mio

do you ever want to die so bad you'd fall in love for it?

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2027 ; i will pay you to keep your hand over my mouth

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holy fucking shit okay. my second EP, Rosewater, will be out on May 22nd and i have so much to say about it but no words at all.

i kinda consider it to be about the separation of artist and muse, in a sort of detached from reality and dreamy way, and the subsequent emotions and such. some of the songs have existed in some way or another for many years now, with the oldest dating back to when i was 15 (new version recorded for the ep tho!!) which is insane.

ANYWAY i hope yall love it, i put my everything into it, it's entirely self written and produced and everything and im so so so proud. <3

TRACKLIST

01. Pure Magic

02. I Miss You, Virginia

03. Rose Red Lips Look Better Dead

04. Rosewater

05. Noise Will Be Noise

06. Remember to Remember the Roses and Magnolias, Then Remember the Trucks

07. Para Bellum

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Teaser for the first single “Virginity” off my upcoming album “Colossus”, dropping 10/27. Reblogs are appreciated 🌙💕✨🌿🌊

Twitter: https://twitter.com/papermassacred Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/haydenatlas

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Teaser for the third single “Hospital Beds” off my upcoming album “Colossus”, dropping 10/27. Reblogs are appreciated 🌙💕✨🌿🌊

Twitter: https://twitter.com/papermassacred
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/haydenatlas

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Colossus - Foreword

Colossus, to me, represents a temple and a monument. A massive space, bigger than human comprehension. As of late, I’ve found a fascination with things I don’t understand, whether it be the universe or my own brain. I wanted to try and make an album that dealt with themes of things I’ve never been able to wrap my head around, like the alienation I’ve felt as a queer person, the depression I can’t shake, and the lovers I wish I had but can’t let get close. Colossus was a way for me to explore those themes sonically, and try and express something I was never able to put into words. 

I had no electronic musical experience whatsoever, so armed with nothing but Garageband and a crappy little microphone, I essentially started from scratch in discovering both my sound as well as how to produce it. Recorded and produced entirely in my room and my closet, Colossus was conceived on June 21st, finished on October 6th, and born on October 27th. The process was an emotional and revealing experience, and taught me things about myself that I don’t think I ever would have learned otherwise. 

Thank you to everyone who encouraged me from the beginning, especially my mutuals on twitter who never fail to hype me up and kept me motivated to finish the biggest project I’ve ever completed to date. Thanks to Courtney for listening to everything I threw at you and being honest with me when something sounded like garbage, thanks to my parents for inspiring half of the album, and thanks to the church for ruining my life and inspiring the other half. Love y’all!

I’m gonna take my time to curate my next album, but Colossus is exactly what I wanted it to be. Unpolished, raw, chaotic, and purely me. I hope you all enjoy it, or at least find something in it you can use. Thanks for listening all, and I’ll see you all for the next album. 

Love, Hayden xxx

Colossus, my debut album, out now. Listen/Buy/Stream HERE.

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Please go check out his album!!! I love this bitch more than I love myself. There’s a variety of styles on it so I’m sure you’ll find something you like. And share it if you do!!!!

[gordonramsaydegradationdaddy]

On April 28, 2024, I released a song called Arise. On July 5, 2024, I released a song called Face Melt. I took both songs down pretty soon after because I did not like the way they sounded. I was quite frankly embarrassed of them. But these songs were still so special to me, and I told myself that maybe one day I'd redo both of them and reupload them. That day has finally come <3

The Arise, Ye! / Face Melt double single will be yours on December 25, 2025, Christmas day!

Arise, Ye! is about someone sacrificing their own being by willing the spirit of a loved one's deceased significant other into their body, so the two can be together again.

Face Melt is meant to represent the final thoughts as someone falls off a building, in slow motion almost. It's 7 minutes long bc it's been said that brain activity keeps on for 7 minutes after someone dies. It ends in regret, but there is nothing to be done.

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little demo i recorded a few nights ago as a joke. i might add to it, who knows. i put the lyrics below :)

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i was listening to this earlier and i feel like a lot of the layers got lost in the production so i wanted to post this here separately hehe

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i’ve had the guitar intro from head in the ceiling fan by title flight stuck in my head all summer 

head in the wall - lyrics below

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i already put this on bandcamp a year ago but i just wanted it on here. it’s my favorite thing i’ve ever done. aelyxx’s guitar on the second chorus makes me cry each time i hear it. when i die, i want to be remembered as these 5 minutes ♡  

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i made this demo back in spring for my album but it’s long since been cut. i just wanted to share it tho since it’ll never see the light of day. lyrics below xx

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for him

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don’t trust the angels 

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you’ve got a thing for me that you can’t say out loud

it’s ok, baby, you’re allowed 

it’s hard to be letting go 

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missing a motel room by the interstate in georgia.