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how does one have the strength to keep on living, while i hold on, weary and dying?

[underwata]

and she said to herself, it’s time to grow new wings

[etereaaa]

you are hurting me so much. you told me you would never do that and make me feel something that way. i hate and love you that it makes me sick. this dilemma is consuming my mind every night. i am afraid that i cannot bear this anymore. please stop this. i hate you. i miss you.

[shisasan]

Hermann Hesse, Siddhartha (1922)

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THE FIRST FROST

Wen Yifan: I don't deserve you. Sang Yan: Wen Shungjiang, take that back. Do you know why I never dated anyone all these years? Because I only wanted the best.

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i fear I might make a fool out of myself, if someone sheds light on my inner space, the dark abyss within my soul, yearning for warmth to make me whole.

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THE FIRST FROST

Sang Yan: There are some things I've always thought too pretentious to say. Even saying a single word felt embarrassing, but in this life, I have to say it once. Haven't you noticed it yet? After all these years... I still only like you.

[etereaaa]

february has welcomed me with a bittersweet embrace- i could not bear its overwhelming weight. upon its arrival, the echoes of my past unexpectedly returned to haunt me. over. and. over. again.

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i am the epitome of disappointment.

i embody its meaning.

i play out its action.

i speak its words.

i carry its burden.

i exist with it.

i live with it.

[etereaaa]

Exhausting days, sleepless nights, and I was unable to fulfill myself with anything nice. Darkness loomed not just once but every single day and my eyes grew tired. Situations were out of control and my mind and body could not seem to process it all. I live because I exist, not because i wanted to experience all of these.

[etereaaa]

You cannot blame a child if they hate their parent.

You are not in their shoes, and you have no idea what that child went through.

You cannot say that the child is "disrespectful" just because your situation is different from the child's.

You do not have the right to use the generational gap card just because you are older than the child.

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September, you have been so cruel to me. days were always filled with uncertainty and doubt, disappointment always seeks for me to make my life not easy. i continue to rot and sink myself into fantasy just to forget the things that has been consuming my entirety.

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TWISTED GAMES BY ANA HUANG

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TWISTED GAMES BY ANA HUANG

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TWISTED LOVE BY ANA HUANG