Just plain nerdy

"You are environmental Sweet Briar women. You should be changing the world, not your iTunes music." Dr. David Orvos.

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I walked into work this morning and one of the guys from the night shift said, "Whoa, you've gotten so skinny!" I was confused. "Um, I don't think so but thank you." There have been a few people in the last few weeks that have said something similar. So I sat down and thumbed through photos. I found one from 2016 when I was in Alaska, just a few weeks after my #thyroidectomy surgery and I put it beside a photo from the other night after the gym. Same shirt, same woman. I have a hard time seeing what others see. When I look in the mirror, more often than not, I still see the 220 pound woman who was fighting for her life in 2016. I was miserable in every way possible. I've changed since then. I'm still Tiffany but just a healthier and happier version. I just need to remind myself that my body is changing just as much as my mind and soul. #flashbackfriday #facetofacefriday #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink #womenwholift #pickshitupandputitdown

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This is your not so typical #transformationtuesday post.. Without fail, every Tuesday there are a flood of transformation posts, mostly with side by side photos of individuals who have lost weight. While there is nothing wrong with these posts and I commend all who have lost weight because it's not easy to do, it's important to acknowledge that not all transformations are visible. Like my invisible diseases that I fight every single day, my transformation has been mostly unseen. The biggest changes are (but not limited to) 1.) Depression and anxiety are better; 2.) Cravings for unhealthy items have gone down; 3.) My mental clarity is better/brain fog has gone away; 4.) Improved periods and 5.) And I should probably emphasize this one the most... I am currently at a LOW-ZERO risk of my cancer coming back. My transformation is just as important as someone who has lost 50-100+ pounds. Please don't discredit those of us who have transformations that cannot be seen. #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink #womenwholift #pickshitupandputitdown

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Repost from @fatgirlfedup because it's a good one, and relevant to my life. 👏👏👏 #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink #womenwholift #pickshitupandputitdown

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Right in the feels.... 💚💖💜

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💖💜💚 #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink

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Dear @ohhshititsclaudia , I don't even remember how I found you on Instagram but I'm so glad that I did. You're honest, funny, motivating, inspiring, stunning inside and out and just an overall badass. Excited to represent your merch both inside and outside of the gym. Keep killing the game! #withoutfuckery #ohhshititsclaudia #womenwholift #pickshitupandputitdown #powerlifting

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THIS!!! 💜💖💚 Repost from @awake_spiritual ...

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A year ago today, Ms. Dorothy (our supervisor) had her last day at work. I totally cried and I'm not even ashamed to say that. When someone has made such an impact on your life, it's hard knowing you won't get to see them as much as you once could. She always has the best advice but I will never forget one of the last things she told me before she retired. "You need to forgive yourself. It's not your fault that your mom died, it's not your fault that you were sexually assaulted and harassed, it's not your fault that your ex left, and it's not your fault that you got cancer. Forgive yourself and you will find the greatest happiness for your life." Thanks Ms. Dorothy. Can't wait until you come home to visit so we can take you out. 💜💖💚

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Today seems appropriate to open up about something I've been dealing with: self love. The short version is this. Self love is fucking hard. But if you're curious about the long version, feel free to read on. The last few weeks I've been having a hard time loving myself. I finally reached a breaking point at work Monday afternoon. Work was nuts, so much was wrong and no matter how hard I tried to fix the issues/equipment, nothing was getting better. Nothing I said or did was enough for those around me. That's when I realized. I've been feeling like I haven't been enough, not for someone or something else but I haven't been enough for myself. I have been beating myself up in the gym, at work and even at home because "I'm not doing enough". And try as I might, it's hard to look in the mirror. I still see the woman who was 220 pounds when I started keto (I'm down to 189). I still see the woman who was in so much pain and agony both physically and mentally. And I'm trying to remind myself how far I've come. I've been through so much. But right now, I still feel like I'm not enough for myself. I'll be okay, I'll bounce back. But for now, I'm having a hard time. I post this not for pity, but to be real with y'all. It's okay not to love yourself at every moment of every day. Just don't forget who you are and that no matter the obstacle in your way, you will overcome it. 💚💜💖

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REPOST @emmawatson @douglasbooth I pledge to be an ally to women; to accept my share and my role in a rapid movement towards change; to challenge the bystander culture; to speak out against the abuse, harassment, and inequality that women face in all walks of life. #100years #Suffrage100

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If you're reading this and you're in a toxic relationship, GET OUT! Tell your friends, family, neighbors, anyone that will help you get out. Trust me, you deserve better.

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There's something I thought about a lot this weekend that I'd like to share - the difference between our Universal trip three years ago versus this year. The left photo was three years ago, the right was from Friday. Same spot, same shirt, butterbeer in hand, with one of my best friends. I was probably about 10 pounds lighter three years ago. But here's something you may not know. Three years ago was when my thyroid started to crash, but I was unaware. Three years ago I hated my body, I hated my life, I hated everything. I was secretly debating on some not so happy thoughts. All while being in an incredible place that holds so many memories. You see my birth mother, when she was sick, read me the first Harry Potter book. And when I stood in this magical place three years ago and on Friday, her memory and her voice came back to me. Three years ago, I could barely hold a conversation with my friends and couldn't remember things they would tell me a few minutes later. The memory loss started then and became progressively worse. But this year, as we walked around, I could remember things, I had more energy and my mind felt clear. I could immerse myself in it and feel all the feels. This might not seem big, probably because most people in their 20s don't have memory loss issues. But this is huge for me. Harry Potter holds the key to memories of my mother, and now I am finally able to pull them out whenever I want. #becauseofketo #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink

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While reflecting on 2017 during the first week of 2018, I decided to do my own top 9 where I picked the posts myself... In 2017 our work crew changed a lot with our supervisor retiring (but we'll always be family), I started the ketogenic diet, fell in love with the process of my journey and my body every step of the way, met Leanne Vogel (and cried), I have been on two podcasts talking about my journey, made/met some awesome keto friends (and get to meet more in 2018!), participated in a photo shoot, became at a low risk of my cancer coming back, and have made huge gains in the gym and feeling empowered by it. In 2016 - I was the Phoenix that burst into flames and dwindled into ash. In 2017 - the ambers began to twinkle, caught flame and I was reborn from those ashes. Let's go 2018. This Phoenix is ready for you! 💪💚💜💖 #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness

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When your vibe attracts a pretty epic tribe, keto tribe that is. So thankful that the NC keto ladies (and the kind of keto significant others) let me crash their meet up. Next time, let's look for a place with round tables so we can interact better with everyone! 💖💜💚 #keto #ketofam #ketogenic #ketolife #ketogeniclife #ketodiet #ketogenicdiet #ketosis #fitfam #lowcarb #lchf #thyroid #thyroiddisease #hypothyroidism #thyroidcancer #thyroidcancersurvivor #fuckcancer #iamstrongerthanyouthink