He is really gone
I'm not sure if I can put everything in my head in words. But I guess I have been in denial about Liam's death. Couldn't or wouldn't believe it and I know more people had that feeling. The first reality check was seeing a gif in which the age of the other boys (actually men) got higher and higher. His just stayed the same. I know death means someone will not get older but until then I hadn't thought about it. I don't have friends or people I know who were fan or are fan of One Direction. So that's why I'm posting again.
One day I will be older than he ever got to be. That's just crazy to think about. I'm glad it wasn't this year. For everyone who did get older than him this year, I'm so sorry. My birthday was this month and that also made me realize. In two years I will be one year older than him. He will be forever young but nobody wanted that for him. And I don't know why that lyric keeps popping up in my head. I also see him in my head as that young boy in his X-factor journey who didn't have a clue what was all going to happen. Couldn't listen to him about the letter who write for his younger self. It feels so weird he won't be doing anything anymore ever again. I hope his family, friends, the boys, Cheryl and his son got some closure today. It's freaking hard to lose someone you care about and love. The news in my country called the boys his colleagues and I would like to believe they considered him a friend. Not only a colleague. Not sure how to end this. I hope every fan got some closure today too. It's such a cliche but please care for yourself and be kind to yourself. Life is short like Liam's death proves yet again unfortunately. Maybe we can make the world a bit of a better place for ourselves and the people we love and care for.
