i want to recover. i want to eat til i'm full. i want to live and be happy and spend my time and energy looking after myself and talking to the people i love and having fun, not obsessing over food and weight. i don't want to feel sick or weak and i know i'm disabled and i'll never fully get rid of those things but i know when i eat they're a lot better and i want it to be better. i want to live my life and not worry about calories or fasting or anything like that. and i deserve that. and you deserve that. we deserve to enjoy our lives and love our bodies and eat without worrying. and one day? i think we'll get there. we deserve to get there.













