To Understand - Nagito x Reader
This was privately requested by one of my lovely readers. I really hope I did well. I haven’t touched Island Mode in a year or so, so I did some research and I really hope I’ve done a good job. Thank you so much for messaging. It is always such a pleasure to write for you. Have a wonderful day/night <3
♡ You were a little hazy by the time you arrived on the island, not exactly fully out of it, but not fully with it either.
♡ You didn’t even have time to remember why you were on the ground, the sand holding you close, before seeing a figure stand over you.
♡ As your vision cleared up, you realised it was a boy who was stood over you.
♡ He honestly startled you a little as you slowly came to your senses.
♡ After all, bless him, he was just looming over you.
♡ But, still, you couldn’t help but appreciate the concern.
♡ He helped you to your feet, and that seemed to be where your attachment to him started.
♡ Truthfully, he didn’t expect you to actually stick with him after that.
♡ After all, to him it was a minor encounter. All he did was help you up, nothing to marvel at.
♡ But, that seemed to make you immediately at ease around him, and that intrigued him.
♡ A majority of your free times were spent on him, trying to get to know him, and always with some genuine interest that it truly did puzzle him.
♡ Still, he couldn’t say he hated it.
♡ What really got him though was your pure interest in what he had to say.
♡ There would come to be many a time in which you’d encourage him to, and then listen to him, speak his thoughts. Times where you’d sit there, or walk about, with him and so subtly ease him into discussing his perspective on things.
♡ For a while, he would stop himself, believing he was going too far.
♡ If he didn’t stop himself, he would apologise, instead resorting to belittling himself.
♡ If you tried to shut that behaviour down, he would apologise again, sometimes questioning why on Earth you’re so adamant he goes on, why the way he treats himself is of your concern.
♡ It comes off rather rude, but he’s honestly dumbfounded.
♡ He simply just can’t fathom it, really.
♡ It’s also odd to see you lose your temper at his antics, but it’s often just out of frustration for the repetition.
♡ You lose your patience with him every now and again, but you always try and make up for it.
♡ Sometimes, though, you do the same things he does, just in a different sort of way.
♡ You can become very self-pitying, just like he does, and it’s sort of comical to watch you two switch roles.
♡ He has a very…odd way of trying to comfort you?
♡ It’s more like disappointment that you’re even talking about yourself in such a way, but it sort of works…?
♡ He’s used to being met with judgement when he talks, so the way you act is very new.
♡ Of course, he appreciates it a lot, despite his confusion.
♡ It’s nice to have a chance to share his ideals, to discuss his inner thoughts, without feeling like he’s being judged or as a bother.
♡ Honestly, you relate to Nagito sometimes, and that does a lot for him.
♡ But, it also does a lot for you as well.
♡ You’ve always been considered a little strange by people.
♡ If not strange, then there’s always been some sort of disconnect.
♡ You don’t understand why, but you also do.
♡ You know it’s because of the way you think, the way you feel, all of your perspectives.
♡ You know they differ from the rest, and that leads to people viewing you as a little abnormal.
♡ It’s also hard to properly interact with a majority of people as a result.
♡ But, what you don’t understand is why it has to be so intense.
♡ Don’t people know how to listen to other viewpoints anymore? Don’t people remember individuality?
♡ Why do they need to alienate you?
♡ Suppose that’s another reason you became so attached to Nagito.
♡ You felt seen in his presence, even if he was not directly addressing you.
♡ Seeing how everyone acted around him, and how his thoughts were treated, how he seemed to acknowledge it in such deluded acceptance, it was almost relatable in a way.
♡ It was nice to know you weren’t the only one who the world seemed to struggle to understand.
♡ In a way, that kind of fuelled a desire to befriend him.
♡ You didn’t want him to feel completely odd, like you had, but you also genuinely felt eager to be around him.
♡ It was nice to hear his own thoughts, his own perspective on things, and you wanted to let him know you didn’t find him peculiar for it.
♡ It’s good for him to have someone who he can relate to, good to have someone who can make him feel equal, human.
♡ This definitely had a hand in helping you both bond.
♡ He’s great to talk to about these things.
♡ Sometimes it feels like he’s just telling you these good things, but it comes to be that’s actually how he thinks of you.
♡ If you’re engaging in some sort of task together, you try to talk to him then too.
♡ If talking isn’t the mood, you smile at him.
♡ Honestly, you treat him with so much kindness and patience that it truly does baffle him.
♡ But, you make him feel like an equal, talent or no talent, and that does something to him.
♡ You treat him like you’ve been close to him for years, when in reality it’s only been a couple of weeks.
♡ Even if it’s only brief, the interactions he starts to have with you really begin to mean something special to him.
♡ It especially means a lot when he realises just how hesitant you are to engage with the others.
♡ With Nagito, it really seems like you’ve come into your own element, that you feel human around him.
♡ That makes him feel all warm inside.
♡ He’s seen how you react when your words aren’t given much thought, or when it seems that people do not understand you, or find you hard to relate to, and it always makes him feel some sort of sadness.
♡ You go into yourself, almost immediately silent, unsure as to whether you should even bother to try again.
♡ Just knowing you don’t feel accepted or understood by a group can discourage you.
♡ In fact, you feel out of place with a majority of the group.
♡ You’ve resorted to only saying a few light things, anxious to go any deeper.
♡ But, with Nagito, you can talk to him, and you feel understood; you feel seen.
♡ He loves to see you get all enthusiastic when you feel you’re properly heard, or you’re in welcoming company.
♡ It’s so nice to see you genuinely talking, not afraid of being judged or misunderstood.
♡ In a way, you two are like a support system for one another.
♡ It’s not dependence, but rather the mutual understanding that there is someone who understands, or cares enough to listen.
♡ After a while, you two became very warmed up to one another.
♡ It’s gotten to the point where the two of you are recognised as some sort of almighty duo, even if you aren’t together.
♡ Nobody dares to talk badly of Nagito when you’re around, because they know you’re sworn to him.
♡ Or, on a more lighter note, if anyone needs to find you, they know who to go to.
♡ And, of course, vice versa.
♡ Knowing this makes him feel…unreal, almost?
♡ Like, to know someone so lovely as you is now associated with the likes of him?
♡ It makes him giddy but also worries him at the same time.
♡ But, seeing you so happy to be around him kind of calms him, whilst also raising the questions of “why?”.
♡ The first time you hugged him altered EVERYTHING he had previously thought of you.
♡ It wasn’t even a result of a deep conversation or anything of the sort.
♡ You’d simply seen him approach during a block of free time, and this had excited you enough to excuse yourself and bound away from the group you were stood with just to launch onto him.
♡ This startled Nagito at first, who was rendered speechless as he stood there.
♡ But then, he managed to hug you back, quietly greeting you as he did so.
♡ Something about the way you so eagerly ran to him, the way you seemed so excited for him to even be in the vicinity, it just made him all emotionally tangled inside.
♡ And, though this occurred to him later that night, holding you close was nice.
♡ It felt so natural, and that rewired him in some way.
♡ Still, he kept that to himself for a while, not wanting to destroy the bond you’d formed.
♡ He valued you too much to do so.
♡ And perhaps the complex he held had something to do with that decision.
♡ But, things come to be, and he’s now yours.
♡ Nagito gets a little dizzy every time he comes to make this revelation.
♡ It’s almost too perfect, does he even deserve it?
♡ And, yet, there you are.
♡ Words of affirmation are also very important between the two of you.
♡ You started doing this very early on into your friendship with him.
♡ Just little things, more so for reassurance, but they only kept going.
♡ Now, they’re a key part of your relationship.
♡ You’ll say them whenever, wherever.
♡ Nagito could be engaging in some sort of task, and just as he goes to search for you with his gaze, he’ll hear you utter something.
♡ That makes him a little bashful, and he’ll try to downplay it after thanking you, but the fact you noticed enough to say anything, especially a positive something, makes him feel a little relieved.
♡ But, it’s specifically the times where you affirm around those things he’s insecure of that make him feel so incredibly loved.
♡ He could start to go off on a tangent, and you’ll patiently listen, giving him that time he needs, before slipping in words so affirming it makes him second guess everything he’s ever told himself.
♡ “You’re worth so much more than you think you are” is one that GREATLY messes with his emotions, in a good way, whilst also spiralling some sort of shamed confusion within him.
♡ He struggles to believe the things you tell him sometimes, but it doesn’t mean he doesn’t trust you.
♡ He just has a lot of things going on in his head.
♡ But, to be told things in such a validating manner by the person he loves the most really does help him.
♡ It’s like a blanket, and he’s safe under it.
♡ Even just reminding Nagito that you love him makes him feel so secure.
♡ You could be sat reading with him, and just casually tell him so.
♡ Any scenario, just tell him you love him, genuinely remind him; it makes him feel so ecstatic.
♡ He’s also good at returning these words.
♡ His come from a place of whimsical admiration, but he means it all.
♡ He’s so proud of you, so enamoured by you, and he just wants to make sure you know you’re so incredible.
♡ He gradually gets more clingy with you as the relationship extends.
♡ He’s still a little hesitant, but only of his own worries, but he gets better at being affectionate.
♡ Hand-holding is good, it helps calm him down, and he just loves having you connected with him.
♡ If you play with his hair, or brush through it, he doesn’t know what do.
♡ Probably just sits there red in the face and offering to focus on you instead, as he feels that’s what he should do.
♡ But, you reassure him you like doing this.
♡ And then you compliment him, and smile at him, and he shuts right up and lets you carry on.
♡ After all, it makes you happy.
♡ And, if you’re happy, he’s happy.
♡ But the way you always look out for his own individual happiness makes him even more happier.
♡ You two are in each other’s corner, and it’s created such a positive environment for Nagito.
♡ He just hopes he’s doing more than enough for you.
♡ Because to him, you deserve the world.
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