a sinking feeling i can’t escape
overwhelming thoughts that never seem to fade
my health, my time, my life, i gave it all away
for the promising picture of your embrace
happy and perfect, worthy of love
superior to everyone, the envy of all
safe from all danger inside your concrete walls
but this isn’t heaven
i hurt and i cry
this isn’t heaven
but i’m so close i could die
my bones are fragile, my heart is weak
i keep running out of air every time i speak
my hair’s falling out, yet more grows on my back
my hands won’t stop shaking, and my nails always crack
this isn’t heaven
turns out you lied
this isn’t heaven
but i can’t bear to say goodbye

















