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I'm sorry, but I'm deactivating.

I've lost the muse for Junhong completely, and I don't want to have to force myself to be here and to force replies.

One day I may be back with Junhong. Maybe. If so, I'll be sure to let those know who were close with Junhong.

I apologize, but thank you guys for letting me be here, and those who have been there, thank you.

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Never have I ever...

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Let’s play “Never Have I Ever”. Cross out all of the things that you have done. You might just see that there are people just like you out there.

Sexual

Never have I ever kissed a girl.

Never have I ever kissed a boy.

Never have I ever received/given a blowjob, hand job, eating out.

Never have I ever had sex.

Never have I ever fallen in love.

Never have I ever cheated on someone.

Never have I ever been cheated on.

Life

Never have I ever gotten into a fight.

Never have I ever done something illegal.

Never have I ever gotten wasted.

Never have I ever used an illegal drug.

Never have I ever snuck out.

Never have I ever stolen something.

Never have I ever vandalized something.

Never have I ever lost a family member due to death.

Never have I ever been in a life or death situation.

Never have I ever been arrested.

Never have I ever been fired from a job.

Emotions

Never have I ever been kept up at night due to guilt.

Never have I ever laughed so hard I cried.

Never have I ever been abused physically.

Never have I ever cried myself to sleep.

Never have I ever wished that I was someone else.

Never have I ever wanted to kill myself.

Never have I ever tried to kill myself.

Never have I ever felt like an outcast.

Never have I ever wanted to do something just so I would fit in.

Friendships

Never have I ever ruined my friendship with someone.

Never have I ever had a friend leave me for other people.

Never have I ever been kicked out of a friend group.

Never have I ever wanted to fuck one of my friends.

Never have I ever been friendless.

School

Never have I ever failed a test.

Never have I ever cut class.

Never have I ever had to eat alone.

Never have I ever failed a course.

Never have I ever been suspended.

Never have I ever received detention.

Never have I ever dropped out of school.

#j;about

I'm here for a little while today if anyone would like to RP or answer the starter I just posted.

#ooc-ish #i really hope someone will reply to it..#it took me forever to come up with it

Bad Decisions --

Junhong always seemed to be up much earlier than the test of his neighborhood. He always awoke at 3:30 in the morning, even on weekends, especially on holidays, to the sound of his alarm calling for him to wake. He hated the way that the public judged him. The way they judged what he wore, how his hair fell into his eyes in just the slightest sense, how the words fell from his lips, much too quiet for many's taste. He hated the way that he was never able to dress how he liked, how he had to create another side to himself called Zelo just to fit into the outside world, just to appease others.

Moreover, he hated himself: the way his ears were either hanging too low, or the way he had to force them into a beanie and be in discomfort the whole day. He especially hated how his mind was. He hated that he could never keep someone. He always screwed things over in any way he could. He fell for the wrong person, he confessed when he should've kept quiet. He always managed to lose everyone around him somehow.

But he never was surprised anymore. He was accustomed to being alone. Being left by himself to his own devices, to being forced to hold everything in by himself.

His mind wasn't in the right sense these days, filled with worries, hurt, and mostly, he was confused.

It shown today as he took the wrong road. He was terrified of vehicles, more of anything larger than himself. He hated that too. He knew he was going the wrong way, doing the wrong thing by not turning around. He was already running late to open his store and fill the display cases.

He knew he had made a terrible mistake when he felt his back hunch, drawing himself inward at another presence, and he knew it wasn't going to be good.

He was right as he was thrown into a wall, his head cracking at the force, already soaking the back of his beanie in blood. There was four of them. He knew he wouldn't be able to handle them all, but maybe he could escape. Maybe.

He waited, let them throw their fists at his face and stomach, his skin throbbing at the pain, and he knew he had a split lip, a couple of his teeth were knocked loose, and he found himself holding his stomach, doubled over. But he had to wait.

When the strangers turned away, teasing and boasting about finding someone 'pretty', he took his chance. He darted, ignoring the pain in his stomach and face long enough to run, thinking he had hidden from the strangers.

But he was wrong.

He had stopped on the sidewalk, looking around, trying to find his bearings and where exactly he was when it hit him.

The impact knocked the breath out of him, tearing the skin on his left side as he was dragged by the vehicle's tires. The pain was excruciating, but he was too far in shock, and as soon as he was hit, the vehicle left.

That's when everything went black.

He awoke a short time later. His vision was cloudy at best, unable to concentrate. The room was so cold, so uninviting, and there was something sharp poking at his skin. He couldn't tell where.

It was black again.

Judging by the clock, it's been hours since the incident. His head was pounding, locked in a neck brace and tube forced down his throat. He could faintly hear the beeps of at least four machines, but the way they filled his peripheral, there was many more.

His legs were raised in the air, hooked to their own machines and wrapped in bandages. He faintly remembers the words 'amputate' before he was gone again.

He couldn't seem to feel anything, but it hurt. Everything hurt so much, and he just wanted to sleep again.

A faint ringing sounded through the room, but he couldn't reach his own cell phone, it laying on the table beside him. He wondered if anyone had been trying to contact him, but it was a stupid question.

He knew he had no one.

#j;para #j;starter #you can either just read it or reply if you'd like to

HIATUS - ♔

Due to unnecessary drama and my own stupidity, I'll be taking a hiatus. I'm unsure if I will return at this point. I have sent a message to my directory letting them know of my decision.

If I don't, those close to me will receive a message. Thank you all for putting up with me.

#j;hiatus