#nonrelationship

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I just can't stop thinking about you, about us, about what we used to be.

SIS

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

If he doesn't want a relationship with you don't give him relationship benefits

SIS

It’ll prevent you getting hurt. 

[expectationiswhatcausespain]

I don’t know what we are. All I know is we are happy. I am happy when I am with you. My face lights up whenever your name comes up on my phone. I am happy when I get to see you and sad when it’s time to go. We are not in love, but you make me happy. I know this cannot last forever because soon we will have to go our separate ways, but I am happy for however long this may last. 

[ncrediblechels]

That’s tough. 😂

What’s life if you can’t crack a lil jokey joke!

[suddenchange-s]

there are some people that you will never get over, no matter where you are in your life or how hard you try

[iammissmae]

Keep holdin' on..

“He who gives to me, teaches me to give.”

"I don't know how it all started and I don't know how, when it will end. But one thing is for sure i will just keep holdin' on as long as you're there. Together we will walk through the path of heaven and hell. It's not easy to love someone who loves somebody else. Why I'm still here? Its just because I need to keep holdin' on up until the day that its just you and me without her. "

[ifionlyhadawaist]

I was just fine before he showed up.

And now it’s been 3 days I’ve been left on read and I don’t know what I did wrong.

[nayekis]

Entry # 4 Undefined Relationship

Being a single for the very long time (it’s like an ancient time! Lol!). I’ve settled to “Undefined Relationship” countless time. At that time, I was okay with that arrangement. My always go-getter attitude line was: “It’s easier this way.” “I can walk away on this anytime I like. Without getting hurt.” “No commitment. I want this.” “Ahhh... a FREEDOM. I can do whatever the hell I want.”

This works for me when I was studying in Uni and thought maybe this is the relationship that I can surely work in without getting hassled to my studies. But it comes to the point where this kind of “non-relationship” gives me a disdain for what seemed like a perfect solution at the time. It affects what I see for myself. Gives me a doubt that if he was already settled of “What we have” it means I’m not good enough to be loved. Regrets that I let someone know me so well and it will only end up on this kind of relationship. Participating in a non-relationship is staggering.

After me in depth personal realization of myself of what I learn this non-relationship era. I realize it took for granted that, label or not, people have feelings. It’s normal when you are “with” someone to feel happy, angry, or even jealous. These feelings, though, can never be justified when you’re in the no-label zone. Someone hits on the person I’m with. I feel jealous. But I can’t show it because I have no right to claim the he is mine. Reality checks his note. And just because you don’t define it doesn’t mean others don’t. At one time my family and friends saw us and after that we refer as a couple and when they ask me, “Are you two together?” “Why he is not with you?” I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to answer them or I can say, “We’re not a couple, but he’s doing just fine thanks for asking.” Talk about awkward moments.

Sometimes I don’t know how I should treat this kind of relationship because I don’t know where to stand, what I should say, what’s okay to tell friends — when it’s all a big blurry mess, I can’t take ownership of something in my life that might actually be going right (gasp!). Yeah, like my love life can actually be doing well. This thing can actually happen, you know! Haha But I won’t know if it’s going well if I don’t even know if I can call it a love life.

If he doesn’t want to define it from the start, he doesn’t want to define it at all. I ask him if he likes me. He said, “Yes!” and so I said, “Why don’t you to date me like real this time.” And his only answer was, “Not now. My life is complicated right now.” I understand this at first, but when the understanding is already “zero” and there’s nothing happen until he walks away.

It’s inevitable. There comes a point when this kind of relationship has an expiration date. Remember: No-label relationship always comes to some sort of an impasse. I learned to don’t settle for less I deserve someone who is willing to commit to me. NOW. Like 101%. No holds barred, nothing held back, all in. Because I believe I’m a special person and worthy of that singular commitment. If we’re just stringing each other along and battering hearts for the sake of what? A good time? Heartbreak deserves more