▉ ▊ ❀┊ ( @joeywheelah• here ) ;
So -- apparently honesty is the name of the game here. Yes, it’s a symbol of the holiday, yes it’s cliched and trite and every other synonym in the book. But the fact of the matter is, she’d given him a heart. Against every better judgement and wise calculation, she had gone out of her way to give him a gift. And -- and he’s annoying. Rude. Immature -- indecent. He’s everything that she cannot stand, empirically and ideologically.
He is all of that up until and after the moment his lips brush against hers; then, suddenly, all of those things don’t seem that bad.
She is caught speechless; not a first, but still a rarity. Her throat seems to be unable to do anything but breathe, slowly, like every breath is forcing its way through syrup. Swallowing doesn’t help. Stopping doesn’t help. Trying to think doesn’t help because she can’t -- she has no words --
He’s so close. He’s still so close.
Her lips are against his again before she even realizes that she’s decided anything at all, instinctively moving to capture his as her other hand searches out his free one, fingers tangling roughly through the spaces in between. She only knows that her eyes are closed when she can only feel his proximity -- not see it.
His proximity -- he’s right there -- what is she doing ?
❛ I --... ❜ Any explanation or protest dies on her tongue, as she registers (belatedly) that she’s pulled away. Far enough to see his face in its entirety. Hers is hot in a way that rings of brightness, red likely splashes across her nose, under her eyes, at the tops of her ears. No -- she has no control over it, and suddenly she’s overcome with the curious sensation that her knees are gone entirely. That she’s one breath away from ceasing to exist.
❛ I -- ❜ Nothing. Nothing. She can’t do anything but force herself to find something, anything, to latch onto. When she does, she can’t feel herself forming the words; she can barely hear their echo once they’re given voice.
❛ I have -- I have to go. ❜