i read your diary every line i wanna drink your words like wine

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(m)DWYM Chapter Wordcount/Progress Report

Okay I’m putting the warning here at the top:

THIS BLOG IS NO LONGER A SPOILER-FREE ZONE. I AM TALKING SPOILERS FOR THE REST OF THE STORY IN ASKS, POSTS, AND TAGS BEYOND THIS POST. READ THROUGH AT YOUR OWN RISK.

Okay click for the (spoiler-free) updates on the chapter wordcounts. 

Hello my friends.

Okay here’s the dealio. I posted at the end of Chapter 29 that the upcoming chapters would take longer because they were longer. Thing is, they didn’t just get longer; they ballooned. But I don’t want to split the chapters to post in smaller pieces because it’s not how I write, and also the idea of taking all the time I need to write and revise the last chapters of a years-long fic sounds really good to me right now.  So here’s what I’m going to do:

This is a pinned post with a tally of where I’m at with each chapter. If that helps people endure the longer wait times, awesome, and if it helps soothe any anxiety that I might actually walk away from Destruction with only seven EIGHT nine fuck my life (EDIT: PLUS A SIDE STORY) chapters to go, even awesomer. This is for you guys, thanks for going on this journey with me.  

(Here’s what we’re not going to do, though. We’re not going to use it as a stick to poke me with -- aka, asking why certain wordcounts haven’t been updated in a certain amount of time, prompting me to “update” the report, etc. There’s a lot of stuff going on in my life. Fanfic is only one thing. It’s supposed to be the thing which brings me joy and an escape from more stressful parts of my life; please do not contribute towards making it stressful by pressuring me to write more/faster/etc. I love talking about you guys in general about the fic, but that pressure is the quickest way to get me to stop working on it for the sake of my mental health.)

Okay! Here’s the current progress report: CHAPTER 30: 16K (POSTED, BITCHES) CHAPTER 31: 25K (POSTEDDD) CHAPTER 32: 19K (full draft, to be edited)

CHAPTER 33: (drafting) CHAPTER 34: 1.5K (drafting)

CHAPTER 35: 17K (full draft, to be edited)

SIDE STORY: [just kill me] 

CHAPTER 36: (drafting)  CHAPTER 37: (drafting) [YES I HAD TO ADD ANOTHER CHAPTER BECAUSE HELL IS EMPTY AND ALL THE DEVILS ARE HERE]  

[aidashakur]

trials and tribulations ass year

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So, funny story: I read A Forfeit of Dreams when I was a teenager, adored it, grew up, became a medieval historian, and moved to Venice last year. I'm packing up to move back to the US and wrapping up research for an article on Venetian sumptuary law. It was such a minor detail in the AFOD dream sequence chapters, but every now and then I remember the connection and am very amused.

Glad to see you back online!

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HEEEEEY that's so cool! Did you enjoy Venice? Was it a weird place to do academia, or a good one? I had an Italian prof in grad school and I had to explain third wave feminism to her, I never knew if it was because she was Italian or because she was a film professor.

I'm so tickled to think of what details reoccur like that in our lives. I have a very clear memory of checking out almost a dozen books from my uni library, pre Google being a reliable research tool, for that chapter. It was probably the moment I realized how much I loved writing, doing all that studying for one fic chapter when I could barely get it together for my actual homework lmao

It was good to be back -- very good -- but now I'm going back to ground again. I will miss you all. But I hope I will see you again soon, and for a much longer and productive period.

[eztehaim-deactivated20210718]

I really don’t know what crowd I expected to be in the theatre for carol at 1:20 in the afternoon on a friday but it was probably 85% old people, old het couples and halfway through the movie this old lady in front of me turned to the old dude next to her and just said “harold they’re lesbians”

[lerayon]

Honoring 10 years of “harold they’re lesbians.” Many happy returns to all who celebrate.

[bbmbabyh20]

oh

[afloweroutofstone]

I don't care how much AI chatbots do to discredit use of the em-dash and the using-too-many-hyphens-to-describe-complex-concepts-in-noun-form, they will never take these things from me. I have been overusing em-dashes in my online writing for longer than some of my followers have been alive. I did not get the em-dash from ChatGPT, ChatGPT got the em-dash from me. Molon labe

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will we ever get to read your other stories? i'm intrigued

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the original ones? sure, if you stick around long enough -- they're all in deeply varying stages of development.

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Hi! Do you have any fics you absolutely adore (other then your own of course 🤭)?

Asked a person who's in a slump they can't get out of 🫠

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fic recs are always complicated for me but

wariangle was one of my first true-blue Clexa faves and I also adored the Furiosa/Angharad fic; I haven't caught up since but I'm delighted to see they're posting in newer fandoms (House of the Dragon, Agatha All Along)

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Just wanted to let you know that even though time has passed since I read it, I catch myself still thinking of the scene where Lexa calls Clarke just for to turn, you know the one - she had been waiting to say her name and have Clarke turn after hearing it. I cannot explain why I find this part so rommantic and why it has not only stayed with me but also somehow become part of me. Thanks for writing it

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First: thank you for reaching out and letting me know this, bunny. It really does mean so much.

Second: okay, you know what's funny? This is one of the first pieces of dialogue I brainstormed for the story. (For the curious, it was this along with "yes, I liked you" and the entire spitting scene, which I imagined before the Season 3 premiere. I was pretty proud of myself for intuiting their dynamic so well.) I always saw it as a very essential part of the trajectory of their relationship. Because -- as I've talked about for earlier asks and comments -- Clarke is a victim of some things in Destruction, but she's definitely not helpless, and she definitely worked to hide as much of herself as possible from Lexa up until it was advantageous to reveal it. That's why she never learned the Woods Clan version of Sign, it's why she never tried to help Lexa figure out her name, or in fact any name to call her, while they were still in the tower together. And this was acknowledged by Lexa at the time, who made it a point to, uh, basically point out: you're not letting me truly know you.

So this moment is a metaphorical acknowledgement that they are in a different place. Lexa learned Clarke's name ages ago, by this point, but of course for a long time after that she was trying to pretend they never knew each other at all, it was all lies, they had no real claim on each other. But here they are in the forest: several revelations and confrontations (on either side) later. Working together again. Talking about who they are, or want to be, to each other again. And I always felt it was significant that here's the moment Lexa can call out for Clarke using Clarke's name -- I know you, I'm asking for you, the person you truly are. And Clarke can turn to her in response -- yes, that's me, I hear you and I'm here for you. It's the completion of one of the relationship arcs they started in the tower.

So, yeah, I'm glad it resonates so deeply for you. I always thought of it as a big moment.

[peppermintsandbones5]

RIP Lydia Bennet you would’ve loved watching tik toks at full volume in public

[sabertoothwalrus]

age gap yuri

[silver-hibiscus]

Elphaba rlly said "i need you to fix the government" as her last words to the love of her life

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Rizal Badar's beautiful fanart for Wicked: For Good.

[ex-robin]

Average DCU fan right now

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[konoko]

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Hi! I am loving (m)dwym and just can't stop reading it! It's 2am and I am on the last chapter currently and just can't stop reading.

I just wanted to ask if there is a side story or a small part of a chapter in Lexas POV planned for the future.? I would love to see what's going on in her head.

Thank you for all the hard work you put into the story (you can really feel the soul in the fic and I love it) and Happy Holidays 💜

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thank you for telling me you're enjoying Destruction, bunny! it means the world

sorry, bunny, there is another side story coming up but it's from a non-Clarke, non-Lexa POV

I did write two shorter stories from Lexa's POV for another series, the daemon au, but I find her POV very intense to write from; Clarke is a lot more fun.

Clarke and Lexa do talk more about what was going on in Lexa's brain earlier in the story in future Destruction chapters, if it helps. ❤️