Effy💜

A girl just trying to find a way to escape all the bullshit in life.

[ohpmore]

Oh glory... YOU WILL FIND ME.

[eraseyourmind15]

I’m having such a horrible fucking day, and have no one to really talk to right at this very second and If I don’t get this out I might have a mental breakdown.

So basically If I’m not distracting myself today, I’ll cry.

If I’m in thought about something that happened from the past and someone inturupts that, I get really irritated might snap at someone without meaning to.

I feel like when I do those things I’m not a good person anymore, and feel so much guilt that I just cry and hurt for hurting someone else. It bothers me more than others really realize.

My sister hasn’t talked to me in a while because it’s complicated don’t want to get upset again by explaining it.

I really like the idea of being dead but only because I won’t have to deal with this pain in my brain telling me to give up and that there’s no hope for me, but I know I won’t actually kill myself. Its just these really awful feelings and thoughts that invade your brain and you got to just fight it. Which isn’t always easy. It’s kind of like any super hero movie. There’s a hero. And there’s a villain. The villain is anything you struggle with. Depression, anxiety, bi polar, bpd, did, ocd,npd, schizophrenia, and any others I forgot to list.

There’s always that one part in the story where the hero wants to give up so bad. But they never do. And eventually they defeat the villain. But sometimes there’s sequels to movies with superhero’s and I like to think of that as another trial or maybe like a relapse.

I’m really trying to be a better person, I’m getting help regularly. I just can’t wait until I have better skills and knowledge to work with what I have right now. I deff see something good coming soon after all the hard work I have done recently. And that’s something to be proud of.

[m1nd--0ver--matter]

[vint-agge-xx]

Things you should NEVER say to someone with a mental illness:

• “Why are you always complaining?” • “It’s all in your head.” • “You need to control your thoughts.” • “Here we go again…..” • “I thought you were getting better?” •"A lot of people go through this and are just fine.“ • "There’s no reason to cry about it.” • “Aren’t you on Meds? Is it not helping??” • “You’ve been seeing your therapist for a while now, and you’re still depressed??” • “You’re thinking irrationally..” • “You always take things too far.” • “Just get over it.” • “You’re crazy.” • “Just calm down.”

[metal-stina]

[sunday-tragedy]

There is no life I know To compare with pure imagination Living there, you’ll be free If you truly wish to be… 

[getawaywcar]

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[neonsamurai04]

[uncloseted]

how do you think Effy gets people to feel things about her, you once said that the main reason Freddie and Cook can't seem to leave Effy alone is because of how they feel about her, and "It’s not about the way she looks so much as the way she gets people to feel about her" so how do you think Effy gets people to feel about her ?

I think people are interested in Effy because she has an air of mystery, which comes from the fact that nobody knows much about her, even though she seems to know everything about them.  She makes people feel seen and understood.  I think she also has a reputation for not liking people and not having friends, so if she shows interest in you, it feels special and like there’s something worth paying attention to about you.  She’s good at making people feel like she’s in their corner without making them feel awkward about it.

[eraseyourmind15]

I wish I knew why

I wish I knew why I fear trusting someone

Maybe it’s because

The people I felt closest to always let me down

im not selfish, but I am insecure

I bottle my feelings and don’t know how to talk

When I do talk I say too much, even though

I should keep certain things to myself

I’m not weak but I feel it at times

I just sit there and stare

I cry and scream

I pull my hair or punch myself

I hate myself but I want to love myself

They say it takes time to love yourself

After so many bad things have happened

I believe in hope

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[ev0let]

“Sometimes, not saying anything is the best answer. You see, silence can never be misquoted”

— Cassie Ainsworth

[whoreau]

“I think that the whole point of being with someone is so you can talk to them and let go of everything; and even when you’re at your worst, they’ll still like you. They still want to talk to you and they still care about you.”

— Effy Stonem

[cassieaesthetic]

6:47 pm- you know what that means. Homework.

[forallthelonelyones]

"Even the worst things have things to love in them".

- Cassie Ainsworth

[forever-can-be-just-one-second]