Destroyed

I used to be a nice girl.

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⛸ you guys don't know how much this song represents me tho #newme #newyear #neeconfidence #newmindset

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Like riding a bike 💯💯💯👌🏽

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💖💸

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I’m kind of pissed cause this is my picture and that’s me on the left and my best friend on the right and someone reposted it and took credit. Wtf?

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💖💸

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I'm kind of pissed cause this is my picture and that's me on the left and my best friend on the right and someone reposted it and took credit. Wtf?

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I'm not the kid ur parents warned you about, and that's what made me so dangerous....

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Read this.

This is a message to everyone out there. Please read this.

It took me way too long to realize how important my life is. I never thought I was beautiful and I struggled with confidence and self esteem for a really long time. I also admiringly enjoyed feeling this way. I thought it made me humble to not see myself as beautiful and I thought it made me cool to hate the world and say “I hate people” (eh. Sometimes the human race still makes that line slip out of my mouth lol) but my point is. I thought I was cool to feel like shit. But It really didn’t feel good. I wasn’t afraid of death and I was proud of that. I didn’t care if I was gonna die that day.It didn’t scare me. But now nothing scares me more than dying and I couldn’t be more proud of that. Proud that I want to live a full life and I have goals and aspirations that I want to achieve. I’m proud to be afraid of death. It’s really not easy to see how beautiful and precious life is. It sounds so cliche when u hear all the quotes like. Life is short be happy or love yourself. Because before u see it, those are just empty words. When all u see and feel is sadness and hatred toward yourself these words don’t mean anything. But they really do. Once u learn to be happy for yourself. You’re gonna see what the point of living Is. Ur gonna see that there is a point to living and fighting But to be happy. U have to get rid of all the things that don’t allow u to be happy. U have to learn to not care about people judging u. Again. It sounds so cliche but if u think about it. If ur doing something that u love or wearing something u love. It should make u happy. other people might judge u but as long as u know it makes u happy why does their opinion fucking matter? It only matters because u let it. If u let their opinion effect u and don’t do what makes u happy just to get their approval. Are u happy now? No. Of course not cause ur not doing what u fucking love. It’s your life. Not theirs. They might do shit u don’t like but that’s fine cause as long as it doesn’t effect u. It doesn’t matter. They’re happy doing it so leave them alone. we all wanna be liked by every person but we’re not all the same and why do we want to be. Ur gonna like different things than I do and that’s more than okay. I might hate what ur wearing but it shouldn’t matter. U should still rock it because u like it and it’s ur God Damn body. I would say it’s not for me, but if ur happy I’m all for it. Ke life for yourself. One of the biggest things that effects us is the media. Beauty is now perceived as this impossible image and we’re slowly fighting it but what we really have to do is visually change what we see beauty as. There are ads that say “all sizes are beautiful” but I think those are just empty words cause unfortunately if u took a picture of a heavy person and one of someone with a 6 pack and a thigh gap, most people are gonna say that one is the more attractive person because that’s what beauty is seen as but who the fuck says that’s the only version of beauty? like why is that more visually appealing. we have to show the reality that bodies are all different and everyone has their own appeal to different shapes so one type of body can’t be considered beautiful to every eye. We all see different things as beautiful. Even if ur the most attractive person in the fucking world (by the media standards) there will be people who find u unattractive and U shouldn’t be offended by this because not everyone is gonna see the same thing as beautiful and that’s Okay. Why are we all trying to be the same like mechanical robots. There are people who think I’m not pretty and that’s cool because I find myself to be beautiful and if ur not attracted to me. It’s fine. Even if the whole world sees me as ugly. I love who I am and no one can take that from me. U wanna be happy? Don’t put makeup on because u think people won’t talk to u unless ur face is all caked up with that stuff. (Side note: if ur wearing makeup for u and not to impress other people. That’s a different story. U rock u girl) but If people don’t see u as pretty. So what. Just be kind and ur Beaty will show. flaws are natural and beauty should be natural with those flaws.

If I don’t wear makeup and guys decide not to talk to me because I’m not attractive enough, then those guys weren’t worth my time. If u wont take the time to get to know someone before u judge them or u can’t see beauty beneath makeup. I feel really bad for u and I hope you learn differently. It’s hard to do these things that I’m saying I know. Everywhere we go we are influenced by the impossible standards of beauty. Every Instagram picture of these ideal girls and perfect guys with “perfect” bodies. Even fitspo which is a huge trend rn I think is negative because it still portrays a body that almost impossible to have and isn’t the only body type that’s beautiful. If u wanna workout and have a 6 pack for yourself because u love to work out. I’m all for it. But if ur working out to make urself look better for other people or so u can take pictures of ur “perfect” body to make others jealous. Ur wasting ur time working ur ass off just to try to be someone ur not and all u end up doing is making other people feel like shit cause they don’t look like u and u probably aren’t even that happy urself. If ur into fitness that’s cool. But do it for u and not for anyone else If u feel unhappy U gotta make an actual change. Get off social media. Stop caring about perfect bodies. Look in the mirror every day. Notice ur flaws. That pimple. Ur fat. or ur if ur super skinny and don’t like it. Notice it and think about why u don’t like it. It’s cause u were taught to hate it. U were taught that other people think it’s ugly so u have to think it’s ugly. But, if u never knew they think it’s ugly. Would u still hate urself? Probably not. Love all of you the way u are naturally and the people who still stand by u are keepers and those who don’t. U didn’t need them anyways. I’m sick and tired of this epidemic of self hatred. I swear once u find happiness and u love yourself ur gonna see that it was worth fighting for for so long. You have a right to love yourself. Live life for you and no one else and try not to judge others for their choices. They may not be the ones u would make. But that’s because they are not you and it isn’t your life. Focus on yourself and stay positive. K. Novel rant is over now.

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