I, together against the world, he was the best dad in the whole universe, no offense- she laughed softly to not wake Sunye

-I'm really offended but I let it slide because I'm staying here tonight- they both laugh, Sunghoon took Sunye to the bedroom to let her sleep going back to the living room with y/n to keep talking

The night went by, they talked about everything in their lives, their childhood, his cancelled wedding, his job, her competitions even showing him some old photos of her from childhood, until the sun started to rise.

-can I tell you a secret?- he nods- I like you, probably I'm falling in love with you- the silence stretches between them and she's regretting her confession- since the first time you went inside my cafe I thought you were good looking, but now it's different… I like that you aren't good at talking but really good at listening. I like your frowns when you're focused on something. Your brows and moles, is really cute when you're loud because something is exciting for you, I like how much you love your daughter… I'm not hoping for you to like me back I just wanted to let it out my chest- she looks at the floor- I really hope this doesn't change what we do or how we act around each other- Sunghoon cups her face pulling her for a kiss, sweet and soft, pulling a part when the little cries made him get up to see his daughter leaving her in a mess, giggling and blushing, she also got up straight to the kitchen to make breakfast for both

He arrived at the kitchen making another bottle for his baby, already changed and clean, they sat to have their own breakfast while she talked a lot again making him smile.

🎶There are many things that I would like to say to you

But I don't know how🎶

Y/n waited and waited, every day of the week with his coffee made, left in the counter until it was cold and she drank it, she saved his slice of pie for their Sunday late night talk, but he never arrived, she took the bus to her home and went to bed early, she didn't want to admit it but she's heartbroken after confessing he just left, y/n couldn't understand what happened why he kissed her if he was gonna leave, why he gave her hope to smash it. By the second week she stopped waiting, she didn't made his coffee and sold the last slice of pie, even if she's trying not to show it but still sometimes when the bell on top of the door rings she's expecting for him to come holding Sunye, but ended disappointed when it was someone else, she tried to keep her smile but going back home she remembers how he often was driving her home.

She changed the sign on the door, closing for the day, cleaning ready to leave, the bell rings and she looks at Sunghoon at the door.

-Is close, tomorrow we open at 8 am- she turned her back on him

-I know… I was waiting outside, we wanted to invite you for dinner, we've been missing you- she's hearing him but didn't move or tried to look at him staying very still- I missed you more than Sunye did… can I tell you a secret?- she turned around- when I came here the first day on a rainy day trying to protect my daughter, I was just finishing my late fiance funeral, I wasn't sure what I felt, I was just empty and cracked, she spent weeks in coma until her body collapsed I thought in my baby, recently she was in a life threatening situation too, the what if, filled my head and didn't let me live but this stranger gave me chocolate and a slice of pie, a warm smile and a contiguous happiness that I never saw before… even if I wasn't sure what I felt she made me feel better like everything will be okay… then I came back, and back again until I couldn't imagine not seeing her, I needed to see that bubbly silly smile saying welcome to Idílico I have your coffee here and a bottle for you too, I couldn't imagine anyone else for me since that day but I didn't knew how to express myself

-That's a silly secret- she's pouting finally looking at him, making eye contact

-Probably, but love is silly anyways- her eyes went big in surprise- oh I forgot to mention but I like you probably I'm falling in love with you… I like your laugh, how you brighten not just mine but everyone's day, how you remember little things like the amount of sugar or milk in orders from your regulars, how you scrunch your nose when you're angry… I love how you swing and how you put people on locks- she laughs- I'm nuts but not because I lost someone but because I didn't want to believe I was falling in love, because I'm a single father in love with a girl that keeps baby formula under her countertop for when I stay late at night listening to her talk, because oh how she likes to talk which is a luck because I love to hear her for hours

-You're lying because… why would you kiss me and then disappear?- she finally cried silently wiping her tears

-because you're saving me in ways I didn't knew I needed to be save, because I wanted to make sure you will be safe without someone threatening even if you can break someone's arm, because I wanted to make sure I was ready, you picked my pieces together without knowing and wouldn't be fair, for you, to let you do it when you know how broken I am, because of Sunye

-She's not the problem because I love her too- she crossed her arms on her chest when Sunghoon got close to her pulling her to him

-I know, and she loves you back- he smiles seeing her red for being so close- can I take you on a date? I'm not going to ask you to be my girlfriend, not tonight, today is apology day, maybe tomorrow with flowers and corny stuff to hear your pitched excited voice

-I don't have a pit…- he kissed her deeply, making her shut up, smiling between the kiss, hearing the little complaint from his baby.

🎶I said, "Maybe

You're gonna be the one that saves me

And after all

You're my wonderwall”🎶

[en-trashy]

May I asked why you write the dialog with (-...), instead of ("...")?

I didn't meant anything rude! I LOVE your works! Just wondering, is this you type of style to write a story?

It's totally fine to ask.

It's actually something really silly, because it's the usual way to write dialogue for theater and books, so I like it, I read a lot (besides fanfiction) and I like the way it looks.

Usually for books is to use the long hyphen without the space between the word for the characters intervention, so is something that sticks with me, I use the short hyphen as a personal mark and also because I think is cute because in my head is related to Enhypen

P.s I'm so glad you like what I wrote, XO

[en-trashy]

Love again 심재윤

Don't leave, just love me and him

Tw: mention of child neglecting, idol Jake, nanny reader, fluff? Idk but more daddy enhypen

This was supposed to be a birthday post for Jake but my work over consumed my time and I wasn't motivated

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The lady in front of her didn't show any positive reaction to her resume, or negative or a reaction in general, she fixed her clothes pulling her cardigan down feeling her throat dry and itchy.

-Any allergies or health problems that we should know?- the lady looked at her with scrutiny

-no ma'am, here I have a copy of my medical record and my last test results- she searched on her briefcase handing the paper- I also have letters from the previous families that I worked for, my certificate of…

-You're on probation for a week. It's strictly confidential because of the type of people here who will be around you and the child, he's the most important human being right now for you, I'll give you a list of do and don't, likes, allergies, schedule, everything about him- the lady gets up leaving her there, did she got the job?- follow me, we don't have all day- y/n ran to catch her going into a meeting room the lady gave her some papers- learn and memorize this I'll be back in a minute

She nods reading, schedule, medical records, appointments, a list of what the child likes and what he doesn't. She tried to learn as much as she can now, writing notes on her phone seeing the lady coming back smiling holding a little infant’s hand, she smiles seeing how cute the baby is.

-Joon, say hi- the little child hides behind the lady's legs only waving- Joonie she's y/n she's gonna play with you when daddy is working okay?- the child slowly goes out standing shyly there seeing her- I'll leave you two to get to know each other, here's the map of the building so you don't get lost, I'll contact you before you clock out okay? Have a nice day- y/n and Joon stayed there alone

-hi, Jaejoon… I'm so happy to meet you

-hi… are you friend of my daddy?- the sweet tiny voice made her smile

-yes, and I also can be yours- she smiles kneeling to face him receiving a smile from him

It's been over a month now since she started her new job as a nanny, Jaejoon is her entire routine and a complete joy, he's a sweetheart well behaved and so polite it stills amazes her when he asks for things, her routine is simple yet so fun for her, she arrives 10 am to pick him up from the pre-k, takes him to have lunch, then to the building where his dad works, they stay there playing and doing his homework until is time for dinner, at 9 PM she lefts him in a studio with one of the staff and she goes home, her days off are on Sundays and she's starting to build a good life, the payment is good, her “boss” is kind as far as she knows since y/n had never saw or talked with the father of Jaejoon but he sometimes send some messages thanking her and giving her an extra, usually everything is through the staff around them telling them things Jaejoon’s dad asked for, she's grateful liking so much her days filled with tiny laughs and sometimes tantrums but even those days she's so grateful to have find a job she enjoys.

-... 8, 9 and 10, I'm coming now- she lifts her face looking around the room- Joonie I'm close… here you're- she moved the curtains finding only his shoes but not Joon, she frowns- you hide very well but my x-rays tell me you're… here- she looked under the table but no, usually every time she's searching him she hears his giggles but now is just silence- Joonie you won- she didn't have an answer feeling the panic slowly creeping on her body- Joonie let's go for ice cream for the winner you won baby- still no response, then she saw the door open- fuck, fuck

Y/n quickly went out of the room they were, seeing all the people that is today at the building since is a shoot of a show there's cameras and more staff, panic started to fill her body as she cannot see Jaejoon anywhere, there's so much people and he's so small, what if someone took him? She's gonna lose her job and worse, she's going to jail for neglecting a child, she tried to keep her cool but the fear was visible on her factions, that's when she heard it, Jaejoon's laugh, clear and happy, she ran down the hall finding the place of the shooting, they're taking a break and she's frantic looking around the room, hearing him again.

-I'm sorry, have you seen a little boy?-the camera shakes his head, and she just goes following the laughing of Joon crashing with some people there- sorry…

-Did you lose something?- she turned around to the man holding a happy Joon who quickly extended his arms to her

-Oh my thank you so much

-I won I won- Joon started to kick his little legs when she held him against her chest, hugging his little body to her, feeling her soul coming back, her eyes stinging with tears- why sad? I won

-I know, you did so well but you scared me, you ran away when I couldn't see you I thought someone took you away from me- his little hands cup her face pouting and him tearing up

-I was a bad Joonie?- his little tears fall too

-no, never, you're my sweetpie, but you have to tell me when you want to go to other place so I can take you with me

-but I wanted to tell dad that I won- her heart melts for him hugging Joon more

-you can tell him everything we do when he finish work okay?, you have to stay with me in the meantime- she wipes gently his tears- let's go for your ice cream okay?- Jaejoon hugs her resting his head on her shoulder, she turns smiling- thank you so much sir

-no problem- his gentle smile made her feel at ease, he was really good looking but with the scare she didn't have time to actually pay attention to him

She started to go carrying Joon when her phone vibrated, the message was clear and drained the color of her face “I knew you lost Jaejoon moments ago, is he okay?” She immediately apologized and explained what happened, watching the little kid eating his ice cream unaware of everything.

The rest of the day she didn't dared to be two steps apart from Joon, picking up her things she takes his sleeping figure to the studio where the usual producer takes care of him until his dad is available again, she say bye kissing his forehead and leaving quietly, she collided with someone outside of the studio.

-I'm sorry I was distracted- the man only laugh

-Is alright if you know where your Jaejoon is- she lifts her face frowning but quickly she knew who he was, the same person that found Joon before

-He's fine, were you the one who told his dad about it?- he shakes his head

-no, I was busy with the shooting- she sighed- do you want to go out someday?- she looks confused at him

-excuse me?

-Sorry probably didn't sound so great, first my name is Jake- he extended his hand and she took it

-I know who you're, everyone working in Hybe knows it- Jake smiles at her

-Fair enough… I know it didn't sound good at first but I have saw you around,I know you're the nanny of Jaejoon, also I think you're cute so maybe we can go out sometime-she doubts but sincerely it sounded good, it's been quite a while since the last time she went out with someone and dating someone famous can be exciting

-maybe… I'm free on Sundays

-I know a really good place to eat on Sundays- he smiles and she does too since is contagious

-fine, 3 PM on the main door don't be late- she started to walk hearing him laugh

-I'm not three like Jaejoon you know?

-Fine then don't come at three and we cancel the date- she gives him a last smile leaving to the corridor

She left smiling, leaving him doing the same, something in him felt familiar like a type of familiarity of an old acquaintance, of a friend from childhood that you see after many years, his personality made everyone feel like that… y/n was so happy the rest of the week finding Jake more often in the hybe building, but maybe it was that now she's aware he's around, especially because he jokes saying three o’clock instead of hi, she rolled her eyes each time.

-That’s very rude- the tiny voice made her look at Joon- you did like this- he rolled his own eyes and she finds him really cute

-Did I? Oh my… guess I won't have jam sandwiches today- she pouts

-is okay is a mistake I can give you little of mine

-Oh my little prince is so sweet, so cute- she kiss his cheeks making him giggle

Sunday arrived earlier than she expected, finding herself nervous to go on a date especially because it was with someone she barely talked to and someone famous, she was walking through the door finding Jake already waiting for her, she got close.

-Sorry did you wait too much?- Jake smiles

-no, but you're still early- he gives her a smile- any place in particular you want to go?

-Only that place you promised- Jake smiles putting on a hat and a mask going out the building with her- so what do you do in your free time?

-not much actually I'm still studying pedagogy, I'm a pretty boring person actually

-I don't think so, I saw you playing with Joon he only talks about you every time I see him, you must be really fun to be around, none of his previous nannies had that effect on him- he is sincere

-Really? I really hope I'm doing a good job I shouldn't but I really love him, he's my little joy from work- she confessed

-it shows, each time you're with him but I won't tell your secret about falling in love with your little boss- he winks an eye making her laugh

-well thanks I was about to buy your silence with an ice cream

-Now that I think better probably I can spill the truth about you, but ice cream would keep me quiet- Jake looks at her with puppy eyes and she chuckles finding him cute

-but no chocolate is too much sugar- Jake laughs

-is a deal

Y/n enjoyed his company, it was easy to be around him, Jake was playful but still a gentleman, he opened the doors for her and refused her payment after their meal, even at the ice cream shop when she was the one that promised to treat him some.

-Keep your money for yourself- he handed his card

-Is not fair, I invited you here besides I got an extra this week, my kind boss gave me my extra hours

-oh so kind of him, must be a good man

-I guess- she shrugs her shoulders while he arch a brow in a questioning manner- I have never saw him or talked with him in person, they made me sign a confidential agreement so I can't ask for him or even talk about him, I don't even know his real name he's just Mr J for me to address, and I'm not sure if he does have a wife or not Joon only mentioned Mrs J once

-he did?- Jake sounded surprised- he never really talked about his mom, after she left Joon stopped talking actually, he was sent to pre k because of that so maybe they can help him develop his communication skills again, is still surprising for everyone that he opened so quickly to you, now he doesn't stop talking- now she was the one surprised

-I didn't knew that

-Only a few know what happened to Mrs J is something that Joon's dad doesn't like to talk about, neither that others mention something related

-oh…- she didn't have a good feeling so she stopped digging- and what do you do when you're not famous?

-not much I like to stay at home and do nothing, outside the idol life I'm pretty boring- he smiles flirting

-seems like we're really boring

-perfect for each other, a match made in heaven

She blushed intensely while Jake keeps flirting and making her feel like the only girl in the world, he makes her laugh and it's really attentive to everything she says about herself, Jake compliments the way she looks or her reactions calling her pretty each time and that made her tummy flutter, even more when they went back to Hybe just standing there, only looking at each other and she was sure he's gonna kiss her, she can feel the tension of the wonderful day they spend together, he got really close their lips brushing, she closed her eyes impatient for the clash.

-I'm sorry- she opened her eyes only to find him walking away, she felt insulted and thrown away frowning and leaving immediately.

The next day she did her usual routine, arriving at Hybe to prep everything for when Jaejoon is out of pre k, she saw Jake coming closer to her so she just put on headphones and walked away to go pick Joon, trying to avoid as much possible the building, even making a picnic near the river to keep the child distracted and them far from the building, she just sent the message to his dad to tell him about the activity and don't look like if she ran way with the child, she tried to forget about Jake, playing and running around until both were tired, Joon quickly fell asleep so she carried her back to the building leaving him on his usual spot on the sofa to sleep while she gets comfortable too next to him sleeping too while holding him.

By the time she woke up it was almost her time to go home, Joon was eating some yogurt and strawberries, she didn't buy any of that rubbing her eyes she sat taking a wet wipe to clean his mouth.

-Where did you get these baby?- she questioned him softly

-my daddy bring them for us, he left a cup for you- she pointed the coffee cup on the table and she felt embarrassed- he said that is almost time to go home today

-Is that so?- she's sending a message apologizing for falling asleep while taking care of Joon

-yep I told him about our day, he's so happy we play a lot- he said so innocently and happy

The message from Mrs J was so dry, “leave Joon on the studio when you wake up, you can leave early”

She did as he said kissing Joon's forehead before leaving, on the way to the exit she found Jake on the corridor she tried to avoid him but he ran to her, holding her hand.

-Hey… I'm sorry for last nigh- she turned her face- I know it was wrong but I felt afraid, you're the first girl I date in a long time and I really got carried away but I started to think what if I make her uncomfortable and she hates me, now you hate me because I was afraid of fucking things, please give me one more chance, I promise I'll do things right this time- she slowly turns seeing his puppy eyes

-Fine but you own me a coffee and it won't be just like that, you made me feel like an idiot

-I'm really sorry I will work my way back to your forgiveness- his phone rings- I gotta go, I promise I'll do things right this time- he quickly pecks her lips before running away leaving her speechless.

The next morning when she arrived at work Jake was waiting at the door holding two cups of coffee, smiling so big, as soon as he saw her he ran to her taking the heavy bag full of Joon's things, giving her a kiss on the forehead.

-Morning, did you have breakfast? Because if not I was thinking maybe we can have some before you need to start taking care of Jaejoon

-Only a bread before coming here- Jake took her hand guiding her to the cafeteria ordering for both- you're really trying don't you?- he shrugged his shoulders

-Maybe, but only because I think I really like you- she blushed and let him take care of her.

Days with Jake became, weeks, then months, until she was fully in love now and sure he feels the same, tonight they were two months into dating celebrating at her place eating ramen it was simple both in underwear after sharing a moment together, watching TV and giving each other kisses and fleeting touches, his phone rings and he sighed.

-I have to go tomorrow I need to be early at the airport you know schedule outside- he started to get dress- I'll call you as soon as I land okay?- he cups her face kissing her passionately- only a week or so- he gets up leaving shortly after

She got ready for bed to wake up early… the week without Jake felt off, already used to seeing him every morning waiting with coffee for her, to have breakfast together, the little dates while Joon is sleeping or at pre-k, now without him it shows that her mood isn't the best.

-I'm a good Joon?- the sweet little voice took her out of her phone

-of course you are why you ask?- he slowly climbs the sofa to her cuddling on her arms

-Daddy is getting a new mommy, but she's taking my daddy to no be with me… he's gonna leave me like my mommy…- his tears fall and she wipes them softly- I don't wanna another mommy I want you with me and my daddy alone… cause, cause mommies leave when you bad

-No my sweetheart, you're a good baby, nobody is gonna leave you again- she kiss his hair hugging his body to her

-why my mommy leave?- his big puppy eyes sparkled with tears

-Is complicated baby, your mommy needed to be in another place, and if you have a new mommy will be someone who loves you and takes care of you and your daddy

-you don't love me?- he cried more

-I do a lot my little baby, but I work for your daddy, I won't leave you and I will take care of you in the meantime- she cradles his body swinging softly- guess what I'm gonna stay with you tonight since your daddy is away and grandma too, would you like that?- Joon got extremely happy jumping

-yes, we can have a pajama party

-It will be like this all week until daddy is back- she takes his bag and carries him to the van so they can go to her apartment

-Is this miss y/n?- the voice on the phone sounds worried

-yes, who's this?

-I'm miss Kim, Jaejoon's principal, he got involved in a fight- she feels the world collapsing

-Is he hurt? Is he alright?

-yes, he's not injured but we're concerned this is not a typical behavior of him, we need you to come immediately, we tried to contact Mr Sim but we didn't have success, you're the second emergency contact, how soon can you be here?- Mr Sim? Like Jake?

-give me 10 minutes I'll be there, thank you for calling

She ran to his institute, arriving in less of what she planned, going straight to the principal's office.

-Thank you for coming with such a short notice

-Thank you for calling me, is Joon alright?

-he is, but it's concerning this type of behavior on him, he's usually a calm child, very introvert, we sometimes have a hard time trying to integrate him with the others, but today he was the one that initiated the fight, he punched one of his peers- she's surprised covering her mouth- apparently the other kid it's been picking on him telling Jaejoon that his mom left because he's a weird kid- it made sense why he asked for reassurance everyday, why he was afraid of being left alone- Jaejoon said that you are his new mommy- she gasped- the other kid called him a liar that no one would want to be his mom and that's when Jaejoon hit him

-it’s the other child fault he's been harassing my baby- the door open suddenly and Jake got in, freezing when he noticed her

-Sorry, I was in a meeting- she looks at him not surprised but confused

-mr Sim, please take a seat, I was telling miss y/n about the incident and my concern with Jaejoon, as I mentioned in my emails, I think it will be better for him to stop seeing miss y/n, being under her care is causing confusion and distress on him, I know is a complicated situation what you went through Mr Sim, but in my professional opinion is the best for Jaejoon to have a different nanny, one less attached to him

-but… I'm not doing anything wrong- she looks at Jake- please no

-y/n we'll talk about this other day, can I take him home now?- the principal talked to her secretary to bring Joon, when they walked out of the office Joon ran to Jake who immediately picked him up

-Daddy Joonie missed you- his little arms wrapped tightly on Jake's neck- mommy, mommy you came- Joon tried to reach for her and when she extended her arms Jake took his son away

-Please leave y/n I'll call you later, I'll send your money

-Mommy please no leave- Joon cried but Jake took him away into the car waiting for them, she stayed there seeing how Jake took away Joon, leaving her and him broken and crying

Three days, three days without any trace of Jake or Joon, when she tried to go into Hybe the next day security didn't let her, claiming it was an order that she wasn't allowed inside until new notice, she left broken trying to call Jake but it was rejected all the time, she tried with the phone of “Mr J” but it was the same, she only wanted an explanation, something, why she lost her job? Her boyfriend? Why couldn't she be near Joon? What did she do wrong?.

In the afternoon someone knocked on her door, she opened with her messy hair, her eyes bloodshot from crying and so wrecked she didn't care, Jake saw her for a moment not recognizing her.

-sorry to bother you but… Joon is missing- she stopped for a moment- I know it's not fair to ask but please help

-Shut up- She closed the door on his face taking off her dirty sweater and putting on a t-shirt from the laundry basket- let's go quickly before I regret going with you- she put on her shoes walking to the elevator

-Thank you… I just want to say sorry for

-Really I don't want to hear you, if I'm going is because of Joon not you- she put on the best poker face she have, pretending that she's not hurt

In the car she asked the driver to go to Joon's favorite park, right behind Jake's apartment. She went out as soon as the security opened the door, it was already dark but she walked firmly to the playground, going to the little house between the trees.

-baby is me… Joonie is time to go home- she found him curled up on the corner of the house hugging his backpack crying- hi my sweetie- she opened her arms and Joon ran to her hugging her while crying

-you promise you won't leave, you said you love Joonie- the little kid cried harder as soon as her arms wrapped on him

-I do love you, but sometimes people needs to leave

-but I want you to be my mommy- Jake heard that and couldn't help but to feel like the worst dad in the world because he was the reason Jaejoon is feeling this way

It took around 20 minutes to calm him and convince him to go home, once there it took her over an hour to get him to sleep and when he finally did, she gave a kiss on his hair taking her things to go, in the living room was Jake hearing how his baby cried, how she sings for him and gave reassurance of how much his daddy loves him.

-Joon complained about how you give him the milk too hot, he likes it warm, and he prefers the green dinosaur cup not the blue, in the morning he likes when you call him Joonie to wake him, he's more happy the days you give him a kiss before he goes inside his class, he likes to hear that you love him even if it obvious for you, he's still afraid you gonna leave like his mom did- she wipes her tears- thank you for the opportunity to work and to be with Jaejoon- she bows and started to leave, Jake back hugged her

-Please don't go, I missed you so much, not just Jaejoon… let me explain myself then if you still want you can leave- he pulled her to the sofa sitting with her on his lap wiping her tears- I'm sorry I did the same as our first date and just walked away without telling you anything

-I don't know what I did wrong- she sobbed her words- I know it's wrong that I'm so attached to him… and that I was dating his dad but… I tried my best- she broke on his arms letting Jake cradle her like if she's a child

-you did nothing wrong- he kissed her temple- was? But I'm still yours, all yours- she sobbed harder at that making Jake hug her tighter- I'm really sorry but Jaejoon is my baby, I would want the best for him… I should have listened to you when you tried to explain yourself but I only listened to his principal, he's not doing good now he thinks you abandoned him- she cried more- but I told him you wouldn't do something like that, that it was daddy's fault that's why he tried to ran away and search for you to come back, apparently my three year old has more courage than me

-Why didn't you tell me he was your son?- her lip is trembling trying to hold back her emotions

-Well some of his nannies tried to get to me through him, they neglected him or simply ignored him, that's why I made that confidential thing so you wouldn't know he's my baby, so you would do what was supposed to be, but I saw you so dedicated to him, you truly care for him and I couldn't help but to slowly fall for you… when we started to date I didn't want to tell you about him because I was afraid, what if you change the way you treat him?... when his mom left- his voice broke making clear it's something that still hurts

-I'm not her

-I know… but sometimes it still hurts… Jaejoon's mom wasn't ready to be a mom so she left when he was really little, I did my best to keep him safe and that nobody outside de company knew about him, it was until this year that she came back, Joon was happy for over a month it was like she was here all the time, Joon ran behind her but the day… when she left again she told me she doesn't like kids that having Joon was a mistake… he heard her that's why he is like this now, he stopped being my baby that spark in him was off until you bring it back- he cups her face giving a small pecks on her lips- you did bring my baby back, that's why I was so afraid of what can happen, you are holding the happiness of my own happiness I don't want him to be hurt again… I love you like a lot but I was ready to drop that to protect Joon without realizing that you are the one that make the both of us happy, like we never been before- she's pouting hearing him, cupping his face to wipe the little tears running down his face, seeing him like this so vulnerable, made her realize how much alike he and Joon are

-Joon have your eyes and the same laugh, I still can't believe I didn't realize is your replica- she leans to kiss him slow, pouring her heart on the kiss

-please stay, Joon needs you… I need you I didn't know I was so lost until you found me- he keeps kissing her until they're out of breath, Jake started to touch her not so subtle until she pushed him a little

-Joon is sleeping, we can't do it, and I need to go home- Jake pulled her more to him

-stay the night please- he keeps kissing her desperately talking between the kisses, pleading for her to stay- please mommy- she smacked him playfully giggling- he adores you… and I do too

-I adore you too Mr J- Jake smiles getting up with her walking to his bedroom

-Maybe you can be Mrs J from now own- he lays down with her on his arms, snuggling under the sheets

-Daddy… daddy- the distressed voice of Joon ripped the silence, Jake got up going to his son's room she immediately heard the crying- mommy left me don't love Joonie

-Y/n does love you a lot but no more than daddy loves you- Jake got inside his room holding his crying little son- in fact I think she love both of us

-but she left me daddy- the little sniffles broke her heart

-No baby I didn't leave- Jaejoon turned around

-Mommy mommy- his sweet high pitched voice was full of excitement- mommy you love me, you love me- she opened her arms and Jake let his son on bed, who quickly climbed on her hugging her tight like if she's gonna disappear in any moment

-of course I love my little prince- she kiss his hair- so much I told you I won't leave- Joon cups her face giving her kisses on her hair too, Jake gets on bed too

-no kisses for daddy?- Joon detached himself from her to kiss Jake's cheek- that's better… now let's sleep because you have school tomorrow and I have to work and mommy too

-you gonna stay here in the morning mommy?- she looks at her with big puppy eyes just like Jake

-yes baby, come here get inside- she opened the sheets letting Joon snuggle on her side- come here too daddy- Jake got in his side, with Joon in the Middle of them

-Good night, I love you… both of you- he leaned to kiss her lips and his son's hair

The three of them snuggle together like a family, with this opportunity to love again, to find their place next to each other.

Fin.

More daddy enhypen, let me know what you think, thanks for reading me little stranger love you

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En-trashy Kinktober/Spooktober

Master list

Heeseung ⋆ Sparks [Frankenstein, corpse, smut, angst] Glint [fluffy Heeseung birthday special]

Jay ⋆ Bite [vampire, smut, destinated lovers]

Jake ⋆ Xiba [underworld, smut, pregnancy, dub con]

Sunghoon ⋆ Beast [werewolf, smut, knotting, mate, non con]

Sunoo ⋆ Arson [yandere, obsession, murder, dark romance, smut]

Jungwon ⋆ Pray [demon, summoning, smut, soft Dom, anal play]

Ni-ki ⋆ Scream [ghost face, murder, yandere, smut]

Kinktober/Spooktober 2025

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Now that it's over I would love to know which one was your favorite.

my fav Kink/Spook

Sparks (Hee)

Glint (Hee BDay special)

Bite (Jay)

Xiba (Jake)

Beast (Hoon)

Arson (Sunoo)

Pray (Won)

Scream (Ni-ki)

Voting ended onNov 10, 2025

I really hope you enjoyed my Kinktober Spooktober fics, I feel like I'm not really good at writing smut but I gave my all on it, thanks for reading me little strangers.