I’d prefer if only 18+ should follow, please & thank you! (I guess that’s why my icon is the cone of shame) Stay safe you cool baby (; This is mostly a mess of shitpost reblogs, forever on spn bullshit (pro-wincest and multiship 🤷♀️), eternally obsessed with spooky shit and houses that hate you I try to tag so filter spn and/or wincest if you don’t want to see it I’m old and queer and tired and have no interest in fandom wars or anti bullshit. Ship what you like, it’s not real life brenda Terfs and nazis fuck off AO3: archiveofourown.org/users/EstherShapiro
If you use Firefox, you can go to the about:config page, search for "media.mediasource.enabled" and double click on it to set it to false. After you restart Firefox, all youtube videos will load entirely even when paused! This also affects other streaming websites :)
go to About:config
find media.mediasource.enabled and toggle it to false
find media.cache_readahead_limit and change it to 9999
find media.cache_resume_threshold and change it to 9999
additionally if you'd prefer mp4 to webm
also in about:config, find:
media.encoder.webm.enabled
media.mediasource.webm.audio.enabled
media.mediasource.webm.enabled
media.webm.enabled
and toggle them all to false
note!
this will limit video to 1080p
and use https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/dont-accept-webp/ to kill WebP
Fuck Google
So you know how every once in a while someone gets a bunch of notes for pointing out that it's theoretically possible for a trans masc to get two penises, one from phalloplasty and one from metoidioplasty?
So I had a consult with Dr. Rajveer Purovit at Mount Sinai in NYC, and while I am not remotely trying to get that, it just happened to come up in conversation that yes, he does in fact have patients who have done exactly that. His preferred way of doing things is to do metoidioplasty first, then construct a phallus from abdominal tissue and place it on the groin above the meta phallus, and then have a third stage of surgery where they are combined and urethral lengthening happens. And the PA was just straight up like "yeah, some people do just stop after phase 2 because they like having the appearance and visual of the larger phallo phallus, but the higher sexual stimulation and better ability to pee with the meta phallus."
So. Yeah it turns out. That is not just a tumblr hypothetical. There are trans people walking around right now in the real world with two penises, and this is a normal surgical outcome from a surgeon who is renowned enough to have his own Wikipedia page.
Like, I definitely would not want that outcome personally, but holy shit that's awesome.
COOP! AGENT DALE COOPER! I NEED YOU TO GO TO A PLACE CALLED SILENT HILL. ITS A LONG STORY I’LL FILL YOU IN AS YOU GET HERE BUT COOP SOME VERY STRANGE STUFF IS HAPPENING. NOW IM NOT SURE HOW I GOT HERE MYSELF BUT IM SEEING WEIRD THINGS THAT CORRELATE TO MY DAILY LIFE. THEYRE SAYING SOMEONE IS WAITING FOR ME IN OUR SPECIAL PLACE. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THIS MEANS AND I DONT THINK THEY WILL BE TOO HAPPY ABOUT THIS DOWN IN WASHINGTON.
the roblox ceo saying that is an obvious slip, because while it's definitely what he meant as someone who profits directly from unpaid child labour, he's also not thinking that hard about how "all problems are actually opportunities" dialect goes over outside of a board meeting
[staring at the reporter and feeling my veins tighten as my anti-FUD anxiety response activates] actually, at our studio, we prefer to think of it as a child exploitation opportunity
AI Psychosis and the implications of its existence
Actually as shitty as the existence of AI psychosis is, the implications of it are FUCKING MIND-BOGGLING in actually a really revolutionary way.
("WTF are you talking about?" / "What do we currently know about AI psychosis?": x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x)
People experiencing "ChatGPT psychosis" are being involuntarily committed to mental hospitals and jailed following AI mental health crises.
Paywall free, via Futurism, June 28, 2025
Like, as someone who works professionally editing mental health books, the existence of AI psychosis almost certainly completely upends our understandings of how mental health disorders work. And their causes.
There's a non-zero chance the discovery/existence of AI psychosis is like. going to be/lead to more or less the mental health equivalent of inventing germ theory.
Like, we went from only sort of beginning to suspect to having actual, literal, indisputable proof that you can go from not having a psychotic disorder to having a psychotic disorder literally just from talking too much to a very aggrandizing source and/or echo chamber
THAT SEVERELY UPENDS OUR UNDERSTANDING OF THE DEVELOPMENT AND ORIGINS OF MENTAL HEALTH DISORDERS
**Note: I am using "psychotic" and "psychotic disorders" in their technical definition here, which is simply "involves experiencing breaks from reality." Because, contrary to all the stigma and misinformation, that's the literal/actual definition (x, x, x)
And like, obviously, in at least many cases, there would be/often are genetic, environmental, or trauma factors that are putting their thumbs on the scale there. But we know for a fact that a number of people who have developed AI psychosis do not have a previous record of mental health issues.
But the tipping factor for at least dozens of people, we now know for a fact, was talking to an AI chatbot. And we have a complete record of what was said for almost every single one of those cases, because, among other things, OpenAI / ChatGPT is now LEGALLY REQUIRED to preserve ALL CHAT TRANSCRIPTS, even if users delete them, until the court says otherwise (x, x, x).
(Which will be, by the way, years, at a minimum - that may have started with a copyright lawsuit, but there will be so many other AI lawsuits and investigations, including about AI psychosis, in the EU if not the US - this will go on for a while)
Anyway, yeah, good news in the long term for the understanding and treatment of mental health disorders
In the short term, seriously, please don't use chatbots for at least another couple of years, as a safety precaution
At least until they've sorted this shit out and (HOPEFULLY) figured out how to make this shit stop happening (and then, hopefully, actually implemented those changes).
Just call it a basic safety precaution - especially if you have any sort of neurodivergence and/or any history or family history of hallucinations, delusions, schizophrenia / schizo-spectrum, psychotic spectrum disorders, etc.
All of this will, I strongly suspect, be incredibly validating to a great many trauma survivors, abuse survivors, cult survivors, and members of the mad community
And it will hopefully really transform our understanding of how to understand and treat mental health issues, and particularly psychotic disorders, in really, really profound and positive ways. Which would be great, bc we're pretty fucking shit at understanding and treating them right now!
ChatGPT has encouraged/convinced people to commit suicide. When I looked it up, I was searching for a particular incident, only to find a new article about an apparently different suicide that had happened.
These chatbots are not safe to interact with. Don't use them
The worst part is that everyone else being 12 is making me more 12 out of necessity. Like what do you mean my most very strongly held and controversial beliefs now include "cover your mouth when you cough that's yucky" and "it's good to be nice and bad to be mean. You shouldn't be mean to people." That's the shit they used to get mad at me on the playground for.
the web being an impersonal and optionally anonymous landscape does allow some of the least pleasant people to feel untouchable yes, but one of the worst subtle ramifications that social media functionality has brought about in people's rationale is the loss of any ability to mind their own business
just because all of your friends are freaking out over the problematic person of the month doesn't mean you need to get involved. it will add no meaning to your life or anyone else's - only more pain
you could use this unbelievable technology to try and lessen the suffering of those in dire need of help at zero monetary cost and yet you choose to participate in targeted campaigns against people who upset you. you are well within your right to feel upset but my life holds so much more meaning and purpose now that i stay in my lane
i simply do not care how much this person you hate sucks. avoid them all you want but i don't think they should be harassed and punished and dragged out of public view for violating 'the rules.' police get paid to do this and you're doing it pro bono
sharing callout posts is not direct action and it's frankly absurd how many people continue to act like it is. i am deeply ashamed of the former person i was that believed this to be the case. if you still believe this, im sorry, you need to learn how to be comfortable minding your own business. if you think it's cowardly or immoral to mind your own business, in all sincerity, you need to do some growing up
some of you are simply way too eager to harm people you believe to be dangerous even if they are. as one of thousands of trans woman that was wrongfully smeared as being a rapist, i have to say, i never feel safe around any of you that write "kill your local rapist" like it's some revolutionary slogan. minding your own business is not condoning someone. if someone upsets you so much that you scrape through everything they've said to find "evidence" that they deserve to be punished and exiled you are a volunteer cop
if these thoughts make you so upset that you believe i'm dangerous for having these opinions, you're more than free to mind your own business. there is nothing shameful in minding your own business. cops want you to believe otherwise
i know it's scary - genuinely. i am not patronizing: i know it's frightening to see people doing and saying things that are upsetting or even dangerous, and being on the internet makes it feel safer to do something about it - but you do not need to engage with these things just because you feel the need to
getting involved is not always cop behaviour, either; if someone is harassing and threatening or attacking your friend or whatever, talk shit get hit. sometimes people need to get their ass kicked. very different from trying to ruin their life for slighting someone you care about
have now made the rest of the discord cry about this little boy who had multi-coloured ducks sewn onto a tunic that he loved so much he wore it to a Very Important Event because he was EIGHT and have you SEEN my DUCKS
sorry no i’m not done i’m gonna make you all cry some more i’m bringing you down with me
there was once a little boy.
he is born disabled. his body hurts, and he can’t walk properly the way the other children do. he doesn’t understand why. he’s a little boy. but he plays with wooden boats and pulls toys on a string.
somebody makes him a tunic. they sew ducks onto it in red and green and yellow and blue. the bright colours of a child.
the little boy is eight years old, and he’s going to be king now. there’s a big ceremony about it. he doesn’t really fully understand what’s going on, because he’s eight, but he wears the tunic with the brightly coloured ducks for the occasion because he loves it. look at his ducks! aren’t they great?
he is a child. the adults around him manipulate and coax him to gain more power for themselves. he still plays with toys.
as a teenager, not yet an adult, he fathers children. they do not survive. he’s not even old enough to have full agency in his job and is still being manipulated, but he had babies and they died.
he does not make it to his twenties. at eighteen or nineteen years old he dies, and is buried. his babies, so tiny, are buried with him.
and so is his tunic with the little ducks that he loved so much he kept it long after it no longer fit.
yeah i think that like. especially with historical figures in your mind people who were kings and queens or important nobles were adults. even if you know how old they were it doesn’t really click. it doesn’t seem real
but then you get something like a little tunic with brightly coloured ducks on it and it hits you like a fucking truck that this really was a little kid and no matter how far removed you are a little kid is still a little kid. their brains didn’t develop any quicker back then. he was just as developed/mature mentally as any 8 year old now. he had cartoonish animals on his clothes and he played with toy boats and probably terrorised the local cat population.
tutankhamun was a child and he didn’t make it to adulthood because he was unfortunate enough to be a very important child
his dad died when he was 8. he saw his own babies die when he was still just a boy himself.
but he had brightly coloured little ducks on his favourite shirt, and he kept it.
tutankhamun had a little pair of sandals with ducks on them. he had earrings decorated with ducks. he kept those, and other items of childhood clothing. some toys. keepsakes. things he loved, and treasured. he kept them all in a little wooden chest. the chest… was carved with ducks.
and that little duck chest, filled with things he kept from his childhood, was buried with him. maybe he was keeping them for the little babies who did not make it. maybe they just reminded him of good days and fun times.
but he was a little boy who thought ducks were just the best
Ok but this is how to teach history. This is how you get people to pay attention, to care. Find something small and make it personal, then zoom out to the wider context. History is best taught as a story, with people who lived their lives in ways that came together to create something remarkable that we still talk about today, but who were still just human at the end of the day. They kissed, argued, cried, and dreamed just like we do. And sometimes they really liked ducks.
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