[evenlis]

[evenlis]

As you move towards her, a new lover you say is better than me, older than me, maybe she will stay longer than me... I hope that you love yourself better than when I loved you. Don't let insecurity be the rust in your new house of dreams like it was in ours.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

Moving on from you feels like shedding old skin. Flakes fell off from a girl I once was but no longer recognised.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I wonder if Longing knows that it's supposed to fade away with time. Yet it keeps returning to me like coming home after a tired day. Lays there over my heart in the dark of night. Do I weep to lighten the weight or let it press me as if I were a flower unwilling?

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I'm still hoping there's a manual for Adult-ing. Surely, I think, you cannot expect me to navigate false pathed, winded, and far leading roads of grown-ups when I had not walked this jungle maze before...

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

The dream of your hands around my waist, where we both knew it would fit... would stay a dream and fade away, somewhere between this growing distance.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

Should my heart stop beating, your voice will start it up again.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I heard you're moving on. That's great. I'm sprinting in the other direction with hopes of out running throughts of you. (But in my dreams, they catch me anyway)

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I wonder if you see it in my eyes I'm tired and not here in my mind Hold my hand and pretend. Like the love's not gone and it's already the end.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

What is strength? The tears held back from fears that you think will drown you, or the tears spilled knowing you will be lighter for it? In both cases, I have not yet learned to occupy my space. The guilt is a whisper, but yet I stand strong. It is but my hands to hold me in any case.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I think of you, and evasive sleep at last comes to me.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

Forever like...

The waves against the beach. Beating wings of a butterfly Spirals of galaxies bright Me calling to you

Trees singing in the wind The Sun against the wildflowers Stars that bring in wonder You calling to me

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

"Give me your heart", I said to the thirteen year old sitting next to me. "From today on, it will never be alone as it will have a sister in mine." Thus began a friendship truer than all others we ever will know, a love sweeter than any we've felt before.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

That day, we spent laughing in the garden, hard to breathe and doubling over. I still held your hand, and you squeezed it hard. That felt pretty close to magic.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

If I ever forget how to breathe, I know that you will be my breath until such time till I learn again.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

When my heart beats, I know yours beat with me. You will never be unloved as long as I breathe.

- Evenlis

[evenlis]

I always seemed to have a love in me that erased the hate and the hurt in others' hearts. I thought it was never ending because it never did end to me. Until my heart broke. Then the love coming from it felt like it was burning me and burning everyone that touched it.

- Evenlis