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&. esme ♡ share o n e more drink with me. smile even though you're sad. i'm walking the l o n g road, watching the sky fall. the lace in your dress entangles my neck

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ebullicnts:

❝couldn’t have fooled me, i’m getting five star service and everything.❞ valeria clasped her hands together excitedly. if her cheeks weren’t red before, they sure were now and she bit down hard on her lip to hide it. maybe she could blame it on the cellar’s temperature. she smiled tentatively. ❝trust issues and low self-esteem, got anything that can fix that?❞ she asked, ignoring the serious undertones. she nodded her head, coming up behind esmerelda and resting her chin on her shoulder. ❝that sounds perfect. i hope it doesn’t kill me,❞ she mumbled in esmerelda’s ear.

the low self esteem comment made esmerelda frown, valeria was the most gorgeous girl she’d ever laid her eyes on and it blew her mind that she couldn’t see that. “ no alcohol can fix that, but i will over time. ” she said with a wink, her face returning to a normal state. as valeria put her head on her shoulder, she reached up with her free hand and brushed her hands through valeria’s hair. “ i’ve had this stuff before, i know the stopping point. i’ll cut you off before it does. ” letting valeria linger at her shoulder for a few seconds, she stepped aside before heading upstairs. “ did you know i have a mini home theater as well? we can either watch stuff there, or go to my room. your choice. ”

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ebullicnts:

valeria rolled her eyes. ❝i mean, it’s just a room, like all you need is a bed, a dresser, and a few flat surfaces.❞ truly, she was amazed by everything. it didn’t take much to fascinate her because she was literally a child and exciting her was quite easy. ❝every single day i find another reason to think you are the most amazing person on earth. seriously how are you still single?❞ the question slipped out of her mouth without her realizing it and her eyes widened in shock. she cleared her throat and turned her attention to the many bottles of wine. ❝i’m sorry, what i meant to say was, what do you recommend? i don’t know anything about wine except that it comes from grapes.❞

“ this is a home not a hotel. ” esmerelda stuck her tongue out at the other. her eyes never left valeria-- her excitement about this whole ordeal was adorable and she didn’t want to miss a second of it. a blush came over her face as valeria questioned her relationship status, and she let out a giggle before shrugging. “ i ask myself the same thing about you. ” she winked. “ what do i recommend? well.. ” esmerelda approached the wall, eyeing it for a few seconds before plucking out a bottle. “ high alcohol content and it tastes like absolute heaven. ” she smiled, handing the bottle over.

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ebullicnts:

valeria’s heartbeat quickened. all these compliments were driving her up the wall because she wasn’t used to this much praise coming at her at once, especially from the person she wanted most to like her and appreciate her. ❝esme, stop, you’re killing me over here, i’m gonna get too over-confident,❞ she pleaded. hearing that esmerelda didn’t have company over that often made her feel relieved. at least it was known that she wasn’t possibly easily replaced because that would hurt the most. ❝themed bedrooms? you rich people are weird.❞ her eyes widened and the largest grin that she had sported in a while formed on her lips. she broke away from esmerelda’s grasp and bounded into the cellar. it was truly shocking how much wine could be in one room and be worth more than her family’s savings from the past three generations. ❝i’m so poor,❞ she breathed out, eyeing a certain collection of red wines.

“ would you rather every room be the same and boring? ” esmerelda asked with a raised brow before giving her a small laugh. watching valeria’s reaction to the cellar, a grin came to her face. it was so cute watching her be so amazed by everything. valeria didn’t deserve the upbringing she was brought up in, in esmerelda’s mind she deserved the world. “ this is years and years of collecting.  my family left it with me because they couldn’t find a place they liked with a cellar ” she followed valeria, arms crossed over her chest and followed her gaze. “ pick anything you like. ” she knew very well that this was what the two needed after such a long night, and she had a weak spot for making valeria happy.

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ebullicnts:

this whole ‘ things had to be platonic between them ‘ was not working out for her. not when all she wanted to do was throw everything down and kiss her or do something stupid like that. but valeria couldn’t hide the blush forming when esmerelda complimented her. she bit down on her lower lip. ❝don’t say shit like that, i’m gonna get too much hope or my ego will burst – which ever comes first.❞ she turned her head away and coughed to hide how she looked like, a swooning lovesick puppy because god, her heart loved playing games with her. ❝why do you need so many rooms? so just in case i stay over i can stay in a different room each time?❞ she teased, walking alongside her to the cellar. ❝dark places still scare me so if i start to freak out, you’ll know why.❞

esmerelda grinned, everything about valeria was just so perfect. she knew that no matter what she set her mind to, she’d accomplish and it was honestly one of the most amazing things to see. watching this wonderful girl in front of her smile and be happy was beautiful, and she never wanted to lose that. not again. “ aw, but you will do great! you’re an amazing actress and you’re super gorgeous, who wouldn’t want to cast you? ” esmerelda spoke, her gaze never leaving valeria. “ you can if you want. ” she shrugged. “ they’re all different themed.. i think. i can’t remember the last time i checked, i don’t have much company. ” she walked down the steps to the cellar, flipping a switch on the wall that illuminated the entire room. wine from various years lined the walls, along with fancy names under each of them. “ welcome to my heaven. ”

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eva-ngelically:

Hook line and sinker. Eva wanted to pat herself on the back. “Here’s my number.” She jotted it down on a blank sheet of notebook paper along with her name and tore it out. Handing it to Esmerelda she smiled. Her brows rose. “I have a lot of stuff for calm. It depends how calm you want to be.”

esmerelda shoved the paper inside of the same backpack pocket, making sure to mentally note to herself that it was there. esmerelda paused for a minute, looking down at the table in front of her before returning her gaze to eva. “um.. can we take this outside? or somewhere more private? if anyone heard me right now, my entire reputation would be ruined.”

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ebullicnts:

valeria continued with her ministrations, fingers gently ran across esmerelda’s temple. she didn’t want to stop, at least not yet, because then she’d have to force herself back into the role of her best friend even if the cat was out of the bag. she finally removed her hands from her hair and chuckled softly. ❝you have so much faith in me. are you sure that you’re not actually my abuela in disguise? but i like that, i’m glad someone still supports me even after all this time.❞ when esmerelda stood up as she allowed herself to stand up too. ❝okay rich lady, i don’t think i can pick the wine. because the expensive shit is going to make me really drunk and i’m not a fun drunk to deal with. are you up for possibly carrying me home afterwards?❞ her usual playful tone had returned and her tears were starting to dry up finally,

valeria’s hands continued to trail through esmerelda’s hair forcing her entire face to become a shade of red. she looked down at her lap in an attempt to hide her face, she knew that this would only cause more future conflict and that was one thing she wanted to avoid. “ it would be a bit awkward if i was your abuela. ” she chuckled. “ but you have so much passion, it’s a beautiful thing to see. i’ve believed in you ever since the day you told me. ” esmerelda smiled, finally looking back up at the other girl. “ you could always stay the night, i don’t mind. i have more than one guest bedroom. ” she chuckled, glad that they were done arguing. “ c’mon, we’ll both pick. ” she spoke, taking val’s arm in her own and starting towards the cellar.

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ebullicnts:

valeria managed to smile weakly. feeling a little brave, she carefully moved her hand towards esmerelda’s hair and began stroking it softly. it may have been considered more than platonic but she was always a very touchy person in the first place so she could easily defend herself. ❝i’m gonna be a great actress, just like i told you when we were younger. you’ll see my name in flashing lights and you can still visit me cause getting there must be crazy easy for you,❞ she spoke dreamily. a sigh escaped her lips. ❝no matter what happens to us, you’ll always be my best friend. i refuse to lose you again.❞ her face lit up in excitement and she nodded her head. drinking wine sounded great especially since it was probably going to be strong and expensive, something she wasn’t used to. ❝is that even a question? as long as i get to pick the movie, i’m all for it.❞

valeria’s hands found their way to esmerelda’s hair and she gave her soft smile, her cheeks turning a shade of pink. this was the first time in what felt like forever that valeria had actually made physical contact with her, and it was a soothing feeling. she was her best friend, if not more, and esmerelda never wanted to lose that again. “ you will be a great actress, and i’ll come to all of your premieres and shows. ” she encouraged her, leaning over and laying her head on the other girl’s shoulder. “ you’re going to do great, and i’m going to point at every billboard you’re on and tell them that’s my best friend. ” she smiled, before finally standing back up. “ you can pick the wine too! i’ll show you where the cellar is, pick the oldest and most expensive if you’d like. ”

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eva-ngelically:

Had the girl known what the familiar little pill was from first glance, Eva would have made her pay but since she was clueless, she got a free ride. “When you come back for another you can pay. Consider this a gift. A handful of A pluses in your life.”

giving the other girl a small smile, she was about to get up and leave before she stopped herself. “ how do i contact you? i mean.. i don’t think i’ll need anymore, but.. ” she questioned before trailing off. the last thing esmerelda needed was to be hooked on something, but she was desperate at this point in time. her life seemed like it was in shambles and she was stressed out to no end. “ um.. do you have anything to like.. calm? ”

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madisxns:

yeah madison was probably a little fucked up in the head.  of all her friends she was the most likely to be a psychopath but a little bit of the morbid was healthy for everyone.  ‘no need to whisper.  no one else is around.  why serial killer?  im just curious.’  damn she’d probably have a better career as a journalist or an author or something.

esmerelda paused, unsure how to feel about this whole situation. it made her uncomfortable and she was unsure how to politely exit. “ um, i’m not very comfortable talking about that.. ” she mumbled, her eyes going down to the floor. “ can’t we talk about something else? ”

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ebullicnts:

❝listen i’m sorry, i’m totally pressuring you into admitting things you aren’t ready for or something. we both don’t know how you feel,❞ valeria started to say once esmerelda had calmed down a bit. she started rubbing her back comfortingly.  she didn’t want to go into the conversation about who she deserved or who she deserved because this was coming from someone who really hurt her feelings.  ❝but it’s a little too late to say that when it’s already happened so many times.❞ she laughed bitterly.  ❝i can’t sit around and wait for you to figure things out though. with company or not, i’m going to new york and ditching this town. there’s nothing left for me and i’m ready to move on with my life. i almost have enough money for it.❞   

the girl let out a long sigh, before pulling her head back up and shaking it. “ you don’t need to apologize, it’s not fair for me to do this to you. ” esmerelda mumbled, letting her body lean into valeria. she frowned at her laugh, taking one of her hands in her own. “ but it shouldn’t. you don’t deserve to be hurt over and over again and.. ” she paused. “ i’m sorry. ” esmerelda let go of her hand and returned to her balled up position. “ i.. don’t want you to leave, but.. it’s not fair, and i’m sorry. ” she was baffled, she didn’t know what to say, she didn’t know how to fix this. being so unsure of her feelings was putting such a hole in their friendship but she couldn’t make that go away. every part of her ached at the thought of valeria being with someone else, but at the same time she didn’t want to commit to her. if she lied and admitted things that weren’t true, what made her any better than kendall? “ do you want to split a bottle of wine? watch some movies? ”

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ebullicnts:

the moment esmerelda dropped to the ground, valeria felt like a complete asshole. a part of her knew she was being irrational but another part of her wondered if esmerelda would stoop to that level and pretend to be a blubbering mess just for her to pity her. but like always when it came to her, her heart always won over her brain and she knelt down next to her and engulfed her into a strong hug, pulling her close to her in an attempt to comfort her. ❝please stop crying, i know i’m an asshole and you deserve more than me.❞ she sniffled and then took a deep breath to try and calm herself down. ❝what did that no mean? no to the idea of kendall and i together or…?❞ she asked, mentally cursing herself for asking questions, but she needed to know before she sat there and comforted her.

esmerelda felt valeria’s arms around her, and her crying only increased more. she didn’t know what to do, she couldn’t focus on anything besides the hurt she felt. she repeatedly told herself to breathe in her head, deep breaths in an out. her head was pounding and her eyes were now puffy and swollen, but after a few minutes her breathing finally became a steady pace. ignoring her first statement, she ran a hand through her hair and closed her eyes. she knew that her reaction would open up a world full of questions, and she didn’t know that she wanted to answer them quite yet. giving valeria a nod, tears continued to stream down her face. “ she doesn’t deserve you. ” esmerelda spoke softly, bringing her knees up to her chest and putting her head down. the light burned her eyes, and she knew that if she continued to look at the other girl she would only continue to sob. “ i don’t want anyone to hurt you. ”

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tebullicnts:

valeria growled under her breath and glared at her. ❝you don’t know anything about our relationship. you have no right to say that, you don’t know her like i do,❞ she barked and then letting out a sob. she ran her hands through her hair in frustration. this conversation obviously was inevitable but she wished she didn’t have to deal with it this early into fixing things. ❝how do i know you’re not doing the same thing? using me to get back at her? i refuse to be apart of your game.❞ her hand covered her mouth to prevent another loud sob. her breathing was getting erratic. she hadn’t been this upset in a while. ❝a part of me still wants you but a part of me is sick of this shit that you’re putting both of us through. if you won’t give me a definitive answer, i can’t promise you that i won’t make things official with kendall.❞ that was a lie, she wasn’t ready yet. she was still too wary from all of the times her heart broke because of her but she needed something to prove her point.

“ i don’t know her like you do, but i have watched you get hurt over and over again. ” she sobbed. esmerelda just wanted what was best for her, but at the same time she was unsure of what that was. she didn’t know if she would be the best or worst thing to happen to val, and she was so terrified to hurt her that she refused to even try. “ valeria.. ” she pleaded, “ if all i wanted was revenge, why am i so fucking upset right now? ” she felt like she couldn’t breathe. her nose was filled with snot and every time she spoke it left her in a breathless mess with more tears falling down her face. mentioning kendall, esmerelda let out a loud sob and dropped to the ground. her breathing became increasingly erratic by the second, and every attempt to breathe through her nose only made her sob more. “ no ” was all she could manage to get out before she fell over into herself and sobbed even more. none of this was fair, it felt like her entire being was shattered and she didn’t know how to handle it.

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7x11 - Please don’t kiss me again, not until you know.

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eva-ngelically:

“I guess I probably should have started with that, huh?” She chuckled, lax as always. “It’s just adderall. Something to help hone the mind and kick your focus into gear. Consider it on the house; you totally need it.”

“ oh! ” she exclaimed, feeling like an idiot. tons of college students used adderall to help them focus, it made assignments much easier but she’d never really looked into it. “ are you sure it’s on the house? i mean.. isn’t this stuff expensive? i don’t mind paying. ”

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ebullicnts:

❝we were supposed to be best friends. but things got complicated,❞ valeria croaked, looking down at her feet. another tear fell down her cheek and she felt her heartbeat quicken. this wasn’t fair, esmerelda wasn’t supposed to still make her feel like this. she was with kendall, she and kendall had a good thing going — even if neither of them were labeling things at all. ❝no, i don’t want to hear that. because the last thing i need is to fall back in love with you.❞ she shook her head violently. ❝oh my god esme, i was so in love with you, i needed you more than i needed air and then we stopped talking and it hurt. and kendall was there, kendall picked me back up – she made me feel something i thought i would never feel again – because you took that from me.❞ with another shaky exhale, she looked back at esmerelda. ❝please just tell me you never felt anything towards me because i don’t wanna get hurt again with false hope.❞

“ things got complicated because you fell in love with me. ” she said sternly, bringing her hand up to her face to wipe a tear away. esmerelda was confused, she didn’t know how to feel. all she knew was that the thought of valeria being with anyone made her chest hurt. “ but then she broke your heart, over and over again. she kept doing that, and she’ll keep doing that. i can’t sit here and let you be with someone that’s just using you as a toy. ” she spoke, more tears falling down her face as she felt like her entire world was collapsing around her. “ i can’t tell you that, valeria. ” she began. “ i don’t know what i feel, all i know is that this hurts. this hurts more than anything i’ve ever felt before and it’s not fair! ” she paused, needing a minute to catch her breath. “ you constantly switch between hating me and loving me and my heart can’t handle it. ”