little secrets

SW: 200 lbs - 90 kg CW: 165’7 lbs - 76 kg GW: 143.3 lbs - 65 kg UGW: 121.2 lbs - 55 kg - abby | 19 | 5’5 -

I dont want to do anything bc I am embarrassed. Im embarrassed of everything. The way I look. The way I talk. The things I say. What my eyes are doing. The clothes im wearing. Even my thoughts are embarrassing. It doesnt matter whether or not people can tell what im thinking, they do and im embarrassed of it.

[yourlocalbisexualdisaster]

The thing about having depression hit before I was even a teenager, is that I have no idea who I am. I have no memory of what it’s like to live without anxiety, depression, and eating disorders.  I have no idea who I am without these disorders, they’ve defined my entire life. 

How do you recover, when there is nothing to go back to?

[boneybangtan]

let me go to sleep and wake up thirty pounds lighter.

please.

[skinny-cry-baby]

just dance >>>> exercising

[trytobelittle]

I hate myself when I starve and I hate myself when I’m eating normally.

I will hate myself no matter what.

Might as well be thin.

[sadb-u-tn0tskin]

Today’s reminder : get back on track. You only fail if you give up. Today is a new day. Your actions of the past don’t rule you.

[siickangel]

it’s sad how easy it is to fall back into dangerous habits

[bemylova]

my toxic trait : i hurt in silence and pray that someone loves me enough to notice i’m not being myself

[zagreus]

Mama didn’t raise a quitter but she did raise an insecure perfectionist who never finishes anythi

[beauty-and-bones]

Just because the food is there does not mean you have to eat it.

Just because you’ve been offered food, does not mean you have to say yes and accept it.

Just because you’re craving an unhealthy food, does not mean you have to go out and buy it.

There are always other options for better results. The choice is always yours, and you decide your outcome.

[samxcamargo]

If you’re scrolling through tumblr trying to distract yourself from something you don’t want to think about or you’re looking for a sign that everything will be okay, this is it. So, breathe. Relax into this moment. You’re alive & that’s all that matters.

[softroseangel]

[ethernalskinny]

Hey guys! I’m back 🦋

And I wanted to start posting my meals here with my calorie intake. As for breakfast today I have

- 2 slices of bread (56g) = 177 kcal

- 2 slices of ham (26g) = 25 kcal

- hot water with cinnamon, lemon and honey ( this is really helpful for boosti your metabolism! I highly recommend it) = 26kcal

So the total intake it’s around 228 x

I prefer having a “big” breakfast for keeping my head focused on school and other activities, but that’s up to every person!

[depression-healthy-carrier]

Me: it’s not even that serious.

Inner me: have a breakdown

[thinnervinci-deactivated2019083]

Bro, this ain’t body dysmorphia.

This is really me and I need to lose some damn weight.

I dont want to do anything bc I am embarrassed. Im embarrassed of everything. The way I look. The way I talk. The things I say. What my eyes are doing. The clothes im wearing. Even my thoughts are embarrassing. It doesnt matter whether or not people can tell what im thinking, they do and im embarrassed of it.

[sad-enbye]

I wanna starve myself and want everyone around me to be worried for me but I also want to go on without them noticing but I also wanna lose weight very fast but I also wanna eat food but I also wanna feel the hunger pangs but I also want to just have a healthy relationship with food but I also don't wanna gain. help.