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Hope you're ready to get uncomfortably close to my brain and her thoughts, i dont feel like ranting in the solitude of the notes app anymore

[eringworm]

I love you

[eringworm]

I like to think I generally have a nice demeanour to others, i can convince myself otherwise but it's nowhere near the hollow disturbed way i interact with the (pre-authority) adults in my immediate family.

There have been cultural events I've been to where vendors advocate for mental health bc if you know anyone well enough of the asian or just 'emotionally neglectful' parenting style the hurt and fundamental damage never translates outside the nuclear family. But what a misfortune it is that the effects sink barbed claws into every other portion of your life.

I kind of wish I had given those vendors more than my email

[eringworm]

i'm worried my words and feelings will pile up in overwhelm in the hoard of my mind

I slice my head open on a page or a note and worry if there's too much that every word becomes nothing, the tv static, the pitch of a mosquito

Draining, i call myself

Only now am I recognizing that didn't come from nowhere.

[eringworm]

i recently watched the film "it's such a beautiful day"

mortality reminds me of her presence

I don't want to forget the love i share, the experiences i revelled in. The care and comfort I felt

I hope death is like falling asleep

[eringworm]

its 3am again, if i just don't sleep i don't have to face the agony of waking up.

[eringworm]

am i really just so used to solitude that i run when love is right in my face, offering itself to me like a gift.

I can't blame my lack of reaction on my culture but why does everything as an act of love and affection feel like generational embarrassment?

When did love become something to be modest and subtle instead of messy and gloriously lustful and full of zeal

[eringworm]

i feel so catastrophically human and not quite grown yet

[eringworm]

I don't know what it's like to matter so much to someone

Just breathe into my ear again

let me know you're alive.

I'm very glad you're alive

[eringworm]

im so scared to love as openly as i can because what if its taken away from me the same way my parents used to clean my room.?

in the way i lose my belongings,

what if the love i belong with,

is taken away?.

[joetastic2739]

Anya Musume: Pretty Derby

[eringworm]

Maybe its time to listen to more upbeat happy music, starting off strong with The Smiths

[eringworm]

Forgot where I saw this but its been stuck in my head since 2022.

" My bed has probably seen me go through more emotions than most people have "

[eringworm]

I’m sleepy and it’s 7am, I played bedwars tonight and will face the realities in the morning. Maybe I will defy myself.

[eringworm]

no officer im not lovebombing my girlfriend is just super pretty and cool and awesome and i love her

[kosmogrl]

[myothertardisisonthemun]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Franz Kafka

[eringworm]

Franz gets it

[moonlight-dove]

Adapted from Homer, The Iliad

// David Benioff, Troy

[eringworm]

I've so badly wanted to read this oh how media astounds me