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they them or he him im cooland am not mentally average this account is for me to say whatever the hell i want whenever the hell i want and no one can do anything about it

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every time i experience a thought i need to put it on tumblr

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babies be like: im goo gooing my ga ga

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i am happy to have people that stay with me and i know actually enjoy my presence most of the time

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waaaaaaahhhh waaaahhhhhh

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i have to hide some people from my dms on discord so i don't get mad looking at them

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i have been feeling nauseous all morning and it's upsetting me </3

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i like my friend scooter

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every little tiny thing is starting to upset me more and more and people keep doing things that are making me upset and it's starting to feel like it's on purpose

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often when i feel like someone too close to me gets too connected to something ive already had a deep connection to (usually characters i relate to) i get angry and treat them badly or i get almost competitive in a sense to where i'll try to make it apparent that i care about it more than they ever will and that i'm better in a way

it makes me upset

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goodnight it's my sleepy time im gonna get snoozy

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i really wish i had cookie dough ice cream right now i havent had it in a while

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just remembered i watched porn today.feeling upset.

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sometimes i think really selfish things like how i want more of the people i know to care about and love and worry about me and exclusively me and talk to me every day whenever i want or need it not because i think i deserve it but just cuz i desire it

also at the same time though I'll randomly want everyone i know that is closest to me to hate me and leave me and never talk to me again

what dat mean

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haven't seen my therapist in a good while

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i always think about the possibility of being a parent in the future but realistically id be a terrible parent and probably really abusive and mean because i cant control my emotions well and i get irritated too easily and without having a lot of self control i get violent so id rather not take a risk like that and ruin a child's life for my own selfish desire to care for something so no thanks I'll stick to just owning a cat or something

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im not well cut out for this "living" thing

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Google tells me ive got bpd and im highly suggestable