Expectations and Illusions

Learning and Living

[youreyesheldtheworld-deactivate]

Well, Bye.

I would say farewell

but there’s nothing fair about this

I would say goodbye

but I’m not good at endings

I know I shouldn’t be so bitter

but I know what we had was something extraordinary

and that is too hard for me to cope with

because good things don’t come around here often

but they always seem to leave

always taking more and more of what is left of me

and eventually there’ll be

nothing left of what is left of me

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

why do you have to leave?

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

A relationship with a deadline

We started knowing it would come to an end. Long distance was never an option. We knew what we were getting ourselves into. We grew so close and now it all has to end. In a way its like torture. I knew that it would end up hurting me, but I did it anyways. And I would do it again. 

[remanence-of-love]

Like falling in love…

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I messed up big time 

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I care

And I do care. I care about you and the possibility of making it last. I care about the thought of an US. I would care if I ever lost you, in fact, the thought of it scares me. Yet you know none of this. Why? Why are we afraid to talk about our feelings? To ask if we have feelings for each other when it is obvious they are there? Should I just go along with everything we do? 

feb 2017

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

How do you go back to being strangers with someone who has seen your soul?

Gill

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

Let the only pain and tears be the ones caused by laughing too hard. The only sleepless nights, the ones spent with you. The only doubts, the ones about how it is possible to love someone so much. The only bruises, the ones marked by your lips.

SIS 

no more suffering 

[cartas-a-mi-amada-deactivated20]

Me ha costado tanto robarme tu corazón Que no pienso devolverlo en un buen rato. Antes de irte ponlo en hielo dentro de cualquier cajón, que si se pudre ya no podre perdonarlo. Nos hizo falta tiempo pero no sobro el sudor, aquel que yo escurrí de tus mentiras, Como esa de que te ibas a quedar toda la vida O la otra de que no habría despedidas.

Y no voy a quedarme con los brazos cruzados, Pero el tiempo no te quiere dejar ver el pasado.

Mira que no puedo mas, que mi vida es tuya y no cabe duda, no voy a olvidar, Mira que no puedo mas, ya no estoy fingiendo Y aunque sea mentira di que no te vas. Di que no te vas.

Lo que me dejaste y lo que el viento se llevo Me duele y ya no se como ignorarlo, Por favor dime lo que haz hecho con mi pobre corazón, A ver si poco a poco puedo repararlo.

Y no voy a quedarme con los brazos cruzados, Pero el tiempo no te quiere dejar ver el pasado.

Mira que no puedo mas, que mi vida es tuya y no cabe duda, no voy a olvidar. Mira que no puedo mas, ya no estoy fingiendo y aunque sea mentira di que no te vas, Di que no te vas

Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh

Y no voy a aceptar que ya no quieras quedarte, Pero el tiempo no podrá enseñarme como olvidarte.

Mira que no puedo mas, que mi vida es tuya y no cabe duda, no voy a olvidar. Mira que no puedo mas, ya no estoy fingiendo y  Aunque sea mentira di que no te vas, Di que no te vas.

//Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh Oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh Di que no te vas. Di que no te vas//

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

SIS

[huelesalluvia-deactivated201904]

Entonces llega ese punto de que no. De que hagas lo que hagas, no. De que no te quiere igual que le quieres tú. Y entonces te vas, sin mirar atrás, sin hacer ruido. Para seguir viviendo, para ir tirando.

Defreds (via huelesalluvia)

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

And this explains everything so perfectly.

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I can feel us growing further apart.

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

My World

Friend: Honey, you deserve the world. You deserve a whole lot better.

Me: You don't understand. He was my world. He was the best thing that ever happened to me. I don't think I can find anyone better.

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I promised myself I wouldn't get attached, but sometime I break my own promises.

SIS

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I just can't stop thinking about you, about us, about what we used to be.

SIS

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I'm done trying.

SIS

[sleepingwithanchors]

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I just need you to know

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

Each time we become physically closer the further apart we grow mentally.

SIS