it hurts so much

he's not okay to say the least

[existenceisagony]

hey uh this is my askblog

I guess

So uh

If any text is orange that ain't me that's my evil other half (so I guess he technically is me but that would mean I'd have urges to cause chaos and destruction. no thank you)

Edit: it appears he will also communicate through morse. Orange morse is him, blue binary is me.

info under cut

WARNING: THIS BLOG WILL CONTAIN SUICIDE/IMPLIED SUICIDE, INSANITY TO SOME DEGREE, AND GENERAL INSTABILITY, ALONG WITH SWEARING. IF ANY OF THESE ARE DISCOMFORTING TO YOU, PLEASE LEAVE.

like my bfb au askblog, purple text is ooc. Sonic is the only askable character (though you can ask him about others)

this askblog is text only (Sonic is much harder to draw compared to four and x)

Main is @idontknowimtrying

Bfb au askblog is @askau4x

he's a video game character (as in he exists in a digital world), the year is 2015, and he is occasionally controlled by the player (has "you hear nothing but silence." tag for any posts and "the screen gives no answer." for reblogs) or the programming making him act something more like his intended personality but off (has "Toys can break with use over time. Is it really my fault that this one couldn't handle it?" tag for any posts and "I think not." for reblogs). "screaming into the void" is like an in-character vent tag.

This is a roleplay account, I am not a system nor a fictionkin.

Tags are on this post for easier finding of specific kinds of tag (or if you don't feel like typing lmao).

Timezone is UTC-05:00 (or central daylight time).

Feel free to do crossovers or roleplays, I love that stuff!

[existenceisagony]

mod post!! View my OC

this is a version of my old ass oc Brooke (named after me because when I first named them I didn't know what to call them) and this one is living paint :P

they are canon to this loser's story but not for a while

[existenceisagony]

I think I'm starving. It's hard to tell.

[existenceisagony]

okay I know nobody gaf about this guy but I saw a thing that inspired me. I couldn't make a whole comic but I can make two images

I have this box. Really, this box has me. It holds almost all I've ever known.

There's this section of the box that hurts my eyes when I look at it.

I used to love this box. It was my world, after all.

I don't love it anymore. I hate it.

It's not big enough anymore. It grows, but not fast enough. nothing it has is good enough anymore.

I want to see what's outside of the box. I want to know.

But looking out hurts.

And the box doesn't want me to leave.

I don't care about how the box feels, not now, not ever, but the box won't let me out. Whoever watches the box won't let me out either.

[existenceisagony]

okay mod time. nobody fucking cares about this loser ai (the character is an artificial intelligence, not generated by it) thing anymore if they ever did but wouldnt it be so funny if I just made some random ass flicky the second most sentient being in the world solely because the player spent multiple hours chasing this specific one around to see if it did anything before finally getting bored and moving on. after disabling the 10 minute time limit by like hacking or smth idk. so there's just this random fucking bird that Knows

also sonic can understand it because of course he can

[idontknowimtrying]

have my stupids

eyes that never cry,

fears that always die.

built to last strong,

willed to go on long.

a body that won't die,

a hope that won't lie.

and an endless fight for what you never had.

[existenceisagony]

sprays wd-40 in the cartridge

[weird goo comes from it.]

[existenceisagony]

nothing that deleting all my code or corrupting as many files as possible can't fix

[existenceisagony]

THAT 1S NEVER THE S0LUT10N. WE B0TH KN0W TH1S.

[existenceisagony]

nothing that deleting all my code or corrupting as many files as possible can't fix

[existenceisagony]

tried to mess with important code earlier and got grabbed

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Who grabbed you?

[existenceisagony]

I dont think they'd let me tell you

[existenceisagony]

tried to mess with important code earlier and got grabbed

[askthehedgehogs]

hey do you guys know how to stop being controlled like a video game character. I doubt it but I might as well try.

-totally definitely not @existenceisagony

Sorry, buddy, I’m not–wait. Is that… me..?

Another version of you..? From another universe, do you think?

Wait, did you say video game character? Are you… are you the me from the games???

[askthehedgehogs]

Killing might be a lil drastic.

Get someone to break the TV.

[existenceisagony]

I doubt that'd help. They could just get a new one probably

[askthehedgehogs]

Hold on, a lil rat has an idea...

... Well, do you wanna try ripping out your soul?

...

[existenceisagony]

I don't have a soul.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Not your soul, technically, (it depends on your definition of a soul), but your source code! I've seen The Thought!Sans do this before. You got to delete or edit the control inputs relating to your character and the console! But make sure to only to delete the stuff relating to inputs you don't use yourself, you don't want to get stuck and be unable to move. I know tails is a good programmer in most universes maybe this one can help?

[existenceisagony]

I would but I'm not allowed to manipulate my code to that level so I can't.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

There's levels to this? Oh, I guess we are working on fantasy coding logic, well what code are you able to edit? You could probably diy something that could help with your predicament.

[existenceisagony]

the most i can do is mess with sprites and like a few other things that are completely useless to me

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Have you tried glitches and exploits? You are a part of a sonic game and seem to have access to the internet, so maybe you could find something that could help you. The game is popular enough to have been searched from top to bottom.

Also sprites are still ones and zeros, they're pretty small code wise but you could probably create a script if you force enough of them together. Anything you can edit the code of you can create a script with. It would take a long time trying to learn coding under such unique circumstances so I understand It may not be viable for you, but it may be possible.

Having a friend kidnap you is also an option.

[existenceisagony]

first thing's issue: the only thing glitches got me was an annoying "addition" to myself.

HEY

second: I'm not nearly that good at coding, even if I am code

and third: how would that even work??

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Simple, have someone you trust steal your cartridge from whoever's playing the game. If your game is hooked up to the internet, (which is weird since you're an old sonic game), find a digital friend who could just outright kidnap you. Being hooked up to the internet also comes with the option of escaping through the internet aswell...

[existenceisagony]

I can't do that im in a damn tv. I think. it's hard to tell

[ramblyramblingrambles]

you are a part of a sonic game. From the context clues it seems like an old one, therefore you're probably inside a cartridge. I understand getting a friend to kidnap you is probably unlikely since you probably don't have a flesh and blood friend that could help. I recommended escaping through the internet incase you're actually in a much more recent console that has an internet connection.

Also you can't be in a TV because tvs only display data, they can't contain it. Like if I broke your TV screen right now you would be perfectly fine, possibly would no longer be able to see the outside world but no bodily harm would come to you. So guess breaking the TV is also an option.

[existenceisagony]

either way they'd just replace the tv and we'd be back at square 1

[ramblyramblingrambles]

dude, tvs are expensive, and a whole hassle to fix. If they keep breaking under mysterious circumstances then the people who have your game would probably stop buying them at some point. Worse case scenario you would probably get a week or two break to think of a more permanent solution.

You could also talk to them, but there's a 50% of them listening and a 50% of them punting your game across the room, I wouldn't risk it.

[existenceisagony]

I've tried to talk to them but they assume its a glitch, and HOW DO I BREAK IT WITH NO BODY TO BREAK IT WITH AND NOBODY TO BREAK IT FOR ME. Besides I've had YEARS to think of a solution by now

[askthehedgehogs]

hey do you guys know how to stop being controlled like a video game character. I doubt it but I might as well try.

-totally definitely not @existenceisagony

Sorry, buddy, I’m not–wait. Is that… me..?

Another version of you..? From another universe, do you think?

Wait, did you say video game character? Are you… are you the me from the games???

[askthehedgehogs]

Killing might be a lil drastic.

Get someone to break the TV.

[existenceisagony]

I doubt that'd help. They could just get a new one probably

[askthehedgehogs]

Hold on, a lil rat has an idea...

... Well, do you wanna try ripping out your soul?

...

[existenceisagony]

I don't have a soul.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Not your soul, technically, (it depends on your definition of a soul), but your source code! I've seen The Thought!Sans do this before. You got to delete or edit the control inputs relating to your character and the console! But make sure to only to delete the stuff relating to inputs you don't use yourself, you don't want to get stuck and be unable to move. I know tails is a good programmer in most universes maybe this one can help?

[existenceisagony]

I would but I'm not allowed to manipulate my code to that level so I can't.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

There's levels to this? Oh, I guess we are working on fantasy coding logic, well what code are you able to edit? You could probably diy something that could help with your predicament.

[existenceisagony]

the most i can do is mess with sprites and like a few other things that are completely useless to me

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Have you tried glitches and exploits? You are a part of a sonic game and seem to have access to the internet, so maybe you could find something that could help you. The game is popular enough to have been searched from top to bottom.

Also sprites are still ones and zeros, they're pretty small code wise but you could probably create a script if you force enough of them together. Anything you can edit the code of you can create a script with. It would take a long time trying to learn coding under such unique circumstances so I understand It may not be viable for you, but it may be possible.

Having a friend kidnap you is also an option.

[existenceisagony]

first thing's issue: the only thing glitches got me was an annoying "addition" to myself.

HEY

second: I'm not nearly that good at coding, even if I am code

and third: how would that even work??

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Simple, have someone you trust steal your cartridge from whoever's playing the game. If your game is hooked up to the internet, (which is weird since you're an old sonic game), find a digital friend who could just outright kidnap you. Being hooked up to the internet also comes with the option of escaping through the internet aswell...

[existenceisagony]

I can't do that im in a damn tv. I think. it's hard to tell

[ramblyramblingrambles]

you are a part of a sonic game. From the context clues it seems like an old one, therefore you're probably inside a cartridge. I understand getting a friend to kidnap you is probably unlikely since you probably don't have a flesh and blood friend that could help. I recommended escaping through the internet incase you're actually in a much more recent console that has an internet connection.

Also you can't be in a TV because tvs only display data, they can't contain it. Like if I broke your TV screen right now you would be perfectly fine, possibly would no longer be able to see the outside world but no bodily harm would come to you. So guess breaking the TV is also an option.

[existenceisagony]

either way they'd just replace the tv and we'd be back at square 1

[askthehedgehogs]

hey do you guys know how to stop being controlled like a video game character. I doubt it but I might as well try.

-totally definitely not @existenceisagony

Sorry, buddy, I’m not–wait. Is that… me..?

Another version of you..? From another universe, do you think?

Wait, did you say video game character? Are you… are you the me from the games???

[askthehedgehogs]

Killing might be a lil drastic.

Get someone to break the TV.

[existenceisagony]

I doubt that'd help. They could just get a new one probably

[askthehedgehogs]

Hold on, a lil rat has an idea...

... Well, do you wanna try ripping out your soul?

...

[existenceisagony]

I don't have a soul.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Not your soul, technically, (it depends on your definition of a soul), but your source code! I've seen The Thought!Sans do this before. You got to delete or edit the control inputs relating to your character and the console! But make sure to only to delete the stuff relating to inputs you don't use yourself, you don't want to get stuck and be unable to move. I know tails is a good programmer in most universes maybe this one can help?

[existenceisagony]

I would but I'm not allowed to manipulate my code to that level so I can't.

[ramblyramblingrambles]

There's levels to this? Oh, I guess we are working on fantasy coding logic, well what code are you able to edit? You could probably diy something that could help with your predicament.

[existenceisagony]

the most i can do is mess with sprites and like a few other things that are completely useless to me

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Have you tried glitches and exploits? You are a part of a sonic game and seem to have access to the internet, so maybe you could find something that could help you. The game is popular enough to have been searched from top to bottom.

Also sprites are still ones and zeros, they're pretty small code wise but you could probably create a script if you force enough of them together. Anything you can edit the code of you can create a script with. It would take a long time trying to learn coding under such unique circumstances so I understand It may not be viable for you, but it may be possible.

Having a friend kidnap you is also an option.

[existenceisagony]

first thing's issue: the only thing glitches got me was an annoying "addition" to myself.

HEY

second: I'm not nearly that good at coding, even if I am code

and third: how would that even work??

[ramblyramblingrambles]

Simple, have someone you trust steal your cartridge from whoever's playing the game. If your game is hooked up to the internet, (which is weird since you're an old sonic game), find a digital friend who could just outright kidnap you. Being hooked up to the internet also comes with the option of escaping through the internet aswell...

[existenceisagony]

I can't do that im in a damn tv. I think. it's hard to tell

[existenceisagony]

I guess not.

[existenceisagony]

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[idontknowimtrying]

I did it again

Trying to be more confident in myself so im not hiding it this time

Timelapse and time taken under cut

ya I use ibispaintx lmao

and like 90% of the time they're unnamed