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[esperqm]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77788346/chapters/211998716

Firebrand update

Chapter 7: The Butcherer of Birdsong

In which Tizona gets a message to the outside world… and Labrys murders a fuckass book.

[its-emimi]

Happy Pride month! 🌈

[itgetsbetter]

thank u clippy

[mynqzo]

finished my first semester oufh god finally blorbo time

[moocar0n]

😴⭐️🌙💕

[moocar0n]

festival date 🏮💕

[29bells]

happy madohomu monday

[clownowo]

worlds most well adjusted teenaged girl

[warireku-deactivated20240417]

Adult MadoHomu - Madoka’s Birthday (Updated at 2018-10-20, added some minor translation)

This one has a prequel on Dynasty. It’s very cute.

Source: translation / original

[ube-kun]

Tentative

[eunnieboo]

the circus was in town that day 🤡

[eunnieboo]

happy lesbian visibility week to them

[caffeccinoart]

Happy Pride from the Whale on 9th and 9th in Salt Lake City!

[drpepperwhoree]

remember that pride is still a protest

[cheebuss]

I made this for nishi but i feel like y'all deserve it too

[fishing-hamlet]

PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT IM SHITTING MYSELF

[corvidcrowned]

the electrician is gonna be soooooo mad at us,

[esperqm]

sometimes people really love to make other people feel like a twisted cycle path for their convictions

you don't have to be convenient for other people at any given moment, no natter how much you want to

it's the striving, in that aspect, that counts. the mindfulness.

you can't fixate on individual unkindnesses or "abandonments". only try to notice when patterns emerge

you have to try and be aware of your own biases whilst also sticking to your guns

people don't generally hate you, but sometimes they want you to shut the fuck up.

and that's probably okay.

even if you're spitting some real shit.

even if they sound fucking unhinged to you in that moment.

try not to hold grudges. notice patterns of behavior if you can hold onto memories long/well enough, but don't just decide someone is an asshole because they didn't "properly" (in your mind) engage with you over something of important subject matter abd individual insignificance (or etc.)

you don't have to be normal, you just have to not suck!

try not to perseverate also. people will either genuinely help you with that or use it as a bludgeon against you, and you need to be very wary of the latter camp— and hold onto the former with all you've got, because they're the realest mfers you're gonna get

[berusaes]

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered