Don't let me go;

I'm Ethan. I serve you cheesecake. My baby is cuter than yours.

[salmurray]

ethan……………..i………ju…….st……..can……t………… i hav 2 hav a baby i cnt get married

baby pls!!im so in love w you.... ic ant do it without u. id rather drown (LOL). il have the baby4 you 

[ethan--cross]

[salmurray]

oh EtHAN IM N LUV W YOU TOO UR actually my baby’s dad not Shaq (lstole lur lsperm) IM So happy i got dis off mi chesst lol 

[ethan--cross]

will u................................. marry me...........................

?!

[salmurray]

yeah U CAN ttly be the god father lol (lots of love). Yeah I read about Jake and BJ in the paper. Still cant belIEVE HES ALIVE!! After all those yrs he was just workin as the janitor at the high school at 1st I felt betrayed but when him & Bj found luv then I came 2 terms. but in the beginnin it was lyk ‘WAT IS GOIN ON” ynko

[ethan--cross]

sal....................... i got2 tell u something... ur elies mom. lol (legally old love) also im in lvoe wwith you

[salmurray]

Well I’m due tomorrow so it’s goin ok. Shaq is p excited. Sometimes I still miss BJ. I rly loved him.

[ethan--cross]

aw cut!! can i be the godfather! LOL. (laugh out loud) i know u did, but im glad he finally came out. did you hear hes dating Jake now!!? still cant belive hes alive! best april fools joke ever HaHa!

[salmurray]

[ethan--cross]

hows the pregnancy going, shaq is gonna be a great dad sorry iti didnt work out on bj

[ethan--cross]

Hello here i am

[salmurray]

Alright.

[ethan--cross]

Just jokes. What's wrong, Sally?

[salmurray]

Do you think I’m the worst?

[ethan--cross]

[ethan--cross]

24 days into the new year already?

[ohmymonicaleigh]

That’s…. I’m really glad I can do that for you, Ethan.. 

And it’s absolutely not stupid. It’s… really, really special. And I’m… I’m sure that the feeling is mutual.

[ethan--cross]

Believe me- So am I.

You think so? Well uh- I hope we figure out if that's true or not soon.

[ohmymonicaleigh]

Wait really? OR are you joking?

[ethan--cross]

Swear to God. You see, we'd just gotten in this huge fight, i can't even remember what is what about- Something pointless. But anyways, never in my entire history of having these things has anyone been able to help me out, calm me down. But here you come, saying all of these things and just talking to me and suddenly I just said what i'd wanted to say for so long, that I wanted to call you my girlfriend, and you just looked at me, and you said "Then you should call me it." And ever since then you'd been the only person who can help me, with everything really- but especially those. Not even BJ could, I hardly even get them anymore- Besides that night at the hospital, but God, it had been forever. And it was only because I didn't have your voice to listen to.

I think you sort of make me feel like I'm having a panic attack all of the time, but a good one, like my hearts always racing, I can't catch my breath. I don't know- That sounds stupid.

[ohmymonicaleigh]

Yeah.. Me too.. 

You’re right.. I did leave. I got scared, I liked kissing you too much.

[ethan--cross]

Hmm, good thing you've gotten over that fear. You about gave me a damn panic attack after you left- You know, that's how I asked you to be my girlfriend, in the middle of a panic attack.

[ohmymonicaleigh]

Not…everything. Just. I remember that night. Well pieces. Not all of it’s there. But you wouldn’t…believe me about spelling bees. And… Boston. And you… we kissed. God..where were w- your… your roof? Yeah.

[ethan--cross]

Yeah- Yeah we we're on my roof, I helped fix your car the night before, and we talked about fucking a teddy bear and you said you were happy Monica, and I was happy Ethan- and you left but, it was one of the best nights i've ever had.

[ohmymonicaleigh]

I… Cross..

You.. eye-fucked me.. And we… Weissnichtwo..

[ethan--cross]

Oh my god, Monica- You, do you?

[ohmymonicaleigh]

I-

Okay.

[ethan--cross]

Don't you feel it, Mon? Don't you get it?

[ohmymonicaleigh]

Are you deaf or just stupid? Did you not hear what I said to you? You already know me. We can’t just start over. I don’t fucking know what to do either, but it sure as shit isn’t that. Maybe if you go hit your head hard enough you can either wake up your brain or lose your memory too and then we can really start over, but you know me, just like you said. And that’s not starting over. That’s just faking it and I don’t want to fake anything. It needs to be real.

[ethan--cross]

Christ Monica, this isn't fake- Don't you get that? Don't you dare try and tell me that this-

is fake.

[ohmymonicaleigh]

But just because things happened one way before, doesn’t mean they’re going to happen again. It probably happened because we became friends, and I trusted you, over time. I wasn’t thrown into a situation where I’m stuck with you regardless of how I feel about you. You’re expecting me to trust you, but I don’t know you well enough to trust you. I’m sure I opened up to you before, that was my way of getting to trust you. But I can’t do that now because you know everything about me. Don’t you get that? Just because it happened that way before doesn’t mean it’s going to just happen that way again. I’m thankful that you’re not running in the other direction, okay? I am. It’s really appreciated that you’re willing to help me out. But you have to understand that it’s not just as simple as you’re making it out to be either.

[ethan--cross]

I just don't know what to say, what to do, to make this easier for you. Do you wanna move out? Live with your parents? You've gotta voice this shit to me. I don't wanna walk on eggshells around you for the rest of my life, but I don't know what else to do. Fine, fuck it then- the past is the past. If playing it normal isn't doing anything for you then why don't we start all the way from the beginning? Hi. I'm Ethan. I work at The Cheesecake Factory. Great to meet you.