I’m in a constant state of sadness seeing all the devastation in Palestine. The Palestinian cause has always been something I’ve held close to my heart. Coming from a Muslim background, I’ve been taught the history of the region since I was very young.
In 2021, I remember so vividly seeing the evictions in Sheikh Jarrah. I remember emailing MPs, my council leaders and my principals - something which came from a place of hope and optimism. I was raised to be hopeful and optimistic.
But to be seeing a literal rewriting of present day events, world leaders gaslighting and manipulating the people they’re meant to represent, I’ve been feeling so hopeless. I don’t really know why I’m posting this I feel like I just need to get it off my chest.
I don’t understand how anyone is okay. I go into work and everyone seems to be going about their day blissfully ignorant. It’s so infuriating for me when I hear them say they don’t keep up with the news because it’s all just sad. What a privilege it is to just ignore everything.
My fyp makes me sick to my stomach. ‘Rich people who rich right’, ‘preventative Botox’…. And then there’s a Palestinian boy carrying his dead father on a bike. ‘Grwm for my hotgirl walk’. And then a Palestinian family dancing on TikTok so people can see they’re human and maybe feel a shred of empathy.
I genuinely cannot understand how anyone can go about their day anymore. I know that these feelings are so so so stupid. Because I’m so disgustingly privileged. And there are actual real people on the brink of death. I feel so frozen in time. And I wish I could do something, but I can’t, and the people that can, won’t.
I don’t believe in desensitisation. I don’t believe that if you see too many dead children buried under rubble, that you won’t care the 100th time. I hate that this is becoming normal for so many people. This isn’t normal and I can’t understand any of it.
I really hate the person I’m becoming. I feel so incredibly hateful and angry. And it’s such a challenge to have even a morsel of hope. I’ve never felt so hopeless in my life. I do everything I can within my means, but when every single person in a position of power is ass kissing Isr@el, telling all of us that what we’re seeing isn’t true. That these men, women, children, that they’re all guilty of some sort of crime? What are we supposed to do
This is really bleak and it’s disgustingly privileged. I just need to get this out somewhere. Free Palestine forever and always. May every single person who has supported this Isr@eli regime feel the pain of the Palestinians tenfold. May the Palestinians continue to have their strength and their courage and their faith.
