Tyler Durden

you are not a unique snow-flake

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[eshh1997]

September 19,2020 : 3-00 AM

When she talks about her previous relationship,I get so insecure because somewhere around I feel

I'm not being a good boyfriend, when she tells her ex did this and that, I feel like a bummer , who does nothing for her.

I know my baby isn't someone who expects materialistic things,but still I feel insecure because I'm stupid

[eshh1997]

September 19,2020 : 2-56 AM

She used to be expressive, atleast in her other accounts, she used to post lovely lines about her partner in her previous relationships.

She never does it for me 😪 I know its sounding stupid, but I'm a stupid jealous, insecure, possessive guy who always wants to be her best man.

Not even in her spam accounts, she posts about me 😔 I'm not craving attention or want to publicly announce our things,but some emotions doesn't need a reason

I cannot directly tell all these, coz I may look like a weird maniac psycho preying over a girl's life.

Issokey, I am used to it anyway.

[eshh1997]

Sep 11 , 22:53 hours,

No one even cares if I die

I wish I was dead, atleast that way, people would miss my presence

[eshh1997]

Sep 10, 23:18 hrs

I just couldn't control my emotions, I didn't wanna create a scene ,but Stupid me couldn't stop from asking her about future again 😪

I know its bad but what should I do, I cannot help but constantly think about it

I just wanna give her happiness, instead I'm constantly hurting her

Maybe I should stay away from her for her good

I'm a fucking cruel monster no one deserves to be with

[eshh1997]

Sep 9,2020- 23:27 hours

She's the most beautiful thing that happened to me

I'm so proud of her,her everything is so perfect for me

I will make sure she never regrets about anything, I'll be her savior no matter what.

I love her, she's my world ❤️

[eshh1997]

Sep 7,2020- 23:30 hrs

Deep inside I feel she doesn't want me as her lover, she just respects me for what I have done to her, she likes my behavior, she likes everything about me ! But she doesn't love me I guess.

She's just too scared to confront this truth, thinking it would break my heart. I'm too scared to ask because it might take her away from me 😪

What she doesn't know is , My heart is already broken.

I can sometimes sense it or see the way she treats me.She is not seeing a forever future with me.

Why isn't she not looking that in me ! I feel incomplete

[eshh1997]

Sep 7,2020- 23:23 hours

I was once a careless and reckless individual,Life was all good but back then.

When I decided to stay on a path and be responsible, I'm being hurt more than ever !!

Do I deserve this ?

After all, I just wanna spread some Love around me.

World is a cruel place

[eshh1997]

Can someone love me forever with their whole heart and body committed solely to me.

Sadly NO !

[eshh1997]

Sep 7 , 23:17

I'm a fucking spineless loser, who cannot stand on anything

I can never keep something I love

I never did and never will be getting eternal happiness

My whole life is a disappointment ;

[eshh1997]

Sep 7, 23:11

She's kindoff open to her interests in other guys while she has feelings for me, I don't know how to phrase this relationship, but she's ready if someone better invites her for a date or if someone better approaches her !!

What about me 😪

I said ok for her condition, but it hurts me and kills me when she talks close or if someone talks close or tries to hit !

I die in silence every day and be born again the next minute with the fear of losing her.

The worst thing any person could see .