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i am so angry at how you syahmiadli are the one yg ajak lepak malam pastu tetiba ada gf call??? kalau dh ada gf please act like you have one 😭 i am so upset

and gambar bawah ni literally aiming for you, syafiqyang

why i got no luck in this romantic relationship whatsover

error-khai

a little update. syahmiadli got married already hahahah

i talk to myself a lot hahaha and i hate how i look here but its me babe

gemok gemok khai gemok nak kurus cam keje penang dulu

and only now i realise how bad i look in real life :) patutla takdak sapa suka hahaha

mbeeer

Rezeki datangnya serupa iseng-iseng berhadiah. Yang bekerja keras, belum tentu rezekinya lebih besar dari yang berjalan santai. Sebab begitulah hidup. Kamu hanya perlu menjalani sebisanya. Sekuatnya. Dan seikhlasnya..

sometimes i wish i am prettier

i am so angry at how you syahmiadli are the one yg ajak lepak malam pastu tetiba ada gf call??? kalau dh ada gf please act like you have one 😭 i am so upset

and gambar bawah ni literally aiming for you, syafiqyang

why i got no luck in this romantic relationship whatsover

been driving all by myself for 5hrs last monday and realise how lucky i am. to have rented one whole house, got one car, buy another one car and plenty of annual leaves

how freaking lucky i am

maka nikmat tuhan manakah yg kamu dustakan :)

i really want to get married and have a smol baby :((

error-khai

trying to categorising and listing all things that make me anxious

and there are literally nothing?? nothing should be pressuring me and burdening me that bad because there are nothing???

i am way better than this. i can defn manage to handle stress and workloads that are way more than this. i definitely can but what happen to me now 😭

so these are what bugging my mind these days

1. my study- been so pressured to complete my tech ppr but I cant start because i didnt know where to start and if all my simulation is correct. start doubting and comparing myself to other msc students hahaha

2. my love relationship - syafiqyang is entering my life journey again. just because I am currently in ipoh. i am trying my very best not to fall in love again with him nor feeling attached to him but i may failed to do so. he exposed our 2nd date on his social media and it didnt feel right with me because what are we actually?? I didnt feel like starting all the difficult conv yet because I am not ready for it. and to add on my overthinking is that he is currently looking for a new job and super ready to relocate to other state hahahah so I am again his temp fling. goodjob khai

3. ofc my job - everything feels so hard and so difficult. currently hating my job and regretting it too bad that I decided to accept this offer. ya Allah show me the right way and guide me thru all this mess because I am in need

and everything in between. need to plan for convoi trip, burdening myself with a lot of friends stuff

and yea thats me

error-khai

lil update a year after. 2024

all shits. nothing changed. hahaha

officially breaking all ties with syafiqyang and just because he cant answer one simple question

what are we?

and its almost a year back where i decide firmly. nope. i no longer at the age to do stupid relationship anymore. i am lookin for someone to be married to and i guess, it not u

but i didnt know why i keep on thinking about him these days or maybe bc i am bored and lonely haih

i do miss him

I know everything happen for a reason and ya Allah I am waiting patiently to see the reason I am here because I am 100% broken rn and I didnt know if I am strong enough 🥲

nothingbettertodotoday

enid: man sure is dark in here. wednesday: enid: i'm not scared or anything. wednesday: enid: i mean who is scared of the dark these days? not me no sir. wednesday: do you want me to hold your hand? enid: yes please.

trying to categorising and listing all things that make me anxious

and there are literally nothing?? nothing should be pressuring me and burdening me that bad because there are nothing???

i am way better than this. i can defn manage to handle stress and workloads that are way more than this. i definitely can but what happen to me now 😭

so these are what bugging my mind these days

1. my study- been so pressured to complete my tech ppr but I cant start because i didnt know where to start and if all my simulation is correct. start doubting and comparing myself to other msc students hahaha

2. my love relationship - syafiqyang is entering my life journey again. just because I am currently in ipoh. i am trying my very best not to fall in love again with him nor feeling attached to him but i may failed to do so. he exposed our 2nd date on his social media and it didnt feel right with me because what are we actually?? I didnt feel like starting all the difficult conv yet because I am not ready for it. and to add on my overthinking is that he is currently looking for a new job and super ready to relocate to other state hahahah so I am again his temp fling. goodjob khai

3. ofc my job - everything feels so hard and so difficult. currently hating my job and regretting it too bad that I decided to accept this offer. ya Allah show me the right way and guide me thru all this mess because I am in need

and everything in between. need to plan for convoi trip, burdening myself with a lot of friends stuff

and yea thats me

been overthinking like hell s

and anxious on everything

i might facing bad anxiety or maybe I got ahdh

that is something that I hv been considering this past few weeks because all the ahdh traits seems fitting

but why so sudden hahah

its the first week on january and I already get bloody nose. a sign that I am overworked or just overthinking like hell. and it is the second one

i am so scared for my body and mental health because it is just the first week and i already faced this shits damn

praying hard that everything will startbgetting better and making sense 🙃 because I start giving up

reading my last post on my last job and wth

at my new job and I stil feelin dumb dumb dumb stupid dumbshit

so today is the first working day in 2023. and everything crashing down. I already done one big wrong decision that might affect my whole yr. and thats just by assigning a task that is from diff unit to another one. i feel like shit

but I do hv reasons on that but I still feel like shit and i am so upset with everything

being the youngest one at your job is hard

being the young one who need to delegate task and instruction is super hard

being the one who lead a unit is super duper hard without ppl assistance

and I am so sad that I failed to gained ppl trust

but trust is earned, not gained and thats okay khai

u'll pass thru this hopefully

I am so full with emotions that I cant sleep but there are no solutions and I hate stressing on this kind of things

esp knowing that there will be more more challenging stuff ahead goodluck

and we are back to the phase where I feel like not living

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i feel like giving up on everything for no reason. I hate going to work.

the workload is ok. ppl is ok. work environment is ok. well, I am the toxic one here

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but tbh, I feel dumb not been given proper responsibility/task. doing mundane job. still begging ppl for additional task. not knowing how to grow and what to learn. just doing bare minimum everyday but still feel super tired and exhausted

like why?

i do know and realise that I have tons of things to learn here. I am not familiarise with machine yet. not used in troubleshooting and all. so dumb dumb and the hardest thing that hit me is

i didnt feel like learning

i didnt feel like wanting to keep on learning

hahaha i am so done with life

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